I want to give my all to love you

Chapter 183 It’s just a bowl of millet porridge (1)
"Then, you left without saying a word, without even looking at me, as if looking at me was dirty, and you wanted to desecrate your memory. Do you know how much I hate you?"

"I hate you, and I hate myself even more. Especially, when I think of the recording I left for you before I left, what I said in it, I find it ridiculous when I think about it now. When you listened, did you also think that I Naive, I'm stupid, I don't know anything at all?"

"I'm still dreaming, thinking that you will fall in love with me sooner or later, but it's just a matter of time, because you are so good to me, and you have never been so good."

"But that night, for two nights in a row, my dreams were shattered. If you really pity me, why would you treat me like that? You said that even if you told me that you didn't use me as a substitute, I wouldn't believe it. But you What do you make me think of those things you did?"

Wei Ran didn't dare to open his eyes, for fear that tears would come out when he opened them.

Now, under her eyelids, the tears are burning and it hurts so much.

"Don't you just want to tell me that a stand-in deserves that kind of treatment?" Wei Ran finally couldn't help it, she wanted to stare at Wei Ziqi's face.

She wanted to look at his expression and wonder what he was thinking.

Wei Ran hurriedly opened his eyes, the tears that had been hidden under the eyelids poured out without a break, and nothing could stop them.

Wei Ziqi's stomach shrank into a ball hard, and his heart was tangled up, even on his face, which was always inconspicuous, tangled up.

He thought bitterly, Wei Ran really understood him, and was able to catch his mind.

However, seeing Wei Ziqi's tangled expression, Wei Ran misunderstood.

She was tangled in her heart, and her heart kept sinking.

Wei Ran sniffed, his nose was already sore, and there was still a sound of snot when he inhaled.

"Wei Ziqi, I just want to ask you, was it because of Cen Manrong that you brought me home?" Wei Ran was crying, but he couldn't care less, even though his vision was particularly blurry now, separated by a curtain of water.

But also because of the tears, she didn't even blink her eyes, and looked straight at Wei Ziqi.

Her gaze was as insistent as her attitude, trying to see through Wei Ziqi, as if she wouldn't blink if he didn't answer.

Wei Ziqi froze, this answer is not important to him now.

The reason at the beginning, he even forgot since when, has changed, and he has long since left it behind.

But his silence made Wei Ran's heart sink even more.

She twitched the corners of her mouth and smiled mockingly, but couldn't, the corners of her mouth trembled violently.

"Wei Ziqi, you never bother to lie. Just like when I asked you about my parents' death, you didn't hide it from me. So, tell me, right?" Wei Ran stared at him tightly, clenched his fists , just waiting for his answer.

Wei Ziqi slid his throat, and opened his mouth, but found that his voice seemed to be stuck in his throat, and he couldn't utter it no matter what.

"Wei Ziqi, you just need to tell me, yes or no?" Wei Ran looked at him firmly.

After a long while, Wei Ziqi gritted his teeth and uttered the word, "Yes."

Wei Ran closed his eyes suddenly, his eyelids trembled, his lips trembled, and tears came out tremblingly.

Although her lips were trembling, she clenched her teeth tightly, but she still couldn't hold back a small whimper from her nose.

She closed her eyes, her eyebrows were tangled together in pain, and even her clenched teeth were shaking.

"Xiaoran..." Wei Ziqi opened his mouth, and took a step forward, "The original reason is not important, why didn't you think about it carefully..."

"Stop talking!" Wei Ran said loudly, "Stop talking, I can't listen to anything now. I don't know how to deal with myself, how to adapt to my new identity, how to accept, what I get now is all Thanks to Cen Manrong for this matter."

"Hehehehehe..." Wei Ran lowered his head and buried his face in his palms.

She bent her legs, put the back of her hands on her knees, and curled up into a ball.

"Do you know how terrified I was when I first heard about this?" Wei Ran shrugged, "I don't even know what my real self should look like. Now I seem to be trapped You deliberately cultivated it."

"It's like making a clay figurine. You shaped me into what you like now. And what about me? If I grow up with it, what kind of temperament should I have? What will I like?"

"But now, I don't know anything about it." Wei Ran shook his head, "Look at the outfit I was wearing that day. I didn't feel comfortable wearing it, and I didn't like it. My temperament has been fixed by you. I'm so afraid... I'm so scared...I don't know...I don't know what the real me is..."

"I have never suppressed your temper, nor deliberately shaped you." Wei Ziqi said hoarsely. "Don't be a fool."

"When children are born, they are all blank, and they are all taught by adults. Some, when they grow up, become bad, murder and set fire, break the law and commit crimes, and do all kinds of bad things. Is this their nature?"

"There are also those who have gone the wrong way, turned around, and become better again. These are not his nature." Wei Ziqi said, "Don't say that I shaped you, you are always like this, human nature is Can't be shaped."

"What you like is not something I force on you." Wei Ziqi said.

"You are yourself now, not someone else's copy." Wei Ziqi said softly.

Wei Ran buried his face in his palm, unable to see the tender pity on Wei Ziqi's face.

Too much, and his fingers seemed to be in a small puddle of water.

But as soon as he touched it, Wei Ran trembled, as if getting an electric shock, and immediately avoided it.

"Don't...don't...touch me now..." Wei Ran whispered.

In the end, he held back.

There are blue veins on the back of Yin Ren's hands and arms.

He clenched his fist and slowly withdrew his hand.

Footsteps were heard in the hall, Wei Ziqi turned around and stopped him outside the bedroom.

I don't want outsiders to know about the things between husband and wife.

The servant brought a tray with a bowl of millet porridge on it.

Wei Ziqi took it over and said, "I'll come, you go back."

After dismissing the servant, Wei Ran came over with millet porridge.

Because on the way from the kitchen to here, the temperature was blown down a lot by the wind, and it was still warm, but not hot anymore.

"Let's have porridge first," Wei Ziqi said.

Wei Ran wiped his tears carelessly with his palms, but his palms were full of tears from the one who cried just now, and his palms were wet. It didn't do much at all, but wiped his face all over.

Her face seemed to have just been washed, it was full of water.

She looked up and saw Wei Ziqi sitting on the bed.By the side, holding a bowl, scooped a small spoonful of millet porridge, and handed it to Wei Ran's lips.

Wei Ran dodged back and reached out to catch the bowl, "I'll do it myself."

"You haven't eaten for two days and three nights, how can you have strength." Wei Ziqi said, "Now your hands are still shaking!"

Wei Ran took a look, sure enough, before holding the bowl in his hand, he was trembling non-stop, really unable to exert any strength.

"Then you carry the bowl, and it's the same if I just hold the spoon." Wei Ran said, but he didn't want him to feed it.

Treating her like that before, and now acting so gentle again, why?Pity her?

"Don't twist, I'll feed you." Wei Ziqi refused, holding the spoon firmly with his long fingers.

Helpless, Wei Ran had no choice but to open his mouth and let him feed it spoonful by spoonful.

She looked at Wei Ziqi from time to time, but she didn't expect that no matter what she said this time, he was not angry, and even took care of her like this.

"After eating, I'll leave." Wei Ran said while he was scooping up the porridge.

Wei Ziqi's movements froze for a moment, his face suddenly sank.

"Do you have to screw it up like this? You should know better than me what your current physical condition is. It doesn't matter if you lose your temper with me, but it's time-sharing!" Wei Ziqi said in a deep voice.

"Is it okay to spoil yourself and fight with me at the same time?" Wei Ziqi frowned, her stubbornness really annoyed and hated him.

Unfortunately, at this time, there is no way.

She was like this, and it was all because of him that she suffered all this trouble.

After all, it was his fault.

Who said Qi Shao has no shame in his heart?
This time, Wei Ziqi felt guilty towards Wei Ran.

Even if she twists it now, he will tolerate her.

Moreover, the contents of the recording pen she left for him have long been deeply engraved in his mind.

She said she loved him, and he will never forget that sentence in his life.

Just for this, Wei Ziqi is very patient with Wei Ran now.

Although Wei Ran was annoyed by what Wei Ran said one by one, but these two days have been busy taking care of her, guarding her every step of the way.

Wei Ran didn't wake up, so he kept looking at her, but when he looked at her, he couldn't think of nothing!
With this thought, there is no limit, and I can think about everything.

In the end, what she thought about the most was that she said she loved him.

Although the voice in the recorder is not as good as her own, it is still separated by a machine, so it is not real.

But that voice was still soft and melodious, with a touch of despair and anxiety as if he didn't know when he would be able to wait for his love.

Wei Ziqi who understands so well, how could he not understand that she was entangled in the matter of Cen Manrong just because she loved him.

Although this kind of entanglement is really unnecessary, Wei Ziqi is not so angry because of the reason.

Even, he was still happy in his heart, feeling that the more she reacted, the more she loved him.

So now, Wei Ziqi is not angry with her either.

It hurt her already, what should I do if I do something outrageous in this anger.

He suppressed his temper, softened his voice, and said, "Xiao Ran, your body belongs to you. You are not in good health now. Even if you are angry and hate me, you have to wait until you have strength before you make trouble with me." ?”

Wei Ran looked up at him, his eyes were gray, and said softly, "I'm not messing with you."

(End of this chapter)