my old life

Chapter 1336
The car was running wildly all the way, the sky outside the car window was yellow and dark, the strong wind was raging and the fragrance of the soil swept in.

In the daze, I felt a bit of coolness, and slightly squinted my eyes to look at the gloomy sky outside the car window, which was so depressing that I couldn't breathe.

Through the cracks in the car window, I can smell the smell of rain. This freshness makes me feel refreshed, and my chaotic mind becomes much clearer.

In a blink of an eye, a heavy rain came unexpectedly, and the bean-sized raindrops swayed on the ground in an instant, and there was a clanging sound from the inside of the car.

A cold wind entered the car through the window, and I shivered involuntarily, but I liked this fresh feeling even more!

The howling heavy rain seems to represent freedom and wandering, coming here from a far away place in the sky, not knowing where it came from, not knowing where it is going, not knowing where it will stop...

The rain is getting bigger and bigger and almost turned violent, the breath in the car has become depressing, and there will always be a little coolness in my heart when facing nature...

Looking out of the car window, I was in a daze, and suddenly there was a question in my mind, just like this heavy rain, where should I go?Where will I stop again?

"Sanming, I thought you fell asleep just now! It's raining and close the windows!" The fox joked, and handed him a cigarette.

"Wait a minute, the air is very fresh..." I lit the cigarette and took a deep breath, the fresh air in my throat felt extremely smooth!

"Let him rest for a while, I guess he is exhausted from pulling the gas tank." The soldier said something, I smiled and did not speak.

Leaning on the back seat of the car to smoke, the raindrops outside the car window dripping on the face through the cracks, the feeling of icy cold is extremely clear!
This feeling is like tears running across the face, but there is no warmth in the coldness, just like waves rising in the chest, cold and confused!

I can't stop the question that flashed in my mind just now, where should I go?Where the hell am I going now?

Looking back on my journey, there is no place where I can stand safely, even my hometown Shencheng cannot go back...

I followed in the footsteps of my second uncle all the way, trying to make myself stronger all the way, and before I knew it, my enemies had spread across most of Kyushu.

All those opponents or gangsters in the past flashed in front of my eyes one by one. I think I am luckier than them. At least at this moment, I can still breathe a breath of fresh air!
The calmness at this moment made me think of my own situation, that I have a home and cannot go back, and even now I have to face countless powerful enemies...all of them are ruthless and scheming guys!

For some reason, I feel like a green leaf in the ocean, drifting on the sea with the waves... Sometimes the sky is clear and the sun is warm, and sometimes there is a storm and huge waves!

Ahead is an ocean with no future in sight. With a lone boat, can I really sail across the ocean?Am I really going to be able to do it all and get away with it?
"Sanming, I contacted the mute in advance to find a place to live, isn't it good?" The fox's words interrupted my thoughts, and I saw the car coming to the gate of a villa.

Everything was foggy in the downpour, and I couldn't see the sky in the distance or the surrounding scenery, only the flowers and plants bowed their heads in embarrassment in the heavy rain.

"It's not bad." I replied casually, no matter what kind of villa there is no warmth, let alone the feeling of looking forward to returning.

I got out of the car and stood in the rain for a while, the cigarette in my hand was moistened by the rain, I shook my head and walked quickly into the villa.

This unexpected heavy rain made me feel a lot. Even if my friends are around, no amount of warmth can offset the coldness in my heart.

Maybe this is the more lonely when it is more noisy, and the more sad when it is more lively. I know this is because I don’t have a home in my heart...

Soon Xiaoke and the others came to the villa, and several old gamblers Huizi brought from Shencheng were also there, except for the guy who was once a traitor.

Entering the villa feels extremely spacious, the mute is already waiting here, but the villa is a bit dim without the lights on.

Everyone sat on the sofa and adjusted to rest. Huizi and the others got Dabing out of the car. I lit a cigarette and watched everything in front of me quietly.

The soldier who used to walk like flying is now full of scars, the once charming Misu has oil stains on his hands now, and the once vigorous talent is also showing exhaustion at the moment...

The fat man who once stood apart from the world and loved sauna and foot therapy the most has not gone for a long time to have fun... The dumb man who once retired from the arena and longed for ordinary life has now also been involved in disputes between the arena.

I used to be full of piety and hope for the future, believing that tomorrow will be better...

I used to think that all the loneliness, pain, helplessness and sadness I experienced would all be turned into imprints on my soul, which would accompany me forever and never die...

But now I ask myself, is this moment really what I'm after?I asked myself, is this really what I want to see?

The cigarette in my hand was completely burned out, and I quietly looked at everything in front of me, at my friends who accompanied me in the world, and at Huizi and Xiaoke who came from afar, I felt an indescribable complexity in my heart!

I am not afraid of any powerful opponents, I am not afraid of any conspiracy and tricks with them, I am only afraid that I will hurt my friends!

The words that my second uncle once said are still in my heart. When people are in trouble, they can only see a few friends around them, but real friends can't bear to drag them into the water...

I narrowed my eyes slightly and looked at everyone. At this moment, I wanted to follow my inner decision, and I also thought about how to go next!
"Everyone sit down, I'll make tea for everyone." The fat man stood up and greeted me, and he glanced at me from the corner of his eyes, with doubts in his eyes.

As usual, I would take the initiative to greet everyone, but now I have a difficult choice in my heart, a choice that everyone can't understand...

"Everyone is here today, everyone has worked hard, thank you!" I stood up and said my sincere thanks, and they all laughed for a while.

I can see sincerity in their smiles, and I am more determined to make the choice in my heart, even if it is not understood by anyone!

"There is one thing I want to say to everyone." I looked at everyone calmly, and their eyes all fell on me for a while, and their eyes were full of doubts.

"What do you want to say? You don't need to say thank you, just invite us to go out a few more times later!" The fat man rubbed his hands together, and the atmosphere instantly became confused.

"Fatty is right, we are all on our own, so why not be polite!" the fox said in a big way, and the soldier next to him also nodded repeatedly.

"When he dared to save the squad leader alone, I thought this kid was a man!" Man Niuweng said in a low voice, and gave me a thumbs up.

"Working with the boss is bright, and you can get red envelopes from time to time!" Huizi also teased, and I shook my head with a smile.

"Everyone, today I want to say that let's leave here, Qilu can't stay here anymore."

When I opened my mouth, everyone froze for a moment, as if no one thought that I would say that, let alone when everyone gathered...

"Sanming, what do you mean by that? Why can't I understand it all of a sudden?" The fat man looked at me suspiciously, and the fox was also surprised.

"I can't understand, what is this for?" The talented man looked at me in confusion, and I waved my hand to signal for a moment of silence.

"No matter what the reason is for everyone to come here, I would like to express my gratitude... But there is always a feast that never ends."

I said every word very clearly, I don't need to go around at this time, I want everyone to know what I mean very clearly!
"To be honest, Qilu can't stay here any longer! Someone has been injured, I think now is the best time to get out!"

I looked at everyone calmly, because I knew exactly what the current situation was, and I knew better that I couldn't continue playing like this!
The more people there are, the bigger the goals are. The casino game, which is the best battlefield for cheaters, has no chance to participate in the game at all.

"Sanming, are you going to give up?" The fat man asked cautiously, and the others were also looking at me.

"It's not about giving up or not. I came here to ask for money. Now that we don't have a chance, let's change places. You can go anywhere in the world!"

The fat man and the fox were obviously relieved when I said this, I crossed my chest with one hand and kept tapping my arm with my fingers, giving out a string of extremely clear Morse codes!
(End of this chapter)