Left-behind women in Fuzhou

Chapter 26 Wang Jing's Story (5)
Ah Qing smiled sadly, and she said, I like this, I want you to regret it, and I want you to regret it for the rest of your life.

Across the bar, I grabbed her arm impulsively, and I almost begged, Ah Qing, Ah Qing, you have to think about your future.

Ah Qing said coldly, I'm sorry, your hand is in the wrong place, please let go.

I stared fiercely into her eyes, she continued to squint at me contemptuously, and the waitresses next to me all looked this way curiously.Ah Qing suddenly shouted loudly, security guard, security guard...

Two men in gray uniforms came downstairs.Ah Qing told them, this person came to make trouble, I don't know her, so I kicked her out.

Two security guards clamped me from left to right, I let Ah Qing go, and swayed from side to side to push them away, I said loudly, go away, it's none of your business.Then, I turned around and walked out of the door pretending to be righteous, but my heart was full of sadness and helplessness.

Walking out of Sauna City, I raised my head and looked inside the door, and saw Ah Qing happily talking to the two security guards, and I felt a burst of sadness in my heart.

I didn't go to work that day, I was standing at the gate of Sauna City, imagining that Ah Qing would come out.I want to say to Ah Qing, everything is over, let us start again.

Ah Qing never walked out of the gate of Sanna City.I watched the sun set on the tall buildings in the west, the twilight gradually flooded the city, and the colorful lights came on one after another.One car after another, one bicycle after another, one pedestrian after another passed by me. They all looked happy and happy. No one was as full of sadness as I was, a sadness so thick that it could not be resolved.I smoked one cigarette after another until my lips were chapped and my tongue was hot.I don't know what to do, I don't know whether the road ahead is a smooth road after the bumps, or a cliff blown by the wind.

I haven't eaten for a day, but I don't feel hungry, and my chest is heavy and depressed like a pile of stones.I looked anxiously at the city of Sauna, hoping that Ah Qing would walk out from there, hoping that she would follow me home.Maybe it was because of hunger, maybe it was because of the pain, I felt dizzy and weak in limbs. I leaned against the banyan tree beside me and told myself, I must hold on, hold on.

In the middle of the night, Ah Qing finally came out, and I stumbled to meet him full of joy. She obviously didn't expect that I was still waiting, a trace of surprise flashed across her face, and then she quickly returned to indifference.She walked straight onto the road, stopped a taxi, and stooped in.Just as the taxi was about to start, I opened the door and got in too.I didn't expect Ah Qing to open the car door on the other side and quickly went to the opposite side of the road.

I got out of the taxi in panic and wanted to run to her.But one car after another passed in front of me, and then, a huge ten-wheel truck delivering goods for the supermarket.It came rumbling, and the ground was trembling.Its long carriage blocked my gaze at Ah Qing. It walked very slowly, like a snail crawling, and my anxious heart almost jumped out of my chest.The big truck finally drove past, but there was no longer Ah Qing on the other side of the road.I don't know which direction she went.

I went home distraught.That night, I got myself very drunk.I slept on the cold floor, my consciousness alternately clear and blurred.I thought of the infinitely happy time I spent at my grandmother's house when I was a child. In the countryside of northern Shaanxi, it was snowing heavily and the dripping water turned into ice.We were running in the cold wind and snowflakes with our schoolbags on our backs, our faces were flushed from the cold, and we sang all the way: "Sorolo, Sorollo, the cold wind will freeze me to death, and I will build a nest tomorrow..." That is our language There is a text in the textbook called "Horror Bird". The funny and poor Han Haoniao sings like this when it is cold night, and when the sun rises, it forgets the coldness of last night... How happy it was at that time , no sorrow no pain.How wonderful it would be if a person never grows up and lives in childhood forever.Even if you grow up, it would be nice not to encounter love.Love, why is there love between a man and a woman?
In the next few days, I didn't go to Ah Qing again, maybe we all need to be quiet.Like the calm sea after a rough sea, we make up after a misunderstanding.

I started to walk in the alleys of Fuzhou again. Those winding alleys often took my steps to an unexpected place, bringing me surprises and sighs.At the end of the alley, suddenly there will be an unusually old banyan tree, covered with hair-like air roots, like an old man in his dying years; sometimes there will be a dilapidated ancient temple, with mottled painted doors and moss on the corrugated Telling the vicissitudes of time.Walking in these deep alleys, my full of sorrow and resentment will gradually dissipate in the light wind.I don't know what kind of people lived in these houses in the alley before, and who lives here now, the years are so hasty, and a person's life is so fleeting, how can you allow you to bury the petals like Lin Daiyu? Under the tree, how about causing some sorrow alone?

I thought, I should pull myself together.

One day, I suddenly met Alian in Tower Lane.Tower Lane is a very old alley in Fuzhou.

I just wanted to buy a pack of cigarettes. I walked into a store with no sign. There was a wooden frame at the door of the store. There were a few empty cigarette packs in the partition of the wooden frame, telling people it was a store.The alley was very quiet and lonely, a dog with long ears dozed off by the wall, and the base of the wall was glowing green due to the long-term damp.I don't understand why anyone would keep a store here, maybe it's just for the tranquility.I think the owner must be a trembling old man with white hair.

When my eyes got used to the darkness in the store, I was surprised to find Alian standing behind the simple counter.Even though her face is sad and her eyes are dim, even though there are fine wrinkles on her forehead, and even though her skin has lost its former radiance, I can still recognize that she is A-Lian.

Alian was also surprised to see it was me.She kept asking, why did you come here?How did you come here?She was smiling happily, and I saw that her open mouth was missing two front teeth.

A-Lian took out the best cigarettes in her store and offered to give them to me, but I didn't want them. She stuffed them in my pocket.I took out my wallet and she suddenly changed face and said, if you pay, get out of here now.I had to put the wallet back in my pocket.

Alian said that two years ago, she and her husband divorced, and she did not ask for the money from her husband.The husband returned to Japan and lived with the woman of the Japanese chaebol.Nana died shortly after, and suffering from this disease was almost tantamount to death.In order to treat Nana, she owed too much money to others.In order to pay off the debt, she married that Taiwanese man in a fake marriage, and wanted to emigrate to Taiwan privately and work in Taiwan to pay off the debt.However, I didn't expect to be found out by the border police station...

I remembered that the last time Alian and I met was at that frontier police station.The policeman who handled the case said that Alian will be sent to a forced labor camp for half a year, and the place of the forced labor camp will be a farm in northern Fujian.When I left Fuzhou for the first time last year, I went to Minbei Farm to look for her, but there was no sign of her there, nor was her name in the roster of labor camps.

Alian said that a few days after I left the border police station, the police who handled the case re-studied her case and decided that she was different from those smuggling women who were looking for pleasure, so they decided to give her a lighter punishment.After only being held in the detention center for a month, she was released and opened this small shop.

I said, why did you choose the address here, it's too remote.

Alian said that she didn't have much capital, and she couldn't afford more rent.What's more, here, there is no need to pay various taxes, and her customers are all acquaintances in the alley.

I asked, can you live by yourself in this kind of business?
A-Lian said that in addition to her own living expenses every month, she can still have some money left over to pay off her debts.She calculated that according to this kind of business, she would be able to pay off all her debts in 20 years, and by then, she would be able to die in peace.

I looked at the petite woman in front of me with awe.

A-Lian said that she doesn't think about anything now, she just wants to go through day after day in peace, just waiting for the day when the debt is paid off, her heart is clear, and she lives a solid and solid life.

Looking at her haggard face, I felt sad for a while.This is the A-Lian who lived a casual and well-off life back then, the A-Lian who spent money like water, and the A-Lian who lived in the high-end villa area in Fuzhou.Life really tortures people, and fate really plays tricks on people.However, Alian, who lives in poverty in a back alley, is still kind and sincere. What she never forgets is to pay back other people's debts.

Alian also told me about Mei Niang, she said, they are good friends for many years.

Alian said that she once met Mei Niang in a private school in Cangshan.Mei Niang is an English teacher recruited by that school.

A-Lian has no way of knowing more about Meiniang.She said that Mei Niang's personality has completely changed, and she is no longer as talkative and laughing as before.During the more than an hour when they met, Mei Niang was always silent, her brows were condensed with sorrow.

It turns out that Meiniang is still in Fuzhou!God, you finally opened your eyes to me.

For a long time, this disease called impotence made me miserable. I felt like a eunuch withered, full of hypocrisy and hypocrisy. Although my body was still healthy, my pectoralis major was still as hard as a rock. My thighs are full of strength like a fully drawn bow, but my strength cannot be concentrated at that point, and my strength is distributed loosely throughout the body.Walking on the street, I envy every man who passes me. They can enjoy the pleasure and pleasure given by God, but I cannot.I was in so much pain.I have a strong inferiority complex.

I dare not tell anyone about my illness, it is my secret.At night, I wandered the streets alone, and began to pay attention to the old books on the street stalls.Those books have been tainted by the smog of the years, they have been hiding behind the time and are unknown, but the folk remedies recorded in them are said to be able to treat intractable diseases. I am full of desire for them like a hound looking for bones.

I bought an old book called "Don't Seek Help When I'm Sick". It has only a broken half, and the only half has been burned beyond recognition by smoke, but my intuition tells me that this is often the case. Books are rich mines. "There is a house of gold in the book", our ancestors have long said so.

That book recorded a Chinese medicine prescription for treating impotence.I copied the prescription on a piece of paper and hurried to a traditional Chinese medicine store. I lowered my head and told the prescription clerk to pay according to this prescription.The guy in his 20s asked, what's wrong?I dare not raise my head to look him in the eyes, I said, I grab the medicine for others.

I grabbed the medicine, put it in my pocket, slipped out the door like a mouse, and walked along the corner.The sun shines on the streets like a raging flame, but it can't penetrate the deep sorrow in my heart.

I have never cooked that Chinese medicine, and it has been placed on the balcony for several months, because I don't know where there is a medicine pot to buy.When I left Fuzhou for the first time, I cleaned the room and opened the packaged hemp paper, only to find that the inside had become densely packed with moths.After the first few moths got in, they devoured the traditional Chinese medicine for treating impotence, and then they became sexually active and produced a large number of offspring.

Later, I read in a medical book that a large factor of impotence is caused by prostatitis.I wonder if I have prostatitis.According to the book, prostatitis is an extremely difficult disease, and some people have not recovered from treatment for a lifetime.Prostatitis should be detected and treated early, otherwise there will be endless troubles.Just thinking about it alone makes the hairs on my back stand up and tremble.I don't have children yet, I can't just ruin my life like this.

One Sunday morning, I came to the hospital early, and I registered the number of the specialist clinic.That hospital is located next to the health department, and it was in that hospital that Alian was hospitalized.Its good service left a deep impression on me.Through the crack of the door, I saw an old gray-haired doctor sitting facing the door, and he was reading a book.I checked that there were no other patients in the corridor, so I hurried in.

The old doctor raised his head and asked, what's wrong with you?
I said, I am impotent.

The old doctor said, how long has it been?

I said, almost a month.

The old doctor asked, how was it before?

I'm not married yet, I say sheepishly, and it used to be fine.I remembered the days when I lived with Mei Niang.

The old doctor punched me on the chest, making a loud bang bang sound.The old doctor smiled and said, go ahead, there is no impotence in such a good body.

I was not reconciled, and I said, did I have prostatitis? I heard that prostatitis can cause impotence.

The old doctor laughed again and said, prostatitis is not something you get at your age.It's okay, don't think about it blindly, your impotence is made by thinking about it blindly.I don't have any illnesses, so go back.

I reluctantly left the hospital.I decided that I was impotent and that the old doctor was irresponsible for his work.Because, the "Don't Ask for Help when I'm Sick" I bought at a second-hand book stand said that impotence and prostatitis have nothing to do with physical age.The old doctor may have been downplaying it on purpose, but I was terminally ill and my impotence was beyond cure.

I fell into an even greater panic, and spent the days like years, muddling around.

One evening, I was wandering aimlessly on the streets of Fuzhou like a stray bird, when I suddenly received a call from Wang Jing.Wang Jing said, have you read today's newspaper?

I said no.I haven't read a single newspaper since I left the newspaper office.

Wang Jing said loudly at the other end, you should quickly buy one and have a look, there is important news.

I said coldly, what big news will there be?No matter how important the news is, it has nothing to do with me.

Wang Jing said excitedly, you are wrong, and it has a lot to do with you.

I dubiously walked to a newsagent at the crossroads and bought a newspaper of the day.The headline on the front page read "Liu Liji was shuanggui yesterday".I yelled and threw the newspaper into the sky.Scattered newspapers fell on branches, in corners, on sidewalks.Passers-by stopped and looked at me curiously.I stood on the side of the road, raised my head high, stretched out my arms and yelled——Taxi.

That night, I went to the bar I used to go to again.Wang Jing and Fang Ting also went together.Fonteyn has found a new job, she works for China Mobile.

That night, I felt more elated than I had ever felt before.

We drank beer after beer and lit cigarette after cigarette.We burped and blew smoke rings recklessly, and the people next to us looked at us curiously and regarded us as delinquent youths.The alcohol burned our blood, and we snapped our fingers and yelled at the waiter—come, come, open another case.

Fonteyn said, Have you ever heard that joke about opening a bottle?

Wang Jing said, what kind of joke?Speak and listen.

Before Fantine could say anything, she laughed herself, until she was out of breath.

I said, people did not laugh, you laugh first.It can be seen that your jokes are not of high quality.

Fang Ting suddenly said seriously, and stopped laughing.This joke is disrespectful to the migrant workers.It is said that there are two migrant workers who often see people going to bars, and they also go.They're in a bar for the first time.Once seated, the lady brought a bottle of red wine.One of them asked, how much is this bottle of wine?The lady said, 1000 yuan, do you want to open it?Another migrant worker was shocked when he heard about 1000 yuan, and he stuttered. He said, open...open...the lady opened the wine bottle with a bang, and the migrant worker finished the sentence. He said, joke.

We laughed together and rolled into a ball with laughter.

The laughter stopped, and Wang Jing said, do you know how Liu Liben fell?

I shook my head, I don't know.

Wang Jing said that it was Gou Jinming who pulled it out.

That day, the scene of violent demolition by Gou Jinming, who was so complacent, was witnessed by a provincial leader who visited privately in a micro-service.Back at the provincial government compound, the provincial leader, who has always been modest and friendly, was furious. Facing the public security, procuratorate, urban construction and land officials, he overturned the table.Those officials standing in the audience stood in fear and trepidation.The provincial leader said, investigate, strictly investigate, and investigate to the end, who gave him such courage, is this still the world of the Communist Party?

Gou Jinming was quarantined for inspection the next day.

Not long after, Gou Jinming, who has always been domineering, confessed the fact that he had bribed Liu Liji with tens of millions.After obtaining a large amount of evidence, Liu Liji was shuanggui.And his mistress, who had participated in the New Silk Road Model Grand Prix, absconded with a huge sum of money and a bodyguard after getting some trouble, and is now wanted by the public security organs across the country.

We didn't leave that bar until midnight.We walked in the cool wind at midnight, singing songs and laughing happily.

Wang Jing drove me to the door of the residential area where I rented.

I lay on the bed, feeling as light as a floating cloud.I have a feeling of being reborn all over my body.Suddenly, the place became full and firm, full and firm without warning.

I am amazed and excited.

I suddenly wanted to miss Wang Jing very much, and wanted to have a brand new one-night relationship with Wang Jing.When a man and a woman have the nakedness to face each other, they will no longer have any distractions, and no longer have any scruples.

I picked up the phone and dialed her number, wanting to prove to her that I was a real man and to rediscover my lost self-esteem in her bed.Before the call was dialed, I suddenly felt very dirty and dirty.In doing so, what is the difference between me and those contemptible male prostitutes.Wang Jing dated me because I have a sense of justice, but I just want to prove my sexual ability, what is the difference between me and those boars and male dogs who show off their power on the street.

I quickly hung up the phone.

But I didn't expect that that night, Wang Jing, who had been drinking, fell into a long-established trap because of his sexual desire.

(End of this chapter)