Destroyed outside, gold and jade inside

Chapter 130 Am I Her?

"In order to avoid the struggle for imperial power, my mother and concubine sent me out of the capital when I was very young. By chance, I entered Lingshan. When I was studying at Lingshan, I overheard it." Fang Yan said , "It's just that I didn't take it seriously at the time. If this is the case, it can only be regarded as a legend, so just listen to it."

"Now it seems that it's not as simple as a legend." Shen Xinniang said.

Fang Yan nodded slowly, "The words of the Qin family father and son reminded me of this legend."

"Qin Ran is the generation of the Qin family who was selected as a child with spiritual roots." Shen Xiniang said slowly, "But why wasn't he taken away?"

"After I arrived at Lingshan, the head of the sect ordered that no one is allowed to step out of Lingshan." Fang Yan said.

Shen Xinniang let out a sigh, and after a while, she sighed quietly, "Perhaps it was because of you that Qin Ran missed the opportunity to be admitted to Lingshan to practice Taoism."

Fang Yan smiled helplessly, "Maybe, he will never have another chance in this life."

Thinking of the fire that destroyed Lingshan, Shen Xiniang felt an indescribable dull pain in her heart.

"Qin Ran has been looking for someone, and that person is the one who can take him into Lingshan, right?"

Fang Yan nodded, "Since I entered Lingshan, the head of the sect has never been out of Lingshan. The head of the sect is also surnamed Qin, maybe it is the Qin family."

"Lingshan, is there anyone from the Qin family?" Shen Xiniang asked.

"The head of the sect sometimes travels abroad and picks up some children who have spiritual roots but no worldly concerns." Fang Yan explained.

Shen Xinniang was silent for a moment, "These are related to the Qin family and Qin Ran. But what does it have to do with me?"

"There is a direct disciple next to the head, who is also the child picked up by the head. She was only two years old when she was brought back to Lingshan. The head raised her personally. The head said that the girl has extraordinary spiritual roots. Lingshan is very meaningful. It was named Mu Ling, and I have been raising it myself." Fang Yan lowered his eyes as he spoke.

He picked up the teacup with his slender fingers, put it to his lips, and took a sip.

The amber tea water reflected his sad eyes, which seemed to have endless nostalgia and deep yearning.

"Is it the woman you like?" Shen Xinniang asked suddenly.

Fang Yan didn't answer, but continued: "Mu Ling is really smart. In the entire Lingshan, there is no one who can surpass her. She always passes the Taoism taught by the master. No one in Lingshan can compete with the master. Only she can make a draw under the head of the sect. The master is good at food, and Mu Ling devotes herself to cooking, and she cooks good dishes. Everyone in Lingshan is impressed by her."

His voice fell.

There was silence in the hall for a long time.

Fang Yan looked down at the teacup, while Shen Xiniang looked at him silently with her dark eyes.Neither of them took the lead in breaking the tranquility.

I don't know how long it took before a slight voice asked, "Am I like Mu Ling?"

Hearing this, Fang Yan raised her head, her eyes burning on Shen Xinniang's face.His eyebrows were tangled, as if he wanted to try his best to distinguish something without any emotion.After a long while, he sighed, "In terms of appearance and temperament, you are not even half similar to her."

Shen Xinniang looked at him in a daze when she heard the words.A bold but unbelievable thought popped up in his mind, could it be that she is not Shen Xin, but Mu Ling?She doesn't remember anything about Shen Xin, she doesn't remember things about Wu Xing's hometown, she doesn't remember Qin's family, she doesn't remember Shen's family... Although she doesn't remember anything about Mu Ling, she has a feeling for things Mu Ling has touched. An inexplicable sense of familiarity.

This bold idea made her heart throb, "A person's appearance and temperament can change, but some things don't change."

Fang Yan looked at her deeply, and after a while, he suddenly chuckled, "I've let go of my delusional thoughts, but you're stirring up thoughts I shouldn't have."

"It has nothing to do with you." Shen Xinniang said indifferently, "I just want to find myself."

Fang Yan put away her smile and looked at her seriously, "Is it Mu Ling or Shen Xin, is it really important?"

"What do you think?" Shen Xinniang asked lightly.

Fang Yan was silent and did not speak.Who a person really is represents many things, not just a question of surname status, but many more.

"It's a terrible thing without the past." Shen Xinniang said in a calm tone, there was no trace of fear in her voice.

Fang Yan nodded, "Although I don't understand it, I can imagine it."

"So, I want to go to Lingshan." Shen Xinniang said.

Fang Yan immediately looked solemn, "No."

Shen Xinniang looked up at him, "When did you say that, is it okay?"

Fang Yan had no choice but to say, "Lingshan has been destroyed, even if you go there, you won't find anything! And Uncle Yu is eyeing him, he never gave up looking for it!"

"What is he looking for?" Shen Xinniang asked.

"Uncle Yu thinks that there are treasures in Lingshan, which may make people live forever. The men in the Yu family are sick, and none of them can live beyond the age of 45. Now that Uncle Yu is approaching forty, he is more and more urgent when he thinks about it. In the palm of his hand, he has a rich family background and fame and fortune. Who would be willing to die in such a life?" Fang Yan said slowly, "Why did he destroy the entire Lingshan in a fit of anger back then, leaving no one alive?"

Shen Xinniang looked up at him, "Isn't it because you want to break your back?"

"I thought so too, but now it seems that he became angry after he couldn't find the secret of immortality." Fang Yan said, "Of course, I didn't want to shirk responsibility. He destroyed Lingshan because of me, which is half of it." reason."

Shen Xinniang lowered her eyes, "He wants to obtain the secret of immortality, shouldn't he leave one or two alive?"

"The character of the head is better to be broken than to be whole. I will never compromise with him." Fang Yan said slowly.

Shen Xinniang was silent when she heard the words.

"If he knows that you are inexplicably related to the Lingshan School, he will definitely not let you go." Fang Yan raised his hand to hold her hand on her knee, "Whether you are Mu Ling or Shen Xin... don't Adventure, okay?"

Shen Xinniang looked at his big hand, wrapping her hand.There are thick calluses on the palms of his hands, which were honed from long-term martial arts training, and the palms are dry and warm.

She didn't take out her hand, but said slowly: "It's fine if he doesn't know, if he knows, I'm afraid he won't want to kill me now."

Fang Yan frowned.She never thought that An'an would be good, just like when she played chess, she always went forward bravely, did not hesitate to take risks, and used ruthless methods. She didn't seem to think about leaving any room for others or herself.

"Do you have to take risks?" Fang Yan lowered his eyes and asked slowly. This sentence was only a few short words, but it was extremely difficult for him to utter it.

Shen Xinniang's gaze was always on the hands of the two of them, "Fang Yan, you haven't experienced the feeling of forgetting the past and everything about yourself. You clearly feel that there is something wrong, someone is in the past, waving at me, but I turned around, but I couldn't see anything. The powerlessness made me feel alive and unreal."

Her voice was faint, echoing in the hall.

Both fell silent.This seems to be an irreconcilable contradiction. Looking for the past will inevitably take unpredictable risks, and if you don't look for it, you must never let it go.

"You don't want to know, am I Mu Ling?" Shen Xiniang suddenly looked into his eyes and asked.

Fang Yan stared at her blankly for a long time, then slowly shook her head, "I dare not think about it."

Shen Xinniang sighed softly, "What is the name of the head?"

Fang Yan shook his head slowly, "I don't know the name of the master, but I only know that the master's word is Yi."

"Yi, Qin Yi." Shen Xiniang read slowly, as if a light flashed across her mind, illuminating something, but it was too fast, before she could see clearly, the light had already dimmed.

"I see." Shen Xinniang stood up, "Thank you for telling me this."

Fang Yan got up and held her hand but did not let go, "Give me some time to prepare, I will accompany you to Lingshan."

Shen Xinniang shook her head, "We each have our own priorities, it's not appropriate for you to do it today, the Holy Majesty needs you. I just want to find my past, and it has nothing to do with you."

Fang Yan frowned, his eyes persistent.

Shen Xinniang looked back at him, and said very seriously, "It doesn't matter if I am Mu Ling, Shen Xin, or someone else. I have to figure it out myself."

She lowered her head and her eyes fell on the hands of the two.After a long time, Fang Yan's hand slowly let go.The responsibility on him cannot be done arbitrarily.

"Don't worry, I won't just leave." Shen Xinniang said slowly, "Actually, a long time ago, I planned to go back to Wu Xing, but I was just preparing."

Fang Yan looked at her Pingting's back, and slowly walked out of the upper room, his fists clenched, and veins appeared on the back of his hand.

Shen Xiniang returned to her yard, and saw Shen Siniang standing anxiously at the door of the main room.

"Why don't you go in, it's cold outside." Shen Xinniang asked.

"Big sister." Shen Siniang saw her hesitate to speak.

Dan Xin drew up the cotton curtain, and Shen Xiniang stepped inside.Shen Siniang hesitated for a moment, then followed her in.

The room was warm, and Shen Siniang, who had been stiffened by the cold wind, couldn't help shivering, and the warmth rushed to her limbs, making her very comfortable.

"Sister, I don't want to..." Shen Siniang looked at Shen Xiniang's expression, "I don't want to go back to the Shen family."

If Shen Shangshu knew that she had left the Qin family and knew that she could not even be a concubine of the Qin family, how would he treat her!He definitely won't give her and Aunt An a good look, that's all, I'm afraid he will marry her into another family in a hurry.She shuddered when she thought of the two families that Zhu had shown her when she was alive.

"Sister, please let me stay, I... I, like Danxin Jinxiang, serve my sister!" Shen Siniang suddenly knelt down and said earnestly.

(End of this chapter)