The Lost Heart of the Five Parts

Chapter 77 How Do You Know (1)
"I just want to make a bet, bet on Chen Lianqiu's luck."

"Bet? With whom?"

Gambling on Chen Lianqiu's luck?Song Tiange admitted that he didn't understand the connection at all.

"With Xue Wan, although this may be a losing bet, there is a [-]% chance that I will win."

"I still don't understand."

"It's okay, you will understand by tomorrow night at the latest."

Song Haiyang's mouth had a smile that Song Tiange couldn't understand, tomorrow night?What will happen?

"Can you tell me a little bit beforehand?"

"No."

Song Tiange was speechless, really, why are you always so mysterious, deliberately to whet your appetite, right?

In fact, he did this because Song Haiyang did not have much certainty about the final result. As he said, this was just a bet he made without any certainty. Will everything be as he expected in the end? Song Haiyang didn't know about the development before the result appeared.

"Xiaoyu, where are you?"

Chen Lianqiu murmured these words repeatedly in his sleep, with indescribable pain on his face, even though the source of this pain was incredible to Chen Lianqiu himself.

"It was because of her."

Xue Wan walked into Chen Lianqiu, listening to Chen Lianqiu repeating An Xiaoyu's name, a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, her guess was right, it would make Chen Lianqiu so distracted that a car accident would happen while driving, and it would make him feel more depressed. Depressed enough to go to the bar to get drunk, so far it is probably only An Xiaoyu's business.

"Little rain... light rain..."

In a daze, Chen Lianqiu felt as if he had seen An Xiaoyu, it was her, she came back?Just knew she'd be fine.

Seeing Chen Lianqiu holding her hand but calling An Xiaoyu's name, Xue Wan didn't break free, maybe it was a comfort to Chen Lianqiu.

"Since you can't bear her, why did you let her go in the first place?"

Xue Wan seemed a little hard to understand Chen Lianqiu's actions, she should be kept if she couldn't bear it, no matter what method was used, no matter what happened, she shouldn't let her go.

The atmosphere was rare and peaceful, but it was full of weirdness. From time to time, Chen Lianqiu's voice could be heard in his ears, and they were all called by An Xiaoyu's name, but Xue Wan didn't feel much.She had other things on her mind, looking at Chen Lianqiu, Xue Wan suddenly felt that she and Chen Lianqiu's situation seemed to be very similar, they were both worried about one person, but they couldn't think of a solution.

Time passed quietly like this, Xue Wan could even hear the sound of the clock beating, and after an unknown amount of time, Xue Wan's tightly clenched hand was suddenly released, which brought Xue Wan's thoughts back to the front.

"Lianqiu, you're awake."

"Wan'er..."

Chen Lianqiu rubbed his temples, his head hurts, how did he come back?
"Does your head hurt?"

"It's nothing, it's okay."

The atmosphere returned to tranquility all at once, Xue Wan looked at Chen Lianqiu quietly, with a complex emotion that no one could understand in her eyes.

"Wan'er, what's wrong with you?"

"I……"

Xue Wan hesitated to speak, but there was intense pain in her eyes, just... what should I do?

"What's the matter?"

Seeing Wan'er's painful look, Chen Lianqiu was a little puzzled, what was it that made her suffer so much, since Wan'er came back this time, it was not the first time Chen Lianqiu saw her look like this, but But she didn't know it was because Wan'er was never willing to say a word.

"Wan'er, can you tell me, what is it that makes you suffer so much?"

"What about you? What's causing you so much pain?"

Chen Lianqiu seemed a little surprised that Wan'er would ask such a question, but it was undeniable that there was indeed pain in his heart.

"It's because of An Xiaoyu, right? Maybe you won't admit it, but you can't change it. When you were unconscious, you kept calling for her, and even regarded me as her, but I don't understand. If this is the case, Why did you let her go?"

He actually regarded Wan'er as An Xiaoyu's substitute?Chen Lianqiu couldn't believe it. All along, Chen Lianqiu had always regarded An Xiaoyu as Wan'er's substitute. Since when?This situation is completely reversed?

"Wan'er..."

"Just tell me, is it because of An Xiaoyu that you are so depressed?"

Xue Wan's expression was calm, and the pain in her eyes had disappeared, but her tone was imperceptibly firm, as if she had made up her mind, or maybe she had found a way to relieve her pain.

Chen Lianqiu lowered his head slightly, avoiding Wan'er's eyes, he didn't know how to answer this question, maybe he had never thought about this question carefully.

Ever since An Xiaoyu left, Chen Lianqiu tried his best to find her, but he was afraid of getting news, but he never thought about why he wanted to find An Xiaoyu so much?And why are you afraid that the news you get will disappoint you?What is it that you are disappointed with?
All along, Chen Lianqiu has been avoiding this question, but now Chen Lianqiu can no longer avoid it, but also finds that he has no way to answer himself.

"Lianqiu, maybe you once regarded An Xiaoyu as my incarnation, but in fact, this situation should have changed long ago. When I disappeared, what you saw in your eyes and what you thought in your heart was only It's just An Xiaoyu, but you don't know it, and you are still deceiving yourself, until An Xiaoyu disappears and completely withdraws from your world, maybe you don't realize it, but you still don't understand, and you still stubbornly think that you I want to find An Xiaoyu, just because your revenge is not over yet, Lianqiu, don’t lie to yourself, it’s time, you should ask yourself, what kind of existence is An Xiaoyu to you, what kind of existence do you have to her? , what kind of feelings are there?"

Chen Lianqiu didn't know how to respond to Xue Wan's words, because he had never thought about these problems, maybe he had been deceiving himself all the time, but Chen Lianqiu originally thought that as long as he didn't think about it, Everything can go on, but Xue Wan's simple words completely shattered Chen Lianqiu's carefully woven lies, making him no longer able to deceive himself.

"Lianqiu, in fact, for you, I have already become history, although you have never forgotten me, but after I left three years ago, everything between you and me has become a memory , although you are careful to maintain our memories, imagining that when I come back one day, nothing will change between us, but the fact is the fact, I left, that relationship will gradually end, even if we meet again, everything It’s impossible to go back to the past.”

Chen Lianqiu looked at Xue Wan in puzzlement, he didn't expect that Xue Wan would treat their relationship like this.

"Wan'er..."

"A relationship that ends without a cause always makes people feel that it is not over yet, but Lianqiu, you must know that it is over when it is over, and you should not miss it when it is time to start again. Although it may be a bit late for me to say this now, but I still hope you can understand, I hope you can face up to your deepest feelings, and don’t let the missed tragedies happen again and again.”

Chen Lianqiu lowered his head slightly, the short hair on his forehead covered his gaze, making it impossible to guess what he was thinking at this time, but Wan'er knew that he must be thinking about An Xiaoyu.

People are like this, when they have it, they always find all kinds of reasons to deceive themselves, thinking that the better is always in the distant sky, but until they lose it, they regret that they don't know how to cherish it, and lose the real beauty around them.

In fact, the so-called best has no specific definition at all, what you like is the best, but how many people can truly appreciate the existence of beauty, always looking for, missing, regretting, and annoyed , Constantly missed the good.

"Lianqiu, in fact, you don't need to be so worried. An Xiaoyu is fine at all. Believe me, she will come back one day. I hope you don't miss that time."

"How would you know?"

(End of this chapter)