Destroyed outside, gold and jade inside

Chapter 339 I will be jealous
He looked at Shen Xinniang and opened his mouth, as if he wanted to ask something, but he didn't ask.With a sigh, he quickly turned around and walked out of the yard.

Shen Xiniang blessed her body, and said slowly: "Respectfully send the Holy Majesty off."

But the little emperor stopped again, turned his back to her, and nodded without turning around, "Well, you are inconvenient, so there is no need to send it off. If... If there is a chance, I will come to see you... If not, that’s all…”

After finishing speaking, he didn't pause again, strode out of the courtyard, and hurried back to the palace.

If my uncle found out that he had secretly left the palace, would he be furious?He must have felt heavy because he was afraid that his uncle would be angry, right?It must be because he was afraid that his uncle would look at him with reproachful eyes and say something about the sage, so he felt so sour and unbearable, right?It has nothing to do with Mrs. Shen's attitude, and it must have nothing to do with it.Mrs. Shen said that her past, present and future are all the same, and they are all the same to him, right?No matter whether she has children or not, the relationship between them has never changed and will not change.The little emperor said repeatedly in his heart.

When he returned to the palace, King Qi had already learned about his sneaking out of the palace.But seeing his dejected face, lowered brows and eyes, he seemed very unhappy, so he didn't say a word of advice, didn't even mention this matter, just pretended not to know.

The little emperor returned to his bedroom and did not allow anyone to serve him. He threw himself on the spacious and comfortable dragon bed, face down, sniffing the ambergris on the soft silk quilt embroidered with golden dragons, and felt more and more that this The fragrance reveals loneliness.

"Zhen, Zhen... I don't like to use Zhen in front of you, it makes me feel lonely and far away from you. But you always take one bite at a time... It makes me feel like I can't reach out but can't catch you. Look at me The look in your eyes, I always feel so warm, whether you are respectful, fearful, or compassionate with others, they are all different, I always feel that you are the person who loves me the most..." The little emperor leaned on the quilt, muttering to himself He said, "But seeing your concern for the unborn child in your womb today, I realized that I am far away... No wonder you always call me the Holy One. To you, I am really just the Holy One." . . . I will never be equal to him."

The little emperor muttered, he had been alone in the huge sleeping hall for an unknown amount of time.But the sleeping hall was empty and lonely, as if there was only a faint echo echoing him.

All the palace people were excluded by him to serve outside the palace, even if the palace people were in the palace, they were no different from him alone, the palace people never gave him the warmth he wanted.Originally thought that Shen Xiniang could give it, but now I know that Shen Xiniang can't either.

Her warmth, her concern, was given to her own children.But he is not her child.

"When I saw you for the first time, I thought you were kind. Later, I felt that you were like a mother, taking care of me like a mother...accompanying me like a mother...I don't want to call you aunt. I always feel that aunt is also separated. On the first floor, it seems that I am not close enough to you... But because of this, you will never come to the palace again, and you will never see me again..." The little emperor turned over on the soft silk and satin, and the quilt he had just lay on had turned Wet a large piece, at this time he still closed his eyes and murmured, but his voice was strong nasal, "You have been caring about the child in your womb with all your heart, and you have forgotten me in this deep palace long ago. I didn't tell you. Have you ever been there? Although the palace is beautiful, it is too deserted. The palace is huge, but it is very lonely. Don't you understand what I mean? Mrs. Shen, I want you to spend more time with me..."

Like a real mother, she accompanied him lovingly and warmly.

It's not like she can't, the way she caressed her swollen belly today is the way he often wants to see, but that way, that look, are not for him.

She would, she would give all her care like a mother, but not to him.

"Holy Majesty, dinner is ready, should I pass it on?" the palace man asked cautiously while bowing outside the hall.

The little emperor who was mumbling to himself in the hall was slightly stunned for a moment, and opened his eyes, the eyes were actually red, and the aggrieved and lonely expression on his face made his handsome face seem to have grown younger by several years.

"Is it time for dinner already? I thought it was too early." The little emperor sighed softly.

The palace people were outside the palace, and they didn't know if they heard it, so they didn't dare to say more.

"Let's pass on the meal." The little emperor said weakly.

The palace man heard it this time, and hastily raised his voice to order: "Chuan Shan—"

Holding lacquer dishes, the maids filed into the hall with their slender waists lightly swaying, and put all the sumptuous meals on the table.

The little emperor got up and came to the food table, the table was full of delicacies, delicious in color and fragrance.The chef in the imperial dining room has nothing else to do, the most important thing in every day is to try his best to make the Holy Majesty eat happily and satisfactorily.

But the little emperor looked at the table full of delicious food, and there was no sign of happiness on his face.

"Today at Prince Qi's mansion, what kind of dim sum did Lady Shen serve?" the little emperor asked.

The eunuch who served the little emperor frowned, recalled carefully, but before he could speak, the little emperor sighed again.

"That's all, even if I thought of it and made it, it doesn't taste that way anymore. If others can imitate her craftsmanship, I won't be so obsessed with it. Forget it..."

After the little emperor finished speaking, he sat down.

Standing by the side were four maids serving dishes, always keeping an eye on the little emperor's eyes, and as long as his eyes stayed on a dish for a while, they would quickly pick up the dish.

But today's little emperor looked at this, looked at that, and refused to move the food served by the maid, as if he had no appetite at all.

This is so nervous that all the waiters are broken, the little emperor refuses to eat, is it because the food is not good?Or is the cloth dish not to your liking?Will punishment be lowered?
All the palace people were at a loss as to what to do. They all looked at the eunuch who was beside the Holy Majesty, intentionally or unintentionally, but he was the only one who dared to say a few more words in front of the Holy Majesty.

The eunuch stepped forward against everyone's gaze, "Today's dinner is not to your taste? If the Holy Majesty wants to eat something, tell them to order the imperial dining room to do it?"

The little emperor shook his head.

"Your Majesty is growing up, can you wrong yourself like this?" the eunuch said cautiously.

"You can see my grievances, but she can't." The little emperor muttered suddenly.

Immediately, the officials had many thoughts in their minds, the more they thought in their minds, the less they said, "The Holy Majesty will use as much as you want."

The little emperor shook his head, raised his hand and threw the chopsticks, "I have no appetite." Then he stood up and walked out of the hall.

The eunuch hurriedly followed, and all the palace servants looked at the untouched meals on the table, with embarrassed expressions on their faces.

The eunuch waved his hand and said: "Let's leave, let the imperial dining room keep the fire, and then make some delicate snacks, the snacks that Mrs. Shen praised in the past, are ready and sent over, and keep people. When the Holy Majesty is hungry, you can eat again." Fire!"

The palace man got the order, so he relaxed a little bit.

The officials hurriedly chased after the little emperor.

"Let them stay away from you," said the little emperor.

The eunuch hurriedly waved his hand, making all the palace servants back away a little bit, only he followed the little emperor in step.

"She was pregnant, so she refused to come to the palace to accompany me. When the child was born that day, she would have no time to enter the palace to accompany me. Today I called the child's younger brother, and she emphasized to me that she was a monarch and minister. This is not born with me. Divide?" The little emperor said slowly.

Officials dare not speak, just hang their heads, pretending not to hear.

"She said that there was no change between the past and the present, but I feel that everything has changed. She used to look at me with so focused eyes. In her black and bright eyes, there was only my shadow. Now it is not the case. , Even when talking to me, her hands are touching her belly, and the child in her heart is even more important." The little emperor pouted.

The official looked at the figure of the little emperor Xiao Suo under the moonlight, took a step forward, and comforted him in a slow voice: "Maybe the Holy Majesty is thinking too much, I haven't seen Mrs. Shen for a long time, and now Mrs. Shen is unable to move, which makes the Holy Majesty I feel like she's being neglected."

"Do you think she is neglecting you? I don't need her to salute, greet me, or greet me with courtesy! She just treats me as her child!" The little emperor immediately stopped and lowered his voice to scold the eunuch. road.

The officials nodded repeatedly, but did not dare to refute.

The little emperor gasped, "You don't understand what I mean, you don't understand either!"

The eunuch nodded again and again, children are difficult to serve, they have status and status, children who lack love and have no siblings are even more difficult to serve.

"If she has no children, do you think everything will be the same as before?" the little emperor asked suddenly.

The eunuch hurriedly nodded, nodded twice, and was stunned for a moment, "What did your majesty say?"

The little emperor showed a strange smile under the moonlight, "I also think so, since she became pregnant, she has become different, so if the child is gone, then everything will return to the original state Is it?"

"My lord! What did you say, my lord? How could you think so? Never, never!" The eunuch persuaded in panic.

"Do you think I don't know?" Under the moonlight, the emperor looked at the eunuch coldly, "Why is my father the only child? Why is there nothing in the palace?"

Startled, the eunuch raised his eyes in a daze.

"I know, I understand everything. Because Yu Shi has no children, she can't tolerate other people's children. If others are pregnant, she will be jealous. My biological mother, I don't know if it's luck, or she is too stupid, but she never She had attracted her attention, and the mother and concubine were not favored during her lifetime. After she was pregnant, she didn't dare to say anything. She didn't let Mrs. Yu know until the time of childbirth. But when Mrs. Yu knew, her father had already arrived first. This Only then did I save my life, and deliberately sent me to be raised by Mrs. Yu, if I had any mishaps, she would be the first to be responsible. This is how I survived by luck." The little emperor's face under the moonlight was exceptionally bright cool.

The officials felt that they couldn't tell the age of the Holy Majesty for a moment. Is he really that innocent child?Or is it an adult who has grown up and knows how to hide his thoughts before everyone knows it?
"I hate the Yu family. She raised me, but never took care of me or cared about me. When I was young, I still felt that I must be too stupid to please her, so she didn't like me. I tried every means to please her." She liked it, heard that she likes plum blossoms, and in the cold weather, climbed to the rockery in the plum garden to open the most beautiful plum blossoms for her. She almost fell off the rockery, but she just cursed "stupid guy"... Now I know that she is jealous, jealous that other women can bear children for the father, but she can't, she can only raise other people's children by her side." The little emperor sighed, "Now, I am also jealous , jealous that others can get all the attention and care of Mrs. Shen, and gather all her attention. But I will be alienated by her and excluded from my family by her. "

(End of this chapter)