The Biography of Fangirls and Immortals

Chapter 354 Who asked about the sufferings of the world
But he should have thought a long time ago that Qin Xiang'er is insane, and anyone who takes care of Qin Xiang'er will be at risk, and the worry of life is naturally included, but he subconsciously plans to use 200 taels of gold to solve all problems!Li Yaoluo already blamed himself deeply, but he also knew that self-blame could not save a person's life. A big mistake had already been made, and it was useless to say anything.

Su Hongyan has always been cold-faced to Li Yaoluo, seeing that Li Yaoluo bought a high-quality uniform, a high-quality coffin, and asked someone to put makeup on Yao'er before taking her to the suburbs for burial, and gradually felt Li Yaoluo's love. The self-blame in Yaoluo's heart, but also a layer of sadness shrouded in her heart, presumably Yao'er has never worn such expensive clothes in her short life, right?
After burning the paper money, Su Hongyan finally spoke to Li Yaoluo: "Is it true that you guys who grew up in honey pots don't take human lives so seriously?"

"I... hey, forget it, what I say now, you will think that I am sophistry, but I really didn't expect this at the time! Although I had such an idea, I really didn't pay attention to it." Li Yaoluo Dao, the tone is full of self-blame.

Su Hongyan didn't blame him anymore, anyway, the matter was already like this, an innocent person had already lost his life, no matter what she said, she couldn't save this person's life, besides, she was also responsible for Yao'er's death, she At that time, she should have thought that Qin Xiang'er would hurt people, but she was too anxious about Yuan Qingxiao's affairs at that time, so she deliberately ignored it. Because of more important things, I deliberately ignored them.

And Li Yaoluo was in a hurry to entrust Qin Xiang'er to other people in order to help him. In the final analysis, it was still her fault, so what right did she have to blame Li Yaoluo?
Thinking of this level, Su Hongyan felt guilty for Li Yaoluo's tolerance for stopping all the guilt.

Looking at Yao'er's grave, Su Hongyan said: "Actually, when I was young, I was also unaware of the sufferings in this world. At that time, I was a lady of the official family with a prominent family background and didn't understand the world, but there were people who made money for a piece of steamed buns." I was bloodied, and I didn't understand that some people would actually sell their bodies for a few taels of silver, until that day, when disaster struck my family, and I saw my parents and servants die unexpectedly..."

The setting sun shrouded this lonely tomb even more desolate. Su Hongyan fell into memories, as if muttering to herself: "I should have gone with my parents, but I want to live, I can't let my father My mother died tragically for no apparent reason. In order to survive, I threw away all my pride. I groveled to the people I hated. I flattered and flattered my childhood sweethearts. grab……"

Su Hongyan let out a long sigh: "After I was beaten by Nangongru, I dragged my wounded body and starved for five days and five nights, I completely abandoned all dignity, my only belief at that time was to live , as long as it keeps me alive, I can give anything except my innocence. Nangongru held a steamed bun and shook it in front of me. She asked me, do you want to eat it? I said I would, and she said , then you call yourself a lowly maidservant and come to me..."

"I said that the lowly maid was rude and offended the princess; but she still wouldn't give it to me, and she asked me again, do you want to eat it, and I said I wanted it, and she said, then tell me who you are? I Said that I am the servant girl of the princess, and I am a cheap servant girl; she asked me, can the servant girl be worthy of the son of Master Zhao’s family? I said no, only the ninth princess is willing to condescend, the son of Master Zhao’s family can marry; It's your master, you're a slave, if you see me in the future, do you want to kneel? I said I kneel to the princess..."

"That's how she threw the steamed bun to me to eat. At that time, the woodshed was full of dirt. The white steamed bun rolled so far on the ground before it reached me. It had turned black, but I ate it anyway. , the ridiculous thing is that when I ate that steamed bun, I didn't feel bad at all, and I even thought it was the most delicious thing in the world..."

Li Yaoluo has never heard Su Hongyan talk about these pasts. He only knows that Nangongru is Su Hongyan's father-killing enemy. He only knows that Su Hongyan killed many people to avenge her father's death. Proud by nature, she didn't know that she had lived such a difficult life. I'm afraid that this kind of life where her parents died tragically and she was enslaved by others, if it were him at that age, he would not be in this world long ago, right?
Li Yaoluo held Su Hongyan's hand, a wave of warmth spread into Su Hongyan's palm, and Su Hongyan's heart also felt warm.

With a soft sigh, Su Hongyan looked in the direction of Yuanchuntang: "At the beginning, I didn't want to practice in Yuanchuntang forever, and I didn't really regard Yuan Qingxiao as my mortal master, but gradually Yes, Yuan Chuntang gave me a sense of belonging, and Yuan Qingxiao made me feel that I have family. He is like my elder brother and my father. He has become my only relative in the world of cultivating immortals, so I can’t Let him die, I can't risk it."

Su Hongyan looked at Li Yaoluo, this face is so pretty, this person is so good, recalling the past, she felt so happy now: "I shouldn't blame you, Yao'er's death was actually not your fault, but My fault, if I was not anxious to save Yuan Qingxiao, you would not be in a hurry to help me, Xianger would not run away, Yaoer would not die, it is all my fault, not only did you not blame me , on the contrary stopped all guilt, let me complain..."

Li Yaoluo pulled Su Hongyan into her arms, and interrupted her: "Ahem, I'm not used to you being so sensible all of a sudden!"

When Su Hongyan was suddenly pulled into his arms by Li Yaoluo, she still felt warm in her heart, thinking that this guy was going to say something emotional, but she didn't expect that this guy didn't want his handsome face so much!
"I hate it!" Su Hongyan pushed Li Yaoluo away, "I'm already very sensible, okay! Cut!"

After Su Hongyan finished speaking, she turned around and walked back into the city, and said to Li Yaoluo, "Don't be in a daze! Don't you want Qin Xiang'er? You need me to help you pay off these romantic debts! You are not ashamed! "

"Hehe", Li Yaoluo immediately fell into a coward, after all Su Hongyan had exposed him, if he didn't make a fool of her to make Su Hongyan happy, Su Hongyan wouldn't eat him!
Although Yao'er has been buried, Su Hongyan's heart is still full of mist. It's not about Yao'er's death and Qin Xiang'er's disappearance, but something else. She is thinking, what are these monks cultivating immortality for?
One by one is fighting to the death, in order to make oneself stronger, for eternal life, for invincibility, but these pursuits are still too narrow and selfish. After all, aren’t they still for themselves?The monks often spend hundreds of years of life, calling the wind and rain, and passing through the clouds and fog. Is this long life and powerful energy all used to pursue stronger energy and a longer life?What's the point of that?If it is useless in the world, isn't it a waste to want these?

If this long life and powerful energy can only benefit oneself in the end, then what's the point of living for thousands of years?Isn't it the loneliness of thousands of years?

This is the first time Su Hongyan thinks about the meaning of cultivating immortals. She has been making herself stronger in the past. They, in fact, have lived in vain!

"Son, you've grown up." Shui Po said inexplicably.

"Ah? How can there be?" Su Hongyan subconsciously looked at her chest.

Shui Po was speechless: "What are you thinking? It's already big, so you don't have to expect it to grow any longer!"

Uh, really, I was brought over by this stinky girl!
Shui Po hastily corrected her: "I mean, if you are aware of this, it means that you have grown up and learned a lot."

"Of course, I always know a lot." Su Hongyan said proudly.

Shui Po knows that this girl cannot be praised, once she praises her, she will be lost, and she seems to be able to fly to the sky immediately when she is proud, although it is very easy for her to fly to the sky!Oops, it's just a metaphor!
"Shui Po, look, there are so many countries on the Qianyu Continent, none of these countries obey the other, and wars break out at every turn. Isn't it the common people who are suffering? Moreover, most of these common people live very poorly, and some We don’t even have enough food and clothing to keep warm. As for us monks, we treat the ten taels of silver as nothing and squander them recklessly, but we don’t know that just one piece of clothing and one meal of ours is enough for an ordinary family to live for a year.”

Su Hongyan stopped joking with Shui Po, and began to discuss profound issues in a serious manner, "We monks are treated like gods by the common people. The common people respect us and tell us that we are miraculous, but what can we do for them? What is it? Even some monks take pleasure in trampling the powerless people, do we deserve these praises and praises? We are really ashamed.”

"Then what do you think? What do you think a monk should be like?" Shui Po asked.

"At least you should use what you have learned and cultivated to benefit the people of one side, instead of just caring about yourself and ignoring the sufferings of the world. If you are a strong enough person, you will only care about yourself, and you will not even have the most basic compassion. , from my point of view, even ascending to immortality is meaningless." Su Hongyan said.

Shui Po said with satisfaction: "Son, what you said was always what I thought! On this point, I have to say that you are even more worthy of my old lady's admiration than Canglang Xianjun!"

(End of this chapter)