leave this sad place

Chapter 5

It's just the youth, who doesn't have a little love in his heart?Not to mention Ouyang, in fact, Ouyang had liked girls as early as when he was very young. I remember that he was only in the fourth grade of primary school at that time.

When he was young, he didn't know any methods and skills. He waited for the girl named Sun Xiaohong on the road every afternoon, and then gave her the so-called love letter, and this method was taught to him by one of his partners, and the so-called Love letters are nothing more than excerpts of ancient poems and sentences.

In the end, the girl never walked that way again, and avoided him when she saw Ouyang.For this reason, Ouyang was at a loss and depressed for a long time.

When Ouyang and Sun Xiaohong were in the same class in junior high school, Ouyang was very excited and thought that there was an inexplicable fate between them.But this time he doesn't want to confess to her anymore, because he knows she doesn't like him and won't be with him.But he has always liked her and missed her.And when other classmates asked him who he liked, he also bluntly told others that it was Sun Xiaohong.

Between such half-secret love and half-clear love, Ouyang never confessed to her again.Originally, I would have no chance when I was in high school. After all, I might not be in the same school.Who knew that the heavens were beautiful, they were from the same school, and she was next door to him.

This time Ouyang doesn't know how to treat her.When he was in junior high school, his parents were afraid that his playing with friends would delay his studies, so he planned not to play with friends in junior high and high school.But this time, if you don't say it, you may really have no chance.

Ouyang himself was quite vague about this, and didn't know what to do at all.It's still the same as before, probably there will be no chance; if she expresses her love, it's not that she doesn't know that she likes her.If she really expressed it, in case Sun Xiaohong refused again.What if we can't even make the friendship we have now?Wouldn't that be a chicken-and-egg fight, lifting a rock and shooting yourself in the foot?
Just thinking about it like this, between the unknown and the unclear, Ouyang decided not to think about it.Counting the time, in fact, this kind of relationship has already passed for four or five years, so why should I think about these three years?Whatever it is, let it be.Ouyang comforted himself.

It would be great if nothing happened like this, and it would be better to pass it on in a dull manner.But reality and ideals are always in conflict.

Although today's weather is a bit gloomy, Ouyang still walks on the playground with a happy mood.

Life in high school is actually pretty good. I study hard in class and finish homework in time.When he was free, he chatted with Jie'er behind him, "teasing" and "teasing" her by the way, causing her to say "disgusting" in an annoyed manner.In the evening, I go out to exercise with Li Ting.Ouyang was so happy in his heart that even his eyes were stained with an intoxicating smile.

Maybe he was too complacent, even God couldn't see it, so he gave him a special blow.

A dark blue floral dress was printed in Ouyang's pupils.Of course, the strange skirt would not attract Ouyang's attention, but the person wearing the skirt - Sun Xiaohong, caught his attention.Maybe it's still a few minutes before he can use the word "dreams" to describe Ouyang's feelings for Sun Xiaohong. Ouyang once tossed and turned several times for this girl whom he always dreamed of, and couldn't sleep at night.

But now Ouyang felt very sad, because he clearly saw a boy put his hand on her shoulder, and also clearly saw that boy hug her affectionately and kiss her.Although Ouyang knew that she had played with her friends several times before, but this time he saw her making out with others with his own eyes!

As if hearing the sound of his own heart breaking piece by piece, Ouyang felt that his entire inner world had completely collapsed!His head was buzzing, blank, without any thoughts.

The girl I have always liked actually——

But he—

Ouyang——

What else can be done?

Just watching there, stupidly like an idiot.Looking at their tenderness and their warmth, these things exploded in his heart like a bolt from the blue!The thunder exploded, and the whole head completely lost all consciousness, and the eyes were empty, without any luster.God, this joke is too big!

He wanted to laugh, and laughed silently.Laughing so that the eye sockets hurt, and tears flowed; I laughed so hard that I was speechless, and my dry cough was weak!Sadness like never before, powerlessness like never before!

Who is she to him?

Then how could he interfere with her?
What else could he do?Not painful, maybe?No matter how painful it is, is it useful?
Powerless, helpless, and helpless!
Ouyang fled to the dormitory desperately, he couldn't stay in this place any longer.If he stayed here again, he was sure he couldn't help but do some unreasonable things.

As a "little man", he couldn't stand even this!But who can really bear seeing a girl who has been in love with him for several years, and even sleepless at night, making out with other boys?
But he ran away, chose to escape like a coward!But what else could he be called for?

After all, he and she are just classmates!Just a classmate!Everything before was just his wishful thinking.

Falling flowers intentionally follow the flowing water, while flowing water has no intention of falling in love with falling flowers.That's all!

Ouyang knocked open the bedroom door with one shoulder, and buried his head deeply in his quilt.He doesn't know why he did this?No matter why you want to do this?
I just feel heartache, as if the whole heart is being grabbed by an invisible big hand.There was a feeling of suffocation, and I wished I could die!

A wounded wolf is hiding in a remote corner and licking its own wound bit by bit, such a feeling!that is it!

Ouyang felt that there seemed to be an arm on his shoulder, and he knew it belonged to Li Ting without looking.Although most of the people in the dormitory were there, only Li Ting could comfort him silently like this.But Ouyang didn't want to look at them, not even Li Ting.Because he knew that at this time, his ferocious face must be covered with tears.A person who wants to make himself strong, how can he easily show his weakness to others?
"Is there anything you can't get through?" Li Ting patted Ouyang on the shoulder.

Xu Jie and Zhang Wenqiang also came forward to comfort him.

Ouyang secretly told himself to be strong, and must be strong from now on!

So he gave them a smile that was uglier than crying, and rushed to the bathroom to freshen up.

Bury your head deeply in the washbasin filled with water, the cold water stimulates the nerves of your brain, maybe this will calm you down quickly.

I didn't want to breathe, and I couldn't breathe, and a feeling of suffocation came up. "Maybe this is the best ending, at least it will make my heartache no longer." Ouyang thought to himself.

Everything in the past clearly played back in Ouyang's head, "Didn't I say it before, as long as she is happy, I will be happy. Shouldn't I be happy for her? She has found what she likes, she I have found my own happiness, shouldn't I be happy? Why? Why do I feel distressed?" Ouyang was full of worries.

"What can't be let go? There are more girls in the world, and there are also many excellent ones. Why do I have to take three thousand and only take a scoop to drink? Where is there no grass in the world, why should I do this?" Why? " Ouyang comforted himself.

"Didn't I once say that as long as she is happy? Didn't I say that even if she is not the one I chose, I should be happy? How can words not count?" Ouyang hated himself again.

"By the way! Didn't I want to bless her? Shouldn't I bless her?" Ouyang thought and picked up the phone again and sent a text message to Sun Xiaohong.

"Are you playing with your friends?"

"Ah."

"I wish you happiness."

"Thank you."

There was no words for a long time, only Ouyang himself knew that when he sent the words "I wish you happiness", his hands were trembling, and his heart was in pain.

"I'll live well." Ouyang replied almost swearing.

"En." Sun Xiaohong was still so concise.

Maybe tomorrow will be all right.Ouyang watched the sun pass through the dark clouds, swaying golden warmth.

(End of this chapter)