national idol

Chapter 182

Li Xuebin is very anxious recently.

Although there is still more than half a year before graduation, everyone has already started looking for a job, and even many people have already devoted themselves to internships.

He has also been busy submitting resumes, applying for jobs, and interviewing since the beginning of school in September, eager to find a satisfactory company as soon as possible, but it is a major event in life that has been hanging in his mind.

In recent days, the lectures of major companies in our school and other schools have been held one after another. He also listened to one after another, submitted a lot of resumes, and participated in several interviews, one, two, or even three. But what is depressing is that, seeing that October is already halfway through, he still hasn't even gotten an offer.

Most of the resumes submitted online have no news, and he has basically gone to a few of the occasional replies, but unfortunately, so far no one has made a clear decision to ask him.

And the people around him have found their way one after another, and most of the classmates have signed employment agreements. There are very few people like him who are still pending.

The other five people in his dormitory have all found very good companies, some have signed contracts with state-owned enterprises, and some have signed contracts with industry leaders. , he was so ashamed that he didn't dare to say anything more in the dormitory, even ordinary strike-ups made him cautious and nervous.

In his eyes, the happy and harmonious atmosphere in the dormitory gradually changed.

Chen Zhao and Xu Xuyang, who have already started internships, leave early and return late every day; Zhao Le and Sun Guanghui, who have no worries about their future, spend time in LDC from morning to night, and they are almost stink; and Zhu Yulin, after finding a job, , I rented a house outside, and lived a two-person world with his little girlfriend, and occasionally went back to the dormitory, losing weight day by day.

But whether it's full, rotten, or rotten, it's better than being like a lonely ghost.

He envied every single one of them.

It was another Friday, after dinner alone, Li Xuebin did not return to the dormitory.

Tomorrow is the rest day, and the four who are still in the dormitory will definitely be as noisy as if they had won the national liberation. He, who has become silent recently, hates that atmosphere very much.

In fact, it was fear, fear that the noise and happiness of his roommates would make him feel inferior and painful as he became increasingly sensitive, and fear that his increasingly fragile nerves would uncontrollably destroy the friendship that he had been with for four years day and night.

With no place to go, he ran to the Internet cafe for two hours.

When he came out of the Internet cafe, it was already past 8 o'clock, the air was very cold, and he was only wearing a thin sweater. The cold wind was blowing, blowing out the warmth left on his body by the Internet cafe's air conditioner, and he was alone. Walking on the road, he felt very cold, cold from the outside to the inside.

So, he gathered himself up and wiped his trouser pockets with his hands, trying to warm himself up.

However, it was useless, it was still cold, his teeth were trembling from the cold, and he missed the quilt very much, but he still didn't want to go back to the dormitory.

It's still too early, let's keep walking.

He thought so.

Then walk, he put into practice.

He didn't walk aimlessly. For a small and tiny person like him, it was unwise to be too far away from places he was familiar with. He only dared to walk around the campus.

From west to south, then from south to east, and from east to north.

After the hustle and bustle, I also passed the depression. I saw groups of people yelling and shouting in the food stalls, and I also saw quarreling couples wriggling and chatting in remote places.

If you want to divide it, divide it quickly, what is the ink blot.

He thought grumpily as he passed the couple.

After thinking about it, he felt that he was about to become a factor of social instability.

Then, he became more irritable and depressed.

Time seemed to pass extremely slowly. It took less than an hour to walk around the perimeter of such a huge campus.

Walking at the main gate of the school unconsciously, he was stumbled by a tall boy who was on the way. He raised his head in a daze, and saw the brightly lit main classroom building. He paused, and waited for the boy to pass by. Manicly cursed: "Fuck your mother!"

After scolding, he felt like a special waste again.

People can only blame the society for the frustration, ha ha.

All of a sudden, Li Xuebin's heart sank completely, and Li Xuebin, who was so uncomfortable, wanted to turn around and continue to walk around the perimeter of the school again, but the mobile phone in his trouser pocket suddenly rang.

Frowning slightly, he took out his mobile phone and saw that the caller was his mother, his heart suddenly contracted, and the footsteps that were about to turn around also stopped, and then moved forward slowly.

"mom."

"Hey, are you asleep?"

"not yet."

"How are you doing recently?"

"Fortunately."

"That...is the job confirmed?"

"Not yet, I want to look for it again."

"The Huayuan Electronics you mentioned, I've inquired about it, isn't it pretty good. It seems that they all have a salary of seven or eight thousand, isn't it?"

Li Xuebin felt a tightness in his chest: "It's not that tall, I can count it myself, mom, don't worry."

"Well, just don't be too high-handed, why are you so noisy over there?"

"Oh, I'm having supper with my classmates."

"Then you eat well, I'm dying, go to bed early. It's cold over there, remember to wear more clothes and pay attention to your body."

"Well, Mom, you should also pay attention to your health."

There was no sound coming from the other end of the phone. Li Xuebin held the phone, lost his mind, his whole body seemed to be hollowed out, and the corners of his eyes were sore.

Surrounded by pedestrians coming and going, he didn't want to be seen in embarrassment, so he hurriedly frowned and looked up at the sky.

The night covers the stars, like a dark robe, covering those magnificent buildings and jade buildings, covering those dim shadows of trees, and also covering his heart, which is too heavy to bear.

Desperation, in an instant, climbed into his heart.

He felt hard to breathe, as if someone was choking his throat and pressing his heart.

Unfortunately, he didn't have the courage to end everything.

It's still a long time, and there are still opportunities. Not everyone has found a job. He is not the worst. He tried his best to appease himself.

I tried my best to adjust my mood, and before I knew it, the dormitory was gradually approaching, dormitory No. 1, the girl's.

He heard the frolicking sounds of warblers and swallows coming from the bedroom closest to him. It was full of sound and color, which made people think about it. Unfortunately, the windows were covered by curtains, so he couldn't see what was going on inside.

Then, he felt more uncomfortable.

University really does nothing.

"Ah."

He grinned and gave a wry smile.

In the dormitory not far away, the noise of frolicking died down, and was replaced by singing, not lightly.

"Nothing can stop your yearning for freedom."

"You have nothing to worry about in your unrestrained career."

"Through the dark years, I also felt hesitant."

"The moment you lower your head, you realize the path under your feet."

"The free world in my heart is so clear and lofty."

"Blooming and never dying, blue lotus~, ah~"

He lowered his head and touched his eye sockets.

wet.

Useless.

He held his nose and cursed in a low voice.

(End of this chapter)