Oh, my school grass!

Chapter 162 I'm So Scared

When he was in the first year of junior high school, he found that he was different from other boys——

He likes boys.

At the beginning, he didn't take it seriously for a while, but when he had feelings for his deskmate at the time beyond friendship, he panicked.

The fear of being regarded as a different kind, he bears it alone day and night, he desperately suppresses his feelings, and keeps himself from contacting any boys, he doesn't even dare to tell his parents.

Parents raised him so much, they certainly don't want to see their son is gay, right?
But later his sexual orientation was known by everyone.

All the classmates regarded him as a different kind and avoided him far away. Some boys would even say sarcastic remarks behind his back, saying that he was a scum among men, and the girls would take him as a laughing stock.

He still remembers those words——

"Lu Qianran, a disgusting person like you, don't play football with us in the future, I'm afraid you'll fall in love with me!"

"You are really shameless. You can do such a scandalous thing. I have lived so long. This is the first time I heard that a man would like another man instead of a woman."

"It's so dirty! Don't touch me! Maybe you have some kind of AIDS, and it will be bad if you infect me!"

dirty……

dirty……

Where is he dirty...

What did he do wrong?Is it because of his sexual orientation?
Doesn't he just like men?Don't you just like someone?
Where did he go wrong!

He is not reconciled!
——"I don't have a son like you! You've completely embarrassed the old Lu family!"

"Woooooo...Dad, stop beating me, I was wrong! Ah...don't be beating...ah! Mom...Mom, it’s just me...it hurts..."

He couldn't forget the scene when his father beat him with a belt when he knew about it when he was a child.

It really hurts, it hurts in my heart.

"What are you doing!? My son is still young, what does he know? Why do you beat my son like that!"

"Go away, bitch, this is the good son you gave me! A good gay son!"

"You actually...you dare to hit me! I'm not finished with you!"

That day, my mother fought with my father for him, and took him away from home for several days.

In those few days, my mother had no money, and my mother spent the last five yuan to buy him a scallion pancake: "Come on, son, you are hungry. Sorry, I really have no money on me. Wait until tomorrow, and my mother will eat it." Take you back to grandma's house, okay?"

"Mom..." Lu Qianran wiped away tears at that time, "I'm sorry for you, I'm useless... But Mom, I really don't know what to do, I'm so scared..."

That feeling of fear, who knows?

"It's okay, silly boy!" Mom had a bright smile on her face and hugged him, "Whether your sexual orientation is a problem or not, you are my mother's child, and my mother will love you!"

"Hmm..." In this world, only his mother can understand him in this way.

"You just have to do what you want to do, don't worry about the rest, mom will always support you!"

"Well! Thank you, Mom!"

Later, my mother divorced my father because of him. It was not easy for a defenseless woman to bring him up so much, and she never disliked his sexual orientation, only she...

He knows that the same-sex road is difficult, but he is not interested in girls, and he has been helpless and cried bitterly, but it seems to be of no use.

(End of this chapter)