my guard

Chapter 514

The sea of ​​people is vast, like a wilderness, overgrown with weeds, it is difficult to get out.

Every bright and bright little girl on the street made him quicken his pace time and time again, but it wasn't her when he got close.

He was buying breakfast in front of the small stall, and when he was eating fried dough sticks, he suddenly thought of the little girl crying, and couldn't help laughing.

After laughing, I feel even more empty.

She is no longer with him.

But he never forgot all the details related to her in his life.Every time I think about it, the memory is more profound.He turned around, as if yesterday she was holding his hand and laughing, but today she disappeared.

He often thought of that night when the little girl beat his window with stones and woke him up.He opened the window, and under the moonlight, the girl group looked up and smiled at him in the blue light.

In the past, she smiled naturally and purely, without any worries.

How can a person smile so cleanly?
The 16-year-old's smile is as bright as when she was eight years old. She smiles so that all the haze in her heart fades away, and she wants to hold all the beautiful things in front of her and give her.Only someone who is so well protected like the princess can never change his smile.

Her smile always makes him lose his mind.

Every time he thinks about that night, Ji Zhang feels pain in his heart.He thought she had come to look for him, but he was so stupid that he didn't react at all.At that time, he was still struggling emotionally, and still wanted to retreat. He had clearly seen her, and he was obviously happy like a drum, but he still had to pretend that he was not that happy.

It was because of his hesitation that she would walk away disappointed.

Ji Zhang wondered countless times, the princess left so simply, was it because of his performance that night that broke her heart?
Must be.

She came to say goodbye to herself, but she——was foolish enough to think that she was a dream.

Whenever this time, Ji Zhang hated himself in his heart.

Ji Zhang thought that he didn't love the princess.He always felt that way.

What he did and said was just to regard her as his master and younger sister, that's all.

He didn't love her before the princess let go of everything, and he still didn't love her after she let go of everything, but after she left, he missed her so many times.

The gap between the status of the guard and the princess is so huge.Ji Zhang feels that the princess is still young and doesn't understand anything. When she grows up in the future, when she sees the embarrassing misunderstanding caused by the unequal status, and when she has someone she really likes, the princess will regret it.

Ji Zhang didn't want the princess to regret it.

But... Now he is thinking again, has he always been the selfish person?

Because he was afraid, he flinched, and that caused all this?
Is the love of a 16-year-old girl necessarily wrong?Young feelings, without even receiving them, have already foreseen the future rebellion, in essence, why didn't he panic?

He was afraid that after she had a lover, she would resent him.He resented that he didn't stop her when she was young, and acted recklessly with her.

If she regrets him, Ji Zhang's heart will be pierced like a knife, and he can't bear her regret.

He is selfish.

Because of all these scruples, he lost the person he cared about most in his life.

She hasn't regretted it for a day, but he already knows what regret is.

I knew today, I knew today... It's a pity, she is gone.

It was his self-righteousness that hurt her.

If we can meet again, I hope she is willing to forgive him.

The reunion of the little princess and Ji Zhang was half a year after she left him.

There was no warning that day, and there was no premonition at all like what was said in the scriptures. The weather was predictable.

Liu Yujing was wearing a curtain fence, and a spun gauze circle on the brim of her hat covered her face. The spun gauze was as long as her ankles, and she walked gracefully and gracefully.She settled the bill with the hired guards, went to the posthouse to identify herself, and sent a letter to Yejing.

(End of this chapter)