Beijing, after all, has nothing to do with me

Chapter 8 Taking the initiative to attack (2)
As the training director, Betty is responsible for supervising all training projects. That is to say, on the training line, the project leaders of various departments must report to Betty regularly, in the form of regular training meetings held every month.

Each regular meeting is roughly divided into three parts: the summary of the previous work, the next round of training plan, and the sharing of training experience or new knowledge points.If you are a learning employee, then working in the training department is indeed a rewarding job, which is why many female employees in the logistics department do everything possible to join the training department.

It was only after staying in the training department for a while that Tao Jie realized how much she had taken advantage of, but the so-called "take advantage" was probably the envy of laymen. As for herself, she had long been tortured by various trivial chores Got numb.

The content of this day's regular meeting is similar to that of the past. First, each project leader reports the summary of the previous work and the next plan. Each person takes about a quarter of an hour. Betty is the last one to talk. Tao Jie has seen her plan before, so It sounds nothing surprising, but what surprised her was that Betty didn't need to participate in the senior management training planned to be held in Suzhou two weeks later.

"Alice has been helping to prepare for this training, and the lecturer has already been determined by her. Because it is the highest level of training, I don't want to make any mistakes, so I still want to ask Alice to finish it. Before Alice I have done several episodes, and I am very experienced. Alice, are you okay?"

"No problem!" Alice replied crisply.

Tao Jie didn't like it very much. She definitely didn't feel disappointed because she likes to travel, but since this is her part of the job, and now she assigns it to someone else, isn't she criticizing her own ability in disguise?If she repeatedly failed to satisfy Betty, would her duties shrink repeatedly?
If such a bad situation continues, the consequences will be clear without much thought.

Betty didn't seem to notice Tao Jie's uneasiness, and after the explanation, she continued to talk about the following agenda. Although Tao Jie was still sitting in the conference room, her mind had already drifted away.

Alice was sitting diagonally across from Tao Jie. Tao Jie raised her eyes slightly, and she could see the unconcealable pride on the other's face. She couldn't help but feel disgusted and confused, why such a narrow-minded girl could be like this in BR How does a big company feel like a duck to water?

Black Monday is destined to become as black as ink.Tao Jie has been out of her mind all day long, and has no intention of doing anything. Her mood is covered by resentment, grievance and many inexplicable emotions. The most lethal of these emotions is the destruction of self-confidence. Doubting your own abilities is even more frustrating.

When she got back from get off work, she was eager to find someone to talk to, but Li Yaoming didn't come back until after eleven o'clock that day.

Tao Jie took a shower and watched TV for a while, still listless, she simply turned off the TV and lay on the bed in a daze, the more she thought about it, the more unwilling she became.

Although she has always been kind-tempered, easy-going, and rarely cares about gains and losses, this is the first time she has encountered such a situation, but the feeling in it is hard for her to bear. What she feels is an invisible pressure with a little insult .

Did she really have to swallow everything that happened to her like this?

The sound of Li Yaoming unlocking the door startled Tao Jie, she waited until she lost all desire to talk, her eyes were slightly closed, she was too lazy to get up to meet him.

"Tao Zi, are you asleep?"

Li Yaoming tentatively struck up a conversation in the dark. He didn't even turn on the light, so as not to wake Tao Jie up. After confirming that Tao Jie had fallen asleep, he acted like a real thief. He tiptoed into the bathroom and simply brushed. Teeth washed his face again, and then went to bed in the dark again.

He carefully placed himself on the side of the bed as if he was hiding stolen goods. He was next to Tao Jie, and at the moment when his center of gravity was completely depressed, he breathed out a breath from his chest, and he was able to calm himself so comfortably. It was such a joy to let go.

"Why didn't you take a shower?" Tao Jie beside him suddenly said something, which made Li Yaoming break out in a cold sweat.

"Aren't you asleep?" He turned his head to look at her thin back, and reached out to stroke her in a friendly way.

"Go take a bath first." Tao Jie said sullenly, her mother is a doctor, and she was used to the smell of tassel water since she was a child, and she got some cleanliness.

"I'm already in bed, or I'll wash it tomorrow, I promise." Li Yaoming wanted to play tricks, but he was so tired that he really didn't want to move.

Tao Jie was displeased, turned on the desk lamp, sat up, with a sullen expression on her face, "Don't forget what you promised me! Don't go to bed without taking a shower!"

"What's wrong with you today, who is mad at you again?" Li Yaoming looked around in surprise, while Tao Jie turned his head to the side very forcefully, not to show him, his voice was still full of anger.

"It's you! You go to bed without taking a shower!"

"Nervous!" Li Yaoming also became angry.

He had worked overtime for five hours, and he was exhausted already. When he came back, he had to look at Tao Jie's face, and he got up all of a sudden. Didn't he just not take a bath all day?As for yelling at yourself so much?
He turned over and turned his back to her, "I won't wash today, what can you do!"

Tao Jie was bitter, and the anger in her heart jumped up inexplicably!After being dazed for a moment, she threw off the thin quilt on her body, jumped out of bed by herself, then leaned over and hugged the quilt and pillow in her arms, ran to the sofa slowly, and threw herself on it like a broken sack , but the tears flowed down like a bank bursting.

The mood is even worse.

She also understood that she was a bit unreasonable to make trouble, but she couldn't control herself. Just three months ago, she was living a leisurely life, and everywhere she went, there were always friendly faces.After arriving in Beijing, it was as if he had been airborne into the desert all of a sudden, and the wind, frost and sword were pressing against him.Li Yaoming, who was the only one who could complain, worked overtime besides going to work. After finally getting home, he was so tired that he just wanted to lie down on the bed.

Could it be that this is the result of her taking the boss's determination and even turning against her mother to win - her mother still refuses to answer her phone!
Is this the life she really wants in her heart?For the first time, she had doubts about her original choice!
The room was pitch black, and there was no movement. Li Yaoming didn't get up to coax her, and he seemed to bet on it.

Tao Jie sobbed lightly from time to time, she didn't want Li Yaoming to hear her crying, and she didn't want him to think that she was threatening him with crying.She just suddenly became a little bored with this kind of endless days!
It turned out that the joy of the past few months was just an appearance, as long as a little incentive, it could trigger her true inner feelings.

She was hesitant and at a loss. What people fear most is denying the choices she has made.

Tears trickled down her cheeks, and then dripped onto the clothed sofa beneath her. She habitually reached out to wipe it off, but found nothing, only a faint warmth.

In the darkness, there was the sound of kicking footsteps. After all, Li Yaoming got off the bed. Standing in front of the sofa, Tao Jie held his breath and remained motionless. The two seemed to be in a silent confrontation.

After a long time, Li Yaoming sighed, but compromised, "I'll go wash it, okay?"

Soon, there was the sound of splashing water in the bathroom.Tao Jie wiped the tears from her cheeks, her heart gradually softened, and the idea of ​​"defecting" that surged in her mind just now finally dissipated like an ebb tide.

When Li Yaoming came out of the shower, he saw Tao Jie was still curled up on the sofa. He walked over, hugged her into his arms through the quilt, and said in a low voice, "You're still angry! I've already showered, you hear , it smells delicious." While talking, she became dishonest with her hands and feet.

Tao Jie pushed him twice, "Stop messing around." But after all, he couldn't hold him up with a playful smile on his face, and finally gave up struggling, allowing him to hug herself onto the bed.

The two lay down hugging each other, and under the moonlight, Tao Jie unconsciously fiddled with a rubber mark on the front of Li Yaoming's pajamas with her fingers.

"Yaoming, do we have to stay in Beijing?" She asked quietly.

Li Yaoming was taken aback, "What nonsense are you talking about, we are half-rooted in Beijing, how can we give up halfway!"

"How can there be half?" Tao Jie raised her face and retorted, "House, car, household registration, whatever you want!" She resented in her heart, and blurted out, "Living in this kind of place, I feel like a mouse." .”

Li Yaoming's expression changed, and he sat up and stared at her, "Tao Zi, what's wrong with you? Do you not want to be with me anymore?"

"Nonsense!" Tao Jie also regretted what she just said carelessly, but it was indeed her true thoughts.

"If I don't want to be with you, why should I come to Beijing?" She felt guilty and wronged.

Li Yaoming's expression softened, and he sighed, "I know your family is in good condition, and living in this kind of place really makes you feel wronged. But this is temporary, I promise you, when we get married, there will be own house."

Tao Jie is not optimistic at all, "But can we afford a house in Beijing? Even if we buy it, there are still decades of loans to repay. Thinking about it makes me tired."

"It's all here." Li Yaoming patted the back of her hand, knowing that he was a little weak.

The two of them were silent in the night, and the time ticked by. This is a difficult problem that cannot be solved in a few words. Finally, Li Yaoming said: "Go to bed early, you have to go to work tomorrow."

At that time, Li Si went to Xianyang and made great achievements because he felt the difference between hamsters and toilet rats.Although he, Li Yaoming, couldn't compete with Li Sibi, he was also unwilling to spend his days in a mediocre life with his wife and children in a little-known city.

Beijing, where many celebrities and elites have gathered, has always been his dream of struggling paradise. He wants to build his brilliant life here, and he wants to check how far he can go!

But Tao Jie can't understand these things. Of course, he doesn't need her to understand, as long as he can be by his side.

It's just that Tao Jie's question made Li Yaoming sweat all over today. He understood that once a certain idea is formed in his mind, it can't disappear easily, and it will continue to torture Tao Jie, and then torture himself.

"By the end of this year, we must buy the house!" Li Yaoming suddenly gritted his teeth and said, as if issuing an administrative order to himself.

Tao Jie opened her mouth. She really wanted to tell Li Yaoming that this was not about the house, but she couldn't tell what it was about. There was a dark cloud in her heart, which formed vaguely, but she still couldn't quite see it. clear.

Of course, the house is also very important, she said to herself silently, maybe with her own house, she would not be so restless, always feeling like a leaf of duckweed floating on the water without roots.

She sighed, really wanted to talk to Li Yaoming about the troubles at work, turned her head to look at his gray and exhausted face, and swallowed the words abruptly.

It's not easy for anyone, why bother him.

Before Misty fell asleep, she finally made up her mind, "Tomorrow I have to have a good talk with Betty."

Tao Jie is a person who can't hide things in her heart. She has made up her mind and wants to do it all at once. The longer it takes, the easier it is to change her mind, so she knocked on Betty's door early in the morning. Fortunately, she was here, drinking morning coffee Well, it doesn't look very busy.

"Betty, the training in Suzhou should be my job. I want to do it myself." She straight to the point made it clear that her beating heart gradually calmed down after she said the words, as if she had found the truth. real export.

Betty was very surprised. She probably didn't expect that Tao Jie, who always had a low eyebrow and pleasing eyes, would have such courage. She put down the coffee cup, clasped her hands, and put it on the desk, "Do you think I'm blaming you? It's nothing. ! You have no experience in conducting advanced training, so I want to wait for you to experience it for a while before letting you do it."

Tao Jie said: "I know that I have not done well in many things before, but I have been working hard, and I also hope that I can perform well in this training, so as to improve my ability. If I am worried that I will not do well And to entrust it to Alice, I find it difficult for me to accept, I don’t know where my value can be reflected? Besides, Alice herself has a lot of things to do.”

Betty was more and more surprised when she heard it, but she smiled at the end, "Tao Jie, I appreciate your courage to challenge the difficulty. However, I hope you can understand that this training is definitely not as easy as you imagined."

At this point, Tao Jie definitely has no reason to retreat. Even if the front is full of landmines, she still has to fight through, so she nodded emphatically, "I know. I don't want to be in a waiting state forever, I want to immediately Let's start. I will work hard."

After a short pause, she knew it was not a good thing to make promises lightly, but at this juncture, she had to make some necessary guarantees, "Betty, I will not let you down."

Betty remained silent, seemingly pondering, and finally nodded and smiled: "Well, since you have such determination, I am also very happy, it proves that I did not misunderstand the person at the beginning. You go and explain to Alice, the next thing, It's all up to you."

When Tao Jie walked out of Betty's office, she found that her legs were a little weak, as if she just realized what she was doing.Even she herself was puzzled, her nature was not so competitive, why did she turn around completely after coming to BR?
Now, she began to worry about whether she was up to the task.But after thinking about it, since she has the courage to fight for herself in front of Betty, of course she will be able to face the next unknown challenge. Many times, such things as courage are forced out by a knife resting on her neck.

Before Tao Jie handed over to Alice, Betty called Alice into the office to communicate, and then called Tao Jie over.

Betty looked very energetic, and said to Tao Jie: "I told Alice, she also supports your idea! She will tell you what to do in a moment. Alice has been working with me on this project for two years, and she I have a lot of experience to share with you."

Tao Jie smiled and said thank you. When she turned to look at Alice, she found that there was no smile in her smiling face, but those beautiful big eyes were full of vigilance, resentment and fear.

To Tao Jie's surprise, Alice did not embarrass herself during the handover, perhaps because of her previous "strike" and "asking for a job" in front of Betty, which gave Alice a new understanding of Tao Jie: This seemingly docile and kind girl is not as easy to fool as imagined in her bones, and Tao Jie herself has done all the necessary procedures. For every point she doesn't understand, she asks Alice for advice by email, and at the same time Letting Betty be a bystander, Alice is naturally unwilling to show a reluctance to cooperate in front of Betty, and always responds quickly.

Tao Jie finally understood why so many people in the company like to email.

The email is evidence that can prove how the two parties participated in the incident process, and it can also be used as a suspicion of shirking responsibility at a critical moment, because the more important the decision, the more relevant people are copied.

And Tao Jie's own perception is: the prevalence of emails, in the final analysis, is just because people no longer trust each other.

In the evening, Tao Jie sat on the bed and tidied her clothes, while complacently telling Li Yaoming about her battle experience.

Li Yaoming was also very surprised after hearing this, "I never thought you are so sharp and angular now!"

"I can't help it. If I don't show my edge, I will be crushed!" Tao Jie sighed, "Now I finally understand why Alice hates me so much. No one would want his successor to be better at handling things." Otherwise, it is not enough to show her importance in front of the boss, even if it is not necessary! Is this the so-called 'bad nature' of people?"

"That's right, you've gained insight." Li Yaoming walked up to her with great interest, and stroked her hair like petting a pet.

Tao Jie couldn't dodge it in time, and sniffed him twice in protest, and a shadow of a person flashed across his mind without warning.

If Mai Zhiqiang hadn't said those words to herself in the conference room, would she have had the courage to take this crucial step?
She couldn't imagine it.Maybe there is also a side of my character that rebounds strongly under pressure!

However, there are still many things to do next, and she can't relax on this.

(End of this chapter)