Sadness begins with your name

Chapter 36 Life is a Lonely Flight (1)
After that, Lin Beifeng and I spent a sweet time.His three-bedroom house is a little more warm and lively because of my participation, and of course there are a lot more snack bags and dirty clothes.Fortunately, I did not act as his babysitter as promised. Instead, he, besides being twisted by my ears and kissed my face every day, had to help me cook and wash clothes every day.

The early winter sun made me drowsy. There was a bamboo and rattan reclining chair on the big balcony of Lin Beifeng’s house. He was lying half-slanted in it reading a book. I came out of the bathroom after taking a shower and walked over quietly. "Hungry tiger pounces on food" got into his arms, wrapping him tightly like an octopus quickly.

Lin Beifeng screamed: "I was wrong, I was wrong! I really didn't realize that you are still a little stalker."

I smiled triumphantly, and opened my mouth to bite the round teeth marks on his neck and arms, "The seal of thin sand, the seal is complete!"

He was teased by me so much that he threw away the book and held my face in his hands. When a kiss was about to fall, my mobile phone in the living room rang.

is an unfamiliar number.

"Hello, Bosha?" A man's voice was quiet, young, and somewhat familiar.

"I am. Who are you?" I lifted up the towel and wiped my wet hair while making faces at Lin Beifeng on the balcony.

"Whether you can meet this afternoon, you will know then."

"Who the hell are you?" I stopped wiping my hair and raised my voice slightly.

"At 6 p.m., see you at the Philharmonic Cafe in front of your school."

The phone was cut off abruptly, and Lin Beifeng asked, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay, I may have made a wrong call." Faintly, I felt that I must know the person calling.

Tomorrow is Monday. According to the usual practice, Lin Beifeng and I have to rush to school the night before so that we can attend the next day's class.At five o'clock in the afternoon, I simply tidied myself up and said to Lin Beifeng, "I have to go to school."

Lin Beifeng opened the refrigerator and was about to find materials for dinner. When he saw that I had changed clothes and went out, he was surprised and said, "Aren't you going with me? I'll see you off after dinner."

"There is a meeting in class at six o'clock. I'm afraid it will be too late to leave after dinner." Somehow, the lie blurted out.

Lin Beifeng closed the refrigerator, walked over and took off the coat on the closet, "Then I won't eat, I'll drive you."

"No, no, no." I waved my hands repeatedly, opened the door and walked out while speaking, "You go after dinner at home, I'll just take a taxi. See you tomorrow, dear!"

I went downstairs in a hurry, and after running out of the community, I called that person according to the number in the afternoon.

"Bosha." He called out my name briskly, "Where are you, I'll pick you up."

"No need." I held my mobile phone and walked forward quickly. The wind howled into the receiver, and I said coldly, "You know me, which means I have met you?"

"Correct."

"Are you that handsome blind guy?" My heart skipped a beat and I suddenly remembered.His voice didn't seem pleasantly surprised when I thought of him, but was a little weak: "Thank you, you still remember me as a blind man."

At six o'clock, I stepped into the Philharmonic Cafe, and at a glance I saw that handsome man wearing sunglasses all the year round sitting quietly in a booth by the window.

"You came."

"Can you see it?" I stretched out my hand and waved it in front of his eyes, and he shook his head, "I feel the smell that belongs to you. After so many years, haven't you noticed that there is always a thin and cool fragrance on your body, Is it mint?"

"I never eat mint. But what the hell are you..."

He nodded and motioned for me to sit down opposite, lowered his head slightly, and gently took off his sunglasses.

God... when his entire face was clearly and perfectly displayed in front of me, I covered my mouth tightly in surprise.

"Is...is that you?"

His unfocused eyes blinked slightly, he "looked" at me quietly, and smiled slightly: "It's me, Cheng Shanan. Baosha, do you remember?"

At that moment, I almost cried out.Ever since he hurt his eyes because of me, he seemed to have disappeared from the world, and there was no news of him for eight years.

A few seconds later, I rushed up and slapped his arm hard with the small bag in my hand, unable to hold back the choking in my throat, "Eight years, damn it, where the hell have you been, you damn brat..."

He reached out to grab my hand, his joints trembled slightly, his fingertips were cold, he smiled, but his words were bitter: "I have been to many places. I have traveled almost half of the world in eight years, and I have always wanted to heal my eyes. But it may be that my fate is bad, but no matter how I treat it, it still doesn’t work. I have done countless operations, and even the original good eye is gradually losing sight inexplicably.”

"I'm sorry, it's all my fault for you." The past many years ago was suddenly revealed. Facing the blind Cheng Shanan, the old wounds that had been sealed for many years were exposed nakedly. I had to face the crimes I committed when I was young. wrong.

Because of my youth and recklessness, an innocent boy lost the light of the whole world.However, I can't make up for it, I can only feel powerless to pale guilt.

He held my wrist, pulled me to sit opposite, leaned forward slightly and smiled at me: "It's okay. I don't care whether I can see or not now, because I'm used to living in the dark."

The man in front of him is really very different from the ruffian boy Cheng Shanan in his memory.Even though he is blind, he now has an elegant and quiet temperament, coupled with a suit of well-made clothes, he looks like he is from the upper class.

"Bosha, are you okay?" His fingertips moved slightly and touched my hand, and I couldn't help shrinking back.Although I couldn't make eye contact, I could see that he was sincere and excited. He slowly told me about the places he had been to over the years.New York, Tokyo, Jeju Island, Paris... He said that during the treatment period, he went to different schools and did not learn much knowledge, but he had a better understanding of the world.

People are always flying alone.He said that when you are born, you come to the world alone, and when you die, you leave alone. Whether it is relatives, friends, money or status, they do not belong to you, but are just passers-by and scenery on the road of life.

Although what he said was very profound and detached, when I looked at him, I always felt sad and bitter for no reason.I think it's something that emanates silently from the depths of Cheng Shanan's heart. Although he tried his best to cover it up again and again, I understand it.

Because his sorrow was caused by me alone.

"I almost bumped into you on the road that day. After I went back, I checked the number you left behind and found out it was really you." Cheng Shanan said, he is now working in his father's company in Central. If I have time, I can come to He went to sit in the office.

"Okay." I said, if you need help with anything, call anytime, and I will definitely show up.

He stood up, put on his sunglasses, and said with a smile, "Then what if I miss you? Will you appear in front of me?"

I was stunned, and I couldn't tell the truth from his face, so I stammered for a long time: "Don't, don't be joking."

He restrained his smile, sighed softly, and suddenly put his hand on my shoulder lightly, "I just hope you can come and see me more. I haven't seen this world for several years, and the impression of you is still in 14 At that time, you looked like a tomboy."

His fingers moved up slowly along his shoulders, and he touched my long hair, and he grinned happily: "I really want to see you now, you must be very beautiful. Thin sand, my company will hold an exhibition this weekend Banquet, would you like to be my female companion?"

"I..." I hesitated, holding the coffee cup tightly with my fingers, feeling the coldness of the coffee inside.

The silence made the atmosphere slightly awkward, and after a while he chuckled, "That's all. If it's embarrassing..."

"Yes!" I interrupted him, biting my lip, "It's just that I've never attended a formal banquet, and I'm afraid I'll embarrass you."

He tapped his palms with both hands, "Don't worry, no one will laugh at you. I'll pick you up then."

It was completely dark, and you could see the lights at the school gate through the window. Cheng Shanan called the waiter to order dinner. I stood up and said, "I have to go back to school for self-study, can we have dinner together another day?" ?”

He waved the waiter away, "OK."

Walking out of the coffee shop as if fleeing, the phone rang in my pocket. Lin Beifeng's name lit up my eyes like a small flame on a winter night.

"Where is it baby?" He smiled, his voice was like the cozy warmth in this coffee shop.

"In...in the classroom." In order to make up for the previous lie, I accidentally lied to him again.

"Come to the gate. The weather forecast says it will cool down tomorrow, so I've brought you the scarf and gloves."

"Ah? Aren't you going to self-study?" I was shocked. Standing on the side of the road outside the coffee shop, I saw a white Chevrolet parked at the opposite school gate.

"I saw you," he said suddenly, and the phone disconnected.

I didn't care about Cheng Shanan in the coffee shop behind me, so I had to bite the bullet and walk across the road to him.

Lin Beifeng got out of the car, held my hand, rubbed it in his palm, and asked softly, "Are you froze?"

"Fortunately, I just went... I just went to have a cup of coffee." I lowered my head and let him carefully wrap the scarf around my neck.

"Going to drink coffee alone?" His hand paused, he pinched my face, and said with a smile, "What's wrong today? Are you in trouble?"

"No. It's just that I'm not in a good mood." I hummed my nose and buried my head shallowly in his arms.

"Hey, let's go to the classroom. I'll go shopping with you on weekends, don't you want to buy a coat?" He rubbed my hair, kissed my forehead again, and said, "Let's go. I'll watch you go back .”

I reluctantly stepped into the school gate, walked about ten steps, and looked back, he was still standing there, leaning on the car, lowering his head and lighting a cigarette for himself.

He had never seen Lin Beifeng smoking before, and the posture he was smoking in the night at this moment was extremely lonely.

A week passed in a flash, as usual, I packed a few simple belongings, called Lin Beifeng, and asked him to pick me up at school.

At five o'clock in the afternoon on Friday, although the sky was not dark, it also had twilight.I was lazily lying on the small bed in the dormitory playing mobile games.Lin Beifeng didn't answer the phone, but sent a text message saying that there was a basketball game in their department in the afternoon, from [-]:[-] to [-]:[-], and he would pick me up after the game was over.

Depressedly, I called back the phone, lay on the bed and yelled, "Why didn't you ask me to watch the damn ball game!"

"It's too late, I'm going to play, wait until the contact is over." He hung up the phone hastily.

Damn it, damn it!I was so angry that I smashed the bed several times with my hand, causing the lower bunk who was sleeping under the quilt to stick out his head and mutter.

Thinking about whether to eat something first, the phone suddenly rang again. I glanced at the name on the screen, and my heart suddenly hung up. It took me a long time to answer the phone.

"Where is it?" Cheng Shanan said lightly.

"School."

"I want to ask you for help with a little matter. I don't know if it's convenient for you right now." Although the words were polite, there was a natural intimacy in the tone.

"What do you say, I will do my best."

"In 10 minutes, wait for me downstairs in the dormitory, let's meet and talk." He hung up the phone.

What a change!I muttered.Cheng Shanan, who used to have no scheming in the past, always talks in such a roundabout way, so happy.

(End of this chapter)