Mrs. President is very low-key

Chapter 172 I want to be one with you

I feel myself trembling, am I the good guy?
Or is it that I can't see anything, so I have no sense of time?

I tried hard to grab the chopsticks, but I couldn't control my trembling hands at all.

That uncomfortable feeling came again, and I became irritable again. I don't know where the strength came from, and I just overturned the dining table, and the things on the table fell to the ground.

I shouted, "Where's the medicine? Don't you know what you promised to buy for me? Where did it go? Was it taken by Fang Ziyi?"

I scolded: "Fang Ziqing, you trash? I'll go find her myself, and I want to get the medicine back."

I walked forward in the dark, but in essence I didn't know where the door was?Just after taking two or three steps, he tripped over something and fell directly to the ground.

I don't know what happened to my hand, and I suddenly felt pain... I felt my hand was bleeding, and I touched the ground a little excitedly, and I felt that I had touched a sharp weapon.

That's right, it was the plate I just broke. I hurriedly picked up a piece, and immediately scratched it towards my wrist.

Living like this is really not as good as dying.

A strong force grabbed my hand, Fang Ziqing said: "Just bear with it, it will pass soon...".

I struggled and said: "I don't, I can't bear it, you go and get the medicine back for me, get it back for me, or I will die for you, I will die for you..."

I clung to the tile tightly, and I waved it wildly, but I didn't have as much strength as him. He grabbed my wrist with both hands, and I couldn't break free at all.

"Fang Ziqing, let me go. You can either go and get the medicine back for me, or let me die. You don't have a third way, no..."

He carried my waist and put it directly on his shoulders. Then, I felt thrown into the bathtub by him. Immediately afterwards, he poured cold water on me.

This brought my already uncomfortable body to a higher level. I wanted to come out, but was quickly pressed down by his hand, and there was no way to come out.

Soon the water in the bathtub was full, and I became even more exhausted. I scolded: "Fang Ziqing, what are you doing? Do you really want me to die? If I die, I will let you take my back."

I grabbed his clothes as soon as I grabbed them. I didn't have the strength, but I didn't let go, and the strength of my whole body fell on him.

He pressed my head and submerged in the water, and lifted it up every few seconds, which made me exhausted. I don't know how many times this happened?I started to retch....

I felt like my internal organs were about to vomit out, but I couldn't vomit anything. The cold water penetrated into my bones and blood like a sharp sword, making me feel cold all over.

Fang Ziqing took a bottle of water and poured it into my mouth. It was not ordinary water, it was a kind of water with a very bitter taste. After drinking it, I wanted to vomit even more.

Then, I vomited what seemed to be the entire contents of my stomach until I was completely half-dead.

Wait, when I regained my intuition again, I heard someone talking.

He said: "The eyes are not serious, but the head was severely injured. There is a small blood clot inside, which just presses on the optic nerve. Wait for the blood clot to dissipate slowly, and you will be able to see it naturally. The key is this drug addiction. Quit, no matter how hard you work, you have to quit.”

I haven't heard a stranger's voice for a long time, I was a little scared, and I asked: "Who? Who is it?"

"it's me……".

"Who are you?" I yelled with a little fear: "Ziqing, where are you, Ziqing? I'm afraid, I'm afraid...".

A hand stretched out hastily and said, "Here I am, this is the newly invited doctor, here to see your eyes."

I hurriedly crawled towards him, curled up in his arms and asked, "Is it reliable? Will he call the police? Will the police arrest me? Will he belong to Lu Tianyu? Will he not?" Will you tell Lu Tianyu that I am here?"

He comforted: "No, he is my person and someone I trust. He will not tell the police or Lu Tianyu. Don't worry, don't worry."

Only then did I calm down a little bit, and I said softly: "Doctor, can you take a look at Ziqing's voice? His voice is so hoarse that I can hardly recognize him? I like his voice before, can you help me?" He healed? I feel that he talks like this, very uncomfortable, very uncomfortable..."

The man said: "You don't need to worry, his throat is just on fire, a little inflammation, take some anti-inflammatory drugs, drink more boiled water, and it will be fine."

I asked helplessly, "What about me? When will I be cured? When will my eyes be able to see? When will I be able to quit my poison."

"The situation is already very good. If you persist for a while, you will quit soon."

"How long is a period of time? Can you tell me a specific date? I'm about to lose it? I really can't keep it? Or, can you let me die? I, I can write my last words, no Let me euthanize those who drag you down, okay?"

Fang Ziqing straightened my shoulders and asked, "What are you talking about? What is euthanasia? Why can't you persist? Your mother is still alive, how can you say euthanasia? What should she do when you die?
Your cousin is only that old, if you die, who will take care of her?Your uncle is still in prison, don't you plan to leave him alone?I don't allow you to say die, I want you to live, live well, the drug will be quit, and the eyes will be fine, I don't allow you to give up. "

I said: "But I will only implicate you? Your company, your business, your home, your woman, your child, and your favorite sister, I am afraid, I am afraid that I will not persist in the end Live, and in the end, it caused you to lose everything.”

"No, you will definitely persevere... You can persevere if you think about your mother, your relatives, and your past home..."

I said weakly: "But I am in pain!"

"Then think about the people who hurt you. Are you willing to be killed by them like this? Don't you want to take revenge?"

Speaking of this, my teeth almost itch, I gritted my teeth and said: "Yes, yes, I want revenge, I want Lu Tianyu and Liang Daiqing to pay blood, I can do it, I can definitely persevere, they will pay you back." If I am not dead, how can I die? I don’t want to die, I want to live…”

I held onto his clothes tightly, leaned into his arms and said, "I want to live a good life..."

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My hand was scratched by the tile, he wiped the wound carefully, and I said: "Ziqing, after I found out that your voice became hoarse, you became so gentle...how can you still be so patient?" To me? Do you really want your precious sister?"

I was impatient with myself, and all I could see was the little bit of hope, the little space between two bouts of addiction.

"The little girl has grown up, it's time for her to take care of herself, not to mention, she still has Axiu?"

"Yes, she still has Ah Xiu! I'm so envious of her, having such a good brother like you, and a boyfriend who loves her so much."

My nails are out of shape, I broke off the long ones, they are uneven, and there may be a lot of dirt in the broken ones.

He cut my nails by the way, I was close to his arms, feeling the sun, I asked: "It's daytime, right? I feel the breath of the sun."

"It's daytime, it's early morning, what a beautiful morning sun!"

"Yes, it must be beautiful. I regret that I didn't appreciate such natural beauty when my eyes were good, but now I can't see anything. Do people always understand after losing Cherish it?"

I recalled some past events, and I said: "I never thought that one day my mother would lie down and cannot move, and I never thought that my uncle would leave and never look back? I also put love first. Putting Mo Yiyi first in everything? I am so stupid, how can I put my closest relatives behind him?"

His embrace is so warm, and Chen Yang is also so warm, so comfortable, and feels so comfortable.

However, it is precisely because of the sharp contrast between this moment of comfort and the onset of drug addiction, which makes me even more afraid. I really hope that time can stop here and stay here forever.

After cutting the nails, he just hugged me like this, hugged me tightly, and said: "I want to cherish you, I want to cherish you forever, I want to cherish you forever, but do I still have such a chance?"

I wanted to cry again, and I said: "So many things have happened, I finally understand who is the best person for me, I was wrong, I should have listened to your advice, the Lu family is a place of right and wrong, I Those who shouldn't go in, shouldn't covet everything that Lu Tianyu brought me.

I clearly know that his love for me is not so pure, but I still can't help but approach him?I was confused... Fortunately, I woke up, finally woke up, I finally saw his true face clearly, finally saw clearly..."

A drug addict is worse than death.

When drug addiction is not committed, the years are quiet and good.

I have wandered between life and death countless times. When I am awake, I really want to live, for my mother, for Yinger, for my uncle, and to revenge those who have hurt me.

However, as soon as I become addicted, everything becomes nothingness, life and death, life and death, life and death are meaningless to me.

I grabbed Fang Ziqing and said, "Ziqing, I want to sleep with you. I'm afraid I won't survive. This, this is the only thing I can repay you right now."

Every time there is an attack, there is endless energy, chaotic bumps, hurting others and several.

Bound them, poured cold water on them, poured detoxification water, restricted their behavior directly with their bodies, and restrained their mouths with cloth strips.

These have become my daily routine. After a long time, I seem to be used to it.

The emptiness and powerlessness after the drug addiction dissipated, the physical exhaustion and pain, and the psychological fear and emptiness made me feel that I had been pulled out of my spine.

At that moment, I was like a vine that couldn't stand up. It was not the victory and joy of the drug addiction dissipating, but the panic about the future.

I don't know which day I can't hold on anymore, I grabbed Fang Ziqing, hugged him, kissed him, and unbuttoned my clothes.

He changed my clothes and took a bath when he was unconscious. My body should not be unfamiliar to him. He stopped me and said, "What do you want to do?"

I said, "I want to be one with you, Ziqing, would you dislike me as I am now? Do you still love me as I am now? Do you still love me as passionately as you did back then?"

(End of this chapter)