leave this sad place

Chapter 127 Change Teacher
It's also a good thing if someone who is really eager to learn sits at the back of the room.No one disturbs you, you can concentrate on learning the knowledge taught by the teacher in the class, and do your own homework, comfortably and with a little bit of leisure.But what about Ouyang?His learning is not because of the learning itself, and he even has some hostility to the so-called learning today.And the reason why he is studying hard now is because there are other reasons.

Sitting alone at the back of the classroom was actually not a good feeling, and he was even more lonely deep in his heart, like a bronze treasure sinking into the depths of the vast sea.This lonely seed sprouted quietly in his heart.

One class after another passed, and no teacher gave him a second look, and no classmate came to him to say hello.Living in this class like this, there is not much difference between his existence and non-existence. It is just that there is one more person, a table, a stool, a few books, and a few pens. What difference can this make? Woolen cloth?

Unknowingly, a trace of melancholy imprinted deeply in Ouyang's eyes, and his heart was marked with loneliness.Such a feeling of non-existence caused his heart to be stung.

"What a deep feeling, what a dislike!" he murmured.If you spend the last period of high school in this class like this, who will remember who is on the far right in the last row in the days to come?If this is the case, wouldn't having existed in this class be the same as not having existed?
If one spends one's life in this world like this, what can prove that that person ever appeared after death?If this is the case, then why do you still have to come to this complicated human world?What is the difference between being alive in this way and not being born or dying?

"Didn't I want to find a quiet environment - a place where I can study hard? Isn't this very good?" He asked himself suspiciously, his heart trembled unconsciously, and a trace of fear lingered in the heart.

fear?He actually felt a trace of fear.Does a lone wolf wandering on the grassland really only have loneliness in his heart, but not a trace of fear?

Ouyang closed his red and swollen eyes, wanting to take a rest, but some questions were tightly wrapped in his mind.After all, humans are social animals, that is, animals that live in groups. Who would really like and adapt to a self-sufficient lifestyle away from the crowd?

"Isn't this what I want?" Ouyang asked himself again, his heart tightened slightly, and he twitched.He narrowed his eyes a little and looked at the students who were having fun not far away.Their chatting, their laughter.They, their everything has nothing to do with themselves; they, their everything just belongs to them!And him?What about Ouyang?
This outlier is like a stray dog ​​that has been abandoned.The pouring rain, the howling wind, the violent thunder, the running lightning, and the dark street corner, the darkness and loneliness that no one likes all drowned him!These belonged to him, and only belonged to a person deep in his heart!
But he didn't like it, but he had to adapt!

He no longer knew which link had gone wrong and caused him to deviate from the track.Just like a train driving in the cold and lonely starry sky, the picture is not beautiful, but sad!

"Why did this happen?" There was a trace of pain and confusion in his eyes.At this moment, he felt that he had lost himself, but he didn't know where he had left his former self.He wanted to get it back, but he was powerless!
"Why?" He hated himself from the bottom of his heart, hated everything about him!Such a good person, let him twist and twist to create such a character, such a self, a self that makes him resent!
His heart twitched again, but at this moment he didn't know what he was doing, and he didn't know why he disliked him so much!
"Why?" He asked himself again, this is still a question that will not have an answer, or it should be said that no one has an answer!

The bell rang in surprise, as if something had been discovered.

The wandering thoughts gradually returned to my mind from the unknown time and space, and it was time for class again.

"What's wrong with me? Why did I start thinking wildly again?" Ouyang opened his eyes, and a trace of doubt jumped out of his eyes and hung on his face.

"Oh, don't think about it so much anymore." He shook his head, his head was still a little groggy, and he stayed up late last night.

"Isn't this good?" He tried to convince his inner self again. "No one came to disturb me, but I concentrated on doing what I should do." He explained in his heart, but his eyes became a little sad.

What should be done is not equal to what he is willing to do, let alone what he likes to do!
In the conflict between reason and emotion, he chose to succumb to the feet of reality.This kind of practice is to make life better in the future, but the heart is not as good as it should be. He is torturing himself like this!From the moment of the decision, it has been tormented until now.

Some pictures couldn't help but pop up in his mind.In the future, the family will live well together, and in the future, he will be able to meet some people he wants to see. These are what he cares about and wants to get.But he thought of the novel again, and thought of the strong dream deep in his heart!
"Hey, aren't you in math class?" A classmate asked in surprise.

"Yes." The other student next to him nodded affirmatively.

"Then who is this teacher on the podium? Did you go to the wrong place?" The student pointed to the teacher on the podium with a trace of confusion in his eyes.

"Probably not." Another classmate frowned slightly, and then looked at the strange teacher on the podium.Some hesitated and said: "Maybe, he will be our future math teacher."

"What?" The classmate turned his head to look at the other classmate, and there were only two words "don't understand" written on his face.

"Our math teacher has been transferred." Another classmate said with a slight sigh.

"Why?" The classmate asked a little idiot, but he was just used to this form.

Another classmate B glanced at that classmate, and said with a bit of mystery: "Of course, people go to high places, and water flows to low places."

"Then how do you know?" The classmate asked again with some idiocy.

The other classmate was startled, stared at the classmate for a while, and asked, "Did you pay attention to the last math class?"

"Yes, yes, yes--" the classmate said with some idiot excitement.

"Really?" Another classmate stared at that classmate again.

"Yes, yes--" the student's voice became lower and lower, his face a little embarrassed.

"That's what the teacher mentioned in the last class." Another student showed a "clear" look on his face.

Listening to the conversation between the two students in front, Ouyang felt a little envious.

"Such a situation seems to have happened to me before, right?" He muttered to himself, but he couldn't remember when it happened.Maybe this is just wishful thinking in his heart, thinking that he himself mistakenly believed it was true.

The image of Jie'er slowly appeared in his mind again. At the beginning of the first year of high school, he often bickered and had fun with Jie'er. "What a beautiful memory!" He sighed softly, "It's a pity it's gone."

Ouyang said it was a pity, but he didn't know what he was pitying.Maybe it's for the memory itself, maybe it's for the memory's owner, maybe it's both.

He subconsciously looked at the far left at the back of the classroom, where Chen Cheng was seated.When he first came to this class, Chen Cheng actually got along pretty well with him.

"Isn't he the same as me now?" Ouyang looked at Chen Cheng entertaining himself in the background alone.

"Hello students, I am your new math teacher, from now on you can just call me Teacher Zhang." The voice rolled down from the podium like a bell.

And the heat contained in that voice actually made the students under the podium "boil" slightly.

Ouyang's head was hit by the "lion's roar", and he came back to his senses like a blow to the head.

"This is an upright teacher." Ouyang quietly impressed in his heart.

The smile raised at the corner of his mouth was stunned, and Ouyang shook his head slightly again, feeling a little funny for himself again!
(End of this chapter)