When he came, the stars fell

Chapter 119 He wants to end in spring
After returning, Cheng Yan stood on the balcony, staring at the distant trees in a daze.

As Su Bai expected, after the post on the post bar was deleted, the person posted a new post, with even more violent words.

Last night, holding her mobile phone in her hand, she stayed in the post bar until after one o'clock in the morning, refuting the negative comments below one sentence at a time.

It's just that she doesn't know Cheng Yan very well, even if she speaks for him, she always refute it from the perspective of not knowing the whole picture and not commenting, and liking the same sex is normal.

If it wasn't because of Cheng Yan this time, Su Bai wouldn't have known that there were so many people playing on the post bar, gossiping and eating melons in the middle of the night, typing on the keyboard and talking about it.

When he was sleepy and had a headache, Su Bai went back to the posts and found someone who was helping Cheng Yan like her.

She recognized two of the IDs, Zhang Chao and Lu Jiayu.

This night, Su Bai fell asleep with his mobile phone in his hand. In the morning, Bai Ruofang came to wake her up, saw the mobile phone she was holding, and blamed her, saying that it was fine for her to go to the movies, and she would not sleep well when she came back.

After replying with a few perfunctory sentences, Su Bai took the time to reply a message to Jiang Mo.

At twelve o'clock last night, Jiang Mo came to ask her if she was asleep, but she didn't reply immediately, and then Jiang Mo sent another message, urging her not to stay up too late because of Cheng Yan's matter.

It felt like Jiang Mo knew she wasn't asleep, Su Bai thought about it and still didn't reply, pretending that he was asleep, and made Jiang Mo less worried.

Fortunately, there was no morning self-study on Sunday. When Su Bai arrived at school at seven o'clock, he bumped into Zhang Chao on the stairs. The man had dark circles deeper than hers, and yawned to say good morning to her.

"I hope Cheng Yan doesn't like posting."

When entering the classroom, Zhang Chao said this.

At present, the news is only spread in the post bar. If Cheng Yan doesn't use the post bar and no one comes to him to mention it, then he won't know about it in a short time.

But, things are not as expected.

Before the start of the second class, since they broke up, Zhong Xue rarely appeared at the back door of the intensive class and called Cheng Yan out.

"Cheng Yan, were you from the High School Attached to N University?"

Cheng Yan didn't want to talk to him, but out of politeness, he answered, "Yes."

"Then why did you transfer schools?" Zhong Xue asked.

"No reason."

This was Cheng Yan's usual answer to others.

People in the intensive class had also speculated about this, but they didn't hold on to it, thinking that everyone had their own privacy.

When Lao He came from the direction of the office, Cheng Yan saw it, but he didn't feel nervous because he was talking with the girl at that time. He knew that as a man, he would not talk to each other because of a few words between boys and girls. Just crowned the name of puppy love.

At this time, he never thought that Zhong Xue would say what he said later.

"Cheng Yan, I heard that you transferred because you liked boys, had promiscuous sex with boys, and were isolated and excluded by your classmates in the high school attached to N University, so you transferred, right?"

Cheng Yan's face instantly turned pale, and in the corner of his eye, Old He froze in place.

"I regret it when I think about it now. How could I have fallen in love with someone like you before?" Zhong Xue looked Cheng Yan up and down, with unabashed contempt in his eyes.

"Cheng Yan, you are so disgusting..."

"Keep your mouth clean." Zhang Chao rushed out of the classroom, pulling Cheng Yan behind him.

"Who are you talking about!"

"Tell me about you." Zhang Chao looked down at Zhong Xue, imitating Zhong Xue's appearance, looked her up and down, and let out a long "Hey", "Before you want to talk about others, you must first think about what you have. You are not qualified, just open your mouth to evaluate our Cheng Yan, are you worthy?"

"Why didn't I, you made it clear to me!" Zhong Xue poked her neck and pointed at Zhang Chao.

Zhang Chao rolled his eyes, "Am I wrong? Are you Cheng Yan? Are you his relative or his friend? It's nothing. Why do you speak of him?"

"I'm simply giving him advice."

"Just giving advice? Zhong Xue, do you have better grades than him, or do you look better than him, or do you think you have talked to a lot of people and are very mature, so you put on a shy face to educate others? "

"you--"

"What are you doing one by one, did you hear the preparatory bell?"

Old He's voice came from behind, and Zhong Xue's body froze. Apart from nervousness, she was also a little curious. I wondered how much the class teacher had heard, and whether he thought Cheng Yan was disgusting like her.

Zhang Chao was also taken aback for a moment. He was in a hurry to come out and speak for Cheng Yan, completely ignoring Lao He who was standing not far away.

"What are you doing standing there, go back to the classroom and get ready for class!"

Lao He walked among the three people who hadn't moved, looked at Zhong Xue, "What's the matter, do you want to study in our class?"

"No, no."

After Zhong Xue finished speaking, she hurriedly turned and went back to the classroom.

"You two don't stand still, go back."

He raised his foot and wanted to leave, but Lao He held up the lesson plan in his hand, gave Zhang Chao a false nod, and said with a smile, "I never thought you would bully girls."

Without giving Zhang Chao a chance to answer, Lao He walked towards the front door.

Heaving a sigh of relief, Zhang Chao turned around and patted Cheng Yan's arm. The moment he touched it, he saw Cheng Yan shrink his arm subconsciously.

After pausing for a while, Zhang Chao said as if nothing had happened: "Let's go, go back to the classroom for class, otherwise why should I be angry?"

"Ah."

Turning around and entering the classroom, Cheng Yan met Qi Yu's gaze as soon as he raised his eyes.

The other party seemed to be in a daze. After meeting his gaze, he turned his body hastily and stopped looking at him.

When Cheng Yan passed behind his seat, Qi Yu moved the stool forward a little.

After class, Lao He first called Zhang Chao away, and after a few minutes, Zhang Chao came back and asked Cheng Yan to go to the office.

As soon as Cheng Yan left, Zhang Chao ran to Su Bai's seat and told what happened during class.

"Why did He find you?" Su Bai asked with a frown.

"Old He heard about Cheng Yan's liking for boys, so he asked me how the news got out, and asked me to teach him to take a look at the Post Bar."

After Zhang Chao finished speaking, he was a little worried, "Susu, you said Lao He wouldn't say anything unpleasant to Cheng Yan, right?"

"Probably not." Su Bai said.

It is not common to transfer to another school in the third year of high school, because the environment will have a certain impact on the students. If the situation permits, no parent is willing to let their child transfer to another school. Lao He must also know this.

Thinking back to when Cheng Yan first transferred to their class, Old He was grinning from ear to ear. He must have known about Cheng Yan's grades, and as a serious and responsible class teacher, what he knew was definitely not just grades, he had to inquire about it no matter what. Explain the reason for the transfer.

After all, in terms of teaching level, the High School Attached to N University is much better than the Third Middle School.

Maybe Lao He didn't know that Cheng Yan liked boys, at least he should know that he had a bad relationship with his classmates at school.

Taking a deep breath, Su Bai was somewhat disgusted with his conjecture just now.

She thinks this way because she has believed what was said in that post.

Although she didn't think liking the same sex was something shameful, but just now, without any verification, she thought Cheng Yan was gay.

Maybe it's because she once heard Qi Yu talk about Chengyan being bullied, and liking the same sex is indeed a thing that will be excluded by people around her.

Unable to think of a solution, Zhang Chao just squatted beside Su Bai's seat.

Suddenly, he patted Su Bai's arm, "Hey, Susu, Cheng Yan is back."

Because he was too excited, he confiscated all the strength in his hands. After he finished taking pictures of Su Bai, he couldn't help but stretched out his hand to touch it, but he didn't say anything.

Zhang Chao didn't notice her movement, he stood up and stared at Cheng Yan at the door of the classroom, "However, why do I feel that he is not going to enter the classroom?"

Su Bai turned his head to look, Cheng Yan was standing in front of the balcony, seeming to be looking into the distance.

For him, the balcony is not too high, and he can climb up with a little effort.

Cheng Yan turned his gaze to the trees in the distance, because it was winter, except for some evergreen trees, most of the trees were bare and not very attractive.

He felt that dying in this season was inexplicably a bit bleak.

If it is still the method of jumping off a building, it will be even more bleak.

In fact, he wanted to end in the spring.

Spring is warm and flowers are blooming, a little bit beautiful, everything is recovering, and no one will care about his disappearance.

If he hadn't listened to Zhong Xue's words, Cheng Yan would not have known that his affairs had already been spread like this.

In the few minutes after class, Zhang Chao was called away by Lao He, he turned on his mobile phone after a long absence, and saw many messages from his so-called younger brother.

First, there was a lot of concern, asking how he was doing.

She said that she knew that he had a cold personality and didn't like to talk with classmates, so she would help him and give him a good introduction in school.

He didn't read the following news, and opened the Post Bar directly.

No. [-] Middle School does not have public accounts such as the confession wall from the High School Attached to N University. The place where everyone gets news is basically through the post bar.

After entering the post bar, Cheng Yan saw himself in the first post of the latest reply.

Every time he read a line of words, Cheng Yan's heart became colder.

Before he had time to read the comments below, Zhang Chao came back and said that Lao He asked him to go to the office.

Lao He is very nice, I didn’t ask him about the postings, he just cared about his study and life, no matter the details, and finally let him learn to relax and talk, if he has something on his mind or encounters any difficulties , you can talk to him or Su Bai at any time.

The old man is really good.

But Cheng Yan still felt very tired.

From city Y to city N, the distance of hundreds of kilometers takes about four hours by bus.

But in this information age, distance cannot be the basis for covering up his past.

Even if his younger brother didn't take half a step into Y City, it would still make him fall into the same quagmire as he was in the attached high school again.

Maybe Lao He doesn't care about this kind of thing now, can he do it later?
When these things spread throughout the No. [-] Middle School, and most people excluded him and scolded him, could those few people who thought he was right still stand by his side?
He didn't have the confidence to make these people who had little relationship with him stand behind him and support him all the time.

Even if there are some people who are willing to support him, at that time, he doesn't want these people to be blamed by most people because of him.

Cheng Yan suddenly felt that no matter where he went, someone would follow him and tell everything about him without his permission.

The only solution seems to be that he disappears into this world.

But what did he do wrong?

The balcony is not high.

Otherwise, winter will be winter, although it seems a little more bleak than the previous autumn.

But autumn has passed, and spring is too far away.

I don't know if the school will have a holiday because of him. At that time, when the students talk about themselves, maybe they will be more grateful for the holiday?
There is grass under the balcony, which cannot be trampled on, so no one will be there, and no one will be hit, which is very good.

Well, so be it.

Cheng Yan lifted his foot and took another step closer to the balcony. He raised his hands and put them on the balcony, and began to exert force with his palms.

"Cheng Yan." Su Bai's voice came from behind him, sounding anxious.

Noticing that the boy's body was a little stiff, Su Bai withdrew his gaze from his hand and walked quickly to his side.

"Candy, Cheng Yan?"

Spread out the palm, inside are a few pieces of chocolate and toffee.

"The taste is quite good, Cheng Yan, let's have one."

The boy didn't move, Su Bai just raised his hands quietly, looked at him expectantly with a slight smile on his face.

"Okay, thank you."

Cheng Yan took his hand off the balcony, picked out a candy at random, peeled it off and put it in his mouth.

Su Bai didn't eat it himself, and put the remaining candy into his pocket.

"New Year's Day will be in a few days, and we should have a New Year's Day party in the class. Cheng Yan, do you have any talents, and you can also perform one at that time?"

"No." Cheng Yan said coldly.

He may not live to that time.

"No, it's okay. Someone will go up to perform at that time, we just need to watch."

Cheng Yan didn't answer, and Cheng Yan just quietly looked at the balcony countertop with sugar in his mouth.

"When your high school is on New Year's Day, will there be a New Year's Day party?"

"Have."

"Is it a class, or a large party like No. [-] Middle School?"

For the first time, Cheng Yan felt that Su spoke a lot in vernacular, since when he saw her before, he only focused on the main points.

After complaining in his heart, he answered, "Large."

"It should be quite lively." Su Bai said dryly.

She didn't know what to talk about, but she also felt that Cheng Yan couldn't be left here alone.

"It's almost the end of the term, did Lao He talk to you about your grades? Don't feel pressured, Lao He just sees that you do well in the exam, and has expectations for you..."

"What was said in the post bar is true." Cheng Yan interrupted her, tilted his head and looked at her, his eyes were as silent as stagnant water.

"I do like boys. It's because I like boys that I was isolated and excluded. I couldn't stay in the middle school before I transferred here. I'm just like the post said, a disgusting and contrived person"

Didn't I just want to ask him this, he said it himself.

"So what?"

"what?"

Su Bai didn't look around to talk about him, and didn't avoid Cheng Yan's gaze, "So, you like boys, so what?"

"Didn't you read the post, I did a lot of disgusting things." Cheng Yan said.

"Really? Is everything in the post true?"

　I had a lot of shopping in the supermarket today, and I almost didn't finish coding when I came back.

　　The missing chapter in May will be supplemented on the third issue.

　　Good night (≧≦*)
　　
　
(End of this chapter)