i loved you so much

Chapter 8 What Happiness Looks Like (1)
After finishing work that day, An Xiaoduo braved the rain to go to Chu Kui's dinner.

Chu Kui has always been very particular about eating, and this time he must have discovered something good again.With this in mind, she walked into the restaurant where she met, and wondered for a moment if she had gone to the wrong place.This small restaurant is ordinary both outside and inside, and it doesn't even hang a decent plaque. There is only a small blackboard standing in the open space a few steps in, with the words "private kitchen" written crookedly on the blackboard. Character.

Chu Kui arrived early and sat at a small table near the air outlet of the air conditioner. She was not alone, and there was a man sitting beside her, who An Xiaoduo also knew.

An Xiaoduo walked over and said with a smile, "Sorry, I'm late."

"It's okay, we came early." Ben responded gently.Today he is wearing a pair of black-rimmed glasses, a white T-shirt and jeans, like a college student.

Chu Kui glanced and frowned: "Why is it so dusty?"

An Xiaoduo came directly from the location, her hair was a little messed up by the wind, she was wearing an ordinary white shirt and black pants, and she accidentally rubbed dust on her trousers when she got off the taxi.

Chu Kui poured her a cup of barley tea: "Ben is going to make a food topic, and I'll come over to help try the dishes. Don't think this restaurant is unremarkable, the dishes are very special."

"Yeah, we were still discussing this just now, Chu Kui said that you have a picky mouth, and it's just a matter of raising your opinion."

"Then I'm lucky." She noticed that Chu Kui was wearing a hand-embossed silver bracelet on her wrist. The bracelet was a bit wide, making Chu Kui's already slender wrist even more slender.

An Xiaoduo looked familiar, so she couldn't help but take a few more glances.

Chu Kui caught her gaze and said, "The old one."

After a meal, the atmosphere was quite lively, but most of the time it was Chu Kui and Ben who were chatting. They were both very talkative and good at creating atmosphere. The plate of candied sweet potatoes on the table was completely eaten.

After dinner, Chu Kui received a call and left in a hurry. Ben insisted on seeing An Xiaoduo off, but she refused but had to let him go.

As soon as she got in the car, a text message came in on her mobile phone. She took it out to read, and Ben turned to help her fasten her seat belt. She hurriedly said, "I'll do it myself."

Ben smiled and drove on the road.

"Actually, I can just take a taxi by myself, and you are not on the way."

"It's my honor to send you home. Besides, on a typhoon day, you're so thin, it's not safe to go back alone."

She couldn't help laughing: "Could it be that the typhoon can still blow me away?"

"Don't laugh, it is said that the eight-level wind can blow people away."

The two joked about the typhoon, tacitly did not mention the unhappiness they had last time.

Soon at the gate of the community, An Xiaoduo took off her seat belt and was about to get out of the car, but was stopped by Ben: "Xiaoduo, are we friends now?"

An Xiaoduo nodded.

"Then do I have a chance?"

An Xiaoduo looked at him: "We can be ordinary friends."

A look of frustration crossed Ben's face: "Can you tell me the reason? Do you have a boyfriend?"

She thought for a while and said, "I have someone in my heart, and I think I can't forget him in a short time."

"Are you honest, is that the man that day?"

An Xiaoduo didn't say a word, which in Ben's view was a tacit agreement.

"Thank you for your frankness, I understand." The man's appearance and demeanor were beyond his reach, and Ben felt better when he thought about it.

After An Xiaoduo took a shower, she sat at the desk to surf the Internet and watch the news. Chu Kui's avatar on the QQ friend bar lit up.

"What kind of old man are you doing?" she sent.

Chu Kui came back quickly: "Did you go back so early? Didn't you go for a drive around Huanhai Road with Ben?"

"I'm not calling him."

"Who are you calling? Li Xiaoan?"

The first time she saw this name, she felt a slight pain in her heart. Last night, she went crazy with alcohol, and he was probably going crazy.

"Ben is a good person, his family background is simple, and he takes care of his family. He goes home to visit his parents every weekend, so he can give him a chance."

"I made it very clear to him."

"So straightforward, no chance at all?"

She didn't reply, and after a while Chu Kui said again: "Sister, don't be so stubborn, give up one tree, and you will own the whole forest."

She smiled desolately, but Chu Kui didn't know that she was stuck in the swamp of feelings, and there was no chance of getting out two years ago.

Opening the QQ interface, she went to look at the tree that trapped her. She hadn't seen him light up in the past two years—for a while, Li Xiaoan worked overtime frequently, so she downloaded the QQ software on his mobile phone and applied for a number for him. , keep him online all day.

"Why don't you just call?" He typed impatiently.

"What's the same? Look at how busy you are all day. You're either in a meeting or seeing the litigator. I can't call you at any time, but if I miss you, I can see you online when I turn on the phone. I feel that the distance will be closer." a little."

Li Xiaoan laughed at her for being childish, but also insisted that she opened QQ all day long, he never set it as invisible, anyway, she was the only one in the friend list.

Chu Kui's head flickered again, interrupting her thoughts——

"Ben called me, what the hell did you say to him, the boy is depressed..."

An Xiaoduo's hand caressed her collarbone and inadvertently touched the platinum ring hanging around her neck. She hesitated for a moment and asked Chu Kui, "Have you reconciled with Yu Zhangwen?"

After waiting for a while, Chu Kui's reply was long overdue: "Because of that silver bracelet? You have a really good memory. You still remember it after all these years."

The silver bracelet with the elephant carved was a birthday gift from Yu Zhangwen to Chu Kui many years ago. Chu Kui has always worn it on her body, so An Xiaoduo has a deep memory. She actually recognized it at a glance when she was eating today, but Ben was there , she was too embarrassed to ask more questions.

"Is that true reconciliation?"

"Well, two days ago he made a special trip back to China to find me. I thought he was sincere, so I forgave him."

"That's right, there is no big issue between you, just communicate well and you will be fine."

"Not so optimistic. Even if he is willing to come to Wucheng to work for me, and his sister, he will definitely take her over."

"So?" An Xiaoduo didn't understand.

"Oh, it's hard to say, let's talk about it next time we meet."

An Xiaoduo sent her an OK emoji. After waiting for a while, there was no movement from Chu Kui's side, and the profile picture dimmed, probably because she was offline.

So she turned off QQ, forced herself to get into work quickly, and started translating the manuscript.In the past two months, although the combined income of full-time and part-time jobs is still considerable, but the expenses are not small, she has saved a lot of money, but every time she goes to the bank to transfer money at the end of the month, she still feels powerless. Get a taste of poverty.

An Xiaoduo didn't come from a wealthy family, but her mother protected her very well, never made her suffer, let alone make her poor, and she never lacked all the material things she should have.In order to let her have more time to study, her mother didn't even let her do any housework. It was only when she was in college that she changed the quilt cover, hung the mosquito net, and washed clothes by herself for the first time.When she was in her sophomore year, many students in her class were doing part-time, and she was also moved. When she talked to her mother on the phone, she was immediately stopped without any room for change.My mother said: "You just need to concentrate on studying. You don't have to worry about tuition fees and living expenses. Mom will give you [-] yuan a month."

500 yuan is enough for An Xiaoduo, who spends [-] points in classrooms, laboratories, and dormitories every day, and occasionally searches for Taobao online. However, she later took on the translation job without telling her mother, in order to earn pocket money by herself. It has a sense of accomplishment, and secondly, it is also interesting.If she knew that she was worrying about money every month, what would mother say about her?

Thinking of her current situation, she felt sorry for her mother's expectations.She didn't go back in the past two years because she didn't have the face to go back. Whether it was work or relationship, she didn't satisfy her mother in anything. What face did she have to go back?
In fact, since she was a child, her mother asked her very simply, that is, to study hard.She went to school at the age of five, and went all the way to school without hindrance, and was recommended to go to college.But all the splendor can't make up for one mistake. After she was expelled from school, her mother ignored her for a whole month and didn't say a word to her.

During that time, she was extremely bored at home, and her stepfather's deliberate flattery and mother's incomprehension made her live like a year.In order to pass the time, she played games online every day. Once she opened MSN by accident and added Li Xiaoan's account on a whim. When she took his car last time, she heard him mention her email on the phone. Be careful and keep it in mind.

Send the add request, and it will be displayed after a few seconds, and he is actually online.

Surprised and delighted, she clicked on the dialog box to say hello to him, and the two chatted gradually, until her stepfather turned off the headlights in the living room, she realized that it was almost late at night, and she went offline after saying goodbye to him in a hurry.The next day, she was woken up by the ringing of her mobile phone. While answering the phone, she glanced at the alarm clock next to the bed. It was 10:30 in the morning. She has always had the habit of going to bed late and waking up late.

The drowsiness dissipated suddenly after hearing Li Xiaoan's voice, she didn't expect him to call, and when she heard that he proposed to meet, her head froze and she couldn't turn the corner.

"Where are you now?" She asked stupidly.

"I just happened to be in the provincial capital of city B these few days. I drove here early this morning, and now I'm here...Renmin Road."

She sat up, her heart beating wildly, and he actually came for her.After hastily washing up, she changed into the clothes she had gone out and ran out to find him. Renmin Road was very close to her home. Five minutes later, she saw his car parked in front of Xinhua Bookstore.

She suppressed her beating heart and walked over step by step.

Li Xiaoan also saw her, opened the car door and got out.He was dressed casually, a polo shirt and jeans, and looked very young.

He stood beside the car and smiled at her. He kept laughing, making her dazzled and feeling unreal.

She walked up to him, stabilized miraculously, and asked casually like an old friend meeting: "Why are you here? Are you free today?"

"I've been busy for many days, I'll give myself a vacation today."

"Oh, then... take you around? The scenery in our small place is also good."

"it is good."

She couldn't remember how many times she took him from the street to the end of the street that day. It was the same scenery, but he didn't get tired of it, but he couldn't help but cast more eyes on her.

The two chatted one after another, talking about irrelevant topics. She took him to eat bean curd vermicelli and sugar bowl cakes. They were all things she liked, and she wishfully thought that he would like them too. , when she handed him the bowl, he immediately took it, ate it under her eager gaze, and kept saying it was delicious.At that time, she didn't know that he never ate at roadside stalls, and she didn't know whether to say that he was good at acting or that he had cultivated himself for his compliments.The day passed quickly, and he was going back in a blink of an eye, but she was reluctant to ask him to stay, and she seemed a little silent on the way back to pick up the car.

Li Xiaoan turned off the anti-theft device, opened the car door with one hand, suddenly turned around and put his arms around her waist, and said in a low voice, "Follow me."

Her heart was beating wildly again, and she looked up at his deep eyes, which contained an irresistible temptation, so she responded softly: "Okay."

In this way, an ordinary meeting turned into a reckless elopement.An Xiaoduo ran home to get her luggage, but her mother hadn't come back yet, so she lied to her stepfather that she had received a job interview notice and that she would take a friend's private car back to the city immediately.

Carrying the suitcase and jumping into the car in a hurry, she felt unbelievable at her own madness. Even though she was usually headstrong, she had never done such a ridiculous thing.

The only explanation is that she was dazzled by love.

That night, she received a call from her mother in Li Xiaoan's car. This was the first time her mother took the initiative to talk to her when she returned home after being expelled from school.

"Which friend's car did you take back?"

She was guilty and didn't dare to perfunctory her mother like she did to her stepfather, but she was not good at telling lies, so she hesitated for a while, but instead confirmed her mother's doubts, she said sharply: "An Xiaoduo, what do I usually do? Taught you? Girls must be clean and self-respecting. Now that you are wild and your wings are hardened, not only are you not studying hard, but you have also learned to lie to your mother?"

"Mom, I..." An Xiaoduo was so anxious that she didn't know what to say.

Li Xiaoan freed up one hand and took the phone from her: "Hello, Auntie, I am Xiaoduo's friend, my name is Li Xiaoan."

An Xiaoduo listened to their conversation in horror. She couldn't hear what her mother said on the phone, but she only knew that Li Xiaoan's attitude was modest and polite from the beginning to the end.

"I'm sorry, Auntie. I took Xiaoduo back to Wucheng today. I left too hastily. I didn't meet you. I didn't think carefully. Please forgive me, and please don't blame Xiaoduo."

An Xiaoduo looked at his focused profile, and suddenly became less nervous.

"Yes, I will take care of her and be responsible for her, please rest assured."

When An Xiaoduo heard the word "responsible" at first, he was taken aback. He turned his head to look at her and smiled at her.

When he took the line, she clutched the hem of the skirt with one hand, and whispered: "Why do you say you are responsible for me, we...we have nothing."

"I'm taking you away today, so I'm naturally responsible for your safety."

It turned out that he was talking about this, and she was slightly disappointed.

"Of course there are other aspects." As if seeing her loss, he added jokingly.

"what?"

He didn't speak, just looked at her pink face with a half-smile.

Back in Wucheng, Li Xiaoan took her to the Pearl Villa, she was shocked when she faced the luxurious villa, she knew that lawyers earn a lot of money, but he is still very young, she did not expect that his financial conditions are so good .

"Is your family rich?" She asked innocently.

"It's okay, I bought this house early, and it's not as expensive as it is now."

This was his answer, and she believed it.After getting out of the car, he grabbed her hand to press the password: "Your mother asked me to accompany you back home during the Mid-Autumn Festival, and I agreed."

She was startled: "No... too fast."

He looked at her amusedly: "It's what your mother meant. She always needs to see what the person who kidnapped her daughter looks like before she can rest assured."

But that year, or even the second year, he didn't go. An Xiaoduo didn't let him go. She met Yuan Yuan at Tang's house soon, and she saw a lot of love in the eyes of that beautiful little boy. Resist and guard.

Thinking back now, my mother seems to have disliked her love from the very beginning. She went home alone several times, but her mother never mentioned Li Xiaoan, only vaguely hinting that she wanted to be independent.And she naturally wouldn't mention it, because of the existence of Yuan Yuan, she was afraid of gain and loss for this relationship. She saw that child being pampered by Mrs. Tang like a jewel, and she knew that she wanted to be with Li Xiaoan, You must pass the Yuan Yuan level first.It's just that she never expected that when she and Yuan Yuan finally established a deep relationship, everything came to an abrupt end.

Yuan Yuan's death became an obstacle that could never be overcome between her and Li Xiaoan.

Why did you think of him again?An Xiaoduo hugged her head in pain, closed the notebook, and went to the bathroom to brush her teeth and wash her face to divert her attention.

The typhoon passed by, and the wind howled outside, and the sundries on the balcony were swept up and down, making ping-pong noises.She suddenly remembered that there was a rectangular cabinet on the outermost side. She had roughly inspected it before. Although the paint was old and faded, it was still usable. Instead of putting it outside in the sun and rain, it would be better to move it into the bedroom and use it as a bookcase.

Anyway, she couldn't work and couldn't sleep, so she decided to start now, but she overestimated her strength—the cabinet looked like a candle in the wind, but she didn't expect it to be quite heavy.She took a lot of effort to move it into the room, and then moved it to the corner of the bedroom little by little. It might be that the legs of the cabinet were not stable. She let go of her hand, and the cabinet fell towards her. She hurriedly supported it with her body Unexpectedly, a cabinet door was blown open by inertia, and the partition that was stuck in the middle fell out, hitting her on the bridge of the nose impartially.

A hot current gushed out, and she was sweating in pain. She suspected that the bridge of her nose was broken.She leaned the cabinet against the wall, hurriedly pulled out a tissue to block her nose, and ran to the bathroom to look in the mirror. Not to mention her nose was red and swollen, and it kept bleeding like an open faucet, and she threw it in the wastebasket after a while There were so many tissues in the bag that she was horrified when she saw it herself.

All conceivable measures to stop the bleeding were done, but the blood seemed to be surging. She remembered that she was still on her period, and then she became frightened. She hurriedly changed into her coat, grabbed her wallet and went out.

Probably because of too much blood loss, when she went down the stairs, her legs were a little weak, and her vision became blurred. After finally walking downstairs, she couldn't see a taxi.

Thinking about it, it was in the middle of the night, and it was a typhoon day. There were no pedestrians on the road, and the roadside snacks that were originally closed late did not come out for business today.

Her head was getting dizzy, she didn't dare to be careless, she wanted to make an emergency call, and felt in her pockets, only to remember that she was in a hurry just now, and she didn't bring out her mobile phone.

In the confusion and panic, she felt someone approaching, coming with wind and rain all over her body.I don't know if it's a problem with her eyes, but the man has already walked up to her, but she can't see clearly.She swayed and fell into an embrace, and the man's face was enlarged in an instant, with a familiar breath on her face, and she finally saw the man clearly.

"It's you...why are you here?" She murmured, then lost consciousness.

After waking up after an unknown amount of time, she found herself in a white room with a white ceiling, white walls, white sheets and quilt covers, and even the people around her were all white.

"you're awake?"

She said with difficulty: "Who sent me to the hospital?"

"It's weird for a man to bring you here with such a strong wind last night, pay the medical bills and then leave in the wind and rain." Seeing her blank face, the nurse asked strangely, "Isn't it your friend? "

Her brain was a little sluggish, she stared blankly at the ceiling, and finally remembered after a while that the man she saw just a second before she fainted was Li Xiaoan.

"Your physical examination report came out. You are malnourished, have severe anemia, and your body is a little weak. I gave you amino acids." Seeing that she was silent, the nurse continued, "The problem with the nose is not serious, but it is relatively fragile these days, so pay attention Be careful, don't get hurt again."

An Xiaoduo listened blankly, but did not respond for a long time.

The nurse asked her, "Do you want to call your family to pick you up?"

An Xiaoduo shook her head.When the nurse left the room, she sat up and stared at the door for a long time, but he never appeared.

Asked for leave with He Bixi, she finished three bottles of IV in the hospital before leaving, just in time for the commuting time, the bus was full of people, she originally had a seat, but gave up her seat to a pregnant woman on the way, got off the bus, hungry Coupled with the loss of blood, she was a little dizzy. After walking a few steps, she heard someone calling her.

(End of this chapter)