uncle don't kiss me

Chapter 162 Tied to Him 1
I said the last word lightly, and at the same time couldn't help laughing at myself, what right do I have to be disappointed in him?
"Lolo." He looked at me helplessly.

I didn't look into his eyes, but said indifferently: "Since the matter is out of the way, let's end it! Anyway, you didn't really want to marry me from the beginning, just pretend that nothing has changed between us. From the very beginning, everything developed as you and Cheng Younan expected."

In fact, they are all right, I shouldn't be so angry, and I shouldn't blame Cheng Younan for the development of the matter, because in the beginning, I chose to marry Lixi myself.

At that time, he didn't abandon me for his family!He just made an agreement with Li Xi, but he didn't expect that Li Xi would regret it in the end.

Suddenly, I seem to understand what I have been awkward these days!
Perhaps from the very beginning, I wanted to marry Lixi because of Cheng Younan's sentence: If you want to marry Lixi, I will bless you both.

In fact, I have always been such a selfish person. I always thought that I was thinking about Lixi, but in fact I just wanted to get angry with Cheng Younan, who made me sad.Because he had given up on him before, I also wanted to give up on him completely.

After all, he can give up my first time for his family, so he might not give up the second time.I'm not the most important person in his life, so I willfully choose to be with Lixi.

I can't help but hate myself for being like this!
But now, I finally have an excuse to leave Lixi: this is what he promised Cheng Younan, from the beginning it was doomed that I would leave him, it was he who said nothing.

Saying this to myself, I went upstairs, packed my things, and wanted to leave this place where I lived for a long time, just like Li Xi who broke his promise to Cheng Younan, I also forgot the promise I made to Li Xi.

When he came downstairs with his luggage, Li Xi was still in the living room, standing there, looking at me as I was about to leave, "Have you really decided?"

I nodded without looking into his eyes, "Yes."

His face was gloomy, and the coldness emanating from his whole body was no less than that of Cheng Younan, who I knew earlier in the morning.He stood in front of me, his voice was indifferent, without a trace of warmth, "We are about to get married, are you going to leave everything like this?"

I bit my lip, summoned up the courage to look up at me, "You didn't really want to marry me from the beginning."

"But now I am." He looked at me very seriously, "Now, I really want to marry you, otherwise, after grandpa leaves, I won't mention marriage to you again."

"But are you worthy of Cheng Younan? Lixi, you are not a perfidious person." My hand, in a panic, did not know where to hide it, so I could only hold the edge of my coat uneasily.Perhaps, from the bottom of my heart, I also know that this is not the reason to leave him.

He tightly grabbed my hand carrying the luggage, forced me to let go, looked into my eyes, and asked word by word: "Then Luo Luo, are you worthy of me?"

My heart suddenly became chaotic.

I turned my head away and didn't look into his eyes, and I didn't want to reason with him, "I'm sorry for you, but whose fault it has become like this?"

He held my hand loosely, "It's all my fault?"

I knew I was wrong, and I didn't know how to answer his question. Of course, this matter was not his fault. The reason was all on me. As Cheng Younan said, everything was my choice, but...

I picked up my things again, all I wanted was to get out of here, "It doesn't matter whose fault it is, let's just call it a day."

"That's enough, Luo Luo." Li Xi grabbed my hand again and looked at me seriously, "Do you think that I will let you go?"

I stared at him blankly, not knowing what else he wanted.

He laughed disapprovingly, "I know you too well, I know what's going on in your heart."

"Really?" I looked at him curiously, "Tell me, what am I thinking?"

Even I don't know what I'm thinking, how could he know!
Who knew that he just grabbed my hand patiently and asked me calmly: "Do you hate Cheng Younan? Hate him for giving you to me?"

"Hate, I hate you and him, I hate you two so much, you just played with me in the applause." I looked away, tears fell, but I said something that didn't fit my heart.

Lixi raised the corners of his mouth mockingly, "Stop lying to yourself, you don't hate him at all! If you really want to hate, then you are hating yourself too. Lolo, I really wish I didn't know you so well, but I am too I know what you are thinking in your heart. You have always been a kind person, so no matter how much you want to be a bad person, I can still see it at a glance. "

What he said made my eyes widen in surprise, until I saw his consciously guessing eyes, I denied it: "I don't understand what you are talking about."

"You want to use this reason to go back to Cheng Younan." At this point, he smiled, and then said to himself: "After working hard for so long, do you still love him in your heart? "

I wanted to break free from his hand in a panic, and said to myself, "You're talking nonsense! I didn't. Ever since I knew he gave up to let me marry you, I hated him to death."

"Whether it's hate or love, only you know. You hate yourself, especially after you know that he doesn't really want to give up on you, and you find yourself choosing to marry me and doing something sorry for him, so You want to use this reason to go back to him now." He spoke my heart so clearly and directly, I lowered my head, not daring to look into his eyes, I admit, I am sorry for him, I I broke my promise, especially at the beginning of the morning, I thought it was Cheng Younan who gave up on me, but now I find that's not the case. If I say that I don't feel sorry or owe him at all, I can't even lie to myself.

It's just that at this moment, I really don't know how to face Li Xi, how to mention this matter to him, how to tell him that I want to go back to Cheng Younan's side, so I can only selfishly put the responsibility on him , and then use this to leave him.

In fact, there is nothing wrong with this, let him know that I am a woman who doesn't mean anything, and turns her face and is ruthless, so he won't like me like this anymore, right?
"Do you think that if you pretend to be heartless, I will give up on you?" But I didn't expect him to hold my hands firmly as if he had heard my heart, and then said persistently: "I said But, you can't lie to me, no matter how much you pretend to be a bad person in front of me, it won't change anything."

I looked at Lixi in disbelief, not understanding how he could see me so thoroughly.

He grabbed my hands, grabbed me and threw me directly onto the sofa, then leaned over and said in front of my eyes: "I'm sorry, Luo Luo, I know you really want me to fulfill you and him, but this time, I really can't do it. Even if you hate me, I will tie you by my side for the rest of my life. "

"Li Xi!" At this moment, my heart was struck by lightning.

He said a lifetime, he actually said a lifetime, how long will a lifetime be, can it be long enough to make me forget that man completely?

I couldn't look into his eyes in pain, but I couldn't pretend to be so tough just now, "Obviously you didn't intend to marry me in the first place, why did you do this?"

"Because I want to be with you." He answered my words, looking at me apologetically, "I know, I broke my promise to Younan, this is because I feel sorry for him, but nothing can change what I want The determination to be with you."

My heart aches unbearably. After so long, I think of Cheng Younan again, the night we parted, and what he said to me.

He said: Since people all over the world, including yourself, think that Lixi needs you more, then I will help you.I wish you happiness too!

This sentence has always been engraved in my heart, but at that time I chose Lixi, so I forced myself to ignore it. I didn't realize until today that he never gave up on me, but I betrayed him first.

If I had been firmer at that time, if I hadn't habitually thrown myself into Lixi's arms, if I had been able to wait for him at home as he said, things wouldn't have turned out like this, right?
It's all me, it's all my fault...

I covered my eyes so as not to look at Li Xi, my body was shaking non-stop because of the pain as my tears fell.

Faced with such a scene, I really don't know what to do.

How innocent is he?
Betrayed by the one he loves, and betrayed by his brother.

He must have thought that I married Lixi because I love Lixi, he must have thought that I was only with him because he tied me up, he must have thought that after so many years of waiting, I had never actually loved him.

He said that he put the choice in my hands, and he didn't want to force me back to him in the same despicable way as before...

But, I really love him!
I didn't know until I hurt him that this person was always in my heart.I love him even more than this man who treats me well.

I wiped away my tears and looked at Li Xi anxiously, "Can you let go? Li Xi, I beg you, this is the last time, I know I'm sorry for you, but I've hurt him enough, I don't want to be with you anymore Hurt him together."

Although I know that such a request may be too capricious, but instead of forcing myself to forget him so painfully, it is better to go back to him.

Li Xi, who has always been rational and magnanimous, listened to my words, but laughed disappointedly, "You don't want to hurt him with me, so are you willing to hurt me with him?"

"But, I really have no way to completely forget him." It's all my fault. I shouldn't have passively accepted Li Xi's proposal in the morning, and I don't have to hurt him and Cheng Younan now.

He held my wrist and pressed it to the sides of his body, "You really can't completely forget him? Then, Luo Luo, what did you say to me before? You said you forgot him Yes, you said you would spend the rest of your life with me, you said you loved me, Lolo!"

He almost lost all reason, staring at me with red eyes, "I think I treat you no worse than him, and I know you no later than him, but you love him so much that you don't even want to worry about my feelings anymore ?”

(End of this chapter)