my old life

Chapter 361 Transparent Heart
The dream was broken and changed, countless scenes flashed before my eyes, and I went back to the past in a trance, back to the scene where I witnessed everything with my own eyes.

The fingers of the middle-aged man wearing a gold watch were chopped off, the army of high-ranking paraplegics became crippled, the cheaters who were put into sacks and thrown into the Nanjiang River, the fat and strong ones who were hit by a car and flew out, and the Chujun guy who had his neck broken...

Everything appeared in front of his eyes, and the sky was full of hideous and deformed faces.

I struggled desperately to break free, wanting to turn into a roc to break free from all restraints and break through the gloomy sky full of hideous faces...

I don't know how many times I woke up in the night, but every time, a gentle hand patted me to comfort me and let me go back to sleep, and the anxiety all night was soothed by gentleness.

When I woke up at noon the next day, my whole body was sticky and sweaty, my mouth was dry and my throat was about to smoke. The oil bottle was mopping the floor in my white shirt, and under the shirt was a pair of long white legs.

"Charlene, bring me a glass of water." Leaning on the head of the bed and looking at the light from the gap in the curtains, she felt a warm power in her heart.

After struggling through a night of nightmares, I relaxed a lot. Pain and torture are also a kind of training and a kind of growth for me.

The most important thing is that the oil bottle gave me inner strength, so that I would not get lost in the night, so that I could keep a calm mind, and she was always by my side.

"Sanming, are you feeling better?" She gave me a glass of water and touched my forehead, and I nodded to indicate that it was okay.

After drinking the water, I habitually looked for a cigarette. She helped me light a cigarette and handed it over. After taking a puff of the cigarette, I felt a lot more relaxed. I carefully tasted the faint taste of lip gloss in my mouth, and then I saw that she was wearing lipstick.

It seemed as if I had traveled through time and space in a trance. I still remembered the taste of Seventeen lip gloss, and felt like I had a nightmare.

When I opened the curtains, I found that it was raining outside. The small raindrops fell on the window and slowly gathered into a stream. Rainy days always make people feel extraordinarily quiet.

Today I am going to leave here completely and face all the unknowns. No one knows if I can survive, but all the pressure has been released overnight, and I feel extremely relaxed all over my body now.

Maybe the second uncle is right, I am a big-hearted person, and now even cigarettes are so easy to drink, and I have tasted many neglected details after calming down. The oil bottle uses a peach-flavored lip gloss, which is sweet and greasy with a little shyness ...

"Charlene, come and sit." I waved my hand to signal her to sit beside me, and she slowly sat over, with her head lowered and her little face already a little rosy.

I don't know if she has noticed the change in me, but I am in a good mood at this time, with a kind of transparency that transcends the world, and I face everything calmly.

"What's the matter?" She still looked stupid, innocent and pure.

But this feeling is the best. If life is just as it was first seen, it will be pure and flawless without any impurities. It is also a kind of expectation for going back in time, a kind of yearning for the beauty of the past.

At this moment, I suddenly found that the oil bottle is so charming, like a ripe peach shy and quiet, covered by layers of branches and leaves, although it is invisible but can smell the fragrance.

"Do you remember the first time we met? I never asked, why don't you talk?" I teased her softly and immediately blushed, and my mood became more relaxed.

People are like this. When they think of beautiful things, they will suddenly become enlightened. Compared with indifferent fear and struggle, it is better to face it calmly. Maybe I will really see my second uncle today. With him around, what am I afraid of?

She didn't speak, but her small eyes always looked at me secretly, and she wouldn't stop and immediately moved away. I couldn't help laughing, and wanted to tease her.

"I see, you must have said all the things you wanted to say during the day at night, am I right? Hehe..." After I finished speaking, I touched her chin by the way, and she immediately avoided it coquettishly.

Day and night she is exactly like two people...

"I'm ignoring you." She pretended to be angry, but I could see the emotion in her eyes, as well as the shyness.

She is like a night rose, which only blooms quietly in the dead of night, just for me.

"Don't! I still want to take a bath." As soon as she finished speaking, she ran to the bathroom to drain the water, and my mood became extremely refreshed.

Twenty minutes later, she waved to me and unbuttoned me clumsily, feeling warm in her heart, as if all the pressure on her body had been removed together.

"Come on, let's come in together." I greeted her, and her face turned red instantly, but she still followed me into the bathroom.

I hung her nose and said in a long voice: "Don't think about it, I just ask you to help me take a bath, and see where you think!"

In a word, she blushed even more, and gave me a faint look, as if she was blaming me.

I am tired of the sticky feeling on my body, the pores of my body need to breathe fresh air, and I should return to the most natural essence, return to the most primitive heart...

The white porcelain bathtub has been filled with water, and the water vapor in the bathroom seems to be surrounded by a confusing atmosphere. The water flows down like spring rain, silently washing away all the tiredness in the heart.

The white carpet, the white feet, her tenderness made me feel like I was in a dream, and lying in the bathtub felt so unreal.

Warm water and cold hands passed over my tired body inch by inch. I didn't drink but the rich atmosphere made me a little dizzy and drunk.

I haven't felt this kind of relaxation for a long time, and I haven't had such a pleasant moment. It's like a soothing piano piece, soothing all the pressure and irritability in my heart, and returning to the purest heart.

The provocative water splash seems to compose a song of high mountains and flowing water, making people feel like they are in a quiet and quiet outdoor valley, seeing the ancient and dense trees in a daze, and faintly hearing the clear spring flowing under the big trees...

Listening to the melody from the sounds of nature is fascinating!People are willing to give up all obsessions and wander in the warmth, enjoying the comfort brought by the warmth.

All the stress disappeared without a trace at this moment, only the fresh scent of flowers and a budding night rose on the tip of the nose.

More or less people are under pressure, which is unavoidable in the environment and life, but the word mentality cannot be avoided. Time will never stop. In the long river of time, everyone is just a flick Enjoy every moment to the fullest.

I seemed to see an endless sea of ​​flowers in front of my eyes, and a clear sky full of white clouds. Charlene was wearing a white dress with a wreath on her head, walking towards me step by step from the depths of the sea of ​​flowers...

"Come out and clean up quickly, and get ready to eat." Her words woke me up, and I nodded and got out of the bathtub.

In fact, when you really enjoy the beauty, there will be no distracting thoughts in your heart, let alone impulsive desires. The pure inner experience is a kind of enjoyment, but it will be different after taking a bath...

She pushed me out of the bathroom and turned around to clean the bathtub and the neatly stacked clothes on the bed.

After taking a shower, I felt completely clean. I put on clean and tidy clothes and opened the curtains. Looking at the light rain outside, my heart was very peaceful.

Tuoyouping is still cleaning the bathtub, although I may not be able to come back after leaving here today, but I didn't stop her, I didn't want to put too much psychological pressure on her.

Standing in front of the window and lighting a cigarette, opening the window to take a deep breath of fresh air with the smell of earth, I suddenly remembered a sentence, not every storm will have a rainbow, but at least there will be a clear sky.

Quietly looking at the gloomy sky in a daze, I haven't raised my head to look at the sky for a long time, people like me who live in the dark night can't see the sun at all.

I still remember when I was a child in my hometown, watching the sunrise was very exciting, but now the sun rises every morning but I don’t have the heart to watch it. In fact, it is people’s hearts that change.

Originally, people like me shouldn’t have extravagant hopes for tomorrow and hope, but every time I calm down, there will be a touch. After all, the life everyone yearns for is actually around us.

If I hadn't taken the path of cheating, I might be drinking a drink in an Internet cafe right now, and I might be dating a girl...

The oil bottle walked gently behind me, put his hands around my lower back, and gently pressed his little head against my back. Now it's time for lunch...

(End of this chapter)