Harem Changwu Biography

Chapter 139 Chang Wu, Sorry
Because she was worried that it would disturb my rest, Zhang Shuyue didn't stay in my Yanfu Palace for too long, but after staying in Yanfu Palace for half an hour, she got up and went back with me.

After Zhang Shuyue went back and left, I also felt a little tired, so I asked someone to take off my make-up and undress, and went to bed for a nap.

I fell asleep and slept until after dark before waking up. When I woke up, the room was lit with candlelight, and the dim yellow candlelight illuminated the room, adding a lot of warmth to the room.

I opened my eyes in the candlelight, nearly an afternoon of sleep not only made my body a lot lighter, but even my spirit was a little bit fuller.

Feeling full of energy, I turned my head. I wanted to ask Qihe and Ayun to come in and help me get dressed, but I didn't want to see Mingqi at a glance when I turned my head.

At that time, Ming Qi was sitting sideways to me, less than two zhang away from the bed, and in front of him was a table with a pile of memorials.

At this time, Ming Qi was holding a cinnabar pen in one hand and a memorial in the other, carefully looking at the memorial in his hand, and occasionally raised the cinnabar pen to draw a few strokes on the memorial.

At this time, under the dim light in the room, Mingqi's handsome face lost the cold determination in the daytime, and became a little softer.

I turned my head and looked at the quiet side face of Mingqi under the dim yellow light. Suddenly I swallowed back the words I wanted to call out, and at the same time I lightly lay on my side, resting my head on my arm, quietly looking at Mingqi. Chess comes.

I can't remember how long it has been since I watched Mingqi in such a quiet way.

It seems that for a long time before leaving, Mingqi seldom went to my Changwu Hall, let alone guarding my bedroom when I was asleep.

As for after I entered the palace as Meng Qingqing, although Mingqi stayed in Yanfu Palace every day and night before January, because he always came very late, most of the time he came and went straight to sleep.

Therefore, it is rare for me to see such a quiet side of Mingqi like today.

I quietly looked at Mingqi's side face, watched him pick up another one after reviewing one memorial, watched him frown sometimes because of the contents of the memorial, and sometimes relaxed his eyebrows and drew his lips, and then I can't help but yearn for this warm and reassuring feeling.

I kept looking at Mingqi until he finished reviewing all the memorials on the table and didn't turn his eyes away. During this period, there was a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.

On the contrary, it was Mingqi, who stood up from the table after reviewing all the memorials, stretched his body after sitting for a long time, then turned his head to look at me, and also caught my eyes.

Probably because I didn't expect that I would wake up long ago, correcting to keep looking at him.

Therefore, when Mingqi's eyes met mine, his expression obviously flickered for a moment, and then he walked towards me quickly.

"How long have you been awake?" Mingqi asked me after walking to my bed.

"It's been a while." I replied with a smile to Mingqi, and my eyes never left his side.

"Why didn't you call me?" Mingqi frowned and asked me after hearing that I hadn't called him after waking up for a long time.

"I'm not willing to part with it." I heard the answer after Ming's chess talk.

And Mingqi frowned again after hearing my words, as if he didn't understand what I meant by reluctance.

But I didn't want to explain to Mingqi that I was reluctant to spend the warm time with him quietly. After Mingqi frowned, I smiled at him again, and then retreated a little into the bed.

Mingqi knew the meaning behind my smile better than many people, so he didn't force me after my smile, but obeyed my wishes and sat down on the bed I gave up.

After that, he stretched out his hand again, hugged me who stood up after he sat down, and approached me actively in his arms.

"Mingqi!" After leaning into Mingqi's arms, I took the initiative to insert my hand into his hand around my waist, interlocked his fingers, and called out to Mingqi softly.

"En." Mingqi replied after my shout, and turned his head so that my head rested on his neck.

"Mingqi!" I yelled again after Mingqi answered.

"En." Mingqi replied after hearing the words, and the hand around my waist increased a little bit of strength, making me lean tightly in his arms.

"Mingqi!" I shouted again.

But this time, Mingqi didn't answer me again, but turned his head slightly to look at me, and looked at my face for a few weeks, as if he wanted to see from my face why I only called him all the time .

"It's been a long time since I called you that in person." I didn't let Mingqi guess again this time, when Mingqi's eyes fell on my face, I smiled lightly again, and then smiled lightly.

As for Mingqi, just after I finished speaking, his interlocking hands with mine obviously froze.

But even so, Mingqi didn't interrupt my words because of this, he just hugged me quietly, waiting for me to continue talking in silence.

"In the past three years outside the palace, I have often thought of you." After feeling Mingqi's laissez-faire, I smiled again, and then continued to speak.

"And every time I think of you, I can't help calling your name like this. But every time I call it, I miss you more and more." I said again.

"One time I couldn't bear to think about you, so I ran to the gate of the palace alone in the middle of the night, and looked in the direction of your Chengming Palace from a distance through the palace gate, and was not found until dawn. "I said again, that happened about half a month after I woke up.

At that time I left Mingqi at the beginning, and although I could not see it every day in the palace, I still lived in the same palace. As long as I sent someone to inquire about it, I could know what Mingqi had done. Whether you are busy or not, and how you compare your moods, the days when you don't see Mingqi and don't know about Mingqi in the second half of the month after leaving the palace are simply suffering.

In addition, every time I thought of Mingqi's sad look before I left, my heart felt more and more distressed about Mingqi, and then I missed Mingqi more and more.

So one day I finally couldn't bear it any longer, and ran out of the other courtyard of Meng's house by myself while the person who took care of me was not paying attention, and ran outside the gate of the palace.

At that time, I was looking in the direction of the Chengming Hall in the palace through a palace wall, and I almost went up several times to knock on the palace door to find Mingqi.

It's just that every time I get closer and see the three big characters "Noonday Gate" on the palace gate, I will think of the scene when I was in the palace in the past, so I can no longer summon up the courage to go in and find Mingqi.

I kept going back and forth that night, until the person who went to my room to deliver medicine to me in the early morning of the second day found that I was missing, so I went to report to Meng Qingcheng anxiously, and I was caught by Meng Qingcheng at dawn. turn up.

As a result of being exhausted and catching a cold that night, I was in a coma for more than half a month before I woke up after I went back.

"Later, this happened several times. After more than a year, I finally got used to the life of not being able to see you every day."

"It's just that although I'm used to it, I still miss you a lot. And as the days away from you get longer, I miss you more and more, and it becomes more and more unbearable for me."

"And after that, whenever I think about you so much that I can't stop it, I will call your name over and over again in my heart while touching the scar you left on my collarbone."

"Sometimes I even foolishly hope in my heart, hoping that after I call you, you will fall from the sky because you heard me call you, and then suddenly appear in front of me and answer my love for you." Shout out." I said, and then sighed softly, the first year or so when I left the palace was the saddest time in my three years.

"If that's the case, why did you still insist on leaving at the beginning?" Mingqi, who had never made a sound, suddenly asked me in a deep voice after hearing my sigh.

"Qiu Changwu, have you regretted the three years since you left me?" Ming Qi asked again.As he asked, he pushed me out of his arms, made me sit facing him, and supported me with both hands.

"Qiu Changwu, have you ever regretted it?" After supporting me to sit face to face, Mingqi looked into my eyes and asked me in a deep voice.

I listened to Mingqi's words asking me if I regretted it, looked at Mingqi's forbearing gaze at me, moved my throat, and finally smiled at Mingqi.

"No." I looked at Mingqi and locked my gaze, smiled and shook my head at Mingqi.

"Mingqi, during the three years since I left, I have never regretted leaving." I said to Mingqi with a smile.

As for Mingqi who was sitting opposite me, he shrank his pupils immediately after hearing my words, and then frowned his brows. Seeing that he was about to speak again, I preempted him.

"Mingqi, if I hadn't left at the beginning, then I would still be the Queen Mother Qiu Changwu, and I could only watch from a distance as you stood beside you with one woman after another, and I would never be able to be upright like this I was hugged by you, lying on your bed." I said before Mingqi opened his mouth.

As I said that, I took Mingqi's hand and put his hand on my stomach.

"Mingqi, I'm very happy." After pressing Mingqi's hand tightly on my stomach, I smiled and said to Mingqi.

"Mingqi, I'm really happy, I'm glad there is your child here." I said with a smile again.

To this day, I still remember that when I decided to feign death and leave the palace, Mingqi, after hearing what I said that he could no longer stay in the palace, said that he could give up his throne for me, leave the palace with me, and marry me , and I jointly conceived the picture of a child belonging to the two of us.

After I heard it at that time, I always looked forward to being able to stand with Mingqi, hoping to have children for him one day.

It's just that at that time I couldn't really let Mingqi give up everything and leave with me, but if I stayed, I could only continue to have nothing to do with Mingqi.

And now, although my name is no longer Qiu Changwu, although my appearance is temporarily different from the past because of the effect of Qiu Chan, but as long as I think that my belly is pregnant with Mingqi's child, I can't help being happy , could not help but rejoice.

"Mingqi, I am a greedy woman. Because I like you, I can't bear to stand by your side. I can only helplessly watch the days when you become the husband of one woman after another, so I will try my best , I hope that one day I can come to you in a fair and honest manner, and then be your woman."

The life of the autumn cicada in the body is bitter, and the life of not seeing Mingqi for three years outside the palace is bitter, but compared with the bitterness of watching Mingqi become someone else's husband, I would rather choose the former.

So even if I always say that I don't want to go back to the palace, even if Mingqi didn't use Meng Qingcheng and Chu Lin to force me, I will come back to the palace on my own initiative one day.

The time may be one or two years later, or three or five years later.

As long as I can't forget Mingqi for a day, I will definitely come back again.

"Mingqi, compared to those hopeless days when I was Qiu Changwu, I prefer the time when I was Meng Qingqing." Because Meng Qingqing can be Mingqi's woman openly and aboveboard, and can give birth to Mingqi's children openly.

"So, Mingqi, I have never regretted leaving the palace that year." I finally said, and looked at Mingqi after speaking.

As for Mingqi who was about to speak on the opposite side, he fell silent after my words.

I saw him looking straight at me, stroking my stomach gently back and forth through the clothes, and after a long while, he stretched out his hand and hugged me tightly into his arms.

"Changwu, I'm sorry."

(End of this chapter)