female catcher

Chapter 167 Farewell
After Xia Chu finished speaking, he raised his head and looked at Su Zhen.

It was still this stone table, when she looked at the person opposite, she felt so close, but today she felt so far away, so far away that even her face was blurred.

Su Zhen said that she came to say goodbye today, so she was in the mood to say goodbye, to 'Mr. Huang'.

She really hoped that Su Zhen could give her an explanation.Since he came today, it also shows that he is not a passerby in his heart; he wants to say goodbye to himself, which shows that he does not cherish the friendship between them.That being the case, why lie to her again?As long as he speaks, she can understand no matter what difficulties he has.

For this unrevealable secret love, she never wanted to ask for any result, she just wanted to preserve the memory properly, and only wanted to be relieved, clean and complete.

She looked at him, catching every change in his expression, until she felt pain in her heart.He just looked at himself, with eyes that obviously wanted to say a lot, but kept silent.

"What do you know?" After a long silence, Su Zhen asked in a slightly hoarse voice.

Xia Chu was startled, and then he sneered, completely disappointed.She was a little annoyed and said: "I don't know anything. I only know that there is no rich businessman named Huang in Xijing, and there is no son named Huang Zhen."

"Have you checked?"

"I didn't check, I just found out by accident. How big a secret is the young master's secret that I can't listen to?" Xia Chu looked at him sideways, "What are you afraid of, young master?"

He was too scared.He was afraid that he would not be able to sit firmly on the throne that his mother bought for him with her life, that the court would stare at him closely, that someone would dig out this forbidden love hidden in his heart, and that one day he would harm her.

He shouldn't be here today.He should break it cleanly and forget it completely, but he couldn't help it.He said to himself that he wanted to say goodbye, but this goodbye was more like an excuse he made for himself, a very tenable excuse.He wanted to use this excuse to see Chu Xia again, for the last time.

He didn't expect Xia Chu to know that Huang Zhen's identity was fake. Thinking about the lie he told just now, he felt that he was ridiculous.

"When I came back from Guanyang, I thought about when you would come every day. I brought you gifts, cleaned the yard and stone table every day, and raised a few small goldfish in the fish tank. I think Mr. Huang is probably I'm too busy, I can ask Xiaoliang to come, but Xiaoliang didn't come; I think Mr. Huang may not be in Xijing, is he on a business trip? Or is he going to meet relatives? He will come when you are free. You Here you are, you want to say goodbye, but it’s not Mr. Huang who is saying goodbye to me.”

Su Zhen looked at her quietly and listened quietly.Every sentence that Xia Chu said hurts in his heart, but even if it hurts, he still wants to remember it verbatim.For a few moments, he could hardly help blurting out his identity.But so what?What can I do in exchange for her understanding?Apart from frightening her, nothing will change.After all, what should be broken still has to be broken, and wherever it is broken, it is always broken.

"At the beginning of Xia, there may not be Mr. Huang Zhen Huang in Xijing, but the one in front of you is still Mr. Huang."

"Now that's all I can think of." Xia Chu smiled noncommittally, "You call me Xia Chu, but what should I call you? The friend I miss, who is his name, who lives, where does he make a living, I don’t know at all, how can I convince myself that I really know you? How can I give you the gift I brought back from Guanyang? How can I find you when I want to see you? I can only sit and wait for you to fall from the sky, what is this? Woolen cloth?"

The more Xia Chu spoke, the more anxious he became, and when he raised his eyes and saw Su Zhen's expression, he couldn't continue.She sighed in frustration, pulled off the hat on her head, and stroked her hair irritably, "Forget it, anyway, you still come to say goodbye to me, if you disappear like this, wouldn't there be nothing I can do? Sorry, I don't mean to embarrass you, Master. It's just that these words feel uncomfortable in my heart. Since I came to say goodbye, I might as well say goodbye quickly."

She sniffed and stood up, "Master, wait for me, I'll go get something."

When Xia Chu entered the house, Su Zhen turned his head to look at the fish tank in the yard, and slowly got up.He still remembers that time when he poked his head to look, there were only remnants of rainwater and clumps of dirty moss inside.But now, a few small red and white fish are swimming quietly in the water.

Su Zhen looked down, and a drop of water fell into it unexpectedly, causing the fish to scatter in all directions with their tails wagging.He was startled, and raised his hand to cover his eyes, his palm was wet.

Well, this might as well be a way, he lied to her, and she hated him, no matter how much she misses him in the future, she won't be able to find a reason to come to her.

Xia Chu took out a wrapped box from the cabinet, held it in his hand and stared at it for a long time.She never expected that this gift would be in such a situation when it was sent out.

What is this?Letter gift?Wedding gift?Or parting memorial?

Do you want to send it out?Is it still worth it?Should it be placed in Mr. Huang's hands to remind him of a friend like himself, or should it be kept in his hands so that he can remember this inexplicable friendship?
She thought of the crack in the purple jade grape pendant. Jiang Xiyuan said that it damaged the value of the pendant. At that time, she didn't care at all, and she thought Mr. Huang wouldn't care either.

But thinking about it now, that crack is like Mr. Huang's lie, even if it doesn't damage the integrity of the surface, it is still a flaw that can never be erased.

That's all, since it's a farewell, it might as well be more thorough.

Su Zhen was still sitting in front of the stone table, and the oil lamp on the table was like a bean, making him look unreal, like a projected painting.

Xia Chu took a deep breath, walked slowly to Su Zhen's side, and put the box in front of him, "My lord, this is a gift I brought you from Guan Yang, it's... a souvenir."

Su Zhen looked at the box wrapped in light green floral paper, without reaching out, closed his eyes gently, and said thank you.

"You're welcome. The gift is not expensive. If you like it, you can keep it. If you don't like it..." Xia Chu paused, "Also...please keep it."

She turned around, looked up at the darkened sky, let out a long breath, and said as if she was talking to herself: "Look at my grapes, even if I want to prune them, I still can't bloom." Flowers, sit on fruit. Maybe I misunderstood, maybe this is not a vine at all. But it has grown like this, and I am reluctant to cut it off, it is also very good. I no longer expect it to bear grapes Just come."

"At the beginning of Xia..." Su Zhen stood up suddenly, stretched out his hand and pulled her into his arms.

Xia Chu was facing Su Zhen with his back, and suddenly leaned into his chest.She froze for an instant, feeling her mind was blank, and her breath suddenly stopped in her chest, choking with pain.

"Don't move...and don't look back." Su Zhen whispered.

The breath trembled past her ears, and the heartbeat in the chest behind her seemed to be even more chaotic than hers.At this moment, Xia Chu fully understood how Su Zhen felt towards her.She didn't guess wrong, but unfortunately she guessed right, but she just felt more helpless.It's better to be confused.

Xia Chu didn't dare to speak, and didn't want to speak.She was afraid that as soon as she opened her mouth, she couldn't help telling him that she liked him and that she was a girl.

and then?
Should Su Zhen resign his marriage and marry another, or should he keep himself low?She can't even do it.She didn't want to embarrass Su Zhen, and she didn't want to embarrass herself either.

Such a farewell..., really came at the right time.

"Xia Chu..." Su Zhen buried his head on Xia Chu's shoulder, and called her name indistinctly, but couldn't say a word to say goodbye.

Why are you not a woman?Why do I only fall in love with you?
I never thought that I would fall in love with a man. The thing is so ridiculous, but it is like this.Now I really hope that I am a foolish king, and I hope that I can take you back to the palace regardless, but a foolish king can't protect himself, let alone protect you.How can I endure that you are condemned by the world, how can I endure that you bear the name of ban and be gloomy all your life, how can I endure that I may end up personally killing you one day.

"Can you...call me Mr. Huang again? Can you just treat me as Mr. Huang?" Su Zhen's voice was somewhat begging.

It's not that he lied to Xia Chu, but he lied to himself. After all, he is not Mr. Huang, nor can he be Mr. Huang.He wove a dream for himself, and had to wake himself up from the dream.

The heart is moved, and it can only be in a dream.

Xia Chu closed his eyes and said softly, "Young Master Huang, the journey to the west is far away, you should take care of yourself."

The wind picked up, blowing the vines overhead, and the leaves rustled softly.There seemed to be a whimper as the wind passed by the small yard.A moment later, Xia Chu's shoulders loosened, and the cool wind immediately swept away the temperature behind him, and he couldn't keep it even if he wanted to.

She didn't dare to look back, until she heard the courtyard door close gently, and then she sat down on the stone bench as if collapsed.

The person she had been looking forward to for a long time finally appeared, the gift she had prepared for a long time was finally delivered, and she said everything she wanted to say, and her mind was over.Young Master Huang is gone and will never appear again.

The seat opposite is empty, the box is gone, and the tea is cold, but the cup is still full.Xia Chu looked at it without blinking, tears streaming down his face, and he didn't even want to wipe it off.

Waking up early the next day, An Liang went to call Su Zhen to get up, but when he entered the palace gate, he found that Su Zhen had already woken up and was sitting in the bright yellow gauze tent.

"Your Majesty, why didn't you call out to your servant when you got up?" An Liang asked cautiously.

"come here."

An Liang asked the palace servants behind to take a few steps back, gently opened the gauze curtain and walked in, but was shocked when he saw Su Zhen, and said nervously: "Your Majesty, is the dragon's body weak? The servant is going to teach the imperial physician."

"No need." Su Zhen took a box from beside the pillow and handed it to him, "Go to the construction office and find a single color of purple jade beads to string on."

An Liang took it and opened it to take a look. With his eyesight, he could tell that it was just an ordinary thing, but thinking about what happened last night, he also knew that this thing might not be measured by the fineness of the carver, so he must order it to be made. Be careful with 1 offices.

"Your Majesty, this servant is asking me, is this pendant a waist accessory, or..."

"Bracelet." The fan pendant on his waist is always leaving his body, and the only thing he can hold now is this pendant.

Su Zhen stood up, his face was a little pale, his eyes were bloodshot.He stayed up all night, holding this piece of purple jade grapes in his hand, when he closed his eyes, he saw the small courtyard of Xia Chu, and Xia Chu's back in the courtyard.

He was glad that Chu Xia didn't look back when he closed the courtyard door.Farewell, the best thing is not to look back.

"Change, go to the imperial study." Su Zhen opened the tent and came out.

(End of this chapter)