my old life

Chapter 235
When I came to the place, I put down the car window and looked at the quiet environment around me. I felt indescribable emotion in my heart. I always unconsciously wanted to pretend that I was sitting in a BMW.

I was young and frivolous at the age of seventeen or eighteen, and I enjoyed the envious eyes of the people around me. I felt that even the cigarettes became more refreshing, and my heart felt refreshed like never before.

On the contrary, Su Yurong was much calmer. His driver's window was always closed, and he couldn't see the inside from the outside, but I suddenly thought why he did this.

In fact, when I look back, everything he did was to set off me. At that moment, like this moment, he should be able to guess what I was thinking...

Suddenly, I felt that my thoughts were a little ridiculous. Like a wealthy young lady like Sixteenth Sister, would she give me a high look just because of a BMW?Obviously not.

In contrast, my personality is seventeen different. She will definitely be happy for me. She knows how it feels to see me like this, but I must take her for a ride!Ha ha!

Soon the neighborhood became overcrowded. I got off the station and stood next to the BMW car and looked at the door. I kept looking at the crowd, for fear of missing the familiar figure.

I didn't call because I wanted to give Shi Qi a surprise. She definitely didn't expect that I would come here in a BMW, and she might be shocked!

Soon I saw Seventeen in the crowd, and I quietly hid behind the car to prepare for a surprise attack, but suddenly something was wrong, who is the boy next to her?
Next to Shi Qi there was a boy in white casual clothes, with fair skin and rimless glasses, talking and laughing while walking very intimately, this was not a normal feeling among classmates, because I could feel it!
Men are always so keen when they look at men, just like the intuition that women have when they look at women!

I hid behind the car and didn't go out. I wanted to see what was going on. At this moment, I felt betrayed. I wanted to tell myself that I was wrong, but everything in front of me was happening.

That kid didn't know what he was talking about Shi Qi smiled happily, with a shy look in his smile, I rubbed my eyes hard to make sure I read it right, this scene deeply hurt my heart.

I don’t know why I didn’t step forward to question Shi Qi when she left. The shy look of her bowing her head and smiling just now only exists in my memory, but why is she like this now?
There must be some misunderstanding, I must be overthinking, I never dare to think about the word betrayal, I would rather treat it as a normal joke in my heart.

After all, no matter where people are, they will meet many different people. No one is closed and invisible, and everyone has their own freedom.

Seeing Shi Qi sitting on the electric car, I felt sour and unspeakably complicated. I lit a cigarette in a daze, not knowing what words to use to describe my mood at the moment.

Once she sat on the back of my electric car, resting her head on my sad, shuttled through the streets and alleys, shuttled through the good times...

Rushing up to beat that kid up?Go up and ask what is the relationship between him and her?Pretending to be a gentleman's forgiveness or a desperate quarrel?

No, doing that is of no use except to prove my incompetence and lack of confidence, and it will not even change any results. Can a gentle hand restore a heart that has gone away?

Although I used to be very close to her, although I have her, but now I can clearly feel that she is going away from me, taking away all the beauty and hope in my heart...

People coming and going at the door are very lively, but for some reason, I feel that the whole world is desolate, as if I am the only one left in the world, and my body feels inexplicably cold, I don’t know whether it is the wind or the heart...

Suddenly someone patted me on the shoulder: "Xiong Sanming."

"Sister Sixteen." I nodded blankly, the barren world in front of me has not changed in any way, and my eyes are full of the scene of Seventeen leaving.

"Why are you standing here alone? Are you here to find Shiqi?" Miss Sixteen kicked the pebbles on the side of the road. She was wearing a pair of pure white canvas shoes.

"Not exactly. I'm here to pay back the money today. Do you have time? Have a meal together."

I try not to think about what happened just now in my mind. The person I am facing now is Sister Sixteen. I owe her too much, and I cannot owe her more.

But the feeling of being torn apart in my heart was so clear that I was like falling into an abyss and couldn't extricate myself. The surroundings were barren and dark, which made me suffocate bit by bit.

"Okay, do you want to be with Shiqi?" She asked nonchalantly, but it was obvious that there was something in her words.

"It shouldn't be necessary, maybe someone invited her to dinner today." I said something self-deprecating, with indescribable complexity in my heart.

Miss Sixteen shrugged and let out a sigh of relief. I opened the door and signaled her to get in the car. She glanced at me and got in the car without saying anything, and I followed.

"Su Yurong, let's go eat, you can find a better restaurant."

"no problem."

Sixteenth sister was a little surprised, I know she was surprised why Su Yurong was here, but I couldn't say a word or two, but I didn't treat him like a younger brother, but I really couldn't drive...

"Thank you, I will take you after I learn how to drive." I think Su Yurong should be able to understand what I mean.

The car left slowly, and my eyes were always involuntarily looking out of the car window, trying to think of that figure, and I even felt an inexplicable panic in my heart.

This kind of panic is like losing the whole world. I feel panicked inside, like a child who lost his way, lost in endless panic...

I see!
Seventeen sat behind that kid's electric car, the wind gently blew her cheeks and raised her hair, the autumn wind couldn't change the smile on her face, nor could it change her leaning against his back, I felt inexplicably irritable .

I never thought that I would see such a scene when I came here today. I couldn't bear it any longer. I didn't know what to do now. The sixteenth sister next to me suddenly said, "You know everything?"

"Know what?" I immediately looked back at her, I could hear the meaning in her words, but I didn't want to believe what she said next.

"It's nothing, I feel that something is wrong with you today." Sixteenth sister looked at me meaningfully, I smiled and said nothing, no matter how much distress I felt in my heart, I couldn't express it on my face.

I took out 12 yuan, took a deep breath and said, "Thank you, Miss Sixteen, for your help. Now I have collected enough money, thank you."

"How do you get so much money? Is it because of gambling?" Her words were like a silver needle piercing my heart. no the same.

Just like when Seventeen told me to stay away from gambling, I hated gambling and even hated others saying I gambled. I became more and more irritable and irritable, so I lit a cigarette and took a few puffs.

I don't know how to explain it, but Su Yurong said abruptly: "No, even if you gamble, you can't win so much money. It was given by his second uncle, and the car was also lent to us by the second uncle. He was afraid that the way we came would be unsafe. "

Su Yurong helped me out with a word, and sixteenth sister nodded in doubt. I think she might still believe Su Yurong's words, and I feel a little anxious for no reason.

No matter how the money came from, the money is in my hands now, so why not pay it back?But why do I have such strange thoughts, am I inflated?

I looked out the car window but couldn't find that figure. I didn't say anything as the car drove all the way, and Miss Sixteen seemed very calm. I couldn't get rid of the entanglement in my heart until the car stopped at the entrance of the hotel. The figure of Shi Qi was always in front of me.

I really want to ask Miss Sixteen what's going on, she must know what happened, but I can't say anything, I don't want to know the news about my girlfriend from other people.

I ate a meal in a daze, and I don't even remember what I ate in this meal...

My throat feels dry, and my whole body is in a very bad state. For some reason, I think of the taste of strong alcohol. At this moment, I have a strong desire to drink.

"Would you like a drink?" I asked miraculously. Inviting a girl to drink always makes people feel guilty, but I didn't expect Sixteenth Sister to agree.

"Okay, I haven't had a drink for a long time."

I ordered a few bottles of red wine and a bottle of white wine. When the red wine rushed into the transparent goblet, I felt inexplicably more relaxed, and even felt like drinking.

I filled a glass of white wine and drained it with my head up, feeling extremely comfortable from my throat to my chest, and the thoughts in front of me became more and more blurred...

Looking at the busy traffic on the street outside the window, my eyes are full of cool autumn but there is no trace of warmth. I think I can drink strong wine, but I can't survive the late autumn without you...

(End of this chapter)