Modern Onmyoji

Chapter 116
I never knew that my language skills were so lacking. I faltered for a long time about one thing that was clearly clear.By the end it was over and I didn't even know what I was talking about.I don't know if Jirechekov understood.After a while, Jirechekov smiled slightly and said, "First of all, thank you for trusting me. Telling me these shows that you have opened your heart to me. I am sincerely grateful for this trust."

"Um, it's nothing, nothing." I didn't know what to say, and I kept saying this.

"For this matter, I think you have fallen into a misunderstanding." Jirechekov said with a smile, "I want to know how you view the love between men and women."

"Um, Mr. Ji. I can't tell." I said helplessly.

"Then let me ask you another question, why do you think you love Chen Lingxue?" Jirechekov asked.

"Because—" I didn't think this was a question at all, as long as I was asked, I would say it without hesitation.But when I really wanted to say it, I realized that I couldn’t say it clearly at all, “I actually don’t know how to describe this feeling. It’s just——I feel very happy when I’m with her, and I feel happy when I’m with her.” I can talk about everything. I have a feeling in my heart that I want to protect her, and I don’t want her to be wronged. I want her to get the best—that’s probably all.”

"I'm sorry, I just asked a question that I don't know the answer to." Jirechekov said, "I don't know what love is either. No one in the world can tell what love is. But psychological experience Tell me, the concept of love at your age is very imperfect, and sometimes you will subconsciously treat some strange feelings as love."

"You mean that I don't really love Lingxue?" I asked strangely.

"Well, I can only say that you like her now. Love is a very sacred word, and it needs to be tempered by time to reveal its true magnificence. Sometimes time will tell you everything when you let it go." Jirechekov He said, "Or I can give you an example. Don't you think that your feelings for Chen Lingxue are very similar to your feelings for your sister Zhao Yimiao?"

"Huh?" I was taken aback by what he said, and looked at him inwardly, a little confused, and motioned him to continue talking.

"This kind of feeling may just be that you mistook the affection for your sister for love. This is indeed a kind of feeling that is difficult to distinguish." Jirechekov said, "Let me tell you a story. Once upon a time, a daughter asked her father What is love? My father said that love means that my father has nothing. My mother still marries my father. My daughter asked what is family affection? My father said that family affection means that my mother will never let you marry someone who has nothing. My daughter asked my mother what is Love? My mother said that love means that my father has everything and still loves my mother. My daughter asked what is family affection, and my mother said that family affection means that my father will never let you marry someone who has everything but doesn’t love you.”

"Do you understand what I said?" Jirechekov stopped talking after finishing speaking. I fell into deep thought, chewing the taste of the words.It seemed that he caught something in a trance, but there was no trace to be found.But the knot that has been tangled in my heart seems to be loose.In a trance, I seemed to see a way out.

"Mr. Ji, what you said is really good." I held back for a long time before I said this, "I will consider what you said. However, you also know that I am about to undergo hypnotherapy. Can you give me Think of a way to solve the problem right away?"

"That's easy too," said Jirechekov. "Go and tell her about it now."

"Ah!" I was taken aback when I heard that, and looked at Jirechekov dumbfounded.

"Don't make such an expression." Jirechekov said, "Using what one of your famous Chinese artists said - say, say that it is non-toxic. (For details, please refer to Zhao Benshan's sketch "Psychological Clinic") This kind of thing If you don't say it, the two will always be in this awkward situation. The current situation is already the worst, and only by speaking out can there be a turnaround."

"You mean long-term pain is worse than short-term pain?" I asked hesitantly.

"It's okay for you to understand it this way." Jirechekov said, "At least you have spoken out, and you have brought your knot to the surface. Not daring to face the knot is more terrible than the knot itself."

Afterwards, I fell into silence, thinking about his words in my heart, and remained silent for a long time.In the end, I decided to give it a try. As he said, not daring to face the knot is more terrible than the knot itself.

"Mr. Ji, thank you for your help. I'll go and explain to her right away. No matter what else, at least Ling Xue has the right to know about this matter." I said decisively, and rushed out after speaking.I decided to have a showdown with Ling Xue. No matter what the outcome is, I must let her know about this matter today.

"Hey, Ling Xue, do you have time now?" I took out the phone and called Ling Xue.Ling Xue who answered the phone was obviously very happy, and hurriedly said, "Zhao Jue, I have time! Do you have anything to do?"

"I have something to tell you, let's meet. Just the two of us." I said, and we made an appointment at a coffee shop.When I arrived, Lingxue was already waiting for me in the private room.We sat down facing each other, and we surprisingly didn't speak for a few seconds, the atmosphere was extremely quiet and awkward.

"Lingxue——I want to tell you something today." I said first, "Let me make sure that your necklace was given to you by your mother Zhao Yimiao. And she got it from her brother. Right."

Ling Xue was obviously taken aback, she didn't expect that I came to her in a hurry to talk about this matter.But he nodded subconsciously and said, "Well, that's right."

"Then let me ask you, do you know what your uncle's name is?" I didn't want to tell her directly when I really said it, so I could only introduce it a little bit.

"Well - I really don't know. My mother seems to have a lot of older brothers and sisters, and they have long since stopped seeing each other." Ling Xue shook her head and said, "What's the matter? Why did you think of asking about this?" gone?"

"Lingxue, let me tell you something now. It's about my life experience." I tried my best to tell Lingxue this fact tactfully, "I'm actually a tomb robber, born in 1972. I'm 44 years old this year. I know my appearance is very unconvincing, but I can tell you that I entered an ancient tomb in 1980, and spent 20 years in a state of suspended animation, which means that I have 20 years don't pass. Do you believe me when I say that?"

"I—" Ling Xue's eyes widened, she stared blankly at me and said nothing.

"I know it's hard to believe, do you still remember the Rojo we saw in KTV that time? He was my playmate when I was young." I said, "Of course, I tell you this for the future. I have a younger sister named Zhao Yimiao."

"What?" Ling Xue was completely stunned at this moment, looked at me with a strange look for a long time before saying, "Zhao Jue, what do you mean? What exactly are you trying to say?"

"I found out when you explained the origin of the necklace in the tomb. That necklace of yours was given to my sister when I was a child. Not only are the gemstones on it the same, but in addition to the circumstances you mentioned—— "I said each word with a pause, feeling that every word was so important, "If I guess correctly, I am your uncle, and you are my niece."

Ling Xue just listened to my words in such a stupid way, and after I finished speaking, I raised my head to meet her gaze.I could see that there was disbelief and horror in her eyes.I know it's too cruel for her to admit this fact, but sometimes the world is so cruel.

"It's a lie!" Ling Xue said in a daze, "it's all a lie! I know, you just dislike me! If you dislike me, just say it! There is no need to make up such outrageous reasons! Or My uncle! You have traveled through 20 years! Can you make it more reliable!"

"Lingxue, listen to me!"

"Don't listen, don't listen! I don't want to hear anything! Since you despise me, then forget it! I'm being sentimental!" After speaking, Ling Xue burst into tears, turned around and rushed out of the private room.

(End of this chapter)