lazy queen

Chapter 89

But Jin'er, queen father, this is all for your own good, right?Shu Chenyang is indeed talented and beautiful, but he is really not suitable for you. What you need is a man who can help you manage the backyard and even the future harem, and more importantly, he will help you in the future!Such a man can make you have no worries, so that you can achieve great things!
Shu Qing doesn't know good and bad, and Shu Chenyang is jealous and pampered, so the Shu family is not a good family!

As long as it is for your own good, no matter how much you blame me, or even hate me, Empress Father will not give up!
Jin'er, I hope that one day, you can really understand the painstaking efforts of the empress father...

At dusk, the sky suddenly dissipated, and the setting sun spread over the wet earth.

Chu Shi rushed into the guest garden, forgetting to knock on the door, and rushed in.Then he saw Feng Qingya sitting on a chair, resting his head on his hands, falling asleep.He took a breath, held back the anxiety in his heart, then walked lightly to her side, and whispered: "Master...Master..."

After a few beeps, the sleeping person still didn't respond.

Seeing this, Chu Shi felt a pain in his heart. In the past few days, she hardly slept well, and he didn't want to see her like this.Although the former master was lazy and annoying, she never felt sad, never frowned, since... He gritted his teeth, raised his voice a little, and called, "Master..."

Feng Qingya shook his head, then looked at the person in front of him drowsily, then rubbed his forehead, woke up a bit, and asked, "Young man?"

"Master, Mr. Shu went to the Book Pavilion, I'm afraid he will..." Chu Shi said anxiously, "He said he was going to find his mother and father..."

"What?" Feng Qingya stood up suddenly, with a dignified expression, and asked as he walked quickly: "How did he get there? Didn't I tell you to take good care of him?"

Chu Shi paused, feeling a little aggrieved, "Master Shu said he wanted to go to the bookstore. When he was young, he and Shu Zhengjun often went there, so..." He didn't finish his explanation, and the figure of the master was no longer in front of him.

Chu Shi stood there, looking at the place where the figure disappeared, his expression suddenly became heavy, and his tearful eyes suddenly became complicated.

Book Pavilion is located in the center of Shu Mansion and has four floors.

When Feng Qingya arrived, Shu Chenyang stood on the railing holding his master.

In the attic, the servants gathered around and made noisy noises, but they didn't know whether they were worried or watching a show.

"Master, Mr. Shu, he..." Seeing the arrival of the master, Chu Yu hurriedly stepped forward and said anxiously.

Feng Qingya looked up at the precarious figure on the railing, his face suddenly sank.

Seeing this, Chu Yu couldn't help being startled, just as he was about to say something, Feng Qingya had already disappeared.After a while, Chu Yu found her figure on the tall building.

On the attic, Feng Qingya looked coldly at the pale and desperate man in front of him.

Shu Chenyang stared blankly at Feng Qingya, the hand holding the pillar was tightened, his lips trembled a few times, and he uttered a hoarse voice, "Go..."

"What do you want to do?" Feng Qingya said immediately, she took a step forward, her voice was indifferent, "Are you dead?"

Shu Chenyang's thin and haggard face suddenly shook, his teeth bit his purple lower lip, and he shouted: "I'm going to find my mother and father!"

"Looking for your mother and father?" Feng Qingya took another step forward, "Do you think you can find them after you die?"

"I want to find them!" Shu Chenyang's tone became excited.

Feng Qingya sneered, "So what if you find them? Do you think they will still want you? Shu Chenyang, not everyone can tolerate your waywardness, even if they are your mother and father!"

"You're talking nonsense..." Shu Chenyang shouted, his body began to unsteady.

Feng Qingya's eyes were a little deeper, and there was a sarcastic smile on the corner of his mouth, "Why do you think they died? Why do you think your father committed suicide? Shu Chenyang, they exchanged their lives for your chance to live! That's right , you can jump down, maybe you can really find them, or maybe they still indulge your waywardness, but if you do this, you will only make them sad and those who hurt you happy, Shu Chenyang, this is what you want? Imperial Capital Your son Wushuang is so cowardly and incompetent?"

"Shut up!" Shu Chenyang shouted angrily, and suddenly, with tears all over his face, "What do you know... Do you know how this attic got here? Do you know how painful I am? Do you know that I don't want to see you at all? I don't want your kindness! My mother has been away all year round, she is afraid that her father will be lonely, she is afraid that Yang'er will not teach... Do you know? She met this bookstore for us... What a unparalleled son, that is nothing! Do you know? Dad brought me here when I was a child, he taught me how to read and write, you know? Dad didn’t understand anything! Before I was born he couldn’t read at all! You know how much he did for me Is he not only working at home, but also learning to read and write! Do you know how hard they are? They died at the end! I hate them, why don't you take me with you! But it doesn't matter, I can find They! Your Royal Highness, you don’t know my pain at all! I don’t want to live! Why should I live? Even if they will be angry and sad, so what? Hehe...Your Highness, do you still feel sad when a person dies? Sad? No, they won’t. If they die, they will have nothing! And if I live, I will have nothing! You say, they even died because of me, but they did so, leaving me The only thing left is pain! My life was bought by their two lives! Do they know that I would rather not live two lives than see them die...they are dead!"

"So you punish them with death?" Feng Qingya murmured, his voice seemed to be filled with some kind of shock.

Use death to punish your loved ones?Is this the cruel revenge after despair?
"Punish them? No... I am their son! Why should I punish them? I love them very much... not punishment! Your Highness, I just want to find them and be together forever... Your Highness, they want me to live , but why should I live? I have nothing worth living! Your Highness, a man, he became an orphan, lost...innocence, why do you think he wants to live? Does living make people laugh and humiliate? "Shu Chenyang mocked, the tears in his eyes seemed to never run out, "No, I won't live like this!"

"Everyone has the value of living..." Feng Qingya raised his head and stared at the man in front of him with narrow eyes, "You know? I have thought about it before, why should I live? What is the value? So, I chose to die. But God gave me another chance... I have another chance... So, I survived, but Shu Chenyang, not everyone has this chance! So don't give up your only chance to live easily. "

(End of this chapter)