unresponsive love

Chapter 149 Honey, Divorce

In City C, upon learning that Lu Nansheng and Xia Lin had returned, Mama Liu came to the airport to pick them up early, and even Xia Jianguo also came.

Seeing these familiar people, Xia Lin walked over and hugged Liu Ma, "Liu Ma, I miss you very much."

"Liu's mother misses you very much too." Liu's mother was so happy that she burst into tears. "You guys are back. Are you enjoying your time in London? You must be very happy to come back after so many months."

"Yes, I'm very happy." Xia Lin smiled, let go of Mama Liu, and walked towards Xia Jianguo again, "Dad, I'm back."

Xia Jianguo took the initiative to go over and hug her gently, "Just come back."

"I miss you so much during this time." She said sincerely.

"The girl can say things to make me happy?" Xia Jianguo laughed, seeing that she could come back, there was nothing that made him happier than this.

She's fine, she's fine...

Xia Lin patted him on the back, with a satisfied smile on his face, "I'm telling the truth."

Xia Jianguo shook his head with a smile. After pushing her away, he cast his eyes on Lu Nansheng behind her, with meaningful eyes, "You didn't disappoint me."

This time, Lu Nansheng was not as arrogant as usual, he just came over and held Xia Lin's finger, and said to everyone, "Let's go."

His deep look suddenly made Xia Jianguo a little strange again, but seeing that his daughter was fine, they all came back, so they didn't think much about it.

After returning to Splendid Garden from the airport, Lu Nansheng and Xia Lin both went upstairs to rest to adjust the time difference. Taking advantage of this time, Liu Ma went out to buy vegetables, and when she came back, she cooked a table full of vegetables.

In the evening, after the meal was ready, Xia Lin woke up and called Xia Jianguo to come over to have dinner with him. Xia Jianguo didn't refuse, and soon came to Splendid Garden.

On the way to dinner, Liu Ma asked Lu Nansheng curiously, "Didn't that child Zuo Tang come back with you?"

Lu Nansheng raised a glass of wine to touch Xia Jianguo, drank it down, and then replied, "I asked him to do some things, and he will be back in a while."

Liu Ma nodded, but did not continue to ask what she was going to do.

**
After almost a month, Zuo Tang came back, and told him solemnly, "Chu Xiu still can't find it, about the virus... I have consulted experts everywhere, and no one is sure what will happen in the future." In this way, we will only find out when the child is born, and their suggestion is to abort the child now..."

"..."

"In addition, Master Liu is still dissatisfied with the young lady. Although there is no action now, because of the matter of young master Liu, Master Liu may be unfavorable to the young lady sooner or later. He may do something to the young lady after the child is born. ..."

After Lu Nansheng listened to these, there was no emotion on his stern face, and he turned and left without even answering Zuo Tang.

**
After another two months, Xia Lin's belly became prominent.

Lu Nansheng accompanied her to the prenatal checkup. After the checkup, Lu Nansheng made an excuse and asked Zuo Tang to take Xia Lin away, while he stayed alone and asked the doctor, "Is there any problem with the baby check?"

The doctor read the examination report and said honestly, "Except that the development is not as good as other normal fetuses, nothing else has been detected. What you are concerned about is whether you will have the virus or not, and you will not know until after you are born. "

Only after I was born did I know...

When Lu Nansheng walked out of the hospital, Xia Lin and Zuo Tang were already waiting outside. Seeing him come out, Xia Lin stepped forward and asked with a smile, "How's the test result?"

"The doctor said there's nothing wrong, the baby is fine." He held her hand, his deep eyes were full of indulgence, "Let Mama Liu cook some more delicious dishes tonight, so that you can replenish your body."

She also held his hand, "OK."

**
Time passed quickly, and in a blink of an eye, it was only one month before the due date.

Lu Nansheng held Xia Lin's hand and let her walk back and forth in the room. During this period of time, she became very careful because of her pregnancy, so she didn't go out very much. She usually spent time in the garden or walking around the room. Individuals only focus on the child, and are indifferent to the rest.

Liu Yuechuan came back from the United States for treatment. Although he left behind some sequelae, he was fine. He would visit them once in a while, but each time, only Lu Nansheng met him, and Xia Lin almost never showed up.

This made Liu Yuechuan quite puzzled, but he didn't delve into anything further, thinking that it might be a problem with her personality, she would leave after chatting with Lu Nansheng.

Until this day, just taking two steps in the room, Xia Lin suddenly felt a liquid flow out of her body.

She subconsciously looked down at her lower body, because it was already a hot day and she was wearing thin clothes, and the water flowing down her legs slid down with traces of blood.

Lu Nansheng noticed her situation, and his pupils suddenly shrank together tightly.

"Lu Nansheng..." She grabbed his wrist and squeezed it hard, her breathing became difficult, and she felt pain in her stomach, "Hurry up...the amniotic fluid broke...go to the hospital...quick..."

Without even thinking extra, Lu Nansheng picked her up and rushed out of the room. Zuo Tang was in the living room on the first floor. Seeing him coming out, before he could speak, Lu Nansheng said in a hasty and even crazy voice, "Go drive!"

Seeing Xia Lin lying in his arms, Zuo Tang knew what was going on just by looking at him, so Zuo Tang could not afford to be negligent, grabbed the car keys and rushed out the door after them.

Women's Hospital.

There were bursts of hurried and hurried footsteps in the corridor, accompanied by bursts of noise.

"Isn't there still one month's due date? The pregnant woman maintained such a good mood and nutrition before, how could she give birth one month early?"

"I don't know about this, hurry up and deliver the baby, the pregnant woman is about to give birth."

Xia Lin was pushed into the delivery room, and Lu Nansheng put on a sterile suit beside her. She grabbed him tightly with one hand and called out to him in pain, "Lu Nansheng... Lu Nansheng... Lu Nansheng..."

"I'm here." He held her hand tightly, looking at her weak and pale face that was sweating profusely due to labor pains, his heart seemed to be caught by something, "I'm here..."

"I'm afraid..." Her fingers were cold, her whole body was trembling, and the tears that she had not dared to shed for several months finally burst out of her eyes unscrupulously, "Lu Nansheng, I'm afraid, don't leave me alone, I'm afraid..."

"Don't be afraid, you are very brave, you are very strong..." He tried his best to soothe her emotions, tried his best to smile, but his smile was pale, wiped away her tears with one hand, and rubbed her forehead, "Mrs. Lu , you are the bravest, I will be by your side, you are not alone, you have never been alone..."

"But, it hurts...it really hurts..." She frowned tightly in pain, and grabbed his hand instead, pulling out bloodstains, and tears of sadness flowed down her temples, " Lu Nansheng, I'm sorry...Actually, I didn't manage to really turn a blind eye to Chu Xiu's death...I didn't manage to be indifferent to Liu Yuechuan's almost death. pain……"

"..."

"But I dare not let my mood be wrong, I dare not let me be in a bad mood... I am afraid that this child will be the same as the last one, so I have been suppressing... But in fact, I have not done it at all, I can't do it right They don't feel guilty at all... Lu Nansheng, I'm really sorry... I'm sorry..." Vulnerable because of the pain, she almost unconsciously expressed the true thoughts that had been accumulated in her heart for so long.

She has suppressed these things in her heart for a long time, and has never dared to say them out. For such a long time, she dared not say, cry, or be in a bad mood, and smiled every day... But in fact, these are all She was just deceiving herself, one person was dead, and the other almost died too, why didn't she care about such things?
She felt that Liu Zongyao was right to hate her, it was all her fault, so everyone was right to hate her, even if Lu Nansheng blamed her for almost killing Liu Yuechuan, she had nothing to say.

But for the sake of this child, she had to endure everything and suppress all negative emotions, but the truth is, she still couldn't suppress it, at least many nights when she dreamed, she would dream that Chu Xiu was tortured by others and was in pain She would dream of Liu Yuechuan falling in front of her again and again...

Many times she was thinking, if she hadn't persisted from the beginning, she would have completely disappeared from Lu Nansheng's world a long time ago, and the result...would it be different?
"It's not your fault, it's not your fault." Lu Nansheng's heart seemed to be constricted, and he rubbed his fingers on her sweaty head, "It's not your fault, don't think so much..."

"But Liu Yuechuan is your brother, your favorite brother...he has helped me so much, but I have hurt him..." Her tears of grief could not be stopped, and her chest heaved violently, "Chu Xiu used his own The person who saved my life, I couldn't accompany him to the end... He was even taken away by others before he died, and he couldn't be at peace...I...I..."

Suddenly, the ECG equipment next to it made a beeping sound, and the doctor's face changed drastically, "The mother passed out, and her blood pressure dropped sharply. The upper pressure was 89, and the lower pressure was 60!"

"Heart rate 48!"

"Quick, take first aid measures!"

Lu Nansheng was stunned, his eyes fixed on the weak woman who passed out on the hospital bed, and the world seemed to freeze.

In the empty world, he couldn't hear the noisy voices in his ears, until a doctor beside him pulled him up, "Mr. Lu, you go out first, and you can't stimulate the pregnant woman again."

Lu Nansheng was thrown out by the doctor just like that, and Lu Nansheng was in a daze. Even though Zuo Tang yelled a lot beside him, he couldn't get his thoughts back.

An hour later, there was a loud cry of a baby in the delivery room...

Hearing this voice, Zuo Tang was so happy that he suddenly cheered, "Young Master Lu, gave birth! Young lady gave birth!!"

When Lu Nansheng heard it, his face was happy at first, but the happiness didn't last long, and then he said, "Take the child for examination."

Zuo Tang knew exactly what he meant, his joyful face just now dimmed instantly, and after a long silence, he said a word in pain, "Yes."

After the examination results came out, Zuo Tang reported a serious fact to Lu Nansheng...

**
Xia Lin didn't know how long she had been in a coma. When she woke up, her mind was blank, and then her eyes slowly became focused, and she realized that she had left the delivery room and was now in the ward.

Seeing a man sitting beside her with stiff eyes, she suddenly felt lucky to survive a catastrophe, and called out weakly, "Lu Nansheng..."

Because it was night, there was no opening in the ward, and Lu Nansheng's expression with his back to the window was buried in the darkness. She tried several times, but couldn't see his appearance clearly.

He didn't open his mouth to speak, she smiled weakly, and raised her lips to ask, "Wh, where is the child...? How is he?"

"There's one thing I haven't told you all this time." He sat in the darkness with a hoarse and deep voice.

"What, what?" She really wanted to smile hard, but the slight upward arc was so stiff that she could feel it herself.

Knowing that he would definitely say something she didn't want to hear next, she still forced herself to ask.

"This child has the previous virus in his body, and I have kept this matter from you." He said in a calm voice, "I used to think that I could find a way to control the dispersal, and I thought that the child might not necessarily carry the virus, but As a result, the newly born child died not long after."

"..."

"The simple meaning is that he was born with the virus in his body, and because he couldn't bear it, he died not long after he was born."

"No!!" Xia Lin suddenly seemed to be crazy, sat up from the bed and grabbed his shoulders excitedly, his weak eyes were bloodthirsty, "You lied, you lied, you lied!!"

How could it be possible to die?

How could it be possible to die just after being born?

Obviously everything was fine during the prenatal checkup, everything was fine, how could she die not long after birth?
She can't accept this fact, and she will never accept this fact, she has already lost one child, should she lose the second?

She had lost enough, was she going to lose her child too?

Don't...she doesn't want this result...she doesn't want such a cruel fact...she will collapse...

"I didn't lie to you." He suddenly smiled, followed her to grab his shoulders tightly, and said, "Actually, it's not bad to lose now, it's better than watching him grow up later, and then losing it anytime, anywhere." It tastes much better."

Xia Lin was stunned suddenly, her eyes widened in disbelief, and she suddenly felt that Lu Nansheng at this moment was very strange...

Some of the cracks that had been planted a few months ago were completely broken in an instant, and even the little peace and security that she and he could maintain disappeared.

Some seeds of despair have been buried in the body for too long, and now they are taking root and sprouting uncontrollably, suppressed for too long, trying to maintain for too long, at this moment, finally, completely desperate...

Suddenly she was no longer excited, but calmed down and fell down on the hospital bed, her eyes were empty and lifeless, as if she had lost the dawn and fell into the despair of a bottomless black hole, she didn't know how to struggle again.

In the silent space, she stared at the ceiling, and slowly, she said, "Lu Nansheng, I'm tired."

"..."

"It seems..." smiled, and said in a quiet voice, "It seems that I am really tired..."

She is tired of this love with him that has reached this stage. She has never been more tired than now.

Because of Chu Xiu, because of what happened to Liu Yuechuan, she was already exhausted.

But now, she didn't even have the last point of being involved with him that made her try to persuade herself not to think so much, so she was really tired, so tired that she could no longer struggle, be brave, and work hard...

Wouldn't it be nice if you didn't insist on it in the first place?

She believed that not only was she tired, but he must have also been tired long ago. This relationship was too tight and depressing, and they hadn't given them any chance to breathe. How could they not be tired?
"Lu Nansheng, I really worked hard, really hard, really hard..." She took a deep breath, and said with a smile, "But now, I'm tired... Really, really tired, so tired..."

I was so tired that I didn't want to wake up, so I just fell asleep...

One sentence is tired, I really don’t know how many things will be broken, I don’t know how easy it is to smash things that are not easy to persist...

Lu Nansheng didn't speak, just stood up, turned around and went out to open the door, walked out, and then the footsteps gradually moved away.

Lying on the hospital bed, Xia Lin smiled with her lips curled up. The smile was pale and weak, and she slowly closed her eyes again. She let the hot tears flow down her temples, and her sadness flowed like a river.

It turns out that the feeling of falling from heaven to hell again and again, no matter how many times it is, is still so uncomfortable...

But this time, I can no longer find a reason to convince myself, let myself persist, some things, some people, some things, will be separated there for the rest of my life, it is difficult for her to get over it, I am afraid even he is the same ...

She knew that he had done a lot for her, and knew his feelings for her, but the reality was so cruel sometimes, even if she wanted to continue, she was powerless.

Perhaps, there is no need to persist at the beginning, and it would be nice to miss it at the beginning...

After a long time, the ward was eerily quiet. Xia Lin lifted the sheet, got up and got out of bed.

Because of weakness and weakness, my legs trembled after walking a few steps.

Finally, she finally came to the door of the ward, she held the doorknob with her pale fingers, opened the door and was about to go out, but she didn't want to, there was a person standing outside.

A woman, a very bright woman, her starry eyes are full of smiles and affection.

"Xia Lin, do you remember me?" The woman took the initiative to greet her, standing at the door as if she was greeting a friend she had known for a long time.

Seeing her, Xia Lin was startled, "Lan Xi..."

"Do you want to leave?" She stretched out her beautiful fingers towards her, her beautiful female voice had a pleasant soft sound, she stared at the embarrassed Xia Lin, and smiled, "Follow me, I will take you away."

Xia Lin looked at the finger she stretched out in front of her for a long time, without asking too much, hesitating, she finally stretched out her hand, raised her eyes and stared at Lan Xi, her pale face was full of gratitude, "Thank you..."

Leaving, she had no choice but to leave, leaving was the best choice now, the only bond between her and Lu Nansheng disappeared, powerlessness and desolate love alone could no longer support her to stay by his side.

Stumbled and stumbled, after all, I still came to this step...

When Lu Nansheng returned to the ward, the ward was already empty, the familiar figure was gone, and what was there was a heavy piece of paper left on the bed.

He walked over, picked up the paper and looked at it, there were several words written by Nuoda on the paper - "divorce agreement"

At the signature, there is a familiar name - Xia Lin.

(End of this chapter)