Emperor's Girl Allure: Monk Lord, I won't marry

Chapter 141 I Can't Live Without You

Gu Fengwan felt a little strange about his sudden thoughts, he turned his eyes away calmly, trying to divert his attention.

Yu Qinghua could feel Gu Fengwan's aura, he was right here, standing beside her, he didn't go far, he was standing at the place closest to him...

This feeling is really good, so good that she has already begun to feel fear... She is afraid that this is just a dream, a dream that cannot be easily touched, once she accidentally touches the weakest part of this dream If there is no place, then this dream will be like a fragile bubble, instantly shattered, shattered completely, and shattered without a trace.

She doesn't want to be like that, she is afraid, afraid that that day will come sooner or later, now, in her heart, she has no confidence at all, she has already begun to be at a loss, she has already begun to panic...

This is the beginning, she is already like this...

What to do, what should she do?
Now she...what else?

She has nothing... nothing...

It's not that she can't afford to lose, but she can't lose...

But she has already gambled all she has, the little bit of dignity, the bit of backbone, the bit of emotion... She has nothing left...

Yu Tsinghua, do you still remember the old you?
At that time, how powerless and hesitant you were like that?
Is that hate?

Maybe it is... because of your stupidity and desperation...

So, now, you come back full of anger and hatred... You don't want to involve others, so you want to avoid Xiao Qin, you want to avoid Wu Yue... You want to avoid everything you were sorry for in your previous life People... In this life, you just want to be alone, put on armor and go to war.

This is your own war, no one else's.

You don't want innocent people to get involved again, you don't want them to suffer with you anymore, you don't want to owe any of them any more, you don't want to do this...

So, you can't afford to lose...

However, you were completely unguarded. You never thought that this person would suddenly appear... Gu Fengwan, this person, his appearance, has completely occupied your heart...

What to do, your heart is moved for him...

What else can I do?It's already like this...

Yu Qinghua, you have already made a choice, you have decided to ignore it, you don't even want to care about hatred... Now you are not far from death...

But you, why don't you give up, why are you still entrusted by your new students...

Are you happy now?
Or will he walk the old path of his previous life again?

don't know, no one knows...

"Gu Fengwan..." Yu Qinghua said suddenly, his voice seemed a little ethereal in the night wind.

"Hmm..." He replied to her, his voice as calm as ever.

She turned around and looked at him with moon-washed eyes, there seemed to be a layer of smile in the corners of her crooked eyes, but she couldn't find it when she looked carefully.

"Do you like me?" Like her?
"As much as I like you, do you like me?" She asked like this, but her expression was indifferent, she didn't ask him crazy: Do you love me?

Love...she doesn't talk about love...

At least, she can't talk about love in front of him...

This is already the little room she can reserve for herself. She doesn't talk about love, at least, when facing him, she can't talk about love... Although, she knows that she has already surpassed her liking for him... Although So, she still didn't want to say love to him.

Love... That thing is still too hurtful... In her previous life, she died on this word. She thought it was the most beautiful emotion in the world, but in the end she realized that it was just a beautiful trap , a dug, carefully decorated, covered with flowers and precious stones, just waiting for you to jump into the trap... Waiting for you to walk into the trap slowly along the road full of flowers and precious stones, When you reach the entrance of the hole, you choose to jump without hesitation... When you are at the bottom of the trap, when you are at the bottom of the trap, you are covered in blood from the thorns, when you are so painful that you can no longer breathe out , until all the blood in your body is drained, until your warm body gradually becomes stiff and cold, until you stare at the person who tempted you to jump into the trap with wide eyes...

At this time, you will find that this so-called love is nothing but an existence that can be fatal to you...

She has been hurt once, is she going to suffer a second time?

No, she doesn't want to, she doesn't want to feel that kind of pain again, even though she is numb, even if she doesn't care at all...but she still doesn't want to have that kind of pain again...

So, she won't fall in love with him, she won't fall in love with him, at least, she won't let herself say she loves him, won't let herself fall in love with anyone...

Love... huh, to hell with that thing.

So, Yu Qinghua smiled beautifully, and she looked at him seriously, with a strange enchantment in the corner of her eyes: "Do you like me?" She asked.

"Heh..." Gu Fengwan's chuckle was still so pleasant, he also looked at her, the corners of his lips raised slightly, and he said, "Why do you ask like that?"

Yu Qinghua lowered the corners of her eyes indiscriminately, concealing the disappointment in her heart when she heard his answer, and her voice remained unchanged: "No, I just want to ask."

Gu Fengwan walked towards Yu Qinghua, his footsteps were very soft, his hair was not tied up, but let loose, just like this in the night, in the night wind, forming a coquettish of charm.

Yu Qinghua stared at him approaching him in a daze, and stood there motionless, without any reaction.

Until he got close to her, his face was just above her, he stretched out his slender fingers, and gently touched her cheek, his fingertips were a little cold, but this did not make her repel, on the contrary, she I really enjoy this kind of temperature, with a hint of fragrance, but cold temperature.

"Qingqing..." He called her again.

"You say, but what's the best?" He said with a smile on the corner of his mouth.

Yu Qinghua faced Gu Fengwan with blurred eyes: "What..."

"Hehe..." A low laugh came, Gu Fengwan lowered his head, just so close to her neck, he gently sniffed the beauty in her hair, and there was a burst of joy between his brows.

"Qingqing... I can't leave you..."

"Tell me, why is it good..."

Yu Qinghua suddenly opened his eyes wide, feeling the warmth coming from his ears in disbelief.

He actually said that... He actually said to her: I can't live without you...

He said so... said so...

what is this?what is this?
Is he... confessing to her?
Is that so?
Yu Qinghua didn't dare to think about it anymore, she couldn't understand Gu Fengwan, she couldn't understand him... She never understood his thoughts, didn't understand his meaning... Maybe, this time, she was wrong again ...Maybe, he didn't mean that at all...

"Don't...don't make trouble..." Yu Qinghua said bitterly, with a slight tremor in his voice.

"Heh..." Gu Fengwan's laughter seemed unreal under the darkness of night.

He stretched out his fingers to stroke her hair, and sighed slightly: "Qingqing...you're scared."

Yes, she was afraid.

All along, she has been afraid...

She is afraid of his identity, afraid of his background, afraid of everything he hides behind her, more afraid of the eyes of the world, afraid of her own heart...

She is afraid of everything, she even has nightmares...

How could she not be afraid?How could she not be afraid?
How can she not be afraid when she looks like this, she has nothing left?
Hehe, she was afraid, she never denied this...

But, why did this fact embarrass her so much when it came out of his mouth?She's scared, she's scared... How ironic is this?She has no courage, she is actually afraid...

"Qingqing, do you trust me?" Gu Fengwan asked her like this.

Believe...do you believe...

Yu Qinghua nodded...how could she not believe him?

She...doesn't believe in herself...

Gu Fengwan stretched out his hand to wrap her gently around her, his breath instantly surrounded her, this feeling made her feel at ease.

"Don't be afraid..." he said.

"Don't be afraid... I'm here..." The voice was faint, like a gust of wind, it disappeared quickly, but it still made the corners of Yu Qinghua's eyes moist.

So, what else can she do?

No matter what, as long as he is there, as long as he is...

Yu Qinghua stretched out his hands to hug him back, exhausting all his strength and giving everything...

The wind blew between the two, raising the corners of their clothes, and the hair was entangled together by the wind, as if it would go on like this forever, never to be separated again.

In the early morning of the next day, the rare sun was shining brightly, and the weather was fine, even the mountain wind made it much warmer.

Yu Qinghua woke up naturally, today, Dong'er didn't come to wake her up.

The first time Yu Qinghua opened his eyes, he saw the silence around him, and he couldn't help laughing at himself, that's right, yesterday she and Dong'er had such a quarrel, today, how can she still call her like before? Woolen cloth.

After all, there is a gap between her and Dong'er.

Yu Qinghua seemed a little frustrated. In the past two days, too many things happened, so much that she couldn't see well. She didn't have time to think about it. No matter what it was, it was Dong'er or Gu Fengwan. , no matter who it was, she didn't think about how to face it.

Dong'er, now that she has quarreled with her like this again, it can be said that it makes her very sad.

But there is no way, she knows that as long as it involves the love between men and women, others are always less important than the one she loves, just like now, she has reached the point where she can be desperate for Gu Fengwan, at least, if anyone moves now He, she will let that person die without a place to bury him.

This is what is called being crazy about love.

Oh, but what can be done, but that's all.

How many men and women who are deeply trapped in the world of mortals can maintain clarity from beginning to end?

She Yu Tsinghua is nothing more than a mortal, a mortal who cannot escape the world of mortals, even if she has a second life, even if she has died once... Even though she was full of such troublesome love in her previous life The body was injured, and even died in the end, but despite this, she was still trapped in it again in this life, unable to extricate herself.

There was deep helplessness and sigh in Yu Tsinghua's heart. Now, whether she is a lover or a sister, it seems that she is a failure.

She was born again, so it turned out that it was nothing more than that.

Self-deprecating, self-deprecating, still self-deprecating, hehe, so resigned to fate, so giving up struggling, so demeanor, it really doesn't look like her at Tsinghua University.

No matter what, Dong'er might not return to the past with her now, for a while.

Yu Qinghua thought again of the round-faced little girl in her previous life, she was crying in front of her hospital bed, she kept calling for her, she kept guarding her every step of the way, she was so firmly dependent on her again and again , even if she was shunned by everyone and spurned by everyone... Even so, she still followed her to the death as always.

That kind of her, that kind of Dong'er, could it be that she really can't come back?

(End of this chapter)