Over the mountain is the sea

Chapter 7 Happiness, How Far Is It From You ([-])

After answering the call, Yi Nan quickly turned off the lights and pulled the quilt over her head, hoping to regain the sleepiness she had just had, but no matter how much she tossed and turned, she couldn't fall asleep.

Unable to bear it, she finally sat up in the darkness with some annoyance, staring at the vast void, not knowing who to be serious with.

Distraughtly, she turned on the bedside lamp again, put on her unlined clothes, got out of bed, put on her slippers and walked to the balcony.

The double-layered curtains on the balcony were tightly covered. She opened a corner, and through the glass, she saw the night sky in late autumn. The sky was full of stars, which was beautiful.

After staring at it for a while, she sighed inexplicably, put down the curtains, and returned to the house.

Her mind was still awake, the more she wanted to sleep, the more she couldn't fall asleep. Yi Nan had this experience many times, so she didn't want to force herself.Maybe because the dusty deepest thoughts were inadvertently picked up, I am doomed to have no sleep tonight.

She randomly picked out a book in the bookcase to pass the time, Shi Tiesheng's "Broken Pen during Sickness".It used to be like this in school, I deliberately found an inscrutable book, turned to the third page, my mind was definitely full of mud, and then I fell into a dream as I wished.

But now, it didn't seem to work anymore, the coldness that was full of paper penetrated into her mind without any hindrance, and those ethereal and elegant words echoed in her heart like a song.

"...Faith, since it doesn't need a promise in advance, naturally it doesn't need a compliment afterwards. Its favor can only be received when it is going through hardships..."

"The kindness lies in that as long as you go forward, he will always give you the way. In God's dictionary, walking and way share the same explanation..."

"People can go to heaven, but they can't go to heaven...Heaven is not a space, not a material existence, but a road, a constant spiritual journey..."

A literati who has been sick all year round has more insight than a healthy person. Is it because, after suffering from illness and many obstacles, he had to put a lot of desires on the ground, but it was a blessing in disguise, revealing his true nature, and being closer to life than ordinary people? Truth?

Yi Nan was in a daze. If hardships and setbacks are just a means to let her mind relax and finally be able to wander freely, then when and where is her way out?
Two years ago, she felt that leaving was the wisest choice. Of course, even now, she feels that it is the only correct thing she can do, as if leaving the original world, everything can start again.

But is it really possible?Maybe she really forgot everything during the busy day, but in the sleepless night, who can really escape from facing the real and naked self?

"...elusive, subtle and uncertain, this is night. But not the night of the outer world, but the night of the inner flow..."

A hand-painted card quietly fell out of the book, falling to the ground like autumn leaves.Yi Nan glanced down, then bent down to pick it up.

The picture is very monotonous, the gray mountain is barren, there is no green vegetation, no flying birds, the only thing there is a mountaineer, bowed, carrying a heavy burden on his shoulders, step by step to the Climbing on the top of the mountain, and on the other side of the mountain, the side he can't see, is the vast ocean, boundless dark blue, can't see the joy of victory, can't read the frustration and disappointment, and the cool tone contrasts with a neutral at a loss.

Turn the card over, the back is plain and white, and there is no complicated text, just signed a name in handsome official script—Xu Zhiyuan
This is a sketch that Xu Zhiyuan drew in his spare time when he went out to sketch. Yi Nan found it very interesting, and it is a relatively vivid one among his many freehand brushwork.

"Look, this climber will find the beautiful ocean after he tries his best to climb to the top of the mountain. That's it. His hard work is worth it." Yinan held the card and interpreted it with relish. Appreciating the perseverance of the climbers in the picture, one should have a little persistence.

Xu Zhiyuan sat on the lawn one meter away from her, looked at her with his head tilted for a long time, and suddenly smiled, "What greets him may not be the sea and the sky, but it may also be the sea of ​​suffering."

Yi Nan rolled his eyes at him, "You are such a complete pessimist! Can't you add some positive colors to your works!"

He looked at her and smiled, his eyes were soft, but he didn't argue again.

This is Yi Nan's only memory about Xu Zhiyuan. From the moment she left Liang Zhongming, she was determined to end the entangled past and not leave any trace of memory for herself. .

Only this picture is the reluctance in her heart, not for anything else, but for the persistence that she has interpreted.

Now, just like that mountaineer, she climbs hard during the journey, believing that the final result will be as high as the sky, and she cannot lose this belief no matter what.

Thinking of Xu Zhiyuan, a touch of tenderness rolled over her heart involuntarily. This feeling was different from the unforgettable torture and pain between lovers. It was as soft as a feather, but it could warm people's hearts.

Maybe, because I don't love, I can be so open-minded.But the touch he brought her was unprecedented, and no one could match it.

She was only a sophomore at that time, and in that science-oriented institution, the ratio of male to female students was seriously out of balance. Basically, as long as the girls were not too scary, they would be served early from the freshman year.

Although Yi Nan is not all-powerful, her beautiful appearance is enough to make her stand out among many female compatriots, and she deserves to be a courtyard flower. No matter where she goes, the eyes of the opposite sex follow and flock to her.

Yi Nan, who had come out of the tense and boring high school life, also had fun like a bird released from its cage. The only few female students around her had been in pairs since the second half of the semester. After being dazzled, Nan finally started to try and dated two or three successively.

However, soon, she became bored with this kind of student love. It is not so much love as it is a regular replacement of flower protectors, and Yi Nan attaches great importance to her studies, because it is not easy to get, she gradually She couldn't bear to have someone around her always disturb her when she was studying by herself or listening to lectures.

After being promoted to sophomore year, Yi Nan went against the norm, not only quitting her old boyfriend, but also ignoring new suitors, and devoted herself wholeheartedly to her studies.

In the second half of the sophomore year, Xu Zhiyuan, a transfer student, was transferred to the class. He was born with bright eyes, white teeth, delicate features, and natural shyness. He was particularly eye-catching among a group of boys who were five-year-old and three-year-old, and suddenly became a new target of discussion among the girls. The focus of the chat before and after lights out was almost entirely around the new male protagonist.

Some people say that his family is very rich, because one time they saw him coming to school in a BMW, and the car was parked outside the school gate. After he got out of the car, someone drove the car away; He said hello, so he guessed that he might be the son of a high-ranking cadre, otherwise how could he change schools at will, you must know that their school's college entrance examination scores are notoriously high.

Yi Nan also participates in such topics, but she often appears as a troublemaker, with her hands on her cheeks, and she teases her roommates with a smile, "Oh, driving a BMW, it's really amazing, Uncle Liu, who raises pigs next door, also bought a new horse." BMW, I heard it’s still a bloody BMW, the kind that runs so fast that even rockets follow behind and pant…”

At this time, the roommates would unceremoniously take tissue balls and throw pillows on her bed...

However, Xu Zhiyuan is very low-key. Apart from attending classes every day, it is difficult to see his shadow on campus.He has no friends and never talks about his family affairs. He seems to be very obedient, but when he comes to class, his mind wanders and he likes to scribble in his notebook.

Yi Nan didn't feel any different towards him from the other boys in the class, maybe even more indifferent, because they hardly said a word, while others would at least try to get close to him if they had nothing to do.

Therefore, when she received Xu Zhiyuan's "love letter", she was really taken aback. She took the light blue letterhead and checked it over and over again, wondering if she had read it wrong, and she hadn't received similar expressions before. Letters of admiration, but none can match this surprise.

His handwriting is very beautiful, in a beautiful official script, and nine times out of ten he has copied calligraphy posts assiduously. It is easy to make people feel good about him. There are not many young people who can write good handwriting. It is necessary to calm down practice.

Strictly speaking, it can't be considered a love letter, and his literary talent is very good, he didn't praise Yi Nan like a flower like other boys, which made her goosebumps drop all over the place as a reader.The style of poetry he used, a few paragraphs of very concise words, almost no words of praise, more like expressing his own feelings, made Yinan feel a kind of pessimistic desolation. She was a smart child since she was a child, and she had a strong comprehension ability. She was sure that Xu Zhiyuan unhappy.

Yi Nan began to wonder whether it was because he was too lonely, and although she was concentrating on the book, there were always people around, so lively that people felt that she was a happy bean that was easy to get.
This kind of speculation made Yi Nan curl her lips. She didn't need others to point her out. Of course, she also knew that Xu Zhiyuan must have a good family background, and she could tell from all kinds of signs.Those are definitely two worlds completely different from those of a girl from an ordinary family like her.

Of course, Yi Nan does not reject being Cinderella, the problem is that she has no feelings for the "Prince".

After much hesitation, Yi Nan still decided to call Xu Zhiyuan. Maybe it was his chic pen writing that made her admire. In high school, Yi Nan's head teacher jokingly warned the boys in the class that they should practice their handwriting well so that they could write well in the future. Love letters are useful for chasing girlfriends, and now it seems reasonable; maybe his melancholy made her feel pity, Yi Nan herself is happy, and when she sees someone unhappy, she always feels responsible to enlighten her.

Of course, it may be that Xu Zhiyuan's unusual family background flattered Yi Nan to some extent. She was only 20 years old at the time, so she was naturally unavoidable. Like all girls in the world, she also had longing and vanity.But she couldn't explain the specific reason herself. When she thought about it after a long time, she could only attribute all this to fate in a self-deprecating manner.

Otherwise, how to explain it?
If she hadn't taken the initiative to make this call on a whim, then everything that followed might not have happened.

Yi Nan dialed him according to the mobile phone number left at the end of the letter. It rang for a long time before someone answered, with doubts in his voice, probably because Yi Nan's number was unfamiliar to him.

Xu Zhiyuan's voice was very clear, and Yi Nan couldn't help thinking that if he sang, it would be very nice.He was still shy and didn't talk much, especially after he found out that it was Yi Nan who called.

Their topic had nothing to do with the letter at all, and they were both still shy, so they all walked around and chatted indifferently, but they didn't say a few words, the two of them didn't have much to say.

Yi Nan is a person who is good at teasing, but after all, there is also a faint tension in her heart, mixed with curiosity and anticipation of adventure, so more often silence occupies both ends of the phone, everyone is waiting for the other party to speak first.

Yi Nan soon lost interest, which was far from what she expected. Although she didn't expect Xu Zhiyuan to sing a moving song like Bai Ling, it shouldn't be so dull!
She was about to close the line after hastily delivered the concluding remarks, but Xu Zhiyuan suddenly proposed at the other end to invite her out to play on weekends.

She was in a daze, not knowing whether to accept or refuse, his voice was tense and sincere, as if her decision had the power of life and death, she was inexplicably shocked, and agreed without hesitation.

(End of this chapter)