Your warmth, my love

Chapter 145 Not All the Past Can Be Forgive by Love

Seeing that I didn't respond, Zou Moyan tried to hold me in his arms. It was very inconvenient for him to be able to move freely with one hand, so I dodged and retreated from his arms.

"Mo Yan, why didn't you tell me when you knew the reason of your father's death? You can also tell me about your relationship with Li Nan before we meet again, and the existence of Xue'er, she is yours Sister, it's not your child, why didn't you tell me all of this?"

"I have my reasons."

"Yes, you have your own reasons. From the very beginning, you wanted to play hard to catch me. You calculated everything and watched me throw myself into the trap. You arranged this game yourself, and every link is under your control. People are watching my jokes and seeing this so-called perfect ending."

"I love you, it's true."

"I know, but this is not based on the fact that we treat each other honestly. Don't you want to take revenge on me and then imprison me in your arms step by step? You don't want our children, you acquiesce in Li Nan's existence, You didn't even tell me the truth about my Aunt Cai's car accident, and when I knew they had planted the so-called perpetrator of the car accident on you, I racked my brains to justify, you asked me to believe you, and I would Believe in you, but you never gave me a reason to believe in you."

"Don't get excited." Zou Moyan looked at me with a hurt look in his eyes, "Some things are better than knowing happiness, Jiajia, everything you see may not be the truth, there is a threadbare relationship in it, I don't want you To go through this process, what I want to give you is just a result. For Li Nan, I acquiesce because she is Xueer's mother, and it was not the best time to move to her before, and now she has also received the punishment she deserved. .”

"You're wrong, Zou Moyan, you said you don't want me to go through these processes, but don't forget, everything happened because of it, how can I really escape from all of this?"

Zou Moyan stopped talking. He took off the cold appearance that he was good at disguising before, and looked at me with a probing look in front of me. He was afraid that I would expose her, afraid of my questioning, afraid of my doubts, and Those are not sure.

As for me, under the calmness I tried my best to pretend, I was left with a heart full of holes.

Thinking of the life and death we have experienced together these days, and those bloody scenes, my heart throbbed. What Zou Moyan gave me was the best love in the world, but the process was really hard enough.

My Zou Moyan, loves me so much that he has already resorted to all means.

Zou Moyan, who used to be sullen and sensual, has now completely turned into a bloodthirsty and indifferent man!

We sat quietly, he looked at me, and I stared blankly at the cup in front of me.

Probably because I felt my eyes were sore, I blinked my eyes, looked up at Zou Moyan, and she was fascinated by me, and the moment her eyes met mine, he quickly averted her gaze.

After a long time, I said, "I want to go home."

Zou Moyan asked the driver to drive me out of He Chang'an's factory. I thought I would never want to come here again in my life. On the way back, I kept playing all the clips about Li Nan back and forth in my mind. Her arrogance, her arrogance, her Her own self-righteousness, and her final dismal end.

When the car was about to go downstairs to Zou Moyan's house, I told the driver an address, and the driver stopped the car, as if to ask what Zou Moyan meant. I turned my head and said to Zou Moyan, "I want to go back to my own home?"

Zou Moyan looked at me carefully, "Why?"

"There is no reason, I just feel very tired after going through all this, and I want to go back to my home to rest."

Zou Moyan didn't speak, I looked at his furrowed brows and said, "Mo Yan, you see so many things happened between us, you love me, I love you too, our relationship is fine, don't go Doubting whether I love you, I really need to be quiet now to smooth out all these relationships."

Zou Moyan clenched his hands tightly into a fist, and after a while he said: "You are very hypocritical, there must be a limit to your willfulness."

I nodded, "Yes, I'm very hypocritical. I used to be hypocritical because you were used to it. Now I'm hypocritical because I'm used to myself. I'm not self-willed, I just follow my inner thoughts."

Zou Moyan asked the driver to unlock the whole car without hesitation. I opened the door and got out of the car. He closed his eyes and said nothing, while I walked in the opposite direction after getting out of the car.

Zou Moyan, in fact, I really can't accept that you don't love our child, and I can't accept that you have always known everything about playing hard to get me. You really love me, and this so-called true love is not yours after all. The purpose from the beginning, everything you did to me, was ultimately based on revenge.

I love you enough to die, and you love me so much that I'm not afraid.

But there are many gaps between us, deception, past events, and now I am confused about the future.

I am timid, afraid of pain, hypocritical, and vain. I have stage fright in front of the so-called happiness. It is like a crossroads in life. I have to choose one of the four directions.

And I, after all, am no longer the He Jiaran who can live a lifetime relying on love.

After going through these things, I want to settle down and start a new life of my own.

I called my father, and he said he was busy. I told me where Aunt Cai was buried, and he gave me an address.

I took a taxi and headed to that address. It was a cemetery in the suburbs. It was very quiet here. I bought flowers and went to Aunt Cai’s tombstone. I looked at the photos on the tombstone for a long time.

Aunt Cai, why am I still not happy that this is over?

In the photo on the tombstone, Aunt Cai smiled calmly and naturally. I talked about a lot of things that happened recently, including my current situation, my confusion, and many things I was thinking about right now.

As it was getting late, I left the cemetery and boarded the taxi home alone.

I talked with my brother on the phone for a while at night, and he said he was fine, and my sister-in-law was also fine, which reassured me.

I told the news of Aunt Cai's death, and my brother was silent for a while and said, it's better to leave, so you don't have to suffer.

I said I'm fine too, brother, what I couldn't see or let go before, now I understand.

My brother said, Jiajia, you will be happy.

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I didn't contact Zou Moyan in the next few days, and Zou Moyan didn't contact me either. Everything returned to the way it was before. I started looking for a job. I went to interview for any office clerk or salesman, and finally arrived. A trading company was doing foreign language translation. At that time, the interviewer was not looking at my academic qualifications, but my specialty of being proficient in four languages. He asked me to translate several short messages on the spot, and I did my best without any mistakes.

At this time, should I thank Zou Moyan for forcing me to learn these things?

Unexpectedly, it has become my survival skill now.

The remuneration of the new job is much worse than the remuneration in the bank before. The probationary period is [-], and after becoming a full-time employee, [-] plus commission. I roughly calculated that I have to translate about [-] words of documents every month to get [-]. Left and right, and if I don't do this job, I don't have any job opportunities right now.

Thinking about my rent and my daily expenses, I chose to report to the company the next day.

The company is not very big, and everyone is in a huge office area. We are managed by a middle-aged man with greasy hair and noodles, Vice President Zhao. He is very harsh on newcomers. On the first day, I didn’t even start translating the documents. He told me where to print and where Where to copy where to buy fast food and where to receive express delivery? When I was busy all morning before my feet touched the ground, he asked me to help him make coffee. I was full of resentment and went to his desk and asked him, "Deputy Zhao Anyway, I'm here to be an interpreter, not a handyman."

"Does it matter?" Vice President Zhao drank his coffee slowly, "All newcomers are like this, do what you can, and don't fuck."

"You..." I gritted my teeth and swallowed the words I was about to scold. Vice President Zhao looked smugly at me, looked at my outfit, and sneered, "Do you think we are so messy here? Everyone started from this of."

When I started working in the bank, it was because Lu Chengying asked someone to say something, and with my education background, everyone had an inexplicable respect for me. Naturally, I have never been wronged like this, and Vice President Zhao is now such a virtuous person. With this swagger in front of me calling me, I can't wait to pour a cup of coffee on it.

"Don't look at me with that unconvinced look." Vice President Zhao stood up triumphantly, and sneered, "Your work is fixed. If you can't finish it during the day and go home to do it at night, you have to listen to it in the company. Do you understand my arrangement?"

"it is good."

"Now go to the eighth floor of the office building opposite to get a document."

This is obviously beyond the scope of my work, I glared at him angrily, went downstairs, and ran to the office building opposite, thinking that I didn't have a coat, I was wearing a narrow suit skirt and flesh-colored stockings. In this early spring season, when I crossed the road, it was so cold that I shivered all over.

I went to the opposite side to get my things and waited for the elevator. After entering, I found that the elevator was going up. After I was annoyed why I didn't see it clearly, Zou Moyan suddenly appeared in front of me. He was followed by two people, who seemed to be reporting something. , Zou Moyan was obviously taken aback when he saw it, but he also quickly walked into the elevator, nothing unusual.

He lost weight, his gaze became colder, and his complexion was serious and handsome.

After entering the spacious elevator, Zou Moyan, I, and the two people brought by Zou Moyan, why do I feel that the air is so thin?

The elevator reached the first floor, and I was about to go down when I suddenly felt warmth on my shoulders, Zou Moyan put his black coat on me, I looked back at him, he got out of the elevator expressionlessly, without even looking at him I.

And when my hand touched the coat on my body, the warmth moistened my heart.

(End of this chapter)