Medicinal Concubine

Chapter 379 I Don't Even Have the Right to Die

"After waking up, I also know that I don't even have the right to die, but what should I do? I'm so afraid of the feeling of falling into a nightmare and not being able to breathe..."

"Later I learned to avoid, try to forget as much as possible, so that I can live in the sun like a normal person during the day, and at night I used the medical skills I learned to prepare various prescriptions for calming the nerves. Very satisfied!"

"I used to be optimistic that with the passage of time, I would be able to overcome everything naturally. When I returned to the capital, I was so confident. Grandpa and grandma were also waiting for the palace banquet, and I could overcome everything. speak out……"

In the study room there was only Xin Yi's voice recalling the past, and Ling Jingyu hadn't spoken since Xin Yi said these things.

I'm afraid Xin Yi never told Xin Yiyue about these things. Every time she said a word, Ling Jingyu's heart sank even more. He knew that she must have worked hard in the past ten years, but he never thought that she would commit suicide. Shocked, it made him even more powerless:
He couldn't find any words to comfort Xin Yi.

"But I found out that I was wrong. You just mentioned my childhood picture book, and I couldn't control myself. Later, I comforted myself that maybe it was just too sudden. It'll be fine next time..."

"After all, I still overestimated myself, I still can't control myself as always, I can't do it, I still can't do it..."

After saying this, Xin Yi finally stopped, as if he was tired and wanted to rest for a while.

"You've done a good job, don't be too hard on yourself! Let's just take our time..."

Ling Jingyu put Xin Yi's head on his chest, and squeezed her hand tightly, as if to give her some strength. Except for this sentence, he found that he couldn't say anything else.

"The reason why my parents' case has not progressed for ten years is because of me. Neither His Majesty Dali Temple nor my grandparents will allow me to take my time, and now I can be sure that taking my time will not solve the problem at all!"

"Yi'er, it's not..."

"Once the word gets out that I'm going crazy, my words won't be credible anymore, my parents' case may be unsolved forever, and I might vomit blood and die anytime I'm not around. Then it would be meaningless for me to live for ten years!"

Xin Yi closed her eyes, no matter what she would not allow this to happen!

"No, I will always be with you!"

Ling Jingyu suddenly felt that he had not considered Xin Yi thoroughly.

"You know it's impossible! Not to mention that you have too many responsibilities as a prince, even an ordinary person can't follow me for twelve hours, so Ling Jingyu, let's be realistic, shall we?"

Xin Yi shook his head, knowing that Ling Jingyu was still struggling.

"I'm a doctor, and I know best how much my body can bear. Although this method seems a bit risky, the effect is excellent. If I'm not very sure, I won't do it! I said before I don't even have the right to die before my parents get revenge!"

"Don't say that, Yi'er, don't say that!"

Ling Jingyu covered Xin Yi's neck with his big hands and pressed her tightly against his chest. He had already been moved by Xin Yi's words, but emotionally he still couldn't accept it.

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