my old life

Chapter 1682 Willing to go to hell

The hot tears kept rolling down, every tear made me feel uncomfortable, every tear was full of guilt!

The man who was hung from the big tree in the yard, his gaze was firm and full of faith!
Even if he was beaten to a bloody mess, even if he was destined to die in pain...but there was no fear in his eyes!
It turns out that there is really a choice not for any benefit in this world!It turns out that interest is not a theorem in this world, and all my previous thinking was broken in tears!

"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!"

I pinched my legs while crying, trying to hold back the tears!I want to repent for everything I've done, I want to turn back time but I can't...

My hands are trembling, my heart is trembling, I can't forget the scene I just saw, I can't forget the scenes where the devil eats!
I hate myself more than ever, I am sadder than ever... I don't want to recall everything I saw, but everything keeps flashing before my eyes!

I finally understood why God arranged this way, why he let me struggle in this world full of demons, I think this must be God giving me a chance to redeem my sins!

I don't care what other people think or do, I am extremely firm in my belief to stay!

I want to become a devil here, become a devil like them, I want to become more ruthless than them!

I swear I'm going to kill 'em!I want to kill them with my own hands!Even if it sends me to hell, I will not hesitate!

"Damn it, damn it! You bastard! A bastard who deserves a thousand knives, you bastard!" I kept cursing in my heart, tears kept falling down.

But at this moment, I didn't even dare to cry out, and I was afraid of being discovered even when I cried!
Any humanity and conscience will be tortured here, and any humanity will become a weakness here!I want to live, and only by living can I kill those devils!

"Xiong Sanming! Stand up!"

I took a deep breath and wiped the tears off my face, and quickly cleaned the vomit off the floor!It is also from this moment that I choose to be vegetarian!

I don't know what I will experience in this devil's world, I don't know what I will eat in the future, I dare not eat anything except vegetarian here!

After everything was cleaned up, I lit a cigarette and stood on the second floor quietly watching the man hanging from the big tree in the yard. Pala led several people to beat him non-stop!
There were endless beatings and vicious abuse, and there was a dull sound of the whip waving and whipping, but I couldn't hear any howling of pain!

I couldn't hear any sound of his begging for mercy, and those sharp and firm eyes stimulated my nerves, as if that was my fate in the future...

I don't regret the choice I made in my heart, I don't regret what will happen to me in the future, maybe I will be hung on a tree to dry like this man, maybe it will be even worse...

My second uncle said that to be a man, you must stand up to the sky and have no regrets in your heart. To be a man, you must be broad-minded, happy, kind, and generous, and your pride is worthy of walking in the world!
Brother Yu said, why hesitate when you know it's the right thing?Why do you insist on doing something you know is wrong?
This time I choose to follow my inner choice, I choose to do what I think is right!I will not hesitate or wander, and I am ready to go to hell!

It turns out that there are really good guys and bad guys in this world!A good person can help others without any benefit, unconditional help may even cost his own life!

I never knew what a sense of justice was, nor did I know what the difference between good and evil was... I only knew that to be a human being, one should be principled and conscientious!

One cigarette after another burned out in their hands. Pala and the others were exhausted from fighting, but the man hanging on the tree was silent. I don’t know if he is still awake...

I think he should have a family, parents, friends, and lovely children. He could have lived his life normally, but he chose to enter the darkest world of drug lords as an undercover agent!

I used to not understand the red line in Da Bing's heart, I didn't understand why many people devoutly believed in gods and Buddhas, but at this moment I understood what the power of faith is!
A man of faith is firm and fearless!It is easy and even more willing to give your life for the belief in your heart!
I silently prayed for him in my heart. I don't even know his name and hometown, but I know his other name that resounds through the sky-undercover!
I bowed my head and kept making the sign of the cross on my heart to pray for him. I didn't have any faith before, but at this moment I understood the power of faith and how important faith is to people!

This is not about prosperity and wealth, promotion and wealth, let alone making achievements and blood-stained battlefields, it is just abandoning everything and hiding in this darkest place, always ready to die with the devil!
For a whole afternoon, I stood in front of the window on the second floor, watching that man silently from a distance, and I wanted to use my own way to accompany him...accompany him through the last period of his life.

In the evening, several black Mercedes-Benz G off-road vehicles drove in, Ning with short Sassoon hair got out of the car, and she saw the undercover agent hanging on the tree.

Somehow she said something to Palla, and the undercover guy was let down from the tree, and then he was strapped to the rear bumper of the jeep...

I couldn't bear to watch it anymore, tears fell down unconsciously, I was surprised that I would shed tears for a stranger I had never met before, and I was even more surprised by my change now!

Amidst a burst of cheers and laughter, the jeep started, and the car circled back and forth in the compound. The speed of the car was not fast, as if deliberately teasing, dragging people round and round...

"Howling!! You will die sooner or later!"

"Hey! I will definitely wait for you in hell! I will not let you go even if I am a ghost!"

The howls of pain kept coming, and the curses carried his pain and unwillingness, as well as his blood and feelings!

In the evening, when it was time to finish eating, the bamboo buildings around the entire compound were full of people, and everyone was watching this scene...

It suddenly occurred to me that maybe this was not a simple teasing, because I felt a smell of routine, a smell of killing chickens and monkeys!

If my guess is correct, there must be other undercover agents here!Ning must have wanted to let other ghosts see it in this way, but what would Tang think?
If I were Tang, I would definitely want to find out more ghosts at this time, so the best way to identify them now is...attitude!

Thinking of this, I immediately left the bamboo building, took a deep breath and joined in this insensitive killing of chickens and monkeys with great interest!

I stood at a certain distance from Ning to make sure that I could be seen by Tang's bamboo building. Although Tang didn't show up, he would definitely not miss this 'good show! '

"I'm a ghost and I won't let you go, fuck your own mother! Roar!"

The jeep continued to drag, and the howling of pain kept stimulating everyone's nerves. No matter how strong the willpower was, they couldn't bear the pain. I don't know how his family would feel when they saw this scene...

I pretended to be nonchalant and took out a cigarette and lit it, watching the insensitive dragging with 'interest', watching a fresh and strong life gradually fall...

From the initial stubborn scolding to being dragged, the dust mixed with blood swayed out, dragging a long trace on the yellow earth...

This trace is like a long river of blood. I know that no matter now or in the future, more people will join this long river to consolidate and defend the ordinary lives of more people...

My outlook on life and values ​​have been changed at this moment, and the former interests are no longer an attachment in my heart. This killing of chickens and monkeys will actually make others more determined in their hearts!
People who are greedy for life and afraid of death will not abandon everything and come to this place where nothing is shit. This kind of killing chickens and monkeys can only scare the timid and timid, but it cannot defeat the real warriors!
Ten minutes later, the dragging ended, and the man was hung from the tree again. His whole body was bloody and bloody mixed with dust, and his knees were worn away to reveal his white bones...

If possible, I hope that man dies sooner, because the sooner he dies, the less he suffers...

The previous definition of life and death is also broken at this moment. Life is not necessarily good for a person, and death may not be a relief for a person!
Suddenly, I felt a pain behind me. I was caught off guard and fell heavily on the ground. Someone kicked me from behind!
"Who let you out!"

I turned around and saw Ning, she looked at me with a cold face!Without saying a word, she just kicked her hard, and I sat on the ground dumbfounding...

(End of this chapter)