Elopement: My Decade of Life and Death in Thailand's Red Light District

Chapter 17 Collapsed Faith

The head is used to think about problems, not to play as a ball. I want people to do things for me, not some walking dead to do things for me. Only by constantly giving them hope can they live like a people, not like a corpse...

The more I think about it, the more I feel that Sister Chun is terrible, the more I feel that Sister Chun is terrible, the more discouraged and desperate I become.Facing such a scheming woman, wouldn't it be more difficult to escape from here than ascend to the sky?

I stood there in despair, even forgetting that I was in a dangerous place, and I couldn't stay here for long.At this moment, a hand was suddenly lightly placed on my shoulder, my heart sank, and I thought, it's over, I must be here to eavesdrop on Sister Chun's conversation, and was discovered by Sister Chun's subordinates.With a pale complexion, I turned around and saw that the person holding my shoulders was actually Lin Xiu'er.

I said ah, just about to blurt out, Lin Xiuer covered her mouth tightly, and whispered in my ear: "Sister Luo, you stay here sneakily, don't be afraid that Sister Chun will find out and let you suffer head?"

My mouth was tightly covered by her and I couldn't speak, so I had to point inside with my finger and let her listen carefully.At this moment, I wish Sister Chun and Xiao Si could continue talking about the topic just now, so that I can let Lin Xiuer know that I am not lying to her, but Sister Chun has been playing tricks on her.

God helped me, there was a voice from Xiaosi again from the other side of the curtain: "I said Sister Chun, I really don't understand, which of these sluts are not pinched to death by you, you want them If they die at the third watch, they will never live to the fifth watch. If they know, let them know, what are you doing with that Lin Xiuer? You don't feel tired!"

Sister Chun snorted, as if she was very dissatisfied with Xiao Si: "The head is used for thinking, not for playing as a ball. I want people to do things for me, not some walking dead to do things for me. , Only by constantly giving them hope can they live like a person, not like a corpse."

After hearing this, Xiaosi praised: "Tall, really tall, no wonder Sister Chun's business is the best here! The girls are more energetic than each other."

As soon as Xiao Si finished speaking, Sister Chun's triumphant laughter came from inside, and the laughter reached my ears, but there was a creepy feeling, and I couldn't help but sigh in my heart, this woman is really scary Yes, and it's not as scary as usual, her psychological attack tactics are really not as good as usual.

For example, for me, just after I entered the door, she brought me a big trial, and several charges were charged on my head. The grievance that I was deceived was only deep regret.

And in the future, which one did she not take advantage of Lin Xiuer and I's kindness to hold us tightly?

At this moment, Lin Xiuer’s hand that was tightly covering my mouth just now has dropped down. I took a sneak peek and found that Lin Xiuer’s face was ugly. Her face was full of anger. I saw her fists tightened because of anger. They were tightly squeezed together, and my eyes were about to burst into flames. I looked at Lin Xiuer, as if ready to rush in and desperately at any time, and suddenly felt scared.I took her hand and whispered softly in her ear: "Let's go, it's not suitable to stay here for long!"

Lin Xiu'er didn't move, she stood there stubbornly, as if deciding whether to go in or not.Lin Xiu'er is very restless now, so I have to be calmer than her. I don't care if she wants to or not, I dragged her and walked out, and directly dragged her to my secret place with her.

Once there, Lin Xiuer burst into tears.She whispered: "Miss Xiao Luo, I'm sorry, I misunderstood you!"

I hugged her gently: "Didn't we both say that there is no need to say sorry between me and you!"

Lin Xiu'er cried for a while, and finally gritted her teeth and said, "No, we must find a way to escape."

I smiled wryly and said, "This Miss Chun is too cunning, we can't play with her at all, so how can we escape?"

Lin Xiu'er wiped away her tears by herself, and said firmly: "As long as you have the heart, it will work. I'll go first, and I'll discuss it with you when I think of a way."

Lin Xiuer left, and I couldn't help giving her a thumbs up at her back.This is really a strong girl, weak on the outside, but so strong on the inside.In the past few days, I was already disheartened, but at this moment, I made up my mind again. Since Lin Xiuer didn't give up, how could I give up? I must go home and visit my relatives.After being away from home for so many years, Gu Duoze should have graduated from junior high school and started high school, right?Gu Yifan didn't know if he had found someone again?And how are your parents?

When I think of home and my relatives, I really wish I could escape and go back to them, but can I really escape?In this life, can we see them again?
I went back to the residence in a sad mood, didn't even eat dinner, just sat there like that, until Sister Chun came with the guests, and then I managed to cheer up and get tired of coping.

It's been several days, and I haven't seen any movement from Lin Xiuer, let alone come to see me.I became more restless and wanted to ask her, but I couldn't find a chance.

Seeing the two weeks go by, I became more irritable and desperate.I have already pinned my hopes firmly on Lin Xiuer, hoping that she can really come up with something. On the one hand, it is because she can often be taken out by guests, and she has more chances to go out than us staying inside; on the other hand On the other hand, in the past few years, I have also thought about making friends with customers, seeing if I can send a letter or other stupid tricks.

But I can only think about these things, because there is no chance to implement them. Sister Chun is too deadly. If I say a few more digressions to the guests one day, then there will definitely be a flesh and blood pain waiting for me. Bitter, I was bitten by a snake once, and I was afraid of the smell of well ropes for ten years.

So, now I really have no guts, and I can only hope that Lin Xiuer will come up with some good tricks and bring some good news.

That night, the weather was very bad, it was raining heavily, and there were very few guests here. I wanted to find a chance to chat with Lin Xiu'er, but I couldn't find her.After asking someone in private, I found out that Lin Xiu'er was taken out by one of her regular customers in the afternoon.

Lin Xiu'er could not be found, and there were no guests, so it was really boring to stay alone, so she washed up and went to bed early.Yue Mo just fell asleep for a while, when he heard loud noises outside, mixed with the cry of a woman.Anyway, there are sisters who cry every day because of this or that, being punished by Sister Chun, so they have long since become numb to this kind of crying.

I didn't bother to pay attention to it, but I found that it was impossible to ignore it. The crying sound was so familiar that I couldn't remember whose voice it was for a while.

Until the voice whimpered and cried: "Sister Chun, you'd better beat me to death, I really don't want to live!"

After hearing this, I got up from the bed in shock. It was Lin Xiuer's voice.What happened?What is Lin Xiuer crying for?And according to my understanding of Lin Xiuer, no matter how hard she suffers and suffers too much, she is different from those of us who are always looking for death and life, she never speaks of death lightly.What happened to make her say this word she least likes to say?
I hurriedly put on my clothes and walked out of the house, went to the corridor and looked down, only to find that the patio on the first floor below was very lively, it was already full of people, and Lin Xiuer was sitting there crying for some reason .

Sister Chun seemed to be trying to pull her away, but was thrown away by Lin Xiuer, and she slapped her chest and shouted at her: "Sister Chun, aren't you most afraid of us running away and sending out news? Tell you, I'm going out today to call home secretly. The phone call, hahaha, are you surprised, want to deal with me, come on, I'm not afraid..."

Ah, Lin Xiuer secretly called home today?This is real?Or is she talking nonsense?
But whether it's true or not, she can't let her talk nonsense anymore, otherwise it will make Sister Chun alert, and it will be even more difficult to do anything in the future.I thought so, took a step, and ran down in big strides.

Before she got close to Lin Xiuer, she smelled a strong smell of alcohol. It seemed that Lin Xiuer was drunk.I frowned and looked at her, feeling more and more confused. What happened to Lin Xiuer when I went out today?Why did she become so abnormal.In order to socialize, Sister Chun did not stop us from drinking, and sometimes even encouraged us to drink with guests. Therefore, in many cases, alcohol can be said to be our closest friend. When we are sad and homesick, we often use alcohol to anesthetize ourselves. For a moment of peace.But Lin Xiuer is really different from us, she seldom drinks alcohol, and if she really has to, she just licks her lips.

So I was really surprised by her appearance today. I stepped forward, supported Lin Xiuer, and whispered, "Lin Xiuer, what's wrong with you? Drinking so much wine?"

Lin Xiuer saw me, smiled and grabbed my hand and said, "Miss Luo, let me tell you, I really called back..."

I looked at Sister Chun nervously, and tightly covered Lin Xiuer's mouth: "Xiuer, don't talk nonsense, let's go, sister will take you back to sleep."

Lin Xiuer is really powerful now, she struggled to break free from my hand, and yelled at me: "I'm not talking nonsense! I really called back, but she said that my parents died a long time ago...Dad... …mom……"

When Lin Xiu'er said this, she burst into tears again, and the mournful voice echoed in the hall, causing the sisters who were watching the excitement nearby to wipe away their tears.

Immediately, I was also infected by this emotion. Lin Xiuer's sobbing for her parents also aroused my tears of missing my loved ones, and I started to cry too.

At this moment, the entire hall was full of crying, and Sister Chun looked at the out-of-control hall, her face was so dark that water could be wrung out, and she shouted at us: "Don't cry!"

But no one listened to her, everyone still cried so loudly, and Lin Xiuer saw that everyone also started crying with her, crying even more vigorously.Seeing that we ignored her, Sister Chun was so angry that she came forward to drag Lin Xiuer:
"Lin Xiu'er, don't let me get drunk here, go back to the room right away!"

But Lin Xiu'er was like a sticky candy, stuck to the ground and wouldn't move. Seeing that she couldn't move Lin Xiu'er, Miss Chun yelled into the hall: "Iron tower, iron tower..."

I don't know if it was Sister Chun's voice calling for the iron tower that was drowned out by our cries, or if the iron tower wasn't there at all. Sister Chun yelled for a long time, but the iron tower didn't appear, and the thugs who were usually vicious were also very angry today. Abnormally, they didn't come around to show courteousness to their master, but stood aside, watching everything that happened in front of them with nothing to do with them.

Sister Chun's complexion became more and more ugly, her eyes were like knives, coldly swept over each of us, and finally her eyes fixed on me, I was crying very hard, it can be seen that Sister Chun After the knife-like eyes fixed on me, I couldn't help but shiver, and the crying stopped abruptly.

I looked at Sister Chun with my eyes wide open, and Sister Chun also looked at me with my eyes wide open.Soon, she walked towards me step by step. As soon as she approached me, before I understood what was going on, she raised her hand and gave me a crisp slap in the face. Face stared at her fiercely with his eyes, not sure why she slapped me for no reason.

Seeing that I dared to stare at her, Sister Chun yelled at me angrily: "Cheng Xiaoluo, Lin Xiuer is drunk, you are not drunk, why are you crying with her? Hurry up and put her to sleep!"

Although I was very dissatisfied that Sister Chun hit me, but hearing what she said, I immediately came to my senses. I really can't let Lin Xiuer stay here and continue talking nonsense.Now that I got Lin Xiuer up, although on the surface I helped Sister Chun and stopped the source of the restlessness, why didn't I help Lin Xiuer and me?

With the help of the other two sisters, I finally brought Lin Xiuer to her room, and I also got a gift from Sister Chun to stay and take care of Lin Xiuer.

Lin Xiu'er hadn't gotten over the alcohol yet, and she wanted to get up from the bed in a frenzy, crying and going to find Sister Chun and Brother Dong to settle the score.I closed the door and didn't let her go out. I hugged her tightly and begged her, "Xiu'er, don't be like this, okay?"

It is said that Jiuzuixin understands, it seems that this is true.Although Lin Xiu'er was so drunk that she couldn't even stand still, she knew it like a bright mirror in her heart!
Seeing me hugging her tightly to keep her from moving, she cried again: "Sister Luo, I feel bitter. For so many years, I have been looking forward to day and night, so I am looking forward to going home, to take care of my mother, and to give them a gift. Sorry, but I don't know, they are all dead. My father was a terminally ill person. I can figure it out if he died, but my mother, she starved to death!

This is all my fault. If I was by her side, how could she die so badly... Woohoo, now that they are all dead, what's the point of my life?I might as well die and go underground to serve them..."

Although Lin Xiuer talked about these few words, I still understood some things. For example, Lin Xiuer, who never said death, is now arguing to want to die. For example, Lin Xiuer, who never likes to drink, can drink so much so drunk.

This must be true as she said just now, she went out today, somehow thought of a way, and found a chance to call home, and she may have learned from the phone that her parents were all dead, and they died very quickly. Miserable, so, when Lin Xiuer heard the news, the belief she had been holding on to collapsed, so she also started to imitate us and anesthetize herself with alcohol, and she wanted to die!
I suddenly felt an inexplicable fear, I was really afraid that what Lin Xiuer met would happen to me, I couldn't help but shouted in the direction of the sky: "Dad, Mom, how are you all? You must hold on and wait for my return!"

But when I thought of the word "going back", I despaired again. Now that Lin Xiuer has made such a fuss, it will be even more difficult to escape in the future.Although my heart ached like a knife when I thought of the bewildered way ahead, but looking at Lin Xiuer's pale and painful face, I couldn't bear to say a word of blame.

I just hugged her tighter until she was tired and fell asleep, and I hugged her tightly, afraid that she would really want to die and let me lose this best sister.

In the early morning of the second day, Lin Xiu'er finally woke up. When she saw that I was sleeping with her, she couldn't help but pushed me and asked, "Sister Luo, why are you here?"

I opened my eyes and looked at her distressedly: "Wake up, are you feeling better now?"

Lin Xiuer opened her eyes in confusion, as if she was trying to think about what happened last night, but after thinking for a long time, she finally shook her head and asked, "Miss Luo, did I say a lot of things I shouldn't have said last night?"

I shook my head, held her in my arms, and said softly: "No, you didn't say anything."

Lin Xiu'er pushed me away: "No, Sister Luo, don't lie to me, I must have said a lot of things that shouldn't be said, alas, you must hate me to death, because I make such a fuss, in the future if you If you want to escape, it will be even more difficult!"

Lin Xiuer's words are very strange, she has been emphasizing you, not us, has she started to give up and run away?
I looked at her puzzled, and wanted to ask, but there were Sister Chun's monitoring equipment hidden everywhere. At this moment, she might be watching us closely. How dare I ask such a sensitive topic?
But Lin Xiu'er seemed to be going all out, she suddenly lost the cautiousness she had before, and seeing the doubts in my eyes, she said bluntly: "The outside world has nothing to worry about for me, so I don't care where I am. It's the same."

Lin Xiu'er's face was full of despair, I looked at her, I couldn't imagine, even Lin Xiu'er started to despair, started to give up, so where is my hope?
I didn't care about it anymore, I didn't even care about such things as walls with ears, I just wanted to arouse Lin Xiu'er's hope, and comforted me: "Xiu'er, maybe it was a misunderstanding, your parents are not dead at all, they are waiting You go back!"

Lin Xiu'er shook her head resolutely and said, "It can't be a misunderstanding. I really heard the news that my parents are dead."

Seeing that Lin Xiuer spoke so resolutely, I said unwillingly: "Sister Chun is such a cunning person, how could you call back so easily? Maybe it was a trap set by Sister Chun for you Give up!"

My words really had an effect, Lin Xiuer excitedly held my hand: "Ah! Why didn't I think of it, it is indeed possible! Thinking about how smooth the phone call was, it must have been Sister Chun who set it up for me again. One set."

I think Lin Xiu'er has finally figured it out, and she just showed a knowing smile, but she heard Lin Xiu'er said with her head downcast: "It can't be a trap, if Sister Chun sets me up like this, it will do her no good at all." No, she knows that the reason why I work so hard to live and listen to her is that I want to go back and take care of my family. If I know that they are dead, she will not get any benefit. Moreover, the person who answered my phone, Sister Chun doesn't know her at all, so it's impossible for her to join hands with Sister Chun to lie to me!"

After hearing Lin Xiuer's analysis, I have no idea. Could it be that this is not Sister Chun's trap, but the truth? Then how did Lin Xiuer make this call and get this information?
(End of this chapter)