my guard

Chapter 174

The prince also said, "What you do is for the palace, for the Bai family...you don't have to feel so guilty. Zhao'er, death is like a lamp going out, you can go with us."

Chen Zhao refused. He watched his parents leave, closed the gate of the palace, and isolated himself from the whole world.

Chen Zhao said to Tanniang, "I can't leave here. You said that although she is dead, she is still here... This is a place she is familiar with. If she dreams back at midnight, when she comes back, she will not see anyone she knows. , how scared you should be."

"Although you said she didn't want to see me, maybe she will come back and occasionally want to see me."

"Here are all the memories of me and her, the good ones, the bad ones, the longings, and the disappointments... all of these are combined to make me and her complete. I can't leave this place behind."

Tan Niang didn't say any more, she looked sideways and saw Chen Zhao staring at the portrait in his hand again in a daze.He was thinner than when she first met him, sitting under the window, his robes were loose, as if a gust of wind could blow him away.

Little by little, he brushed the eyebrows of the woman in the painting with his fingers.

Tanniang suddenly saw the fine lines at the corners of his eyes and the whiteness of his temples.

That young man with a soft and beautiful complexion, he is old.

Under her spell, she is getting older day by day.But even without her spells, he would still age quickly.

His wife died, and he didn't have the courage to live anymore.

Tan Niang looked at the heavy rain, and suddenly said, "I can try to summon your soul tomorrow, but I'm exhausted now, so I don't guarantee success. Do you want to try?"

Chen Zhao rested his fingers on the painting. Even if he didn't raise his eyebrows, the little girl could still think of the slight smile on his lips, "Tomorrow? Okay."

He also raised his head and looked at the rain on the horizon.

This smile seemed to consume his energy again.There was sweat on his forehead, and his face was slightly pale.

"Tan Niang, you said that if you can really be reborn, can I really see her?"

Tanniang didn't answer, and Chen Zhao didn't need her answer at all.He just got courage from her, a courage that could carry him through.

If he could start all over again, he wouldn't be like this anymore.Love her from the very beginning, protect her, never wrong her because of other people or things, never push her further and further away...

He looked into the void, as if seeing the princess turning her head and looking at him.A princess in her teens, a princess who has not yet sunk in the slightest, she has a delicate appearance, full of vitality, bright and clean eyes, and 1 stars are in her eyes.

Chen Zhao smiled, and stared at the place where there was nothing——

The shadows of the trees are whirling, and there is no one there.

Love in the world does not really need to fight against the rich and powerful.There is not so much powerless love, and not so important power.

Chen Zhao has a way to find a balance between the two.

But in the early years, he only cared about himself and forgot how the princess felt.After he took a wrong step, after he wanted to turn around and ask for forgiveness, he found that she had closed the door to his heart.

No matter how many times you call, that door will never open again.

"When you love someone, do you want to let him live in a beautiful dream, or pull him into a cruel reality? When you hate someone, do you stab him to death with a thousand knives, or continue to torture and magnify the hatred ten thousand times ?”

Chen Zhao remembered what the princess had said to him in the past.

The proud woman smiled slightly and winked at him, "Chen Zhao, I am the latter, and I have always been the latter."

Yes, she is the latter, and so is he.

He was thinking about her again...

Those things were not always remembered before, but recently they always popped up from time to time, reminding him of them.Long and strange, nostalgic and sad, as if I have never owned it.He clearly had it.

(End of this chapter)