uncle don't kiss me

Chapter 157 How Deep is His Love 4
She glanced at the little guy who was clamoring to come to her, and patted his head helplessly, "I just knew to trouble you, Aunt Luo Luo. Why are you so disobedient?"

"It's okay, I'm just not used to staying below."

She laughed, and then we went for a walk in the yard together. It was snowing, and the whole yard was silvery white. Not long after walking forward, Ye Xuan secretly said to me: "You don't know that Gu Mingfang, do you? Their family has always had a good relationship with the Cheng family, and Cheng Younan seemed to have liked her when he was young, but in the end he married her in Japan."

"Uh..." I stared blankly at Ye Xuan, thinking of that woman's beautiful appearance, and her 15-year-old son who spoke Japanese.

I heard Cheng Younan say it a long time ago, but I didn't expect to see this woman with my own eyes one day.But how honored am I?He has liked two women in his life, and I can be compared with that woman?
At dinner, Cheng's father didn't come back because of business, but at the dinner table, Cheng Younan was very unhappy, of course he couldn't be happy, whoever he was, faced with the two whom he liked deeply but no longer belonged to him It's strange to be happy.

In fact, Gu Mingfang, who is two years older than him, does not look like the mother of a 15-year-old child at all. I have to say that genes are really a kind of amazing thing.

It was originally a chat, but Gu Mingfang suddenly talked about him, "Younan, it's time for you to find someone, don't you plan to be single for the rest of your life?"

She just asked a sincere question, but it made the scene at the dinner table a little awkward. Almost everyone, including Mrs. Cheng, glanced at me.

It's not her fault, after all, she doesn't know about my relationship with Cheng Younan.

On the other hand, Cheng Younan, he was surprisingly calm, raised his wine glass and lightly clinked with Gu Mingfang, then smiled lightly, "There's nothing wrong with being single."

I didn't meet his eyes, I just looked down at the wine in my glass.

Although it didn't matter on the surface, in a blink of an eye, he changed the subject.

After dinner, it snowed heavily outside, and I saw him squatting by the fountain smoking a cigarette alone. In the endless winter night, he was alone, and I will never forget it.

An inexplicable force drove me closer to him, and finally, I stood still two meters away from him, "Are you okay?"

He turned around and looked at me, "Isn't your concern too hypocritical?"

"I just hope you are well." Just hearing about being alone for a lifetime makes people feel distressed.

How could he be so willful after living to this age?In the three years since I left him, didn't he still choose Ruan Xiwei?

Who knows, he only said: "The only way to be nice to me is to leave Lixi and come back to me, but, are you willing?"

When it comes to this topic, I don't want to go any further.

Soon, Li Xi came out of the house holding the car keys, "Alright, Luo Luo, let's go back."

He came over, took my shoulders, and smiled at Cheng Younan, "Goodbye."

In the past days, in front of Cheng Younan, he always avoided getting too close to me, as if he was afraid that Cheng Younan would be sad, but at this moment, with his seemingly inadvertent actions, he seemed to be deliberately announcing his ownership in front of Cheng Younan.

Because of my position, as his fiancée, I didn't push him away, just got into the car, and when I looked at the man outside the car window, my heart was twisted, as if I had done something unforgivable.

There was thick snow in the yard. At zero o'clock, Lixi and I were wearing padded jackets and setting off fireworks and firecrackers in the yard. He took me into his arms, held my hands and whispered in his ear: "Luoluo, happy new year !"

"You too." I looked up at his face and gave him a warm smile back, and he lowered his head to kiss me.

At this moment, when I inadvertently thought of Cheng Younan, I almost instinctively avoided Li Xi's kiss.

It was only when he came to his senses that he realized how easy it was for his fiancée to make him sad by such a behavior.

Trying to hide what I just did, I bent down and took a handful of snow, squeezed it into a ball and handed it to him, smiling, "Shall we play with the snow?"

There was some other meaning in his eyes, but it was quickly covered up, "Yeah."

Every night when going to bed, Lixi is used to waiting in my room for me to sleep before leaving. Except for the days when his grandfather left, this habit has not changed.

When I came out of the shower, he was still in my room, with his back to me, looking out the window.

I ignored him, climbed into bed, closed my eyes, and said goodnight to him.

I closed my eyes only to realize that my mind was full of the shadow of Cheng Younan. During these days, I had obviously calmed down my heart. I was with Lixi every day, and I seldom thought about him. But seeing him again tonight, especially Seeing him like that, my heart became confused again because of him.

I grabbed the quilt tightly and held back my tears, Lixi is here, afraid of being discovered by him.

I don't want him to misunderstand that I was with him just because Cheng Younan left my side at that time, and I don't want him to think that this marriage is just his contribution alone.

No one is a person with a heart of stone. Faced with everything he has done for me, I will also be moved. Faced with this man who treats me well, how can I hurt him unscrupulously?
"Lolo." His warm voice suddenly reached my ears, and I opened my eyes, only to find that he was right in front of me.

Seeing him unexpectedly, my heart was a little flustered, afraid that he would notice something, so I asked in a low voice, "Are you still asleep?"

He stretched out his long arms and pulled me into his arms, "It's a rare holiday, sleep is so boring, let's do something we should do."

Looking at the narrow smile in his eyes, no matter how stupid I am, I know what he said that should be done.

"But, Lixi, I'm not ready yet. Could this... be too sudden?" I looked at him cautiously, and I don't know why he suddenly had this idea today.

He smiled and said, "I don't accept the reason that I'm not ready. If it wasn't for the sudden incident with grandpa, Luo Luo, you would be my wife now."

After finishing speaking, he took me into his arms more firmly, placed him under his body, and lowered his head to kiss me.

He is right, there is no reason for not being ready. If it hadn't been for his grandfather, we would have been husband and wife by now, but the preparations we had made before were all messed up by Cheng Younan today. Guilty, afraid that he would know that I had just secretly thought about the person who shouldn't be thinking about it, I closed my eyes and didn't reject him, grabbed the bed sheet tightly, and let him kiss me.

His kiss left the lips, to the chin, and then to the neck.Obviously everything is a matter of course, but my heart hurts at this moment.It turns out that the most intimate thing is to do with the person you love the most, and the so-called gratitude cannot completely replace the love hidden in the bottom of my heart.

I braced my body, didn't push him, opened my eyes and looked at Lixi in front of me, from the first time we met to now, he has never done anything sorry to me, but now, when we are intimate with him, It's more of another person's face that pops up in my mind, do that, right?
Xiao Luoluo, how can you be worthy of him in front of you?
I stretched out my hand and pushed him, "Lixi, I feel a little uncomfortable, can we continue another day?"

To be his woman, but not in this situation.

He looked at me, with some disappointment in his eyes, and turned his back to me, "You still haven't forgotten him, right? Lolo, we are getting married soon, can you give me a deadline? How long, you Only then can I forget him, at least let me have a count in my heart."

The pain in his voice was something that a confident and warm man would never have.

"I'm sorry." I hugged him from behind with great guilt, "I will go back to see my mother in two days, and when I come back, I will give you all of myself. Sorry for making you wait for so many years , but this time, I promise you, everything will be over."

After hearing what I said, he smiled helplessly, turned his head and looked at me, "Luo Luo, I'm not forcing you...I'm just a little sad."

I nodded, "I understand."

Falling in love with someone who loves someone else is like throwing all your emotions into a bottomless pit. You never know when you will be rewarded.

On the fourth day of the first lunar month, when I returned home, it happened that Yan Jia also returned to the city.

We went shopping together, the shop of the fat boss of the hot pot restaurant is still open, although he received 20 from Cheng Younan at the beginning, until now he is still only busy in his small shop, when we went, I heard him complain about the current situation The market is sluggish and business is not doing well.

This is the case in this life, a windfall cannot be a turning point in your life, if you want to change your life, unless you can change yourself.Looking at his back that was getting more and more bent because of being busy, I didn't know what to say.

In fact, we don't have to bear grudges against those who stepped on you. If he steps on you, he may not be able to elevate himself, but the two feet he stepped on you can actually inspire you to work hard.

In the evening, Lin Qiao called Yan Jia to have dinner, and Aunt Lin was there, so I didn't go and wandered around aimlessly by myself.

I have been to many places, and my appearance has obviously changed, but I found that Cheng Younan's shadow is everywhere.Walking along the brand-new street alone, finally, involuntarily walked into the very old alley, the three-story house was getting older and older, I went upstairs and looked at this set of buildings with no one. House, thinking of the days when I was fooling around with Cheng Younan here, I unconsciously closed my eyes.However, this time, it will be the last time!The last time I came to see the place related to him, the last time I missed him.

Since then, his happiness and pain have nothing to do with me.Everyone has his own life, even if he is not happy, I have no right or obligation to be responsible for him.

We are just passers-by in each other's world, what right do we have to entrust our happiness to each other?

Resisting the pain in my heart, I foolishly said goodbye to this house.

The nearby park was already planned to be demolished. I walked over and remembered that every time I was sad, I would come here to be silly, and he would come here to find me every time.

(End of this chapter)