uncle don't kiss me

Chapter 134 Final Chapter 4
Ruan Yunfei, on the other hand, somehow seemed to be a different person, no longer the proud and arrogant look she had at that time.About three months after Tang Zhen left, Xiao Jiu saw her once in the hospital, and she seemed to be sick. Of course, Xiao Jiu also said that she seemed to have an abortion. have no idea.

It may be that after being ill once, her personality was also ill.

"Did you have a nightmare?" Cheng Younan's words interrupted my thoughts when he sent me to the door of the room.

I smiled at him, "Why did you come back so late? Are you so busy every day?"

"Miss me?" He looked at me with a smirk, "Lolo, are you graduating soon?"

I nodded, "Yeah."

Going back to school soon.

However, the more this time comes, the more disturbed I am.I don't know if he will sense that I want to leave him.I wanted to tell him, but I was also afraid that he would never let me go because of his personality.

When I was in a daze, he suddenly took me into his arms.

There was a strong heartbeat in his heart, when he hugged me, he wished he could melt me ​​into his body.His deep cello-like voice came from above his head, "Girl, do you know how hard it is to wait for you to grow up?"

From meeting to 22 years old...

I never knew that time could pass so fast.

I smiled as he said, then pushed him away, looked up at him, "I've grown up, Uncle Cheng."

He sighed helplessly, "If you don't grow up, I'm going to be old soon." Having said that, he lowered his head, his face was almost close to mine, and looked at me very close, "Lolo, I always thought I was still young , It wasn’t until I watched you grow up day by day like this that I realized that I was aging non-stop, and I was really afraid that your growing speed would not be able to keep up with my aging speed.”

When he said this, with some sadness and sadness, he said: "Girl, with you, I really feel that I am very old."

This sentence made my heart ache, and the suppressed pain made me hug him, "I'm sorry."

I almost forgot about this, forgot that there is a difference of ten years between me and this man, I have a lot of time to find my freedom, but he has no time to wait for a girl who wants to be free to go outside for a while Come back to him after the circle.

"What's the matter?" He chuckled, a little confused by my sudden action, "Lolo, it's late at night, if you throw yourself into your arms like this, aren't you afraid that I'll be misunderstood?"

I bit my lip and looked at him, "Okay, I'm going to sleep."

"Good night." Before leaving, he bowed his head and kissed me good night.

Lying on the bed, I began to think about my past with him.I was thinking, if I really left him, would I regret it?
From the first meeting, the figure in Xue Hao's house, from when he told me, 'I don't like people who give me nothing' - from that moment on, the wheel of fate began to turn, but at that time, how could I have imagined Will I fall in love with him one day?
When I was taken home by him for the first time, the ambiguous scene in his house on that rainy night, when he took care of me who was sick that night, it was his tenderness and warmth.

When I foolishly finished writing Lin Qiao’s name in the snow and was sad alone there, he left his dated girlfriend and took me back to his home...

that christmas...

And birthdays after that...

Before he took the letter Yan Jia left before he left.

Thinking of this, I could no longer calm down, got up from the bed, and ran directly to his room.He had just finished taking a shower, and when he saw me walking in in a panic, he asked inexplicably, "What's wrong?"

I looked at him and bit my lip anxiously, "Is that letter still there?"

"Ok?"

"The one you wrote me."

"I'll look for it." He chuckled, went to the cabinet and rummaged for a long time, and finally, from a box that was pressed at the bottom, he handed me the letter that was still intact after a while ,"this?"

I grabbed it, spread it out, glanced at it, nodded, turned around and walked out, "Good night."

He grabbed my hand from behind, "Lolo, what's wrong with you today?"

I stuck out my tongue at him guiltily, "It's all right! Go to sleep!"

But he grabbed my hand and refused to let go, "You disturb my heart so much, how can I sleep?"

"Then what do you want?" I looked at him warily.

He raised his eyebrows, "You know."

Then, he pulled me into his arms. At this moment, I didn't know what bewitched me, so I didn't push him away.I want to leave him, although I feel reluctant, but this idea has been put aside in my heart for not a day or two, what I think is, after graduation, I will leave, to see the outside world, I want to go Once gone, find the freedom you want.

I have met him since the beginning, and he has been controlling my freedom all the time. I want to see his heart clearly, and see if I would love him if it wasn't for his coercion.I also want to see if I will forget him if we are separated.If I forget him, or if I don't love him anymore, then we are destined to be people who have no fate.

However, when I thought that if I left, I might miss him, but I was so reluctant.

To be honest, I want to be free, but I am also afraid of missing him.

So when he kissed me, I didn't refuse, just let him kiss me slowly, approach me slowly, and put me on the bed slowly.

His hand got into my pajamas, I didn't refuse, when he kissed my face, my neck, collarbone, I didn't refuse...

In the almost four years that I have known him, he has been in love with me for at least three years.

When his lips passed over my body, I kept thinking about everything I had with him, and those intimacy that didn't last to the end many times, but now, I want to give it to him willingly.Anyway, I have already given him the first time, and it doesn’t matter if I give it again, it is obviously the shadow and barrier in my heart that can’t go away, because I think of leaving him, and thinking that I may miss him forever after leaving, so I don’t know how much. courage.

When I made all the preparations and grabbed the bed sheet tightly because of my nervousness, he suddenly stopped and sighed, "If you don't stop, I will really want you."

"Uh!" I looked at the man in front of me with wide eyes, confused and speechless, "Could it be that what you just said was false?"

"What? Are you willing?" He looked at me and smiled speechlessly, "Then I shouldn't have stopped just now?"

I pursed my lips and didn't speak. After being interrupted by him just now, I lost all courage.

But he just smiled, left my body, and lay on the other side of the bed, with a narrow smile in his eyes, "I've been waiting for so long! I'm not afraid to wait a little longer."

"When do you want to wait?" I looked at him puzzled, didn't he think about doing this kind of thing with me all the time?

He put his finger on my face and flicked it lightly, "After you graduate."

"why?"

He didn't explain, "I just want to."

Speaking of which, he turned over again to hold me down, hugged me into his arms, and said meaningfully: "Since I forced you to leave Lixi and come back to me, I know that you have been unhappy. Until now you have always been unhappy. I didn't forgive my actions, but I am confident that when that day comes, you will definitely forgive me."

My heart froze, "Why are you so sure?"

"Guess." He stared at me like a child hiding a treasure, unable to hold back his desire to share it with others.However, in order not to affect the effect, he didn't want to say it in advance.

I didn't guess it until the end, so I went back to my room to sleep.

I was so sorry when I left.

In fact, I can probably guess it, but I try not to guess it right.

Then go back to school, take graduation photos, graduation thesis and so on...

The school was suddenly filled with the taste of parting, and my heart was as melancholy as they were.I also want to leave, leave this city, leave this city where I grew up for more than [-] years, and leave the man who has been waiting for me to grow up.

When I was busy graduating, Cheng Younan was also busy with the surprise he wanted to give me, which was finally missed by Xiao Jiu.

The day Cheng Younan chose happened to be the day I booked the train ticket for myself. He called the train ticket at [-] o'clock in the evening and asked me to have dinner at [-] o'clock. grown up……

But he didn't know that when he called me, I was standing at the door of the restaurant, looking at his smiling and full of expectation, looking at the tulips in the room he arranged for others, looking at the dreamy and And a heartbreakingly beautiful scene.Because he was afraid that I would arrive early, he specifically told me, "Remember to go there later, or you will go early, and you will have to wait."

He told me he was going to get on the plane right away and would be there around 07:30, he was putting on a show, he just didn't want me to know that he was preparing all this.

His gentle and pampering smile on the phone made me twitch the corners of my mouth.

However, I know that I must leave, and I must leave.

Staying by his side, I'm just his accessory, even if he wants to marry me, even if he marries me, I can't find the place I want in his world.

If I don’t try to go out once, I’m afraid that I’ll never be able to find the me I’ve always dreamed of becoming—not someone’s subsidiary, I’m me, instead of being dominated by him in the future.

After returning from the restaurant, I sat in front of the window, watching the sunset that was about to set, and the flowers in the yard under the sunset. When I touched these beautiful scenes, my heart ached, so I had to lower my head and look at the second-hand computer he once gave me Type a lot of words.I wrote a few big articles full of reasons and excuses about my reasons for leaving him...

Until the moment he left, there was only one line of writing left on the computer.

Xue Hao's car was outside. After taking my luggage into the car, he sent me to the station.

Along the way, he kept asking me, "Lolo, have you really thought about it?"

I nodded.

I told him a few days ago, the reason I told him was because I knew he would not tell Cheng Younan about this in advance.

He has nothing to do with Cheng Younan, so knowing that I am with Cheng Younan, nothing can be saved, but now, when he knows that I am leaving Cheng Younan, of course he supports him. He is different from Xiaojiu. Cheng Younan is suitable.

(End of this chapter)