my old life

Chapter 1116 Beloved Soul

The night fell on the earth, and I entered the bright and warm room of Buddha Qianxiao, but I couldn't feel a trace of warmth, everything seemed to be cold...

"Wait a minute, let me clean up."

Fo Qianxiao flicked her long hair to signal me to sit down first, and my eyes fell on her denim overalls and those clean white sneakers involuntarily.

Everything is a familiar feeling, but there is only one face that is not the same as in the memory... beautiful faces are the same, and the soul of the beloved is unique!

"understood."

I took out a cigarette and lit it. I was used to holding the cigarette with my right hand, but now I dare not show my right hand full of holes.

Fo Qianxiao is timidly packing her things. Her back and figure always remind me of the love in my heart, especially the way she gently rolls her long hair around her ears...

Slightly squinting my eyes and looking at her quietly, the tip of my nose can smell the fragrance in the room. Everything in pink makes me a little dazed, and the photos on the wall make me even more dazed.

I have never been to Shiliu's boudoir, I have only been to the remote Shanshui community, I still remember her so strong and heart-rending smile, I don't know if it is still there...

Maybe Shiliu has changed her place of residence now, maybe she doesn't need to be careful now, it's all because of that Du...

I know that the man surnamed Du gave Shiliu a different life, and I know that it is the man surnamed Du who can give Shiliu a sense of stability. These are things I can't do...

The guilt in my heart was so intense at this moment, since I left Shencheng, I didn't even dare to call Shiliu, because I didn't have the face to face her!

Some people say that only in the dark of night can a man's mind slowly emerge. Some people say that there is only loneliness and despair in a man's world. For a single obsession and affection, one can ruin one's life...

Before I knew it, I thought of my second uncle, his beloved Patek Philippe watch, and his unrestrained and unrestrained past, but behind it was a love that will last forever!

Everything in front of my eyes began to blur, and the back of Buddha Qianxiao and Shiliu kept overlapping, but no matter what, there was no familiar smell, no intoxicating feeling!

Looking at the slowly burning cigarette in my hand, there is always a picture of flames flashing in front of my eyes... If everything my second uncle said is true, then my fate has changed since I was born!

I know that I am different from others, but it is definitely not because of any background and blood, but because I work harder than others and have endured more struggles in the dark!

I can have everything I have today because I paid for it with my own life!The person who helped me the most is my second uncle, other than that I only believe in myself!

"Sanming, come here." Fo Qianxiao turned her head and blushed, at this moment she was like a little girl who fell in love, her eyes were full of shyness.

"I see, please wait a moment."

I was smoking a cigarette, feeling helpless in my heart about human nature... This kind of breakthrough in the relationship between men and women is really too simple!

Even if there is no substantial change, just because there is an extra boyfriend and girlfriend relationship between each other, as long as you give yourself a reason and excuse in your heart, two people can sleep together...

Human nature is always hypocritical and fickle, why don't I understand my situation today!Especially the old monster Buddha used the thaumaturgy to try to kill me, and the repressed hatred in my heart made me miserable!
I really wish I could smash the dog's head of the old monster Buddha right now, I wish I could tear the paper man in the coffin into pieces now, but I know I can't do this now...

Now I'm not the only one here, all the gangsters around me are here, I can't put them in a dangerous situation because of my impulsiveness and recklessness.

But I will not let them leave, I will let all of them stay here, under the eyes of Old Buddha, and wait for the day when I can kill them again!
I want to let old monster Buddha taste what despair is, I want to let him taste what it is to be betrayed!I want to let him taste what it is like to die without regret!
After extinguishing the cigarette in my hand, I put the ashes in the pocket of my jacket to ensure that it would not be discovered by Buddha Qianxiao. I took off my jacket and put it on the sofa.

"It's getting late, turn off the lights and rest."

"Ah."

Fu Qianxiao blushed to turn off the light, and the whole room went dark for a moment, and suddenly I felt a long-lost sense of familiarity!
I like the time when the night is filled, I am used to hiding in the dark and breathing heavily, and I prefer this taste of complete detachment and indulgence!

Only the night can let me stretch to my heart's content, only the night can let me find myself, I think I have completely fallen in love with the taste of the night!

In fact, people can always become unscrupulous in the dark, and they can always bring their dark and mean faces to the extreme!I am used to facing the world with a humble heart, so as to satisfy my fragile heart!

Lying on the bed, I can smell the fragrance of the shower gel, and the feeling of the night spreads unconsciously... In a daze, I entered a dream.

In the dream, time seems to be stagnant, the sky and the earth are shrouded in darkness, everything is surrounded by suffocation and tenderness, and everything becomes quiet and peaceful.

I walked around in the dark and groped to my heart's content, constantly feeling the preciousness of this moment, the breath in the dark night made me more and more excited!

When all the coldness was melted by the raging bears, when everything was entangled together like glue in the dark, I wandered under the blue sky and white clouds in a trance, as if I was running in the corridor of the blue sea and silver sand.

"Are you asleep?" Fo Qianxiao asked in a low voice. I didn't speak, but just quietly felt the peace and tranquility in the dark night, and enjoyed the comfort brought by the blue sky and beach.

Perhaps it was exaggerated by the passionate night, or perhaps paralyzed by the sense of security brought by the darkness, my consciousness has gradually begun to sink.

In a trance, I seemed to have come to a beach. All nerves trembled at this moment, all impulses turned into turbulence at this moment, the flames and excitement in my chest were intertwined, and the fiery night was completely released!
"I never thought you would use such a passionate way!" I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, and the suppressed beast in my heart was completely released, with such ferocity as if it would tear the world apart!

This moment seems to be in a dream, so hazy and unreal, I don't know if it is a dream, but I feel more relaxed than ever.

Looking up at the blue sky, I felt as if I was in a dream, and I didn’t know how long it had been, as if I had returned to the past years...

The strands of hair fluttering wantonly before my eyes brushed across my face as delicately as tenderness. I gently slid my fingers across the gaps in the strands of hair, winding them gently to give guidance... Quietly feel the incomparable beauty of this moment. gentle!

Flashes of the past flashed through my mind, and when I saw Buddha Qianxiao for the first time, I thought of her arrogance and domineering, and even more bits and pieces of the past!
The feeling of wandering in the ocean in my dream made me want to stop, my whole body was so comfortable that I almost trembled, I think her cold eyes must be full of confusion at this moment!

At this moment, I completely distinguished Sixteen and Buddha Qianxiao, because the feelings in my heart are different from love, and because I have love in my heart, I don't want to tarnish the holiness in my heart!
It seems to be swimming in the sea together, feeling the wanton warmth and sunshine in the ups and downs, and the world is enveloped in warmth.

"Cough cough cough."

Fo Qianxiao coughed twice, as if she was not used to the taste of swimming in the sea. It seems that she still doesn't like to do this, but I think she will fall in love with this taste sooner or later!
I took out a cigarette and lit it. Before Buddha Qianxiao could speak, I didn't give her a chance. Her jerky expression made me want to stop!

A few minutes later she lay on the bed and began to play tricks, she seemed to want to no longer, but now I'm ready!
Suddenly, I remembered that my second uncle once said that he met the trainer Su, and even more of the hobbies he once said...

As if being possessed by my second uncle, I played with everything in the dark to my heart's content, and the whiteness under the faint night had a hint of haze...

"Sanming, what are you doing?" Fo Qianxiao suddenly muttered in a low voice, and I instantly woke up from my obsession!
I know this is not my principle, let alone my bottom line in dealing with feelings, but in this blurred night, I have abandoned the principle and bottom line...

(End of this chapter)