dear miss jane

Chapter 103 Pain support or euthanasia?
The painful chemotherapy tortured Jane's mother every day. She was skinny, but she couldn't bear to tell her plan every time she saw Jane's earnest eyes. Is there a right or wrong in this matter?No, really not.

"Mom, is there anything wrong with you?" Jane asked her mother with eyes full of sadness.

Jane's mother shook her head lightly, "Xin'er, mom is fine."

Jane Xin held back her tears and found an excuse to run out of the ward. Even the doctor said that the painful treatment process could be all right?Jane Xin supported the wall and began to cry, her mother just wanted her to feel at ease, she never complained about pain or pain.

Jane's mother knew that Jane would not be strong if she cried in front of her, and she was afraid of losing herself, but for her, life is already very satisfying. During these days in the hospital, she misses her husband even more every night, If it wasn't for her, her husband wouldn't have had that accident.All this may be fate.

It was night, and Jane's mother couldn't sleep because of the pain all over her body. Jane was by her side with all her heart. She now cherishes every minute she spends with her mother, and what she fears most is that she will suddenly lose it.

"Xin'er, let's talk to Mom." Jane's mother said with a little effort.

"Xin'er, my mother has seen through life and death a long time ago. She was afraid at first, and worried every day, but after she figured it out, she couldn't do it."

"mom…"

"Listen to me," mother Jane continued, "you are the best daughter of mom and dad, we are proud of you, and we also believe that you will have a better future, Xin'er, mom made the decision not because of enduring No more pain, not because I can’t persist, but because my mother wants to leave this world decently. I don’t want to see myself being monitored by a cold machine with tubes inserted all over my body. I don’t want to lie on a cold operating table and let others cut , Xin'er, do you understand mother?"

Jane burst into tears, "Mom, mom..."

"Xin'er, forgive mom, and respect mom's decision, okay?" Jane's mother stroked Jane's hair with a sad face.

Jane Xin really wanted to tell her mother to beg her to persevere, but when she saw her mother's tortured appearance through her tearful eyes, she couldn't bear to let her bear the great pain for her own selfish thoughts. She was very contradictory and painful. Dilemma, she can't do it!
"Xin'er, euthanasia is not that terrible. Some people really want to make this decision but are stopped by the living. They think it is unfilial and inhumane. They only pay attention to their own feelings but do not realize the pain of being tortured by illness. How much this group of people want to die. I hope you can understand mom's decision, Xin'er, mom loves you!"

All night, Jane sat in the corridor thinking seriously about what her mother said to her tonight after holding back for a long time. Making a choice is painful, and she knew very well that if she agreed with her mother's idea, she would definitely regret it. Blame and annoyed, but disagree, my mother will continue to be in pain, living means pain, doesn't it?
Early the next morning, Jane Xin waited at the door of the attending doctor. She was very happy to learn that euthanasia was not allowed in China, and now she finally found a good reason for herself, so she no longer has to worry about making decisions. But before she rushed over to tell her mother, there was already a mess in the ward.

A nurse kept yelling, and the doctor who heard the news also rushed in. Jane stood at the door dumbfounded and couldn't hear the sound clearly. All that remained in her eyes was the pool of red blood on the ground. , and the thin and slender wrist that drooped down.

(End of this chapter)