Destroyed outside, gold and jade inside

Chapter 109 What is fear?
"How to do it well? I don't know that the Holy Majesty has been hungry for nearly two days?" Seeing Shen Xinniang, Yu scolded.

"If Uncle Yu hadn't insisted on serving the dish for the saint, maybe it would be served much sooner." Shen Xinniang's tone was flat, but the irony in it could be heard with ears.

Yu Shi frowned, just wanted to send a eunuch to try the dishes, so as to embarrass her.Before the words came out, I asked her to block them back.

After the palace lady put the food on the food table, she carried the food table to the dragon couch.

Yu Shi took the first step and sat opposite the little emperor, putting on a condescending smile, "Emperor, you are sick, mother will feed you later."

The emperor looked awkward, "Queen, I...has recovered! Much better!"

"Serious illnesses are better, the body is weak, and there is no strength. The queen mother's heart, the emperor will not refuse!" Yu's smile is strong and domineering.

The little emperor glanced at Fang Yan and Shen Xinniang.He didn't even try the food that Mrs. Yu brought to his mouth.The small mouth was tightly squeezed, and refused to open it.

Mrs. Yu was stubborn, as if her chopsticks were about to be stuffed into the little emperor's mouth.

"Empress Dowager!" Fang Yan snapped.

Yu's hand holding the chopsticks trembled slightly, but there was a stubbornness on his face that would not give up.

It was the first time for Shen Xiniang to hear Fang Yan's stern tone.

"Empress Dowager, the Holy Majesty does not want you to feed me. The Holy Majesty has already ascended the throne, and you are not a child who can be controlled by you alone!" Shen Xinniang took a step forward and looked at her coldly. "You are so disrespectful to the Holy Majesty. The Empress Dowager should Do you have style?"

"You don't need to say too much." Mrs. Yu reprimanded her.

"Concubine must speak. The Holy Majesty is not your son alone. The Holy Majesty is the Son of Heaven. All the people in the world are the people of the Holy Majesty. The Majesty naturally belongs to the people of the world. You dominate the Majesty alone, and you are still against the wishes of the Majesty." I'm afraid that the people in the world will not agree, right? Naturally, the concubine also cannot agree." Shen Xinniang took a step forward.

A pair of dark and boundless eyes stared at Yu Shi fiercely.

Yu's face was displeased, but she was terrified by these eyes.She turned her gaze away, and glanced at the little emperor's reluctant face.He slapped his chopsticks heavily on the food table and got up angrily.

Shen Xinniang walked towards the bed, and when the two passed by, Shen Xinniang said in a low voice: "I can tell at a glance whether she is my biological mother or not."

When Mrs. Yu heard this, her face changed drastically.He reached out to grab Shen Xiniang, but she easily avoided it.It was a pain in her heart, a thorn in her heart.Before the late emperor was alive, she was the woman he loved the most, but she tried everything, but failed to leave a son and a half for the late emperor.If she could have her own son, where would the situation be like now? !Why should she be embarrassed face to face? !

Yu Shi watched Shen Xinniang sit down by the bed, watched her gracefully lift the jade bowl, and hold the ivory chopsticks with her white and slender fingers, even the movements of picking up vegetables became so elegant and pleasing to the eye.

How can there be such a perfect woman?How could there be such a jealous woman?No wonder she attracted everyone's attention as soon as she appeared.Even Fang Yan's eyes focused on her.

"Didn't it mean that the emperor kept getting fever repeatedly, and the high fever didn't go away? Why did the emperor's fever go away as soon as Mrs. Shen came?" Yu suddenly said.

Every word he spoke was shocking.

Shen Xiniang and the little emperor who was eating turned their faces to look at her.

Mrs. Yu hooked the corners of her lips briskly, "Could it be that Mrs. Shen has some shady sorcery?"

Shen Xinniang lowered her eyes and said nothing.

"Why does the queen mother talk like this? Does the queen mother not want me to recover?!" The little emperor said loudly.

"Your majesty, I am your mother! The late emperor is the one who values ​​filial piety the most. Are you afraid that the late emperor will dislike you if you shout at me like this? Or, you were bewitched by this Mrs. Shen who possessed sorcery. Mind?" Yu said with a sneer.

"If the Empress Dowager is all right, please go back to the palace to rest. Your Majesty is good. His tone is not good. It is reasonable. As for whether my concubine is possessing sorcery, I believe no one knows better than this king." Yan's tone was rather cold.

Yu Shi sneered, "I'm afraid the prince himself has been bewitched, and he doesn't know yet!"

"Really? Why does this king feel that the empress dowager's tone is quite envious?" Fang Yan laughed mockingly.

"You!" Yu's face turned red, and her big and bright eyes stared at Fang Yan hatefully. He knew what she was thinking about him, and why did he still talk like this?
Fang Yan looked back at her indifferently.

The three people in the hall all looked at her unwelcome in unison.

At first glance, it seems that those three people belong to a harmonious and beautiful family.And she is just this family, the only extra person who is an eyesore in this bedroom!Yu Shi felt depressed.With King Qi and the little emperor here, she can't do anything to Shen Xiniang.

She walked away in a flick of her sleeves, her footsteps were heavy and heavy, and her gorgeous high-toed clogs knocked on the white marble floor, making a sound.

Followed by Yu's footsteps.The atmosphere in the dormitory became warmer.

"Ms. Shen's craftsmanship is really getting better and better!" The little emperor looked happy and satisfied, "I really didn't expect to taste Shen Xinniang's craftsmanship again so soon. This illness is not in vain."

"It's better to be healthy and healthy. The Holy One doesn't know. Does being sick only make people who care about you more worried?"

Shen Xinniang took a spoonful of soup and brought it to his mouth.

The little emperor drank it in one gulp, and looked sideways at Fang Yan.Fang Yan watched him all night without blinking, his eyes were bloodshot.When he was drowsy, he seemed to see his uncle beside his bed.

"I see." The little emperor's voice was slightly choked up, "Next time, I won't dare to be playful."

"There will be snow every year." Shen Xinniang sighed softly.

The little emperor nodded, "But the queen mother said that when you grow up, you can't be greedy for fun, and you can't play with snow."

"What other people say may not be right. The Holy One has a heavy responsibility, but you must understand right from wrong. What some people say may sound reasonable, but in fact they are just restricting you, controlling you, and keeping your face Achieve what he wants to achieve." Shen Xinniang said slowly.

Her gaze stayed on the food table, wondering if she was telling the little emperor.At the young emperor's age, no matter how precocious, these words sound a bit difficult.

Fang Yan frowned slightly.

A palace official begged for orders outside, so Fang Yan stepped out.

Seeing that his uncle was not around, the little emperor lowered his voice and asked, "Miss Shen, when you talk to the uncle and the queen mother, you are so majestic! I... I am a little afraid of them. Uncle told me that this world belongs to me." , they are my subjects, and I don't have to be afraid of anyone. But I'm still... Can Mrs. Shen teach me how to not be afraid of them?"

Shen Xinniang lowered her eyes, as if she was thinking about it, with hesitation and hesitation on her fair and beautiful little face, "How should I say it? What are you afraid of?"

The little emperor was taken aback, "Is there no one or anything that Mrs. Shen is afraid of? You don't even know what fear is?"

Shen Xinniang lowered her eyes and remained silent.

"It's like when I was a child, I secretly raised a little bird, but I was afraid that my father would know about it, that my father would say that I was playful and dispirited, and didn't like me. I was also afraid that people would find out, and I was afraid that I would lose the little bird. Later, I was secretly discovered. , I don’t know who poisoned my little bird to death. Is it all because of fear?” The little emperor looked at Shen Xinniang curiously.

Shen Xinniang raised her eyes, "I don't remember most of the things when I was a child. Now, I know that fear is useless. When something goes wrong, I just think of a way."

"Why can't I remember anything from the past? I still remember a lot of things from my childhood!" the little emperor said sympathetically.

Shen Xinniang slowly shook her head.

"Then can't remember the past, will this feeling be scary?" the little emperor asked suddenly.

Shen Xinniang was stunned when she heard the words, she was silent for a long time, she nodded firmly, "Yes. My intuition tells me that there are very important things that I have forgotten. There are very important people who have been forgotten by me. There is no past, It’s like a castle in the air without a foundation, maybe at some point, even the buildings above will collapse. So, I want to clear the fog and see what’s hidden below.”

The little emperor was startled when he heard this.

Also stunned, there was King Qi standing behind the huge screen.The foot he was about to take stopped at the threshold, and he didn't move for a long time.It turned out that she was really afraid, and really wanted to get back to the past so urgently.But she didn't say anything, and she didn't want to seek help from anyone around her.

Fang Yan hesitated for a moment, then turned around and went out again, stretched out his hand to recruit his followers, and ordered in a low voice: "Send two thoughtful people to Wu Xing, Wu Xingping County, and inquire about someone."

When he turned back to the bedroom again, he heard the clear but determined voice of the woman in the room saying: "Your Majesty, don't be afraid, the things that scare us in front are the places we need to grow up, reminding us anytime and anywhere that we are not enough!" Powerful. The Holy Majesty must be a wise monarch. What the Holy Majesty fears is not the power of any one person, nor the army he holds in his hands, but the most ordinary people. He is afraid that they will not be able to eat, wear, live Good. Water can carry a boat, but it can also overturn it. Your Majesty cares about the people, so no one can take anything from your Majesty's hands."

The little emperor nodded again and again, "Mr. Lu told me that too."

"Then let's work hard together, and work together to face what we are afraid of and where we need to grow." Shen Xinniang said slowly.

It was clearly a calm tone, but for some reason, it was extraordinarily inspiring.

The little emperor was overwhelmed by what she said, and clenched his small fists tightly, "Well, Mrs. Shen, don't worry, in the future, no one will be able to threaten Mrs. Shen to enter or leave the palace!"

Shen Xinniang nodded.

Fang Yan stepped in at the right time.

Shen Xinniang stood up from the bed.

"I'm going back." She looked at Fang Yan and said.

But the little emperor reached out and grabbed the corner of her clothes.

She turned back.

The little emperor's eyes were full of nostalgia and reluctance.Five or six-year-old children are so clingy.

"In this palace, no one is sincere to me. Only Uncle and Mrs. Shen can make me trust and make me feel warm." The little emperor whispered.

It is heartbreaking to hear such words from a child.

Shen Xinniang looked at him with some embarrassment.

(End of this chapter)