The days of cohabitation with gangster boyfriend

Chapter 46

The rain outside became torrential at some point, making the world dark and cold as hell.

I stood in the rain, and the gust of wind and rain hit me mercilessly, waking up me who was drowning in illusory happiness.

I would lie so engrossed under the man who killed my whole family that I almost gave myself over to him.

I covered my face and squatted in the heavy rain regretfully!
"Beibei!" Dai Xichen caught up, pulled me up and hugged me: "I'm sorry! I was impulsive, don't be angry, I promise you it will never happen again in the future."

"Why are you doing this to me? Why are you doing this to me!"

I broke free and took a few steps back.

I don't hate him, I hate myself.

He shook his head with a wry smile, and he spat out another big mouthful of blood on the ground, which was quickly diluted by the rain into light red and merged into the rapids.

"In this environment, watching such a pornographic movie, and you ask obvious questions, if I don't respond, I'm not a man!"

"I'm not asking you this! Why are you so nice to me? Why are you falling in love with me? I don't want your love, and I can't afford your love!"

"Babe..."

Why is his voice always so gentle, every call makes me addicted irresistibly.

I covered my ears and didn't want to hear any more: "Stop yelling! I'm the most vicious woman in the world, and I'm ridiculously stupid! I don't even know what I want to do!"

"Don't say that, you are still young, and you will understand emotional things when you grow up!"

"I understand! I understand everything!"

I have been by his side for eight years, what have I done!
For a stupid woman like me, maybe when he dies of old age, I will still love and miss him foolishly!
"Don't cry, okay?"

Seeing his hand reaching out to me, I took a few steps back: "Don't touch me! I hate you, I hate you!"

"Really, really hate me?"

"I can't wait for you to die!" I cried and beat him, waving my fist and hitting his chest hard, and he stood in the rain and let me beat him.

In the rain, he stood in front of me like a statue, and I could see his heartache, his helplessness, and his persistence.

Why is God so cruel, why does it make me hate him to the bone, and there is no way not to be affected by his love!

"Maybe I was wrong... I didn't mean to force you! If you are 27 years old and you know what love is, I can let you choose. But you are still young, and you don't understand what love is and what infatuation is. How much can you understand him? He is just your dream! The person who has been with you day and night for eight years is me. You don’t have to say anything, I can understand what you need and what you desire. My feelings for you are real Love……"

"Don't say it!"

"You will regret leaving me. One day, you will find that you can't leave me, just like I can't leave you!"

"is it?"

"What do you want me to say to make you understand?"

"I see!"

At that moment, I understood one thing, I couldn't leave him, just like he couldn't leave me!
Love and hate are intertwined and cannot be untied. I suffer when he is alive, and I suffer even more when he dies. Living by his side is worse than death. Leaving him... What am I still alive for? !

A light flashed in my mind, I made the smartest and stupidest decision, I took a few steps back, turned around...

If I can't kill him, the only way I can get revenge on him is to make him live in pain for the rest of his life!
If my death is a kind of torture to him, then for me, it should be the best relief!

The streets washed by the heavy rain are immaculate.

The headlights of nearby cars blinded people.

I rushed over and stopped in the middle of the road...

Screeching brakes, dull thuds...

I didn't feel any pain at all, because I was held in his arms intact, watching his blood stained me stupidly.

At that moment, I realized: It turned out to be so easy to kill him!
(End of this chapter)