New wife is not favored

Chapter 178

She didn't think that things would be as Junye thought, after Haoyang knew the truth, he would turn his longing for Tongzhe into hatred for Junye, and he would be relieved from the pain of losing his son.Changed back to Lian Haoyang who was calm and introverted and let her be addicted to his mature man's breath.


On the contrary, she was afraid that Hao Yang would turn around after knowing the truth, and would find it difficult to accept the cruelty of the truth and sink deeper and deeper into depression.What should she do then?

"Madam, you can get out of the car." The taxi driver's sudden voice pulled Xu Liangxi's mind back.


"Oh, good." She nodded and paid for the car and got out of the car.When the taxi left, she turned around and walked towards the door of the house with her bag in her hand, only then did she suddenly remember that not only did she not do the prenatal checkup, but she even forgot to buy the ingredients that she was expected to buy.But now it's dark, it's not safe to go out at night, not to mention, she is very worried about Hao Yang when she is away for several hours.


Opening the door, the darkness of the room made her dare not move around, she could only go in after fumbling for the switch to turn on the light and changing shoes at the entrance.


After throwing her bag on the sofa, she subconsciously glanced towards the direction leading to the bedroom on the second floor.Even though he knew that he would not suddenly appear at the stairs, he still couldn't help but flash this thought.


Standing at the door of his bedroom, taking a deep breath to calm the uneasiness in his heart, he tried very hard to make himself happy so as to infect him.But when he opened the door and entered, he was startled by a loud noise.


"Hao Yang? What are you doing?" As soon as he entered the door, he saw Lian Hao Yang frantically opening the drawers looking for something, and the ground was full of sundries he threw casually.


Lian Haoyang seemed to have never heard of it, and continued to rummage through boxes and cabinets on his own, with a panicked and angry expression.It wasn't until he searched through all the drawers in the room, including under the mattress, and couldn't find what he wanted, that he sat down on the bed, with a look of loss and despair as if he had lost his most precious treasure.


"Haoyang, what are you looking for?" She walked over, held his stubble-covered chin in distress, and said softly, "Tell me, I'll help you find it."


"I can't find it, how can I find it if I don't have it at all?" With dull eyes drooping, he buried his head in his palms, his numb heart made him feel so much pain that he couldn't help himself after waking up.


"Tell me and see if I can find it." She wrapped her arms around his shoulders and comforted him, "Maybe I can find it for you."


"Really?" Lian Haoyang raised his eyes quickly, and a gleam of light flashed in his pupils. "I'm looking for a picture of Tong Zhe."


"Huh?" Xu Liangxi was stunned.Then I understood why he said that there is no way to find it.Indeed, she had never seen a picture of Tong Zhe, and she didn't take a picture of Tong Zhe last time when she went to the amusement park. Later, when she wanted to take a family portrait, Shan Tong suddenly appeared again.I didn't expect a delay...


"I can't find it, right?" Lian Haoyang retracted his gaze in disappointment, and a slightly weird smile appeared on his pale lips. "...I'm sorry for Tong Zhe. He hasn't even had time to take a family photo, and he has never been home to feel the warmth of home...Everyone says I love him and love him, but I can't let him continue to live, I He's an incompetent father! I don't deserve to be a father!" The weak and flat tone suddenly turned high, mixed with intense anger like fireworks, almost hysterical venting!


His self-blame made Xu Liangxi's heart ache unbearably, and the tears that he thought had been shed in the hospital poured down in an instant.


She knew that these days he was trying very hard to control the emotions hidden in his heart, so as not to let it collapse and become uncontrollable.But the more this is the case, the more anxious the restless sadness in the body is looking for an exit.


"No, Haoyang, you are the best father! Don't belittle yourself like this." She hugged him tightly, hating herself for being too poor to find words to comfort him.


"If I'm the best father, why did Tong Zhe leave me? It must be because I'm not good enough, so—"


"No, no! Don't do this..." Stung by his sudden outburst of sadness, Xu Liangxi could only kiss his forehead and his eyes helplessly, and the splashed tears fell on his face and merged with his tears. . "Tong Zhe said that he loves daddy and mommy. You have done too much for him that ordinary fathers cannot do. Even after learning that he was born with an illness, not only did you not abandon him, but you gave him the greatest father. Love, gave everything for him and tried everything to save his fragile life."


"But he left in the end."


"You have tried your best. Don't blame yourself for taking the mistakes on yourself. Tong Zhe's condition is special. Tian Leng said that he thought he wouldn't be able to survive five days, but with your selfless father's efforts, he has tenaciously survived until now. It's already a miracle! No one will think you are an incompetent father." No one is qualified to say that.


"You don't understand." Lian Haoyang shook his head, the coldness in his eyes was like a thousand years of ice, "If I can treat him better, I should always stay by his side and accompany him, so that Shan Tong and the others will not There will be a chance to get close to Tongzhe, and Tongzhe will not—"


"Enough! Don't torture yourself like this anymore, just want to bind yourself with your faults. I beg you to let yourself go for my daughter and me?" Unable to bear his pain, after finding the exit, it came like a river with a collapsed embankment. It's like you can't stop.Xu Liangxi suddenly changed his previous good words of persuasion, and instead roared at him pretending to be wronged and angry.


"Do you still remember what you promised Tong Zhe? He said he wanted Daddy, Mommy and daughter to be happy, and he is also very happy. This is enough! All the pain stops at this moment, and you can only have me in your heart from now on." And our daughter, I won't allow you to think about Tong Zhe again!" As long as it can make him sober, she doesn't mind that she really brings out the image of the frightening stepmother in the legend at this moment.


Lian Haoyang raised his eyes and looked sideways at her, looking at her so strangely that there was no trace of emotion or warmth in her eyes, which made her feel a chill in her heart.Thinking about whether the words just now were too much?


"You know? There was a time when I wished that Tong Zhe's life would end soon. This way, I wouldn't have to think of the painful betrayal whenever I saw him. And I wouldn't have to be dragged down by him anymore, dragging me down. Tortured physically and mentally exhausted.”


Xu Liangxi's heart skipped a beat, and he couldn't find any other words.


(End of this chapter)