my old life

Chapter 3410
As the saying goes, if you are willing to cut yourself into pieces, you dare to pull the emperor off his horse.

I know that I am worthless now, I know that I have lost my use value, but I never thought that I would do things for people like whale sharks.

I never thought that one day I would stand on the opposite side of everyone and become a heinous person.

But at this moment, if Whale Shark is willing to give me a chance, as long as Fox and Xiaomi are kept alive, then I am willing to do anything for her, anything!
I am willing to be controlled by others, I am willing to fight the world for her, I am willing to betray everything about myself, I am willing to bet my whole life!
I don't care what kind of person I face, I don't care what kind of opponent I am, no matter what I do that violates my conscience and morality, I have no complaints!

I swear, I won't bat an eyelid when the time comes!Because I will never step into a higher level and pattern anyway!

If I throw away feelings, am I still me?Then do I still know myself?

But will the whale shark give me a chance?Do you want me to kneel down and beg?Do you want to leave your fate to others?

In the past, my second uncle used to say not to pin your hopes on others. At this moment, I made up my mind, my fate is up to me, and I want to fight my way out!
"Brother Ming, what's the situation?" The blind man approached cautiously. He was by my side just now, even if he couldn't hear the content of the phone call, he could still feel it.

"Let's just wait here, blind man, you are a good brother!"

"Brother Ming, haven't we always been brothers? Why are your eyes red? Is something wrong?"

"It's nothing, my brothers including Shadow, they have all left me forever, I just miss them a little bit."

At this moment, I was still tense in front of the blind man, and I tried my best to endure tears, because I didn't want to completely collapse!

If I collapse at this moment, then everything is over, I am not reconciled, I am not reconciled!

"Brother Ming, I really don't want to see you like this. If you want to cry, you can cry out heartily. I won't say anything about it."

The blind man looked at me sincerely. At this moment, he explained that every generation of dog slaughtered by righteousness is really every generation of dog slaughtered by righteousness!

"I'm really fine, trust me, how about you go out and find a few things for me now?"

"Okay, what kind of things is Brother Ming looking for?"

"Now I need gauze for bleeding, bandages, hemostatic medicine, needles and threads for sutures, scissors, a bottle of spirits, and painkillers. If you can get powdered goods, help me buy some high-purity ones."

"Brother Ming, I can understand that you want the first thing, but what do you mean by the second thing?"

"It doesn't mean much, I want to use it for others."

"Oh, I see."

"Now we still have some time, go to a nearby bar and look for it, don't be afraid to spend money! If there is better one for injection, don't let me down!"

"Okay Brother Ming, but should I bring a doctor back directly and let the doctor treat your wound?"

"No, my wound doctor can't handle it well, remember to buy me more painkillers and glucose, I can do it!"

"Don't you need anesthesia?"

"It's too late, do you have to know soon?"

"Okay! Brother Ming, you are waiting for me here!"

"Wait, blind man, take your phone and send me a text message in an hour. Anything is fine, let me know you're okay."

"Ah."

"If I don't hear from you within an hour, I'll call you. If I can't get through, I'll think you're dead."

"I see, don't worry!"

After speaking, the blind man turned his head and left. I can see that he is very weak now, but now he is the only one who can help me.

In a blink of an eye, I was the only one left in the room, and just now I made a decision in my heart.

This decision is very ordinary, very common, any normal person would make such a decision, and that is to protect the one he loves, at all costs!
No matter what, I can't abandon Fox and Xiaomi, no matter if someone helps me or not, I will fight back again!

In fact, from the moment Gray Pigeon was about to give up on me, they were not afraid that I would turn my gun around to do things for whale sharks, they knew that I was worthless.

Now even if I want to do something for the whale shark, can people take a fancy to me?
Just ask, who would take a fancy to a person who has been half-crippled?Or a naked commander who is unarmed and doesn't even have a helper around him?
If it were me, I wouldn't know how to empathize. Although the reality is cruel, if the reality is not cruel, can it still be called reality?
It is definitely not my character to let me sit here and wait to die, I have already made a plan to kill the blood!

No matter how smart the whale shark is, she will never know how crazy I am, Xiong Sanming. She will never know my arrogance and ambition!

I said let her wait and see, then I will definitely make her pay the price!

Even if I am alone and helpless now, even if I am unable to change everything, then I will fight the whale shark to the death!
Even if I can't save the person I care about, then I will walk ahead of Fox and Xiaomi!I want to pave the way to hell for them, and I want to stand in the palace of the king of hell and wait for them!

Even if they get to the Palace of the King of Hell, I have to take care of everything for them in advance. Even if we can't be together in this life, we can still be together in the next life!
Even if I drank Mengpo soup and forgot everything now, but I will never forget their bright eyes!
In their eyes are the most beautiful spring and autumn, better than all the mountains and rivers I have ever seen!

The wind and snow outside the window were spreading recklessly, I sat by the window and closed my eyes, even though my spirit was in a state of extreme deprivation, but I didn't let myself fall asleep.

Because I was afraid that once I fell asleep, I might not be able to wake up in a short time, so I just closed my eyes to nourish my spirit.

I know that my physical condition is extremely bad, not to mention peak condition, even my usual condition is not up to...

However, this does not hinder my determination!I will not let fate show me the slightest bit of mercy!

People live in this world, no matter how many excuses no matter how many reasons, no one will care about your situation, no one will care about your injustice, and no one will care about your feelings.

Real men are lonely, but the taste of loneliness is so uncomfortable, but this is an indispensable experience for everyone to grow up.

Some people can bear it down and become stronger, some people can't bear it and choose to escape from reality, and some people even choose to commit suicide and end their lives.

In my opinion, every life is valuable, and those who end their lives easily are not too poor in bearing capacity.

I once dismissed those who committed suicide, even sneered at them.

But when it really came to me, I discovered that when a person loses all his confidence and belief, and loses the person he loves, then people will not be afraid of death!
Like those who lost their favorite people in the war, like those who were labeled as terrorists, they are also ordinary people, living in their own homes.

When they saw their loved ones died under countless aerial shells, and when their loved ones were blown to pieces, they would fight back desperately!

At that time, death was a kind of relief for them. No one was born to become insensitive, and no one was born to abandon himself.

No one will easily abandon everything they once believed in, and no one will give up a peaceful life and choose to be an enemy of the powerful!
But sometimes, some things are crossed the bottom line, then all fears will no longer be fears. When a person is not even afraid of death, what can he be afraid of?
Time passed slowly, and every hour I would receive a text message from the blind man, and the wind and snow outside were getting bigger and bigger.

My body was getting weaker and weaker, and I tried to stay awake, but it became difficult for me to even light a cigarette.

Three hours later, the blind man bought back all the things I wanted, but there was only one thing missing, which was pink goods.

I used to hate fans and addicts so much, but now I really want to get it!Because it can bring me short-term power!
At this moment, I am willing to surrender at the feet of the white devil, and I am willing to bet my whole life!
I am willing to become the person I hated the most, I am willing to bet everything, I just want to borrow some power from the hands of the white devil, so that I can have the power of revenge!
(End of this chapter)