Emperor's Girl Allure: Monk Lord, I won't marry

Chapter 114 The Tragedy of the Past Life

He probably hated her, he should have hated her, otherwise, even she herself would not be able to forgive herself.A person like her probably doesn't even have a whole body when she dies, maybe she doesn't even have a tomb. She has long been taken away by the angry people.

That was really miserable enough, she ended up in Tsinghua University like this in the end, it was her own fault, and there is nothing worthy of sympathy.

Hehe, I think it's funny when I think about it, now that she is reborn, she can't feel the lonely feeling of being buried in a cold, damp and dark place, but how could she suddenly feel such a sense of sadness? ?

However, what Yu Qinghua didn't know was that in his previous life, just after she left, Wu Yue rushed back. At that time, he hugged her body that was about to cool down tightly, as if he wanted to rub her into her body, calling her name again and again: Hua'er, Hua'er, don't be afraid, I'm coming, I'm coming...

What Yu Qinghua didn't know was that Wu Yue had torn his face for her and his father. Even when the whole city people gathered outside his house to make trouble and insisted on making him hand over the demon girl's body, he actually did it for her. She was dressed in sackcloth and filial piety, and in the eyes of everyone who was stunned, she held her ashes and the plaque engraved with my beloved wife Yu Tsinghua, and sprinkled her into the cliff.

What Yu Qinghua didn't know was that when Dashang used the words of Yu Qinghua's death to attack the King of Wu and took the opportunity to attack the State of Wu, Wu Yue took all the responsibility for all the crimes by himself. , Suicide.

What Yu Qinghua didn't know was that he didn't blame her at the last moment, he just kept thinking about her, and from the moment he closed his eyes, the corners of his eyes were smiling from beginning to end.

Yu Qinghua didn't know how much Wu Yue had endured unbearable pain for her. After his death, he only had one request, and ordered his ashes to be scattered with her. He just wanted to be with her in the wind. meeting.

Wu Yue, he loved her from the beginning to the end, he never complained about her, let alone hated her, from the beginning to the end, he just looked at her from a distance, silently accompanied her, that's all he did, that's all He tried his best to guard her until his death, and never slack off.

Yu Tsinghua didn't know all of this, and it was impossible for her to know from now on. She would not know that in her previous life, in such a difficult environment, when she was spurned by thousands of people, When being insulted by the people, there will still be such a person, regardless of the eyes of others, regardless of the opposition of others, still treat her like a baby, protect her and love her like this.

Yu Tsinghua's previous life, so far, is only a short time.

Standing in front of Su Jinxi's grave for a long time, Yu Qinghua still smiled after all. She murmured softly: "Mother, you really just went there. You never thought about me and my brother, and you didn't know to see my grandfather and grandmother."

"Queen, what are you thinking about now that you are lying down? Are you regretting what you did before you were alive, or are you thinking that in your next life, you will definitely not live like this?"

"Queen, do you know that Tsinghua also died once, and Tsinghua deeply understands the pain, the moment of death, the darkness surrounded by suffocation, and the pain."

"Mother, do you know that my daughter was so afraid..."

"However, you are smiling. You are different from your daughter. You left with a smile."

"What did you think of at the last moment? Why did you laugh like that? Why were you so happy? Queen Mother, what did you think of, and what made you so happy?"

"Hehe... Queen Mother, it turns out that Emperor Father also loves you deeply. You may have never seen him look so decadent, so helpless, he looks like an emperor there, he is simply a drunk."

"Mother, but you don't love the father, right? You don't love him, right... Yes, you don't love him, that's why you left so resolutely, that's why you don't even want to stay for the last time Let him see, that's why you can walk away without hesitation, and smile with peace of mind... You don't love him, that's why he is in such pain, and that's why you can sleep here peacefully."

"Mother, it turns out that you are also cruel... Do you know that your daughter is about to die now, but you have not been able to support her until the end? It is destined to be a pity that you have not seen your daughter grow up, and there is no mother's coming-of-age ceremony. You I don't know, my daughter has already experienced it once, and that feeling is really hard to bear."

"Concubine Yu has entered the central palace. Although she does not have the title of queen, she is now half a queen in the entire palace. My daughter does not know how rich that woman's background is, but she will not be afraid of her. Since She likes to sit on a high place, so let her sit enough first, at least, let her enjoy the feeling of being high before her daughter throws her down from there. "

"That woman, my daughter won't let her have a good time, at least, before she dies, she will drag her to the ground together..."

"Do you know why my daughter is so persistent? Because once, it was this woman who threw me into hell. In the boundless darkness, I hesitated, I was afraid, I cried, I begged for mercy...but it was useless , because no matter how much I cry, how much I beg for mercy, no one will come to rescue me. At that time, I was so helpless and scared, and I had already lost consciousness."

"And then, in that environment, I didn't make it to the end. My life, everything I cared about, seemed to be gone. I'm not sad anymore, because my heart is already broken."

"Mother, do you know what kind of suffering I have suffered? I became a shameless and unscrupulous witch. I was insulted and spurned by others. Even at that time, I could still smile gracefully. Because I only remember that I am a princess, the most honorable emperor daughter of Dashang, I am the most noble, no one can trample on me, even so, I still firmly believe in it."

"Now, I still haven't changed my mind. I want to be the most noble emperor in the world. No one can shake my heart. No one will make me stupid again. Yu Tsinghua like that will never Will be back."

"Mother, you don't know...how do you know how scared and self-blame I was...I don't want you to leave like this, because I'm afraid...At that time, you I just left... I was the one who killed you in the end... Queen mother, you don't know how scared I am... I'm afraid I won't see you again, I'm afraid I will wake up alone in the cold night, I am afraid that my father will treat me coldly, I am afraid that my grandmother will ignore me, queen mother, you will not know how afraid I am of such a day..."

"I thought it would be okay this time... I thought I could protect you with my strength... I thought we could be together forever and ever... But no, no... You still left, you still left me It's gone... Mother, you walked in front of me again... I really want to keep you, I really want to... But, I can't keep... I am very useless, yes, I am very useless... ..."

"Because it's useless, I have to learn to change... learn to be cruel... learn how to be a bad woman..."

"My queen, I want to make everyone who hurt me pay the price, and let everyone I care about be happy. I want to protect these, so I must learn to be ruthless."

"Oh, mother, do you also think that Tsinghua University has failed..."

"But there is no way, I have to become a bad girl, because only in this way can I get what I want..."

"Mother, can you understand, you will understand..."

The wind quietly blew across the mountain, bringing up some ripples, Yu Tsinghua spoke quietly as if no one was around, no one was answering her, and no one could answer her, she was just alone, muttering.

Unexpectedly, at this time, from the side of the mountain, came up a thin figure, dressed in blue clothes floating like dust, wearing a bamboo hat, holding a walking stick, just stood silently behind Yu Qinghua, staring at that for a long time A lone grave bag.

When Yu Qinghua turned around, he was still taken aback by the people behind him.

After she stood still, she began to look around. At some point, there was a person standing behind her, and she didn't notice it at all.

This person was dressed in green clothes, holding a crutch in his hand, and wearing a big bamboo hat on his head. He couldn't see his face clearly, but he was slender. He was standing there motionless at the moment. Although he couldn't see his face, he But Yu Qinghua could feel that his gaze must be on the grave of her empress Su Jinxi.

Who is he and why is he here?Could it be that he is the old time of the empress?
Yu Qinghua looked at the man in Tsing-clothed calmly, only to see him standing there for a long time, and finally walked forward slowly.

As expected, he was looking at Su Jinxi's grave. In front of her tombstone, he slowly bent down, stretched out a Zen-practicing hand from his wide sleeve, and just covered the cold tombstone. The movements are extremely gentle, as if treating a close lover.

Yu Qinghua was puzzled, who is this person, and how could he love her mother's tombstone so much?
But she didn't dare to speculate too much. If she really let go of thinking about some things, it would scare people to death.

Yu Qinghua continued to remain motionless, until the man stood up slowly again, stretched out his hand, and pressed the bamboo hat on top of his head. His movements were gentle, and he was about to take off the bamboo hat.

For some reason, Yu Qinghua felt a little excited, she just wanted to see what this person's face would look like under the bamboo hat.

Slowly, following the movement of the man's hand, the bamboo hat was actually taken off.

In an instant, the black hair floated behind him along the mountain wind.

Looking at the past quietly like this, it was just a back view, this person actually made her feel as if she was floating in a fairy.

He stood there quietly, because his back was facing her, so he couldn't see his face, but his handsome back and faint breath made Yu Qinghua feel very comfortable.

His gaze seemed to be fixed on Su Jinxi's tombstone all the time. Although she didn't see it, she always felt that his gaze must be full of tenderness at this moment. Why?She actually had this strange feeling.

Yu Qinghua slanted the corners of his lips and smiled unconsciously.

She actually just stayed with this man whose name and identity was unknown, standing in front of her mother's queen's grave for a long time, until the man made a move.

When Yu Qinghua saw him turn around slowly and saw the bamboo hat he had put on at some point, she felt a little regretful. She really wanted to see what he looked like, but it was a pity.

The man leaned on crutches and was about to leave.

Yu Qinghua suddenly blurted out: "Wait a minute."

Seeing that he stopped because of her yelling, Yu Qinghua couldn't help being overjoyed, she quickly stepped forward, and asked the man's back: "Excuse me, do you know anyone here?"

(End of this chapter)