The Lost Heart of the Five Parts

Chapter 70 An Xiaoyu, Where Are You?
Mo Yang was lying on the desk and meditating. It seemed that if some things were not settled thoroughly, he might not be able to have peace in the future.

In the silent atmosphere, the inexplicable sense of loneliness became more and more intense. From the beginning of three years, it seemed that there was only loneliness left in my own world. I took out the picture of my mother from the drawer. Until now, Chen Lianqiu It seems that it is still difficult to accept the fact that Liu Bing has passed away. Looking at Liu Bing's photos, Chen Lianqiu often fantasizes that his mother will come back to life at any time, and everything will be the same as before, without any changes.

But it's impossible, everything is impossible, three years ago was truly an unforgettable year for Chen Lianqiu, Liu Bing's death, Xue Wan's leaving without saying goodbye... For Chen Lianqiu, everything was impossible is a serious blow.

Gently stroking the cold photo, the past scenes were staged in front of him again, that scene was deeply engraved on Chen Lianqiu's heart like a brand, and it would never be forgotten in this lifetime.

"mom……"

In just one day, Chen Lianqiu's world was completely turned upside down. His mother died, and the culprit turned out to be his father... Chen Lianqiu sneered, everything in his life seemed so dramatic, but Each of them pierced my heart like a sharp knife, leaving me covered in cuts and bruises.

Putting away the photos of his mother, Chen Lianqiu felt a little strange, what happened to him, why did he suddenly think of these things?Didn't you warn yourself, don't think about some things.

Open the file folder in the computer at will, every time when he is in a bad mood, Chen Lianqiu will use work to numb himself, and cover up the emptiness in his heart by being busy.

Accidentally opened the photo file, but accidentally popped out a wedding photo with An Xiaoyu, Chen Lianqiu was a little surprised, how could there be such a photo in his computer?But Chen Lianqiu soon remembered that this was prepared for the venue arrangement during the wedding. After that, he completely forgot about it, and the photos have been kept here.

If it was a few days earlier, maybe Chen Lianqiu would have decisively deleted this photo, but now, Chen Lianqiu is immersed in this kind of photo, even forgetting the existence of reality.

In the photo, An Xiaoyu has light makeup, a noble and elegant wedding dress, clear and pure eyes, a happy smile on the corner of her mouth and the unique shyness of a bride. Her long hair is coiled up and her delicate veil is draped behind her, just like a fairy in a painting .

Unknowingly, Chen Lianqiu showed a faint smile looking at An Xiaoyu's photo, but felt a bit of sadness in his heart. All the wedding was designed by himself, but the reason why he put so much thought into it at the beginning was that It was just for revenge, even though An Xiaoyu had never hurt herself at all.

But now, Chen Lianqiu only hoped that everything could start again. If An Xiaoyu was still by his side, he would never let the same thing happen again.

It is often said that many people and things are cherished only after they are lost. Half of Chen Lianqiu's situation is like this now. As for the other half, he is only willing to admit that what he has lost is his own cherishment after losing it. Yes, it's just that at this time, Chen Lianqiu didn't realize what he wanted to cherish, but simply felt that it was a wrong decision for him to take revenge on An Xiaoyu with the resentment in his heart, that's all. .

"An Xiaoyu, where are you now...?"

Looking at An Xiaoyu's photo, Chen Lianqiu talked to himself unconsciously, and there was a special emotion in his eyes, not sadness, not doubt, but a kind of feeling that Chen Lianqiu had never had before. Love, but Chen Lianqiu still doesn't know that this kind of love is called missing.

Looking at Chen Lianqiu's appearance outside the door and hearing what Chen Lianqiu said, Xue Wan's expression was unusually calm, but there was a strange emotion in her eyes unconsciously, although it was only for a moment. passed away.

Is he thinking of An Xiaoyu?It is really rare for Chen Lianqiu to think so intently about a person.

Xue Wan adjusted her emotions and facial expressions, and pushed open the office door as if she had just arrived.

"Lianqiu..."

Suddenly awakened, Chen Lianqiu quickly closed the photo on the desktop, tried his best to hide the emotion on his face, and forced an unexpected expression.

"Wan'er, why are you here?"

"It's nothing, it's just that you seem to be in a bad mood in the past few days, so I came to see you, didn't I bother you?"

"of course not."

Chen Lianqiu looked absent-minded, obviously preoccupied, Xue Wan looked at Chen Lianqiu silently, without asking any questions, as if she had no questions.

"Lianqiu, if you have something to do, then I won't disturb you for now."

"No, I'm fine now, why don't I go out with you for a walk."

"Is this okay? If they can't find you for a while, will it delay things?"

"No, let's go."

Anyway, in the past few days, if it is not a particularly important matter, no one will bother him, and Mo Yang will naturally deal with ordinary matters.

Walking in the noisy streets, Xue Wan felt a sense of deep tranquility, or she had already learned to find a tranquility in the bustle.

"Autumn is here, and the leaves are falling again."

Seeing the fallen leaves flying all over the sky, Xue Wan seemed to have thought of something, and there was a trace of melancholy in her eyes, and this kind of melancholy had been seen by Chen Lianqiu three years ago, but Xue Wan never explained, what was she doing? What's on your mind.

"Yeah, at the end of the year, time really flies..."

Xue Wan glanced at Chen Lianqiu and smiled faintly.

"Lianqiu, you have changed."

In the past, Chen Lianqiu would never express such emotions. People who feel that time flies quickly usually encounter things that make them regret in life, so they feel that if time does not pass so fast , maybe there won't be so many regrettable things.

"is it?"

Chen Lianqiu asked questioningly, obviously he didn't agree with Wan'er's statement, did he change?Have it?Maybe.

"Of course, but it's not surprising, because everything in this world is changing all the time, and people change the fastest."

When Xue Wan said these words, she didn't look at Chen Lianqiu, and she didn't care about the way Chen Lianqiu looked at her. It seemed that this world belonged to her alone, and she didn't need others' approval for what she said.

Chen Lianqiu looked at Xue Wan silently, his eyes were full of strangeness, seeing Wan'er this time, Chen Lianqiu always felt that Wan'er was far away from him, that distant feeling made Chen Lianqiu doubt more than once, Is Wan'er really back?

"how about you?"

Chen Lianqiu asked Wan'er calmly, that feeling was very weird, as if Chen Lianqiu didn't care about the answer.

"Me? Of course I've changed too. Nothing stays the same in this world. What's more, it's been three years. How come I haven't changed? Aren't you the same?"

Xue Wan smiled and glanced at Chen Lianqiu. At that moment, Chen Lianqiu felt that he seemed to have an illusion, because he saw unprecedented pain in Wan'er's eyes. Chen Lianqiu was a little surprised, what happened? Hurt Wan'er?
"Wan'er, you..."

"I am fine."

Xue Wan smiled flatly, things in the world are not perfect, sometimes, for a small wish in your heart, you have to pay unforeseen sacrifices, but when you walk to the destination you yearn for with bruises all over your body, , Maybe you will find that what you are really pursuing has been waiting for you at the starting point. Unfortunately, it is impossible for you to return to the starting point, but you also lost the opportunity to adapt to the end point.

Chen Lianqiu didn't continue to ask, because many things can't be solved smoothly by finding out the reasons, and more often they are just asking for trouble. In this case, it may be a better choice not to know.

With Wan'er, it's like this a lot of times, in the quiet atmosphere, just strolling quietly without purpose, but all the time, there seems to be something between them, that kind of barrier is soundless and invisible, but it is invisible. They are everywhere, so that they will never be able to truly enter each other's world.

(End of this chapter)