my old life

Chapter 2419 Restraint and Chest
The pain in my whole body kept stimulating my nerves, and I smoked one after another, trying my best to suppress the anger in my heart.

At the moment when my jaw and arm joints were knocked off, I really wanted to kill people. I wish I could burn the Taoist temple to nothing...

But no matter what, the old Taoist is Mike's teacher. If I kill him here, then I can't explain it to Mike.

As the saying goes, if you can run away, a monk can't run away from the temple. As long as there is this Taoist temple here, then I will have a lot of opportunities to bring people to 'visit' him in the future!

Thoughts of hatred kept brewing in his mind, crazy plans took shape again and again, and all the pain turned into anger!
When anger gathers without a reasonable outlet, people will become agitated and anxious, and feel uncomfortable all over.

Just then Mike came back, he gave me a complicated look, I think he should drive me away...

"Hawkeye, the teacher let you go."

"Okay." I calmly stood up and walked out. I didn't suffer much damage, and now I can move my hands and feet.

"Don't be impulsive." Mike suddenly patted me on the shoulder, and I turned my head and smiled softly.

"Don't worry, I'm not a superficial person, I'll apologize to make the teacher feel at ease."

Hearing this, Mike nodded. I know what he is worried about. I know the reason why a man can bend and stretch. This is nothing to me!
Even if there is hatred in my heart, even if I am unwilling, I will not show it, and I will not show joy in everything.

The experience in the world of rivers and lakes has taught me to hide my emotions, just like when gambling at the gambling table, I will never show the slightest flaw!

If I break up with the old man now, what about Mike?I'm not going to dig my own grave.

Arriving at the door of the side yard, there was a smell of medicine before entering the door. Several people were busy here, and the little junior sister came out of the house with a basin of bloody water.

Everyone looked at me so unfriendly, with some vigilance in fear, probably because the peanuts were blooming.

I walked into the room calmly, and as soon as I entered the door, I saw Peanut lying on the bed, his trousers had been cut into pieces, and his blood and flesh looked miserable.

The old man had already started to apply medicine to the wound. He didn't know what kind of medicine powder it was. He was sweating profusely from the pain of the peanut and hummed non-stop.

I stood there quietly watching, seeing Peanutmi's painful appearance without any pity in my heart, because I never have any pity for any opponent!

From the moment peanuts and caterpillars teamed up to attack me, they were on opposite sides!
In this world, no matter what people do, they must consider the consequences. I let them go when I was blowing sand, but now it seems that it is a wrong decision!

After the old man finished applying the medicine, he stood up. He didn't say anything when he saw me, but kept wiping his hands.

At this moment, I couldn't help but want to laugh, because the wound of Peanut was so abstract that I couldn't help but think of the word T.

After wiping his hands, the old Taoist turned and left, and I went out with him without saying a word, no matter how many thoughts I had in my heart, I had to bear it!
"Teacher, I'm sorry, I am willing to take all the responsibilities." I apologized respectfully, no matter what I did, I had to be superficial.

"You don't need to apologize to me. You can go in and have a look at him. After reading it, you go to the departure desk to reflect."

"Me? Okay." I was a little surprised. I really didn't expect the old man to let me go so easily. In fact, I was already ready to accept the punishment.

The old man didn't say anything, turned and left, I shook my neck and felt a lot more relaxed, I don't care what other people think.

I turned my head and entered the room. Peanut was lying on the bed and kept humming, the voice was very small and painful, and the bandages on the bed became more and more joyful.

No one has ever asked me to visit an opponent before, and no one has asked me to reflect on anything. This is my first time.

I stood at the same place and my heart was very calm, only Peanut kept humming, tears came down, and kept dangling in front of me.

As the saying goes, the winner is the king and the loser, if you win, you win, if you lose, you lose, and if you lose, you have to bear the price of losing!

I lowered my head, took out a cigarette and lit it, my heart was full of disdain and contempt for peanuts, a man was still crying here...

Peanut was lying on the bed and didn't see me, but I could see his tears and expression, but I didn't have any pity in my heart.

After smoking a cigarette, I turned and left. Peanut cried louder and louder, but he suddenly called his mother.

I don't know if I heard it wrong, but the big man Peanut is crying like this?

I stopped and pricked up my ears. The sound of peanuts was very small but I could hear it clearly. It was indeed calling my mother.

For some reason, my heart was touched, and when I turned my head to see Peanut again, I suddenly felt a little flustered.

I shook my head and left the house, and walked towards the open space alone. There was no light around the night and the wind was high, and it was pitch black everywhere.

I took a cushion and sat cross-legged on the ground. The old man asked me to reflect, which was actually another level of compromise.

In the Jianghu world, generosity and tolerance are a manifestation of compromise. Forgiving others means that there is nothing to do, and it is also a step down for oneself.

The wind at night is a bit cool. Sitting here alone doesn't feel like a painful thing. On the contrary, I feel very relaxed inside.

My jaw and shoulders still ached, and the pain kept stimulating my nerves and making crazy thoughts build up in my mind.

As the saying goes, silence is golden. To be a human being, you should talk less and do more. If I had kept my mouth shut then, maybe I wouldn’t have suffered this crime.

At that time, I was furious and yelled at the old Taoist. This was the reason why he took my jaw off, but it was too late to regret it now.

The cold wind made me feel chilly all over my body, and there was nowhere to vent the suppressed anger in my heart. I never explained the reason and process of the conflict, but chose to endure it.

When facing the old man, I had to endure it, because I knew that I couldn't beat him, and I couldn't do anything to him... This kind of forbearance is very uncomfortable!
Time passed by every minute and every second, and I couldn't calm down at all. For some reason, my whole body was so aggrieved that it was about to explode.

The scene of Peanut calling my mother kept echoing in front of my eyes, and the scene of the old man hitting me was also in front of my eyes, which became clearer and clearer over and over again.

I opened my mouth and breathed hard, guilt mixed with anger, this feeling of wanting to say but having nowhere to say it was maddening!

The cold wind made my whole body feel cold, I had no choice but to get up and move my body, trying to divert my attention.

I concentrated on looking for the fragments in my memory, imitating the old-fashioned Tai Chi one by one in the dark, diverting my attention and warming up.

After diverting my attention, I felt a lot more relaxed inside. Originally, I would not be disturbed so easily, but I still feel a little bit unwilling!

This feeling is like when gambling money. I am not reconciled to losing money, and the emotions accumulated in my heart are getting more and more...

I don't think I'm wrong, I think my action is self-protection, I don't think the old man should hit me hard...

I think that if I am reasonable, I can do whatever I want, and I think that if I am reasonable, I can not forgive others. I have completely moved the set in the world of Jianghu into real life!
I am like a man covered with thorns all over his body, fully armed and unwilling to show any flaws, and will not let anyone get close to him.

In a trance, I thought of my insights during the afternoon meditation, I thought of myself once, and thought of how to liberate myself...

I practiced Tai Chi over and over again, let the time go by, and channeled out the backlog of emotions bit by bit!
For many people, there is no way to release the backlog of emotions in their hearts, so the emotions will become more and more fierce, and people will become more and more anxious!

The guilt in my heart finally defeated the unwillingness. When I only had one emotion left, the whole person's feeling changed drastically.
After I overcame my anxiety, everything became calm, and my breathing became much smoother, as if all the rivers, seas, mountains and rivers were hidden in my heart...

At this moment, a figure appeared in the darkness. His body was all white, but I couldn't see his face clearly.

(End of this chapter)