I am Feng Jun

Chapter 822 822. Obviously hid well.
"Not coming back, I've always been here."

The dry and cold voice of the young man was not high, but it lingered in the Jiaofang hall for a long time, making the hearts of the two people who heard it tremble.

There was monstrous anger in Mu Yuanxi's eyes, and a trace of sadness in Shen Nanzhu's heart.

"Always, always?"

"A Ci, A Ci"

Shen Nanzhu repeatedly called out at a loss, but couldn't say any substantive and useful words, a look of impatience appeared between Mu Yuanxi's brows and eyes.

"When did you know!"

Shen Nanzhu regained consciousness slightly in these cold words, recalling the memory that she had deliberately buried for a long time, her lips pursed, and her voice was fluffy.

"Under Luoshan, on the bank of the Quanhe River, at that time, I saw Aci, who had always resisted being touched by others, and was overwhelmed by Yu Xiaoyao, but he didn't have the same violent reaction as before."

Mu Yuanxi closed her eyes heavily, her jawline was so tight that it was abnormally sharp, she tried her best to suppress her killing intent, and listened to Shen Nanzhu's continuation.

"When I tentatively held his wrist later, he didn't resist. At that time, I knew that he was not the same as before."

At first, Shen Nanzhu really thought that he had lost his memory, that's why he let himself into the resignation courtyard, and was willing to get along well with her, even willing to call her sister.

But from that day on, she realized that even if she lost her memory, some personality and habits would not change so completely.

He has always resisted the contact of women, not anyone, why did he suddenly change.

She had doubts about the identity of the younger brother.

However, she didn't say anything, as if nothing happened.

Compared with the A Ci who was always resisting and alienated in the past, she seems to be even more reluctant to part with this wanton younger brother.

She likes to see his free and unrestrained appearance, likes to see his bright and cheerful appearance with stars shining in his eyes, unlike now--
Shen Nanzhu looked into the eyes of the young boy on the bed as if masochistic, and was stung by the dead and cold eyes again. Countless emotions were intertwined in his heart, but it was difficult to look away.

Undeniably, this is her real brother.

She used to be the younger brother who made a mistake to him.

He is not coming back now, but has been there all the time, so during this period of time, he sees himself treating a stranger who occupies his body as usual, what will happen to him, what will happen to him.
"A Ci, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, my sister didn't mean it, she just wanted to make up for it, don't hate my sister, okay, A Ci, A Ci"

"What to make up for? It was me you wanted to kill, but you made up for him?"

The boy's icy words came at Shen Nanzhu unscrupulously with a sharp blade, causing her to stop breathing and her expression stunned.

She thought he only had a vague memory, but she didn't expect that he could remember it so clearly. At that time, he was only half a month old!
"I remember, I remember everything around me since I was born, I remember what my father said when he hugged me, I remember the quarrel between the two of them before my father died.
I remember that you came to my room on that thunderstorm night and strangled my neck. I almost died in your hands! "

The young man's voice was like a sickle, and it was stuck in front of Shen Nanzhu's neck, just like the hand that strangled his fragile neck back then, making her truly feel the horror he once felt.

"Shen Nanzhu, I will never forget it, I will never forget it, no matter how you make it up in the future, I will never forget that night, do you know how scared I am!"

The fear has left a shadow in his heart since then, an indelible fear, because of her and Shen Yinchu, he has developed a resistance to all women.

Dad warned him, who was still in his infancy, to grow up well, and never meet another person like your mother in the future.

His sister almost killed him when he needed protection the most, and the sad thing is that he is only a baby, but he remembers all this clearly.

Unforgettable.

So much so that even after Shen Nanzhu forgot about this scene because of the high fever, and gradually became a good sister, doubly made up for this younger brother, and gave him endless affection, but he still couldn't accept it.

Instinctive resistance and disgust, even fear, once upon a time, he was afraid of her to death.

He was afraid that those hands would cover his neck again, and with just a little force, he would be able to break the fragile him.

And with the passage of time, and with these eyes that can see everything clearly, he saw her sincere love.

Even though that bit of fear was gradually buried, the scars left by Shen Nanzhu's malice in childhood have never been erased.

He even hates how clearly he sees, because with these eyes, he knows many truths that he shouldn't know.

But sometimes the truth is so cruel, he would rather not know, he would rather that Shen Nanzhu didn't really love him that much, or that he couldn't see her sincerity, then——
Can he hate what she has done with peace of mind?

It's not like now, he is obviously greedy for the favor that belongs to his sister, but he still can't accept it.

He was afraid, he was disgusted instinctively, as long as he saw her, he would think of that rainy night.

These two opposing emotions tormented him all the time.

So he hides.

Not only hid in the resignation courtyard, but also gave up his body without any desire to fight.

He looked at the other Shen Ci who could accept all of this without hindrance. In the beginning, that is, in the last life, what he was jealous of was also what he wanted.

But when Shen Ci drank recklessly and wanted him to come out to play, he regained his body.

He wanted to accept all this like him, but he resisted like before.

From then on, he became clear that these things that should belong to him were rejected by himself every time.

He will never have it all.

What he hated was not the person who occupied his body, he had seen his past in the half-month dream, and knew that he was not wrong in all this grotesque.

What he hates is the culprit who caused all this, that is——
His biological mother and sister of a compatriot.

One is outright hatred, and the other is a painful love-hate relationship.

When he noticed that Shen Nanzhu was surrounded by wolves on the bank of the Spring River, he would expend his mental power to let the analysis warn Shen Ci, and he would also tell Shen Ci the name of Xuan Yao that Shen Nanzhu chanted when he was crazy in his previous life to give clues.

However, like now, he will wrap Shen Nanzhu with the facts of sharp blades and thorns, and mercilessly poke at the heart full of guilt and remorse.

He hated it to death, obviously he hid it well, knowing that he couldn't get it, so he gradually became desireless, as long as he didn't let him think about it again.

But why, why was he pulled out of that safe and quiet blue space this time, and brought him back to reality again!

He had to face Shen Yinchu, Shen Nanzhu, and even face him, he knew very well that his madness and cruelty--
Mu Yuanxi.

(End of this chapter)