The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 666 There Is No God In This World

But at the beginning, I was always trying to keep Fanyin alive, and I often felt confused in my heart. I often couldn't feel the happiness of being alive, and I always felt that my life was nothingness at all.

Sometimes I think it's good to be alive, but sometimes, I don't resist the sudden accident that kills me.Just like although my current symptoms may be related to abnormal pregnancy or tumors, etc., I don't want to know about it in advance and prepare for it-death, in the eyes of some people, is full of horror, but in the eyes of others, it is Represents ultimate peace.

She didn't hand it to me until the box was ready, and said with a smile, "I don't know if you like it or not."

I took it, because I was distracted just now, and now I noticed that it turned out to be a "Bible".

I asked, "Whose book is this?" The box was to be imitated, so what I unpacked was a real book, and it didn't look like a new one, it looked like an old one.

"Don't worry, it's mine." She smiled and said, "My dad said you wanted a Bible to make it, and I don't have any use for it either."

I asked, "Are you also religious?"

"I was forced to be baptized not long after I was born." She said, "But I don't believe it anymore. There is no God in this world."

When I think of her age, I feel sad again.

In her early twenties, if a woman is like a flower, she has not yet opened and is still covered with dew, but has already been picked and destroyed.

I said, "Maybe you haven't prayed enough. You have to accumulate a certain number of badges to get the discount coupons in the supermarket."

She smiled immediately, but if you look closely, you can see that her eyes are not smiling all the time.No, it can't be said that she didn't smile, but she was a little absent-minded. She said, "Then I will try to pray a few more times when I go back."

I don't know what to say anymore. Ever since I knew about this, my heart feels like a big stone has been stuffed into my heart. I can't help but think of the first time I saw her. At that time, she was the same as Nian Nian now. Big, is a smart and energetic little girl, she called the bunny "Jerry" like a dog, and proudly showed me her driving skills.Although she made me a little embarrassed, she was alive and well at that time.

In the past few years, I often can't help but think about the first half of my life. Perhaps it is more appropriate to call it life.

Many people and things in my life have changed, the leopard named "Cherry" is dead, and the stars have grown up scarred from a little naughty girl, who is sitting in front of me dignifiedly, smiling Tell me there is no God in this world.

And Nian Nian, I can still clearly recall the way she was breastfeeding in my arms, huddled in my arms, I can really feel happy when I look at her, and Yin Yin , because Fanyin frightened her, she often cried all night, but now she has grown up a lot, and in the near future, like Niannian, she will have her own clear position and ideas.

regarding me.

By then, I'd probably be buried.

I think about it so much because I've gotten bored in the last few months.

Bored, I read all the books I could get on the bookshelf. The bookshelf is very high. I wanted to use the ladder, but the housekeeper kept trying to refuse me.

Although Britney brought a TV and games, but the TV can only play that one game, and there is no other content in the console, it is really boring to always play this game, not to mention that I don't like playing games anymore.

Fanyin didn't come, but Xiao Tiantian still came to see me often, and she still accompanied me to eat, chat, and bask in the sun.He told me that old man Fan has been busy arranging the wedding of Lin Zhunyi and Fan Xing recently, and he always wants to try the mess left by me and old man Fan.But I knew that Xiaotiantian's chess skills were not very good, and I was not willing to let him easily lose to Heizi, so I didn't agree.

In my impression, Xing Xing has already seen the wedding dress, and when she came last time, I was not in a good mood, and secondly, I was always repulsed to mention their wedding-related matters, so I forgot to ask about the wedding The specific date, at least two and a half months have passed, and it is still being arranged.

I asked Xiao Tiantian, and he scratched his head and said, "I don't know, it seems that Xingxing's father may not be able to get married now."

I asked, "Xing Xing's father?"

"Hmm..." he said, "My dad said he was also his son. Hey, my dad is always confused, and he speaks upside down. I was also confused by him."

I have never confronted Xiao Tiantian about this, and he didn't take the initiative to ask. I think it is enough to communicate. Anyway, he is either confused or lying.

I checked again: "It was your father who said that Xing Xing's father is not allowed to get married now?"

"That's right, the wedding was already booked." He said, "She even invited me."

"Oh."

Why did Fanyin suddenly change his mind?Could it be that because of his rich experience, he saw the abnormality of the stars?Apparently the stars are covering up, and many people with depression do.

However, I still feel a little relieved.

As I was about to speak, I suddenly felt a burst of belching for no reason, and I couldn't help covering my chest.

"Honey," Xiao Tiantian asked with concern, "Are you okay?"

"I am fine."

"You always hold your heart like this." He said worriedly, "Is it hurting?"

"No." I pointed it out to him, "It's belching, I didn't cover my heart."

"Oh." His expression became a little more relaxed: "But belching is also very sad, right?"

"fine."

"Should I ask my dad to call the doctor?" he said, "You're always belching and you've been in a bad mood lately."

"I'm fine," I said, "I just feel sleepy a lot, and nothing bad happens."

He nodded and asked again: "Then wife, do you have a baby?"

I looked him in the eyes and asked, "Why do you feel that way?"

"I found out about your symptoms online." He said innocently, "It is said that you may have a baby."

I asked, "Did you ask your family doctor?"

"No, you don't want to see the doctor all the time, and of course I won't betray them." He said like a child who has done something wrong, "Don't worry, I'm not stupid."

Last month, I also suspected that I was pregnant for a few days, but I kept vomiting and vomiting in the first two pregnancies, but this time I only vomited the last time, and sometimes there was no belching.And if I'm pregnant, I should be able to see a little bit this month, but my lower abdomen is still flat, and there is no slight stretching pain in my stomach that only happens when I am pregnant.Not only these two things, but since Fanyin came last time, my messy discomfort has become much less.

And most importantly, in the past three months, not only have my periods come, but they are also rarely so stable.

Although he was a bit stupid, he knew that pregnancy would cause menopause, so I gave him a simple explanation, and he stopped questioning it.

Then we had dinner together. Before he left, I asked, "How is Xing Xing?"

"It's good." He said, "She's been with Nian Nian recently."

"Oh." I asked, "What about Nian Nian?"

"It's fine, she doesn't pay much attention to me." He pouted.

I asked, "Is that Yinyin back?"

He shook his head.

"Oh."

He blinked and said nothing.

I thought about it and asked, "Can you let your father come?"

"Why?" he asked.

"I want to go out and see the sun." I said, "It's too boring to be here every day."

He agreed, but he never came back, and I waited for more than a week and still no one came.

It seemed that it was not approved, not only that, but even he was not allowed to come.

On this day, after a lot of effort, I finally moved the solid wood desk under the bookshelf, and put a chair on it, so that I can read the books in the top rows.As soon as I climbed up, there was the sound of the door opening behind me. I was about to turn my head when a familiar voice came from over there: "It's me."

I knew without looking back that it was Fanyin.

He added: "Don't move, I'll go over."

Although my physical fitness is no longer suitable for flying, this altitude is no problem for me, but obviously Fanyin doesn't think so, his tone is very gentle, as if he is afraid of alarming me.

He quickly came over and climbed onto the desk, stretched out his hand towards me, and said, "Come on, I'll carry you down."

"It's just in time." I took out the book from the shelf, handed it to him and said, "Help me take it down."

With helplessness on his face, he pursed his lips and said, "Take less."

The bad thing about my thinking is that I can't get too many books by crawling around. It's different when he is here, so I naturally have to put more books.

But Fanyin quickly said, "Enough is enough, don't take it."

"Only five." I said, "I'll finish reading it in a week."

"You'll be here for less than a week," he said. "Come with me on Saturday to Singapore."

I looked at him, "What are you going to do in Singapore?"

"My sister is in Singapore." He bent down and threw the book in his arms on the table, then reached out to me, and said, "Come down first, I don't want to chat with you like this."

I said, "Get out of the way, I'll go down by myself."

He scowled and said, "Don't challenge my patience any more."

Since I dared to climb, I had a solid foundation in my heart. I was really annoyed by his attitude of treating me like a patient.

But there is no need to quarrel with him again because of this kind of thing. It is good to go to Singapore. He will imprison me for more than two months like this. I am really bored to death.

I had no choice but to bend down and open my arms, he put his arms around my waist, slowly carried me down, then let go and jumped to the ground, and carried me down again, his movements were as careful as a piece of porcelain.

When I saw this, although I felt that he was unnecessary, I still said, "Thank you."

He seemed to want to lose his temper. He just squinted his eyes, then turned around as if someone was forcing him. After a while, he walked to the sofa and sat down. When he was much calmer, he said, "Come here."

I sat down across from him and asked, "What are you doing in Singapore?"

(End of this chapter)