The black-bellied president forced his wife to marry

Chapter 201 Nirvana without rebirth (1)
On that day, Tang Song left in a hurry, and the kiss he almost missed before parting made Shen Lue feel ashamed and annoyed all day long.Yun's mother saw that she couldn't get excited about what she was doing, and said with a smile: "Mr. Tang has only been away for a few days, and Miss Shen is starting to miss him now?"

Shen Lue was taken aback, only to find that the figure of that man had been in his mind for a whole day.Either anger or resentment, or annoyance or hatred, indeed, she thought about him all day long.

In the next few days, she chased away the distracting thoughts in her mind, tried her best to maintain peace of mind, looked at the flowing clouds and listened to the birdsong when she had nothing to do, and when the weather was good, she would go to the flower garden to help Xiang Bo weed and water the flowers, and if it was rainy, she would stay in the attic Read a book and listen to the rain.

This villa has a very beautiful attic, climbing up the narrow and winding wooden ladder, time seems to travel to the ancient old century, brown wooden floor, old rattan chair with countless traces of time, colorful lattice glass windows , and a row of simple bookshelves.Shen Lue flipped through it casually, most of them were romance novels, literary essays and the like, not like books that the man would read.

Later, I inadvertently asked Mrs. Wang, and found out that it was left by the previous owner.Mrs. Wang said that Tang Song rarely lived in the villa, and he came here only a few times a year. When the villa was renovated, the attic was not moved much because it was not needed. He probably didn’t even know that there was such a place. Will pile up some debris or something.

Mrs. Wang saw that she often went to the attic, cleaned up the sundries stored there, and added a few pots of spider plants and green radishes to the window sill. A few pots of green plants are full of interest.Even on a rainy day like today, watching the rain dripping down from the eaves and washing the green leaves stretching on the window sills is quite enjoyable.

Shen Lue gently put down the book in his hand, staring at the fine raindrops outside the window.In the distance is the famous Xishan Mountain, now shrouded in misty mist, presenting a vein of dark or light blue-gray, just like a beautiful ink painting.

Time seems to have deliberately slowed down in the rain and fog in the mountains, and the days are like a trickle, calm and solid.And when she risked her life to break free more than ten days ago, thinking about it now, it seemed like a lifetime ago.

Dodged, escaped, thought about, hurt, complained, angry, silent, crazy... In the end, there is only muddle along.

She felt as if she had become another person, forced to break with the past in the most decisive way and the most tragic gesture, Nirvana...but not reborn.Now she is so strange that she doesn't even know herself.If she is still a whole person, why has she lost her nostalgia for life?If she is a walking dead, facing his rogue and domineering teasing, why is her heart that should be dead beating wildly?

This is not an emotion that a person who is struggling to survive should have.

She smiled miserably, looked away, and then fixed her eyes on the book spread out on the table.In fact, this afternoon, she didn't turn over a few pages, and her thoughts went back and forth, only lingering on the sentence that was emphatically marked by someone.

"I have longed all my life to be well-collected, properly placed, and carefully preserved. To save me from panic, from suffering, from wandering around, and from having no branches to rely on. But that person, I know, I have always known, he will never will come."

The woman in the book has beautiful longings for love, but is so realistic and desperate that it makes people feel distressed.What about herself?
She is now being kept and raised by others, free from shock and pain, and a cage to rely on...It is so similar to a woman's longing, however, the same situation makes her heart suffer, just because this is not love...

(End of this chapter)