Emperor's Girl Allure: Monk Lord, I won't marry

Chapter 176 This is a shame for men

Yu Qinghua burst into tears uncontrollably, she bit her lower lip hard, she felt her body trembling uncontrollably, her hands clenched into fists, she stood there awkwardly, The eyes, without blinking, looked straight at Han Tao, looked at him, so firmly, looked at him...

When she heard herself speak like this, she said, "You, what do you know..."

She said: You, what do you know...

One sentence, but Han Tao didn't know how to refute, so he could only stand there, frowning and looking at her.

"You, what do you know..."

she said so.

Han Tao frowned at her, speechless for a while.

Yu Qinghua's shoulders were trembling, her face was slightly pale because of such excitement, she looked at him, and continued to state quietly: "What do you know, you don't understand anything at all, you do not understand anything……"

Han Tao's frown became deeper and deeper. He looked at her and said slowly: "You said I don't understand, but what do you know? I'm just telling the truth, and it just happened to expose your thoughts, so you Will become angry from embarrassment..."

"You're talking nonsense!" Yu Qinghua retorted without waiting for Han Tao to finish speaking.

"What do you know, what do you really know? You don't know anything, you don't understand anything at all, you don't understand anything, you don't understand my thoughts, you don't know how persistent I am, how difficult it is for me Only then can I convince myself that I have persisted until today, but you actually say that about me, you dare to accuse me like that..."

As she spoke, the trembling all over her body became deeper. She clenched her fists tightly and said word by word: "You say that I am no different from those women who are pampered in the boudoir? You say that I am as ignorant as them , the same does not eat the sufferings of the people? You say I am deceiving myself?"

"Ha, it's ridiculous, you would say that about me, you would describe me like that." Yu Qinghua laughed instantly, as if he had heard some shocking joke.

Enough laughing, she stopped suddenly, looked at him with a very serious expression, and said straightly: "You say such things because you don't know what I have been through at all, you don't understand at all , what kind of suffering I have suffered, how persistent I am, how helpless, and how difficult it is to survive until today, you have no idea, I will have today, how much suffering I have suffered, I will have such I have this kind of persistence, because I have suffered such deep and deep pain, because of the fear, the hysterical fear, the nothingness, I lost everything, so now I will be more Treasure, cherish all that I can grasp, only want to protect all that I want to keep, all that I don't want to lose..."

"Hehe... yeah, I'm too naive, I don't have any strength, I can't compete with those people at all, I have nothing, what should I use to fight them?"

There was a hint of powerlessness in her eyes, but when she looked at him, she looked so determined: "I have nothing, I am very overwhelmed, but I never thought of giving up, and I never let go of such a thing for a moment." Thoughts, I want to rely on my strength to protect everything I care about, I want to keep his country for my brother, I want to eradicate all darkness for him... I have always thought so."

"Do you think I'm joking with you? No, I'm not joking with you. Everything I say comes from the bottom of my heart. It's the truest, the truest. Thoughts...why? Why should I persist like this? Do you really want to ask? I am obviously like a fool, obviously I can’t do anything, but I still persist like this..."

"Shall I tell you?"

"Even if I have nothing, even if I can't compete with those people, I will continue like this, at least, at least until I work hard on this life, I will not let go, I will not give in, I will I must persevere for my imperial brother..."

"Yeah, I'm not an almighty god, I'm just a woman, just a woman... I have no power, I have no force, I have nothing, I don't know what I should do to fight for my imperial brother. I don't know how to keep his upright and kind heart from being polluted by such dirty and dark things, and keep smiling in front of him... In front of him, I am The obedient, ignorant, and well-behaved sister he always dotes on, I am not that terrible woman who can intrigue, cunning, and insidious, but these are all real existences... The real side of me , in fact, it is not as beautiful as he imagined. I have already transformed into a different person in a big dye vat like the palace. I will fight with people, and I will also think of framing others. I am not just anyone. The good and good little white rabbit, if you provoke me, I will bite him back, and I will use a more vicious and vicious force than he exerted on me..."

Muttering, as if it had nothing to do with her, such a flat tone made him lose his mind for a moment, and she continued to say: "I am not a pure woman, I have my own scheming and unknown things. On the other hand, if possible, I also hope that I am the sister who will always be innocent, always clean and pure in the heart of the prince brother, and I also hope that I am like that... But this is impossible, no matter what, I will become As I am now, when everyone wants to put me to death, I must learn to counterattack..."

"But the prince, how could he know this? He doesn't know anything, and he doesn't want to know. I understand his ideal, which is to be a good monarch with a benevolent heart. If so, then I will naturally help him Make this wish come true."

"I won't let him come into contact with that kind of darkness, because it's too unsuitable for him. He is sunshine and should always be bright, but it doesn't matter to me. I'm already in darkness. I don't have What's terrible, if that's the case, then why can't I selfishly want to use my hands to stop all the filth for him?"

Having said that, she looked at him and clarified for a moment: "Why do you say I can't?"

"I have been patient until today, why do you deny me completely? I have done so much, I just want to change according to my own wishes, to support the belief in my heart, and to protect everything I want to protect , you, why do you deny me so easily, deny everything? Why do you?"

At the end, Yu Qinghua's voice was really a little hysterical. Her remark brought Han Tao's frown. He stared at her blankly, unable to express what he was thinking.

He never thought that this woman, who always seemed to be confident, proud and indomitable on the surface, would actually have such a side, which really surprised him.

He even regrets that he used those words to slander her before, although he didn't understand what she said, "You said such words because you don't know what I've been through, you don't understand , what kind of suffering I have suffered, how persistent I am, how helpless, and how difficult it is to survive until today, you have no idea, I will have today, how much suffering I have suffered, I will have such I have this kind of persistence, because I have suffered such deep and deep pain, because of the fear, the hysterical fear, the nothingness, I lost everything, so now I will be more Treasure, cherish all that I can grasp, only want to protect all that I want to keep, all that I don't want to lose..."

He didn't know or understand what the "suffering" and "pain" were. He really couldn't figure out what she had experienced in the past, what kind of past made her look like this?
Could it be that he experienced something painful when he was young?
However, in that gorgeous palace, what happened to transform a pure and kind little girl into what she is today?
Although he didn't know what it was, he could imagine that it must be a very shocking thing.

In fact, how did he know that what Yu Qinghua was referring to were all the things she experienced in her previous life. Naturally, he couldn't guess it.

But now, he was just shocked by her, shocked that a girl who had just reached her age would hide so many things in her heart, unexpectedly, she could endure what ordinary people could not bear.

Thinking about it now, the reason why she had such an idea, which seemed to him to be a little "naive", was not a very unusual thing.

But even so, he couldn't agree with her...

After frowning for a long time, Han Tao finally said Shi Shiran: "I'm sorry..."

"I'm sorry for what I said before that hurt you, I'm sorry..."

When Yu Qinghua heard Han Tao apologize to her, he just hummed slightly and didn't give any response. However, the next moment, what Han Tao said again made Yu Qinghua almost angry.

He said, "Although I'm sorry, I don't intend to take back what I said."

what?
Yu Qinghua's eyes widened at his words.

He looked at her steadfastly, and said slowly: "Han Tao only asks the eldest princess, when you are doing these things for your own thoughts and hearts, have you ever asked His Highness the prince's thoughts?"

Yu Qinghua frowned: "I..."

Han Tao ignored her and continued: "When you are working hard and supporting the person you care about, have you considered His Royal Highness's feelings?"

"That's right, what you're doing is protecting His Highness the Crown Prince, but you haven't thought about whether His Highness the Crown Prince is willing to accept such protection from you?"

Speaking of this, Han Tao raised his eyebrows slightly, looked at her, and said word by word: "I think, if I were His Royal Highness, if I knew that the eldest princess was protecting me with such difficulty behind my back, I would definitely Not willing, moreover, he would be very angry, because no man is willing to let a woman who is weaker than him protect him, not to mention, this woman is still his sister, who should be protected by him, but now instead Come over, this is an absolute shame for any man."

"Princess, do you still understand?"

"In a sense, you only think about your own thoughts, filter your own feelings and thoughts, and don't consider the wishes of His Royal Highness. Such thoughts and actions are a manifestation of selfishness." Han Tao's words were completely merciless, so sharp but true that he picked out the pain in Tsinghua's heart.

"Do you think that what you do is for his own good? Do you think that he will appreciate you in the end? Do you think that what you do is great?"

"No, no, I don't, I haven't thought about it this way..." Yu Qinghua shook her head hastily, wanting to prove that she had never had such an idea. In fact, she just, just wanted to protect the prince brother according to her own wishes. But she never thought about this, never thought about whether her prince brother would also be willing to let her protect...

(End of this chapter)