leave this sad place

Chapter 78

Those dream worlds, those worlds without worries, drove him crazy, completely obsessed him.

So he read the novel night and night, no longer thinking about whether he will have class tomorrow; no longer thinking about whether he can get up early tomorrow;

"Take his class when you are in class. If you can't get up in the morning, you can't get up. If you want to doze off, you can doze off. It's going to rain, mother is going to get married, whatever he wants. I just want to That's it." Ouyang comforted himself, no longer hesitated for the first time, but there was an indescribable feeling in his heart, so empty, so empty, as if he had no heart.

Even when he had an exam the next day, he still stayed up all night reading novels, not caring about the next day's exam.

"If you want to take the exam, then take it. What's the big deal? If you fail the exam, you will fail the exam. What can you do to me?" He comforted himself in such a forceful way that even he himself felt that he had changed. up.There is still a little bit of his previous appearance here!

In the past, he would not finish a homework question, and he could not sleep all night; I feel extremely ashamed, even sad and angry, but the words I say to comfort myself are always positive, optimistic and uplifting.

"I can't watch it any more. I have class tomorrow. It's time to go to bed."

"Hey, I have another exam tomorrow. I don't know what will happen in the exam? I'm so uneasy."

"I didn't do well in the exam again. Why was I so careless? Even such a question was wrong, damn it! I must not do this again in the future. Forget it, let's take it as a lesson this time, maybe this can inspire me Learn better."

Such words are getting farther and farther away from him, and he is getting more and more lost in himself.And he, the current him, doesn't seem to be aware of it at all, because he is still deeply asleep in it.

Sleeping in that dreamy world, what a beautiful, what a world!What a heart-wrenching world!Without a wounded heart, how can you go wandering in that virtual world?Seeing others sleeping in it, how can you not sigh?Don't you feel touched?

Is it really time to wake him up and tell him not to sink anymore?Let him wake up and face all the bloody things?Make him sad, make him sad, make him sad?

But, who would really be so cruel?Who else but someone who really cares about themselves?And how can I say this to people who really care about themselves?Besides, Ouyang himself is a person who likes to keep everything in his heart, so he won't talk about it.

Even if you want to wake him up, if he really doesn't want to wake up, how can you really wake him up?If he really wanted to get rid of everything, why would he need to wake him up?

What's more, he still gets drunk every night before going to bed, how can he sleep without drinking?How could he really sleep if he wasn't drunk?
Reading novels is hiding in imagination, getting drunk is hiding in drunken dreams, all these are just to escape, to avoid pain.Why not escape?It's just that this kind of evasion costs too much.

But what about him - Ouyang?Did he really get what he called happiness?Was all this enough for him?

How can the deep grief in my heart and the grief that is branded on my heart be melted away by these?Therefore, he wanted to drill deeper and sink more thoroughly!

When I was studying, how could it be enough to read novels and get drunk every night?When in class, how can it be enough to sleep until the end of get out of class?On weekends, how can I not go to Internet cafes, stay up all night with Xu Jie and Feng Xiaohua?

Such a him, what kind of Ouyang has become!

When I was studying, I slept during the day and got drunk after reading novels at night; when I was not reading, I went directly to the Internet cafe to play games all night long.This kind of him, either spends it in sleep, or spends it in fantasy!This kind of him is simply living in a virtual world!

so sad!And so lamentable!

(End of this chapter)