i loved you so much

Chapter 12 You are in my heart (1)
After the National Day, there were several rains in Wucheng one after another, one layer of autumn rain and another layer of coolness. An Xiaoduo wore a long-sleeved shirt and a cardigan sweater over it. The wind blew on the road and still felt chilly.

She arrived at Shengshi Guangnian's mansion, and met Chu Kui who was coming to work at the door, and she checked the time: "Are you late?"

Chu Kui smiled indifferently: "Don't you know that photographers don't have to be on duty? Why are you here alone?"

"Miss He asked me to communicate with your editor."

"What? Is there a sensitive issue?"

"There are some borderlines. Ms. He pays more attention to personal privacy."

"It's just right, I'm going to get a sample too." The two walked into the elevator one after the other, and Chu Kui pressed the floor, "I heard that it was our editor-in-chief who persuaded her to accept the invitation?"

"Yes, two calls a day."

"Why does she dislike our magazine so much?"

"No, she has no holiday with Shengshi Guangnian, and she has friendship with Mr. Tang, so it was a matter of time before she refused."

"I don't think it's that simple. Have you ever heard of the name He Amber?"

An Xiaoduo shook her head: "Who is it?"

"He Bixi's sister, she participated in several movies and filmed some commercials in the early years, but then she stopped acting for some reason."

An Xiaoduo remembered what Old Tang said that day: "So?"

"He Amber and Tang Junnian were rumored to be married, and they broke up suddenly. There are two kinds of rumors in the world. One is that Mrs. Tang failed the test, and the other is that Tang Junnian cheated on her. Anyway, it ended up being very unpleasant. I Guess it was for this reason that He Bixi refused to accept Shengshi Guangnian's invitation."

"How long have you been here, talking about the gossip about the big boss is like seeing it with your own eyes."

"I've heard it too, but there's a saying that goes like this—where there is no wind, there is no wave. He Bixi is indeed not very willing to pay attention to us."

An Xiaoduo smiled slightly, and before she could speak, Chu Kui quickly changed the subject: "By the way, I'm here, I'm calling Shang Ben, and we'll have lunch together at noon."

An Xiaoduo smiled wryly: "I said, do you really want me to make a pair with him?"

Chu Kui pursed her lips: "You don't know, he has talked about you several times in front of me, he is quite sincere, you just treat him like an ordinary friend."

"Are there any other options?"

"Which type do you like?"

"Handsome, this is a must."

Chu Kui smirked: "You nympho, can a handsome man be eaten?"

"No, but it's better for me to eat well with handsome guys. If I eat well, my health will be good. This is related to health issues, so don't be careless."

"Don't be so talkative, let's be serious, Ben isn't ugly either."

An Xiaoduo said solemnly: "I'm doing it for his own good. If I'm not interested in others, don't go back and forth. The nonsense that you can be friends if you can't be a lover is a lie. You Look at me and Qiao Ke, I'm avoiding him now, I can't stand another Ben, what if I make him fall into lovesickness?"

Chu Kui laughed and hit her: "Don't be so cute, you are a fairy."

An Xiaoduo raised her chin with a smile: "You must be worthy of the audience."

Today, because she was going to meet the person in charge of Shengshi, she put on light makeup, a thin layer of orange rouge on her cheeks, and lipstick, looking full of vitality.

Chu Kui saw that her condition improved after working, and she became more cheerful, so she was very happy for her. When the two were whispering in each other's ears, the floor arrived, and the elevator door opened with a ding, and they parted ways in the office lobby. Xiaoduo went to the editor's office.

Talking to the editor-in-chief of the magazine about the outline of next week's interview, it was almost noon, An Xiaoduo met Chu Kui at the door, and went to a nearby restaurant for dinner.

Chu Kui got a call on the road, hung up, and said to An Xiaoduo, "Yu Zhangwen knows we're together, and wants to invite us to dinner, is that okay?"

"casual."

The restaurant was very lively at this time, they arrived first, Chu Kui ordered a few dishes, before Yu Zhangwen arrived, An Xiaoduo asked her: "Have you promised Yu Zhangwen?"

Chu Kui shook her head: "I really can't make up my mind. In fact, it's pretty good now."

"Chu Kui, you don't fear marriage, do you?"

There was a trace of bitterness in Chu Kui's smile: "I'm afraid of his sister."

"His sister has also returned to China? What about his brother-in-law?" An Xiaoduo vaguely remembered that Yu Zhangwen's brother-in-law seemed to be British, much older than his sister.

"His brother-in-law died of illness five years ago, and his sister did not remarry. Now that she is in this situation, it is impossible to leave her alone in England." Chu Kui turned the silver bracelet on her wrist and said, "Yu Zhangwen always said His sister's life is hard, and he owes her. Their parents died early back then. In order to take care of Yu Zhangwen, his sister found an old man who was more than 20 years older than himself as a financial backer. From his brother-in-law."

"He didn't spend much money at school back then."

"He thought it was his sister's selling money. After being together for so many years, he gave me this—" Chu Kui raised his left hand and shook the silver bracelet. I bought it. I didn’t want money, otherwise I wouldn’t have chosen him, do you know how I started with him?”

"Didn't he chase you?"

"He chased me. At the beginning, he gave me boiled water for a whole year and I didn't agree. Then one Christmas, he called me and said he was waiting for me downstairs in the dormitory. He had something to give me. , let me go down for a while. I said I went to bed, told him to go back quickly, and then turned off the phone. But the next day a buddy in his dormitory came to scold me, saying that I was cold-blooded, heartless, and I didn’t know Yu Zhangwen actually stood downstairs all night. On a winter night in December, I really admired him. And you know, Yu Zhangwen’s winter coat has been worn for many years, and it looks like it will tear if it is washed. , He stood all night and then collapsed, I had no choice but to go to see him, I couldn’t bear to see his pitiful appearance, I took care of him for a few days, and I just took care of him.”

"Chu Kui, this is fate."

"It's fate. Yu Zhangwen didn't meet my requirements for finding a boyfriend, but I just found him. It's been so many years in a daze."

"You hate him for one thing and that for another, but you still hate him in your heart." An Xiaoduo said to her, "Chu Kui, what's the problem now?"

Chu Kui was silent for a while, and said: "His sister didn't like me very much. She thought I spent money lavishly and was not considerate enough to Yu Zhangwen. She would be upset if Yu Zhangwen ate my leftovers and bought me breakfast. In the past, Yu Zhangwen would protect me. Me, speak for me, but now he dare not fart in front of his sister. Once I went to his house, opened the door and went in, just in time to hear them chatting in the room, and his sister kept talking about me, None of them were good words, some of them were obviously made up by her to talk nonsense about me, yet Yu Zhangwen just listened quietly and didn't defend me a single word."

An Xiaoduo frowned, thinking that Chu Kui was so arrogant, how could she bear this?
"When Yu Zhangwen returned to China this time, his sister originally disagreed, and later I don't know how Yu Zhangwen moved her. Both of them came back and rented a two-bedroom house in the west of the city. Now Yu Zhangwen plans to find a nanny to take care of her at home. His sister, I will accompany him to the housekeeping company after work these days."

"Is there anyone interested in that?"

"It's not that easy. It sounds like it's taking care of paralyzed patients. It either raises the price or says it can't be done. In addition, Yu Zhangwen has to pick and choose. Now even if he is willing to spend a lot of money, he can't hire it."

An Xiaoduo was curious: "What did he choose? Isn't it just a nanny?"

Chu Kui sneered: "He said that love comes from the heart, and he requires the nanny to be kind-hearted and soft-spoken. If he is capable, he thinks that she is aggressive, but if he is honest, he thinks that his work is not smooth, and he is worried that he will not be able to take care of his sister. You Isn’t this contradictory? If a person can really do everything, why come to be a nanny and serve his sister to eat and drink?”

An Xiaoduo also found it unbelievable, but considering the relationship between Yu Zhangwen and his sister, it was inevitable that she would be more nervous and careful, so she said, "Forget it, just let him go, after all, he is the closest person to him."

"I'm relying on him. I'm not so ignorant. I'm still very touched when he gave up his job in the UK and came back to me. His sister called me to dinner that day and asked me how long I was going to drag Yu Zhangwen on like this. .”

"what do you say?"

Chu Kui shook her head and poured herself a cup of tea: "Xiaoduo, I'm a little scared."

Chu Kui seldom has such a weak side, An Xiaoduo looked at her distressedly: "Don't worry about what his sister says, the key is you, you have to figure it out yourself."

"I know very well in my heart that Yu Zhangwen ranks his sister first, and no matter how important I am, I am second." Chu Kui smiled at An Xiaoduo, "But even so, I still can't bear Yu Zhangwen. When we are together, I don't feel like , but as soon as we parted, I always thought about his well-being. I will never forget that when I was studying, he fetched water for me every day, ran with me early in the morning, bought rice balls and soy milk for me, and once I was sick, he asked for leave to take care of me. He even washed my underwear for me, and I didn’t sleep well for a while, and he would help me heat a cup of milk and put it on the bedside table every night... I’m used to having him by my side.”

An Xiaoduo's nose turned sore when she heard this: "Chu Kui, actually you love him very much, otherwise you wouldn't care about these little things."

"Yeah, so I was very afraid that he would leave without a word. Once he went out with me, and he disappeared as soon as he turned around. I called him and he didn't answer. Later, I found him and asked him how he answered. He said that he suddenly panicked and rushed back to see if his sister had fallen at home. Since his sister's accident, he has been so supernatural."

An Xiaoduo was about to say something, when Chu Kui looked over her head, she turned her head and saw Yu Zhangwen hurried in.

Approaching their table, Yu Zhangwen said: "Xiaoduo, I haven't seen you for so many years, you are still so beautiful! I told Chu Kui to ask you out for dinner a few days ago, but she said you went to Yandao, Are you busy recently?"

An Xiaoduo smiled at him: "I was busy a while ago, but it's okay now, you should sit down quickly, the dishes are almost ready."

An Xiaoduo's impression of him has always been before he left the country. Seeing him again after so many years, she suddenly had a feeling that her memory had been refreshed.In addition to the great change in dressing style, Yu Zhangwen even has a different temperament.The previous Yu Zhangwen always looked melancholy and dull, and he hardly took the initiative to greet people. She could imagine that if it was the previous Yu Zhangwen, his opening remarks would only be four words—long time no see.

Yu Zhangwen sat down beside Chu Kui, and glanced at the dishes on the table: "Just order this few? Xiaoduo, don't be polite to me, just order whatever you like."

An Xiaoduo smiled and said, "This is enough."

The three of them started to move their chopsticks, talking a few words from time to time.An Xiaoduo saw that Yu Zhangwen was still very careful with Chu Kui, and she didn't eat much, so she helped her serve soup for a while, and brought her vegetables for a while, and when she came out after eating, Chu Kui just said that the food was too salty, Yu Zhangwen immediately went to the next door To buy drinks from the store, he bought An Xiaoduo a cup of freshly squeezed juice. Chu Kui was about to have her period, so Yu Zhangwen didn't let her drink cold drinks, so he brought her a cup of hot milk tea.

An Xiaoduo drank the juice silently, thinking: No wonder Chu Kui couldn't let go, Yu Zhangwen might be more nervous about his sister, but she still has Chu Kui in her heart, otherwise she wouldn't even remember when she came to her aunt.

There was still a little time before work in the afternoon. Yu Zhangwen and Chu Kui planned to go to the housekeeping company again. She took a taxi back to the set by herself and received a call from Aunt Cen on the way.

"Xiaoduo, is it convenient to talk now?"

An Xiaoduo hurriedly said, "It's convenient, Auntie, what's the matter?"

Aunt Cen's voice was full of anxiety: "Xiao'an is not doing well these days, can you come over?"

An Xiaoduo was anxious: "What happened to him?"

"I've been having a low-grade fever for several days, and I'm not allowed to call a doctor. If this continues, I'm worried that his body will really collapse..."

"I'll go right now."

"We're at the villa by the lake."

An Xiaoduo was startled: "Why did you go there?"

"It's not because of that Qin Zheng, who came here under the guise of visiting a doctor every day. I can see that Xiao An bothered her and blocked her a few times, but she still didn't give up. Later, the old lady found out somehow and wanted him Go here to rest."

An Xiaoduo was silent for a while, and said, "Auntie, I won't go over there, in case Mrs. Tang finds out..."

Aunt Cen was in a hurry: "No, the old lady comes here at most once a week, and she just came here yesterday...Xiaoduo, Xiaoan was in a daze with a fever last night, and she was still calling your name."

An Xiaoduo's heart seemed to tremble: "Okay."

Although she was afraid of seeing Mrs. Tang, she weighed it up and felt that Li Xiaoan was more important.Thinking of Tang Junnian's mother, she shuddered. That woman was as noble as a queen, and she always looked at her with scrutiny, as if she was checking for fleas on a stray animal.

After re-reporting the destination with the driver, she called Tracy to ask for leave, and Tracy reluctantly agreed, telling her to come to the set on time tomorrow.The crew came back from Yandao three days ago, because He Bixi was going to fly to Hong Kong to attend a charity gala on the weekend, so they were hurrying to catch up with the show these days.

The lakeside villas are a resort area developed by the Tang Group on the shore of Molan Lake. It is surrounded by mountains and rivers, with beautiful scenery and a quiet environment. It is like a paradise. It is an excellent summer resort, but it is only open to members of the Tang Group business.

Li Xiaoan has a two-story villa there, but he is busy with work and rarely goes to live in it. The villa is often vacant, and only Auntie Cen goes to take care of it on a regular basis.A long time ago, Li Xiaoan took her and Yuan Yuan there.

It was already evening when An Xiaoduo arrived at the shore of Molan Lake, thanks to her good memory, she didn't make many detours, otherwise it wouldn't be dark.She got out of the car and walked in along the winding cobblestone path beside the lotus pond. Behind the lush trees was a small western-style building with red walls and green tiles. When she went up the stone steps, she rang the doorbell, and after a while Aunt Cen came out and opened the door for her: "Xiaoduo, you are finally here!"

"What about Xiaoan and others?"

"He fell asleep in the room, and the fever still persisted. I forced him to eat a few mouthfuls of food at noon, but he vomited it all up."

An Xiaoduo entered the room, put the satchel on the sofa and went upstairs.Aunt Cen held her back, turned around and went to the kitchen to take out a serving plate with a bowl of hot porridge and a medicine box on it.

Looking at the full four-compartment medicine box, she couldn't help frowning: "Do I have to take so much at once?"

"The doctor prescribed it. With this amount, you have to eat it three times a day."

An Xiaoduo herself has been afraid of taking medicine since she was a child. No matter how small a pill is swallowed, it will get stuck in her throat, and she can't swallow it or spit it out.When she was sick before, it was Li Xiaoan who coaxed her to take medicine. He took a spoon to scoop up some water, melted the pills, and put one arm around her to keep her immobile. Feed the potion in with one hand, and feed her some honey water when her facial features are wrinkled.Sometimes she played a prank by pushing away the honey water that was brought up, leaning her mouth to kiss him, prying his lips and teeth with the tip of her tongue and driving straight in, kissing until his eyes, nose and mouth wrinkled together before letting go of him with a successful smirk.

When she walked to his room, she lightly pressed her hand, the room was very dark, she felt a little uncomfortable for a moment, and after waiting for a few seconds, she walked in lightly, even though the movement was already very light, there was still a thick layer on the ground. The thick carpet, but the person on the bed was still disturbed, he had always been a light sleeper.

"Who?" He recognized that it wasn't Aunt Cen.

An Xiaoduo felt a little uncomfortable when he heard that his voice was so hoarse. She put the things on the bedside table and said softly, "It's me."

He was silent, and raised his hand to turn on the light, but she pressed his hand: "Don't turn it on, you will be unhappy to see me again."

"Then what are you doing here? Aren't you making fun of yourself?"

An Xiaoduo remained silent, and said in her heart: I know you are duplicity.

After a short silence, she picked up the boiled water on the bedside table and asked him, "Do you want some water?"

He didn't say a word, and after a while he said, "I didn't even know you were so thick-skinned."

"It was all forced out by you." She came all the way, a little thirsty, took a sip of water secretly, and couldn't help looking at the bottom of the glass after swallowing it.

"Added glucose."

She was startled, and said falteringly, "You... how do you know? It's so dark in the room..."

"I can hear very well."

Now that he knew, she didn't care anymore. She drank the water in the cup, then poured a cup from the kettle and put it back: "I couldn't see before, and I was very scared in my heart, and I was afraid that I would never recover. But I It's not that I'm afraid of anything else, at that time all I thought was that if my eyes didn't heal, I'd never see you again."

She seemed to be talking to herself, and the man on the bed ignored her for a long time.She was very frustrated, and suddenly heard him say softly: "If it wasn't for that injury, Qiao Ke sent you back, would you go back to Wucheng by yourself? Didn't you send that package to die with me?"

An Xiaoduo whispered, "I didn't send that package."

"You wrote the words."

An Xiaoduo took a deep breath: "Yes, I wrote it...but I really didn't send it." She finished writing, hid it in a box and was reluctant to send it out. Later, she was injured and hospitalized, and Qiao Ke helped her sort it out. Things, saw it, and sent it out without telling her.

"You ran away from me two years ago, and I told myself that I would never be soft on this person again."

When An Xiaoduo saw him mentioning the old things, the ripples in his heart swelled.The reason why she left without saying goodbye two years ago was not only because she didn't want to quarrel with him every day, but also because she didn't know how to face him.

I still remember that day, she had been kneeling in the study all night, and he went into the study to get things before going to court, ignoring her pleas.At that time, fear seized all her thoughts, and she couldn't spare a single bit of space to think about other things. When everything was settled, when she faced him again, she would always involuntarily think of the way she knelt in front of him and begged him. He was so humble, like a little demon in the world, but he was so high and cold as a god, when she was praying to him, he kicked her away mercilessly.

Has he ever really softened his heart?She didn't know, and she didn't want to delve into it.

When the lights finally turned on, Li Xiaoan's eyes fell on her face, perhaps because he was ill, his eyes were not as indifferent and indifferent as usual.

He seemed to want to say something, but when he stood up he coughed violently.

An Xiaoduo hurriedly grabbed the pillow next to him and put it behind his back, making him sit comfortably. When he got better, she picked up the bowl of porridge and stirred it twice to let the heat dissipate faster: "Aunt Cen said You didn't eat much at noon, eat a little now, and you will take medicine later."

She took a spoonful and brought it to his mouth.

He looked at her and opened his mouth for a long while.

A small bowl of porridge was fed for more than half of it, and when there was one third left, Li Xiaoan turned his face away and shook his head.

An Xiaoduo had no choice but to put it away: "Take a rest before taking medicine."

(End of this chapter)