Over the mountain is the sea

Chapter 53 Going Home ([-])

The westbound train runs smoothly, and the scenery outside the window changes every second. However, the withering season is really lacklustre.Yi Nan took out a book from his backpack and leaned against the window to pass the time.

She took ten days off and planned to go home.

Feng Yi was not surprised by her request, but instead asked her considerately, "Do you feel confused?"

In front of him, she didn't need to hide, she nodded straightforwardly.

Feng Yi pondered and said: "I can understand, but I have checked your performance in Yunxi for the past two years, and Chen Juqiu has praised you again and again, saying that you are a rare talent. If possible, I still hope you can stay."

Yi Nan could only smile wryly, paused, and said, "I need time to think about it."

Feng Yi wrote a reply on her leave note, and then handed it back to her, with a look like a king, and said with a smile: "I have confidence in you."

Yi Nan turned and walked towards the door, a voice in his heart sighed, "But I didn't."

The train slowly slowed down, Yi Nan raised his head from the book, and glanced out the window meaninglessly.It turned out to be a stop. This was a slow train. There were several stops along the way, and she didn't know where it was. She didn't pay attention, and lowered her head to continue reading.

Some customers went down one after another with large and small luggage, and more passengers came in again.

In fact, Yi Nan's mind was not in the book, it was floating around, even she couldn't grasp it.

She has always suspected that she has a split personality. The superficial she is not the real one. Maybe she is more like her mother. The mother is a temperamental person who is easy to act impulsively and often regrets, but if she does it all over again, she will probably still be the same. , Knowing that it is a sea of ​​swords and flames, she will rush up without hesitation, and would rather hit her head and bleed, and then come down in desperation and secretly heal her wounds.

She hates this kind of fatalistic view, she needs to find a kind of strength that can get rid of, so she wants to go back and see her grandparents.

She thought that as long as she could see them, her agitated heart would be relieved and she could make a correct decision.

Five hours later, Yinan arrived at his hometown. This is a small town located in Y City in the east. It is known as a land of fish and rice. However, the footsteps of the city are spreading wantonly, and it is difficult to see the pastoral scenery as soon as you step out of the station. .

The mother and her current husband, Uncle Zhou, drove to pick her up in person.

Sitting in the back compartment, her mother kept asking her, "Are you tired?" She stared at her face distressedly and said, "Xiao Nan, you have lost a lot of weight." Putting it down, Yi Nan knew that she actually wanted to touch her face, but she didn't dare.

In the mother's house, she is always the most solemn guest, all the utensils are brand new, and the dishes presented on the table are piled up in front of her, wishing to pile them up high.

However, no matter how good it is here, she is still a guest.

After dinner, she took out the gifts she had bought for everyone, and everyone had something.It's a pity that Xiaojun is not here. He was sent to a boarding school by his mother. It is said that the discipline is very strict.As long as she talked about this disappointing child, the mother's nagging was endless.

Yi Nan had to interrupt her at the right time, "Mom, I want to visit the graves of my grandparents tomorrow morning."

Mother swallowed half of her grievances, and nodded her head like a raindrop, "Yes, yes." She turned around and got busy, rushing to cook a few dishes as sacrifices, which is the custom here.

During the month when Grandpa was dying in the hospital, his mother helped Yi Nan to take care of him.He has not been able to speak since he collapsed from a stroke, and his eyes are cloudy and lifeless, almost like a vegetable. No one knows what he is thinking.

My mother is getting old, and the grievances and resentments from the past have gradually faded away, but she has a lot of emotion. She chose the dishes and said to Yinan: "It's really not easy for your grandfather. He has worked hard all his life, but he hasn't enjoyed it much. His problem, alas. , it’s all because your grandma rushed out.”

Yi Nan opened the pot, and a white mist rushed towards her face immediately, with the smell of meat, she coughed a few times, then turned around and asked, "Mom, is it alright?"

The mother got up and poked it a few times with the chopsticks, and then covered the pot, "I have to cook it for a while, it won't rot!" She returned to the narrow wooden bench and continued the work in hand. , sighed quietly again, "Fortunately, with a granddaughter like you, the two old ones can close their eyes..."

She suddenly felt that the kitchen was very quiet, and when she looked up, Yi Nan was no longer there.

At dawn, Yi Nan was fully dressed and was about to go out.Despite repeated pushbacks, mother and Uncle Zhou insisted on sending her there in person.

At the foot of the mountain, Yi Nan insisted on going up alone. His mother blinked a few times, although she was worried, she could only compromise, "Then we will wait for you at the foot of the mountain."

Yi Nan nodded, took the basket full of offerings from his mother, glanced up the mountain, took a deep breath and climbed up.

Grandpa and grandma passed away within a month. Yi Nan buried them together. The winding mountain road was hard to identify, but she would never forget the path leading to them.

She remembered that it was raining and the road was muddy on the day her grandfather was buried. When she went up the mountain, she slipped and fell several times, and her body was covered in mud.She didn't cry all the time, got up numbly, and continued walking, ignoring the concern or pity in other people's eyes.With the last splash of soil, the box containing grandpa's ashes was completely invisible.She still couldn't understand why such a tall person could fit in such a small box in the end? !

She could not afford to kneel in front of her grandfather, and all the relatives and neighbors around her wept. No one knew that she was actually deeply repenting and begging for forgiveness from her grandfather.

Now, the graves of grandparents are really green and grassy. She carefully removed the weeds with the small hoe she brought with her, then found a flat brick and stone to lay out the sacrifices one by one, and lit the candles and incense. superior.

She knelt on the dirt ground, kowtowed respectfully to the two old people a few times, closed her eyes, and asked silently in her heart: "Grandpa, have you forgive me?"

The empty valley is quiet, and even though the sun has come out, there is still a chill in the mountains in early winter.It has been two years, and her mood is much calmer than in the past. Sitting like this, what flows in her mind is the past years, those days when she and her grandparents depended on each other, although they were poor, they were still happy.

"Xiao Nan, it's okay to be poor, but you have to live with integrity. Grandpa doesn't ask for anything from you, but you have to be a good person, and you must be a good person." Grandpa would always talk to her while drinking Huadiao.

"Understood, you have to be a good person." Sitting at his feet, the young Yi Nan drew out her voice, absent-mindedly perfunctory her grandfather.She grabbed a handful of peanuts in her hand, threw them into her mouth one by one, and waited for the old elm tree in front of the door to drop strings of money, so she could jump out to pick them up.

Looking at her grandpa's cheerful smiling face on the tablet, she murmured, "Grandpa, are you disappointed that I didn't become the good person you imagined?"

Grandpa must have been disappointed, so he didn't open his mouth to speak. Yi Nan stayed by his side, waiting for him to forgive himself, but he didn't say a word until he closed his eyes.

The three sticks of incense burned out, Yi Nan had to leave, she didn't want her mother to wait too long.She lay on the ground, knocked her head silently a few more times, got up and left.

(End of this chapter)